ssean18
Virgin
ok so i need to vent about my last weekend.
I had just done a 10 hour shift at the deli i work at and my best mate calls me to see what my plans were for the night. I didnt particulary want to go out because i was tired and i literally go clubbing every weekend and just wanted a break, but my mate talked me into it and i got ready and headed over to his for a few pre-drinks.
We made our way to our favourite gay club and met up with all our straight girls and gay boys and drank and danced and drank and danced. Then one of the girls and i thought we'd get an E each, which we dont normally do, just occaisonally. So we did that and kept on dancing the night away. It got to about 3am and i noticed this boy was dancing with us but i thought nothing of it and just assumed he was a friend of one of the girls. All of a sudden were dancing together and then we started making out. We stop kissing for a moment and i see my best mate who i came in with making out with a boy i introducied him to earlier, and the boys boyfriend. lol. So i keep dancig with the guy im with but i have no idea why as i really wasnt interested in the least. He was the complete opposited to anything i would ever go for, and to be perfect honest i found him revolting.
I dont know why but we started making out again, quite vigoriously and this guy was really quite good besides the god awful lip piercing. Then i look over and see my best mate walking out with the 2 boys he was making out with on the dance floor, i havnt had a chance to talk to him yet but im sure the little hussy will have a fun 'how i lost my virginity in a threesome' story. lol. So anyways the lights come on and its 5am and the club is closing so i say good bye to this guy and find one of the girls whoi was going home with. She cant stop laughing at me and the fact that i was making out with this nasty as guy. we go outside and sit down for a while because out train dosnt come for an hour and i feel like shit at what i had done. All of a sudden i get a phone call and its this guy and he says his friends went back to one there houses and he is going to catch the train back to his mums, which is the same train i have to catch. So then he sees me and comes over and we all line up for tickets and he starts hugging me and resting his hand on my thigh and stuff in the middle of the train station with hundreds of people. I freak out a little because im not completely out and there were people who i went to school with at the train station.
So we get on the train and all i can think about my best mate and what he is up to (i had a crush on him, thought i got over it but after seeing him kissing another guy, well two guys, i know i really am not). So this guy wants me to come back to his, i made up some lame excuse not to and we stop at his station and he gets off. The couple of girls im with are paying me out big time and i feel like crap and all i want to do is drink a bottle of mouthwash to clean my mouth out. They tell me not worry about it and to pretend it never happend.
We finally get home at 7am, i have a shower, throw up (which was weird because i never do) and then i started crying for some reason, i have no idea why. I get over it try and get some sleep (which turned out to be a total of 2 hours then im called into work).
Monday morning i get this text message from this guy saying he had a great time with me sat night and he can't wait to see me again. Ive never had to turn down a guy before because im not that experieced with them and have only ever randomly made out with them on the dance floor etc. So i felt like absolute crap having to tell this guy i wasnt interested because im a genuinely nice person and i go out of my way not to hurt or mislead people. So i text him back and tell him it was fun but im not interested as ive got a lot on my plate with coming out and stuff, which is kinda true as im planning on telling my parents over the next caouple of week as ive been putting it off for too long. But since ive sent him that msg i feel like crap because he was a nice kid. I dont even feel this bad when ive been rejected.
Well i hope this makes sence and im dont think im really asking a question at all but more just venting a little but i guess as im become more experienced it will get easier and i supose this guy has taken my mind off my crush on my best mate for a few days. lol.
I had just done a 10 hour shift at the deli i work at and my best mate calls me to see what my plans were for the night. I didnt particulary want to go out because i was tired and i literally go clubbing every weekend and just wanted a break, but my mate talked me into it and i got ready and headed over to his for a few pre-drinks.
We made our way to our favourite gay club and met up with all our straight girls and gay boys and drank and danced and drank and danced. Then one of the girls and i thought we'd get an E each, which we dont normally do, just occaisonally. So we did that and kept on dancing the night away. It got to about 3am and i noticed this boy was dancing with us but i thought nothing of it and just assumed he was a friend of one of the girls. All of a sudden were dancing together and then we started making out. We stop kissing for a moment and i see my best mate who i came in with making out with a boy i introducied him to earlier, and the boys boyfriend. lol. So i keep dancig with the guy im with but i have no idea why as i really wasnt interested in the least. He was the complete opposited to anything i would ever go for, and to be perfect honest i found him revolting.
I dont know why but we started making out again, quite vigoriously and this guy was really quite good besides the god awful lip piercing. Then i look over and see my best mate walking out with the 2 boys he was making out with on the dance floor, i havnt had a chance to talk to him yet but im sure the little hussy will have a fun 'how i lost my virginity in a threesome' story. lol. So anyways the lights come on and its 5am and the club is closing so i say good bye to this guy and find one of the girls whoi was going home with. She cant stop laughing at me and the fact that i was making out with this nasty as guy. we go outside and sit down for a while because out train dosnt come for an hour and i feel like shit at what i had done. All of a sudden i get a phone call and its this guy and he says his friends went back to one there houses and he is going to catch the train back to his mums, which is the same train i have to catch. So then he sees me and comes over and we all line up for tickets and he starts hugging me and resting his hand on my thigh and stuff in the middle of the train station with hundreds of people. I freak out a little because im not completely out and there were people who i went to school with at the train station.
So we get on the train and all i can think about my best mate and what he is up to (i had a crush on him, thought i got over it but after seeing him kissing another guy, well two guys, i know i really am not). So this guy wants me to come back to his, i made up some lame excuse not to and we stop at his station and he gets off. The couple of girls im with are paying me out big time and i feel like crap and all i want to do is drink a bottle of mouthwash to clean my mouth out. They tell me not worry about it and to pretend it never happend.
We finally get home at 7am, i have a shower, throw up (which was weird because i never do) and then i started crying for some reason, i have no idea why. I get over it try and get some sleep (which turned out to be a total of 2 hours then im called into work).
Monday morning i get this text message from this guy saying he had a great time with me sat night and he can't wait to see me again. Ive never had to turn down a guy before because im not that experieced with them and have only ever randomly made out with them on the dance floor etc. So i felt like absolute crap having to tell this guy i wasnt interested because im a genuinely nice person and i go out of my way not to hurt or mislead people. So i text him back and tell him it was fun but im not interested as ive got a lot on my plate with coming out and stuff, which is kinda true as im planning on telling my parents over the next caouple of week as ive been putting it off for too long. But since ive sent him that msg i feel like crap because he was a nice kid. I dont even feel this bad when ive been rejected.
Well i hope this makes sence and im dont think im really asking a question at all but more just venting a little but i guess as im become more experienced it will get easier and i supose this guy has taken my mind off my crush on my best mate for a few days. lol.
