I started taking antidepressants again the beginning of February. Right before that, I hooked up with a guy in the restroom at the back of the fire station near my place. The lock in the restroom was broken so we had to do it leaning on the door so no one could come in. It felt kind of gross being in a dirty public restroom but he was a cute guy with a nice cock.
I hooked up with a few guys in February from Grindr. It was all kind of basic and I felt like I was just going through the motions mainly because I started taking meds again. One thing that happened was one of the guys I hooked up with stole around 60 dollars from my wallet after we had sex. I didn't know until I left his place and I checked my wallet to take a taxi home. I guess he did it when I went to the bathroom. I should have known but I gave him the benefit of the doubt. He was living in a boarding room and I knew he was poor so I didn't make a big deal out of it even though it was upsetting. I think if I wasn't on meds at the time, my instincts would have known not to meet him.
I hooked up with some more Grindr guys in March. I got a message from a half Saudi guy while I was at a club. We met at a hotel. He was very handsome and had a really nice dick. It was big in length and girth and had a nice coloring. It was tasty too. I had been messaging with another guy for a few weeks. He was from one of the mountain provinces and was coming back to Manila and asked if I could meet him at the bus station. I decided to rent a hotel for a day near the bus station to meet him around 5 in the morning. Before that, I met some other guy from Grindr around midnight. He came to my hotel room and we fucked for a few hours. He decided to walk with me to the bus station before he left. I told him I was meeting my cousin. He left before I met the other guy. We went back to my hotel and he gave me a gift from his hometown. He asked if I was with someone earlier and I said no but then he told me he saw the condoms in the trash in the bathroom so I told him the truth. He didn't mind too much and we also fucked for another few hours. I had sex a week later with a university student near my place. I try not to hook up with college guys. I did when I started using Grindr back in August. I live really near the top two universities in the country so there are a lot of them on Grindr who can be quite persistent.
After the university guy, I was supposed to meet another guy a few days later but he flaked out and I went to a bar with friends. I got a message from a guy near the bar and decided to go to a hotel with him. We fucked for a couple of hours and videoed it. It was only the second time I made a video with a guy. I've never done it with my ex-boyfriends but I did it twice this year. It was a lot more entertaining than I thought it would be. Anyway, he was very complimentary of my looks but he insulted the way I dressed. He said my pants were too baggy here and that it could be mistaken for beggar pants. Strangely, the guy I met at midnight a few weeks earlier kept criticizing my guess polo shirt as looking too formal here and I should just wear t-shirts. I hooked up with another guy at the end of the month. It was pleasant. He was nice.
In April, I was buying groceries at the supermarket. I usually buy a lot of groceries twice a month. I just paid 200 dollars worth of groceries and was putting change in one of the cans for charity when some guy accused me of not paying for an iced tea bottle that I had brought with me to the groceries. I already had it marked by the security guard when I came in there. He said it really loud. He was an older white guy. I wasn't familiar with his accent. It wasn't American or British or Australian. Maybe European. Anyway, I told him that I brought it with me and even showed the mark the security guard put on it but he was totally wrapped into thinking he was right and whatever stereotypes he had of me, that he didn't listen. So we argued which really disturbed me because I hate confrontation. After all, I take antidepressants and anti-anxiety meds. I was really annoyed though and asked him to apologize. He said no and pushed me twice and left. I wanted to follow but I had a huge cart of groceries and just went home.
Anyway, I actually stopped taking antidepressants a few weeks later. I also stopped going to therapy. I think I just wanted to feel things more, which is probably not a good idea. I haven't been on medication for a month now. I haven't used Grindr as much lately. After the grocery store incident and stopping the meds, I just got more annoyed with the negative aspects of Grindr. I keep getting called a snob or even cursed at if I don't answer messages even less than 30 minutes after I got the message. People keep calling me Elliot, so I guess this Elliot guy has been using my pics. I was getting around 300 messages a month and I met over 40 guys so far using Grindr since last August. Before going on Grindr, I didn't meet any guys and didn't have sex for two years. I was a basically a recluse. I think it's possible I might keep backsliding and become a recluse again or maybe I'll start taking my meds and try to find another therapist next month.
