jayamsterdam
On the Prowl
Hi Everyone, I had posted on here a few times in relation to the same boy and well, I am just devastated right now.
Met a great guy back in August at my internship. We hit it off really well, he seemed very flirtatious and I was flirting back with him. I had an inkling that he was gay and heard from others that he was so about six weeks after meeting him, I dropped the bomb on him and told him. I also told him I was attracted to him. He thanked me, was excited that I came out to him, but said he was straight. I was a bit stunned because a bunch of his friends said otherwise. After getting to know him, I realized how deep in the closet he was and in denial of himself, including the religious element of being hardcore Catholic.
Anywho, we kept bonding and I would always flirt with him and throw compliments/teases his way, and he'd just smile and blush. He then turned 21 (I'm 25) and we decided to go out to the bars last week.
When we were stumbling back to my house (he was crashing on my couch), I needed help getting undressed - or actually, I didn't need it, he offered it to me. He pulled off my shirt and looked at my body - I then leaned in and kissed him on the cheek. He just smiled and started pulling off my pants, and I was bulging at this point. After a few seconds, he put on my pajama pants for me and I asked him to plug in my cell phone. He threw me on the bed and bent over to plug in my phone, and I leaned over and kissed him again. I asked him if he was bothered by this and he said "No." He proceeded to the living room to lay on my couch, and I, in my drunken state, kept calling him back to my room. Finally he came in and said, "You need to go to sleep or I will stroke you! Do you want me to stroke you?" Of course, I've been into this guy for months and thought to myself, "He's finally coming out to me!" and I said "Yeah!"
Well he started stroking my dick, and suddenly put it in his mouth. He was giving me oral for a hot four or five minutes, while slowly stroking my rock hard cock.
I tried sitting up to kiss him and stroke his dick, but he wouldn't let me.
Finally, he started freaking out and stopped.
We turned on the light and began talking. He confided in me that he was either gay or bi, not sure, and hadn't done anything with a guy since he was 12. He was uncomfortable with what happened, and didn't want anyone to know. I assured him I wouldn't tell anyone and that its okay to feel uncomfortable and that if he wanted to explore more, he had the perfect guy right here! I suggested he not explore through craigslist but rather with people he could trust. He kept saying, "OMG, I knew something like this would happen if I came over!" as if he had imagined it.
He left the next morning very uncomfortable (I don't blame him, I was the same after my first time).
We didn't talk for a few days. Finally we chatted the other day and he wanted to "clarify" some things. When we did talk, he said the situation at hand was very uncomfortable and that he was not attracted to me sexually or physically. He also mentioned that he is not at all comfortable with his sexually. I told him I wasn't looking to date unless thats something that came up, and that I was okay with anything he wanted to do.
I just don't understand why he did what he did to me, then?! Why suck off a guy you know that likes you when you're not attracted to him?!
Is he just so shocked and confused about his sexuality that he is stunned at what happened and denying being attracted to me?
I was fairly certain he was attracted to me because he a.) always blushes when I flirt with him b.) his demeanor changes to overly positive when he's around me and c.) he SUCKED MY DICK, FOR GODS SAKE!
I'm so lost and confused. And hurt. I feel like I was taken advantage of and I don't know if I am wrong in feeling this way. Sorry for the length of my post.
Met a great guy back in August at my internship. We hit it off really well, he seemed very flirtatious and I was flirting back with him. I had an inkling that he was gay and heard from others that he was so about six weeks after meeting him, I dropped the bomb on him and told him. I also told him I was attracted to him. He thanked me, was excited that I came out to him, but said he was straight. I was a bit stunned because a bunch of his friends said otherwise. After getting to know him, I realized how deep in the closet he was and in denial of himself, including the religious element of being hardcore Catholic.
Anywho, we kept bonding and I would always flirt with him and throw compliments/teases his way, and he'd just smile and blush. He then turned 21 (I'm 25) and we decided to go out to the bars last week.
When we were stumbling back to my house (he was crashing on my couch), I needed help getting undressed - or actually, I didn't need it, he offered it to me. He pulled off my shirt and looked at my body - I then leaned in and kissed him on the cheek. He just smiled and started pulling off my pants, and I was bulging at this point. After a few seconds, he put on my pajama pants for me and I asked him to plug in my cell phone. He threw me on the bed and bent over to plug in my phone, and I leaned over and kissed him again. I asked him if he was bothered by this and he said "No." He proceeded to the living room to lay on my couch, and I, in my drunken state, kept calling him back to my room. Finally he came in and said, "You need to go to sleep or I will stroke you! Do you want me to stroke you?" Of course, I've been into this guy for months and thought to myself, "He's finally coming out to me!" and I said "Yeah!"
Well he started stroking my dick, and suddenly put it in his mouth. He was giving me oral for a hot four or five minutes, while slowly stroking my rock hard cock.
I tried sitting up to kiss him and stroke his dick, but he wouldn't let me.
Finally, he started freaking out and stopped.
We turned on the light and began talking. He confided in me that he was either gay or bi, not sure, and hadn't done anything with a guy since he was 12. He was uncomfortable with what happened, and didn't want anyone to know. I assured him I wouldn't tell anyone and that its okay to feel uncomfortable and that if he wanted to explore more, he had the perfect guy right here! I suggested he not explore through craigslist but rather with people he could trust. He kept saying, "OMG, I knew something like this would happen if I came over!" as if he had imagined it.
He left the next morning very uncomfortable (I don't blame him, I was the same after my first time).
We didn't talk for a few days. Finally we chatted the other day and he wanted to "clarify" some things. When we did talk, he said the situation at hand was very uncomfortable and that he was not attracted to me sexually or physically. He also mentioned that he is not at all comfortable with his sexually. I told him I wasn't looking to date unless thats something that came up, and that I was okay with anything he wanted to do.
I just don't understand why he did what he did to me, then?! Why suck off a guy you know that likes you when you're not attracted to him?!
Is he just so shocked and confused about his sexuality that he is stunned at what happened and denying being attracted to me?
I was fairly certain he was attracted to me because he a.) always blushes when I flirt with him b.) his demeanor changes to overly positive when he's around me and c.) he SUCKED MY DICK, FOR GODS SAKE!
I'm so lost and confused. And hurt. I feel like I was taken advantage of and I don't know if I am wrong in feeling this way. Sorry for the length of my post.
