Straight guy I think?

[Lewis2134]

Hi, I'm Lewis and I am in need of some advice and help about my attraction/fantasies about gay sex.

Let me start here, I have never been with a boy only girls, I've had 2 long term relationships both lasting for about a year and a half and I'm still currently in one and a bunch of one night stands.

I had these fantasies of having gay sex and giving men blow jobs mostly towards the end of my last relationship when the sex was getting a bit boring.
I tried experimenting at home with objects like bottles and hair brushes and even once went to the extremes of using a dildo I found in the draws in the spare room ( no idea who's it was )
And I was getting a lot of sexual thrill out of it!

So I broke up with my GF and thought I'd try the gay sex life and see if I would enjoy it, I also joined the gym and became very inshape and changed alot about my life style anyway I carried on experimenting at home but never had the bottle to ask a guy in a club or bar because my friends were asking me all the time to go to the straight clubs with them, the only problem with that was I always found myself chatting to girls and having one night stands (mostly drunk)

Now as we all know a one night stand gives you a lot of sexual thrill because its new and exciting, so this went of for about a year and I totally ignored these gay sex urges apart from occasionally watching gay porn as I felt I was getting my thrill and didn't seem to be getting fed up or bored with it.

Then I met my current girlfriend, she's great don't get me wrong but it's been a year and a half now and I'm starting to get my gay urges back, I find myself thinking about giving men blowjobs when I'm having sex and always watching gay porn instead of straight porn and recently I've started experimenting at home again.

I feel I'm going down the same route as last time but I don't want to break up with my current GF as every thing is perfect apart from the boring sex which is a big factor for me in a relationship! I doesn't help that she isn't very experimental and I some times have to push the ideas onto her rather than both feeling horny and getting dirty in the bedroom, I have spoken to her about it and she just isn't in to the whole experimenting thing but will allow some things to make me happy for example it took me a whole year to lick her bum out I don't know why but I like doing it and I know a lot of gay men are into it and alot of girls are freaked out by it, I just like being dirty and trying anything

Who knows maybe I just have a higher sex drive than her.

I wish it would end there though but it doesn't I'm going totally mad thinking about breaking up with her and trying what I did last time but find the bottle to ask a man this time!
Or I've recently been thinking about just trying a one night stand with a guy and seeing if it gives me my sexual thrill back and just take it from there but i don't want to be a cheat to my GF because she doesn't deserve that.


Help!!!

Thanks Lewis.

 

[inimegblue]

I don't intend for this to be as callous as it sounds, but you need to be single for a while.

 

[Lewis2134]

The problem with that is how do I break the news to my current GF, if I said I'm leaving you to be gay she'd probably laugh and think I was joking.

 

[palemale]

You do her no favors by staying with her if, years from now, you decide you want to be with men. Better to find out now. Think how pissed she'll be if you break up in 10 years and she believes those were 10 wasted years.

 

[borg69unimatrix]

The problem with that is how do I break the news to my current GF, if I said I'm leaving you to be gay she'd probably laugh and think I was joking.

If it is your intent to break up with her, you don't really owe her any explanations other than you feel she's not the right one for you. Period. While it might help her get some kind of closure to explain it all out in detail, it really isn't necessary. You're not interested, and don't see it working out long term. Done.

As far as the rest of your post, You could be Bi, you could be Gay, you could just be curious and excited by the idea and taboo aspect of it all and realize the reality of it isn't for you... that's for you to figure out. My advice would be to figure it out before entering into any more committed relationships though. Best to know who you are, and what you want before subjecting anyone else to your wandering thoughts and whims.

 

[HunterM]

Here's how to beak the news to your current girlfriend:

"Hun, I want to have sex with men...lots of men. Do you want to be my hag?"

 

[lonnie1]

You can bring up the subject of sex and tell her it's just not exciting anymore and that is a big part of who you are. See if she will become more exotic. If she says no or doesn't meet your needs, you'll need to drop her anyway. Not sure of your age, but as you age, I suspect the gay urge will become stronger. It's not fair to stay with her if you're unhappy with your sex life.