I hooked up with a few guys in February from Grindr. It was all kind of basic and I felt like I was just going through the motions mainly because I started taking meds again. One thing that happened was one of the guys I hooked up with stole around 60 dollars from my wallet after we had sex. I didn't know until I left his place and I checked my wallet to take a taxi home. I guess he did it when I went to the bathroom. I should have known but I gave him the benefit of the doubt. He was living in a boarding room and I knew he was poor so I didn't make a big deal out of it even though it was upsetting. I think if I wasn't on meds at the time, my instincts would have known not to meet him.
I hooked up with some more Grindr guys in March. I got a message from a half Saudi guy while I was at a club. We met at a hotel. He was very handsome and had a really nice dick. It was big in length and girth and had a nice coloring. It was tasty too. I had been messaging with another guy for a few weeks. He was from one of the mountain provinces and was coming back to Manila and asked if I could meet him at the bus station. I decided to rent a hotel for a day near the bus station to meet him around 5 in the morning. Before that, I met some other guy from Grindr around midnight. He came to my hotel room and we fucked for a few hours. He decided to walk with me to the bus station before he left. I told him I was meeting my cousin. He left before I met the other guy. We went back to my hotel and he gave me a gift from his hometown. He asked if I was with someone earlier and I said no but then he told me he saw the condoms in the trash in the bathroom so I told him the truth. He didn't mind too much and we also fucked for another few hours. I had sex a week later with a university student near my place. I try not to hook up with college guys. I did when I started using Grindr back in August. I live really near the top two universities in the country so there are a lot of them on Grindr who can be quite persistent.
After the university guy, I was supposed to meet another guy a few days later but he flaked out and I went to a bar with friends. I got a message from a guy near the bar and decided to go to a hotel with him. We fucked for a couple of hours and videoed it. It was only the second time I made a video with a guy. I've never done it with my ex-boyfriends but I did it twice this year. It was a lot more entertaining than I thought it would be. Anyway, he was very complimentary of my looks but he insulted the way I dressed. He said my pants were too baggy here and that it could be mistaken for beggar pants. Strangely, the guy I met at midnight a few weeks earlier kept criticizing my guess polo shirt as looking too formal here and I should just wear t-shirts. I hooked up with another guy at the end of the month. It was pleasant. He was nice.
In April, I was buying groceries at the supermarket. I usually buy a lot of groceries twice a month. I just paid 200 dollars worth of groceries and was putting change in one of the cans for charity when some guy accused me of not paying for an iced tea bottle that I had brought with me to the groceries. I already had it marked by the security guard when I came in there. He said it really loud. He was an older white guy. I wasn't familiar with his accent. It wasn't American or British or Australian. Maybe European. Anyway, I told him that I brought it with me and even showed the mark the security guard put on it but he was totally wrapped into thinking he was right and whatever stereotypes he had of me, that he didn't listen. So we argued which really disturbed me because I hate confrontation. After all, I take antidepressants and anti-anxiety meds. I was really annoyed though and asked him to apologize. He said no and pushed me twice and left. I wanted to follow but I had a huge cart of groceries and just went home.
Anyway, I actually stopped taking antidepressants a few weeks later. I also stopped going to therapy. I think I just wanted to feel things more, which is probably not a good idea. I haven't been on medication for a month now. I haven't used Grindr as much lately. After the grocery store incident and stopping the meds, I just got more annoyed with the negative aspects of Grindr. I keep getting called a snob or even cursed at if I don't answer messages even less than 30 minutes after I got the message. People keep calling me Elliot, so I guess this Elliot guy has been using my pics. I was getting around 300 messages a month and I met over 40 guys so far using Grindr since last August. Before going on Grindr, I didn't meet any guys and didn't have sex for two years. I was a basically a recluse. I think it's possible I might keep backsliding and become a recluse again or maybe I'll start taking my meds and try to find another therapist next month.