chicercatrova
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So I know this is a lot to read, but please bare with me, because I need advice desperately.
I'm a 20 year old college student living in an apartment with five other guys. I'm bi-curious but I've never done anything with a guy before.
So I have this one pretty hot roommate (he looks like Seann William Scott) who I have a really good relationship with. I've known him for two and a half years, and we have a ton of friends in common. We might as well call him Seann. Seann doesn't know I'm bi-curious - no one does. Him and I have a very frat-like, brotherly bond and a unique relationship. We get a long really well and are good friends, but the interesting part of our relationship is that we often have those fake-fratboy-gay moments. I'll try and describe a few later. Seann has a girlfriend of over a year, and they have a really strong relationship- she's a bitch, but he stays over her place every night and they suck and fuck and stuff constantly. Seann is a quirky guy, and he sometimes acts like a little five year old- wanders around clapping and yelling. He's pretty immature, but adorably so. You just wanna hug him- He's like a cute teddy bear, basically. But at the same time, he's manly and sexy... I don't know how to describe it but I'm obsessed with him.
He gets into these weird moods sometimes, and has these moments where he'll do the whole "fake-gay thing, but its ok cause we're both straight"- You know, like smack my ass, call me sexy, even come up behind me and kiss my neck. See, then he takes it to a level that I'm not sure is normal between guys who are just friends. He'll grab my ass and openly talk about what it feels like. We've discussed where we're hairy, personal grooming, etc. Sometimes he'll jump on top of me when I'm lying down and hump me for a while, or he'll often grab me and tackle me and throw me around but playfully. He's always saying things like "Hey sex panther- Lemme lick your asshole" or "I wanna cum on your face"- Which are fairly stupid guy things to say to each other. But I swear, sometimes we have these moments when I honestly feel like we're about to kiss. For no reason, he'll spin me around and look me in the eyes, and get his face an inch from mine, breathing all heavy... and then walk away, leaving me there with a semi. I don't know if I'm totally reading him wrong or just wishing it would happen... We even kinda have a game of Gay Chicken going on, where he'll start to pull down my shorts, until I act grossed out and I tell him to stop. Once I started to slide my hand up his leg, and he grabbed it and put it on his crotch and gave me this sexy look, and I acted freaked out. Once, I was leaning over my bed, and he came up behind me and pretended to fuck me, and i pretended to get into it, and for five seconds he was humping me and I was saying "Ohh yeah like that baby" and then he was like "whoah- ok, gayest thing I've ever done" and we laughed and went back to talking like it didn't happen. Sometimes, I can tell he's horny and he'll be in a sexual mood, and he'll start to pull down my pants like he's joking, but I don't know if he really is...
I feel like he's actually curious but is scared to admit it. I fantasize all the time about him finally opening up to me one day and just being able to love him as honestly and physically as I want to. In May, We're going on a two week tour of Europe and we'll be spending the whole time as roommates- just us two.
I don't know what to do. I wish I knew what to say when he gets into a weird sexual mood and starts getting all up on me so that I can tell what he really wants. I don't want to risk losing our friendship, but at the same time, I feel so strongly for him.
I know its a mistake to like a guy thats a friend....
Any advice?
I'm a 20 year old college student living in an apartment with five other guys. I'm bi-curious but I've never done anything with a guy before.
So I have this one pretty hot roommate (he looks like Seann William Scott) who I have a really good relationship with. I've known him for two and a half years, and we have a ton of friends in common. We might as well call him Seann. Seann doesn't know I'm bi-curious - no one does. Him and I have a very frat-like, brotherly bond and a unique relationship. We get a long really well and are good friends, but the interesting part of our relationship is that we often have those fake-fratboy-gay moments. I'll try and describe a few later. Seann has a girlfriend of over a year, and they have a really strong relationship- she's a bitch, but he stays over her place every night and they suck and fuck and stuff constantly. Seann is a quirky guy, and he sometimes acts like a little five year old- wanders around clapping and yelling. He's pretty immature, but adorably so. You just wanna hug him- He's like a cute teddy bear, basically. But at the same time, he's manly and sexy... I don't know how to describe it but I'm obsessed with him.
He gets into these weird moods sometimes, and has these moments where he'll do the whole "fake-gay thing, but its ok cause we're both straight"- You know, like smack my ass, call me sexy, even come up behind me and kiss my neck. See, then he takes it to a level that I'm not sure is normal between guys who are just friends. He'll grab my ass and openly talk about what it feels like. We've discussed where we're hairy, personal grooming, etc. Sometimes he'll jump on top of me when I'm lying down and hump me for a while, or he'll often grab me and tackle me and throw me around but playfully. He's always saying things like "Hey sex panther- Lemme lick your asshole" or "I wanna cum on your face"- Which are fairly stupid guy things to say to each other. But I swear, sometimes we have these moments when I honestly feel like we're about to kiss. For no reason, he'll spin me around and look me in the eyes, and get his face an inch from mine, breathing all heavy... and then walk away, leaving me there with a semi. I don't know if I'm totally reading him wrong or just wishing it would happen... We even kinda have a game of Gay Chicken going on, where he'll start to pull down my shorts, until I act grossed out and I tell him to stop. Once I started to slide my hand up his leg, and he grabbed it and put it on his crotch and gave me this sexy look, and I acted freaked out. Once, I was leaning over my bed, and he came up behind me and pretended to fuck me, and i pretended to get into it, and for five seconds he was humping me and I was saying "Ohh yeah like that baby" and then he was like "whoah- ok, gayest thing I've ever done" and we laughed and went back to talking like it didn't happen. Sometimes, I can tell he's horny and he'll be in a sexual mood, and he'll start to pull down my pants like he's joking, but I don't know if he really is...
I feel like he's actually curious but is scared to admit it. I fantasize all the time about him finally opening up to me one day and just being able to love him as honestly and physically as I want to. In May, We're going on a two week tour of Europe and we'll be spending the whole time as roommates- just us two.
I don't know what to do. I wish I knew what to say when he gets into a weird sexual mood and starts getting all up on me so that I can tell what he really wants. I don't want to risk losing our friendship, but at the same time, I feel so strongly for him.
I know its a mistake to like a guy thats a friend....
Any advice?
What I say to myself to all the "joking" is.. why?? What is the reason? For laughs? possibly. But when all is said and done, if you eliminate the things the person added to make it less serious, he still was on your neck, he was still so close to your face about to kiss you. He was doing these things, whether he's laughing or not.
...but i won't bore you with the details....what i'm saying is....use the games and jokes as an excuse...if he freaks out...just laugh it off and turn it into a joke...as if you were trying to freak him out and it worked...
