Hey buddy, it's great that you have such a positive attitude about your desires, and you're honest with yourself about your identity and what you want. You'll find the right guy and you'll make them and you very happy - not only with that gorgeous cock, but with your whole being. Wishing you all the very best of luck!
Thank you for your kind thoughts and your encouraging words. It truly is appreciated. I am honest with myself now. Truth be known, I have always been honest with myself since I was a youngster. I just never acted on it or let anybody know about my true desires. There has never been a doubt in my mind what I truly wanted. It’s the only thing I ever fantasized about playing with and sucking cock. Way before I even knew anything about sex or sexuality. I was too young to think about it on that level. I played with my cock and just knew I wanted a cock in my mouth. I never had a conversation with anyone about it. I never thought of it as gay or straight. I didn’t know the difference. I never told anyone because I thought I was weird for thinking about all the things I desire.
When I finally cum for the first time, I wanted that cum in my mouth. And I found every way possible to get it in my mouth often and loved it then and still do.. As I was able to find pictures of cocks on the internet years later, it made me feel a yearning that was amazing and the deepest feeling that was unexplainable. I then started thinking about other thoughts and fantasized.about everything that gay guys do with no reference point at all. I didn’t know guys did the things I thought about. What I’m saying is, it all came naturally
The first time I watched gay porn it blew my mind that everything I have always fantasized about is everything gay guys do. Of course, I thought about cocks and cum only at first. But, my fantasies became deeper as I started fantasizing about kissing, cum sharing, rimming deeply and fucking a hot ass and being fucked too. I will be versatile because I want to please in every way. I also want someone that desires to be versatile. It seems like that would make the relationship deeper as we both desire to be the best we can pleasing each other with no barriers.
Watching porn not only was it enlightening to my desires, watching others do it all made me feel like nothing else ever has before. Yes it made me crazy horny, but i realized then, I am gay and I have always been gay and I want it to be reality. What was a cock fantasy has completely grown to be all or nothing. I’ve lived as a heterosexual male in real life, but truly I have always been gay. Some would say here that I’m bi because of my past with females. But, that is in the past. I don’t ever fantasize about women never, and I never have fantasized about women even when I was in those relationships.
Now I am single and I’ve had time to reflect about who I am and what I’ve always wanted. It is time to share and enjoy my deepest desires with a man that shares the same desires. I don’t want to go back, I want to move forward. The kicker is…I don’t want to shout it from a mountain or walk in some parade. I don’t want to come out to the world and change my relationships in business or life long friends. I act straight in my daily life and I’m fine with that. But, I want a relationship with a man and it’s going to be what it’s going to be.
I’m sure as time goes by people will figure it out if I am spending all my time with the same guy. I will not need to tell anybody and they can think what they want to and come to their own conclusions. I have a lot of love to share and I’m ready to share that with my whole being as you say. As a side note…it’s a little flattering that you think I have a gorgeous cock. I’ve always wondered what others would think of my cock. I’ve never thought I’ve had anything very special to share. I am average I suppose. But your words give me confidence that I do have something special to share, physically and otherwise…
