Stressing out about tomorrow....

[Pegasus69]

Okay, I admit that I am a little stressed out about the brain lesion treatment tomorrow. I knew that it was happening but attributed it to the fact that I would have this wire mesh mask attached to my face to keep me from moving for the 2 hours of treatment.

While talking with my sister I realized that the mask was only part of the problem. When they were talking and eventually removed part of my lung, and I went through the chemo and radiation it was tolerable. I mean, it was not the summer fun I had planned for this past summer, but all it would do is leave me feeling a little ill for a time and some scars on my torso.

I realized that we are talking about the brain, which I consider to be the very essence of who and what I am. I am concerned about cognitive changes. I like myself so much at this point in time. I pride myself on my sense of humor (sarcastic, witty, dry and rather bizarre at times), I also pride myself on my compassion and ability to empathize with others, and most I pride myself on my intellect. I am not college educated, but I am not stupid either. I am a fairlly smart guy and am able to combine that with common sense. I am afraid that this may lead to significant cognitive and behavioural changes. There is the possibility of developing coordination issues (worse than I have now). It just is all very overwhelming right now. I know that I should just concentrate on tomorrow, but it is much easier said than done right now.

Thanks for the vent folks!

Steve

 

[SD-Local]

Our thoughts and prayers are with you!

 

[GL]

I can only imagine how difficult this must all be for you right now. All I can tell you is to not dwell on the negative. Apply all that wonderful, positive energy that you seem to have at your disposal (which I am soo jealous of!) and use it now to keep yourself focused. As always, you have my prayers and my best wishes for you.

 

[dolphwasser]

Oh, Steve - I wish I could just march up to your door and reach in and give that tired, overworked brain of yours a nice massage. Once again, you're perfectly logical in your concerns and worries. And you're also perfectly correct that stressing on it now isn't going to help or change anything. So sit back and vent. You've earned the right.

Keep smilin'
Keep shinin'

Knowin' you can always count on me
for sure
that's what friends are for

In good times
And bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for


(Too much syrupy sweetneses????? Would you feel better if I yelled at you?? Just select from the menu now so I can serve you better next time! Good Luck! )

 

[chris0626]

I wish you the very best for tomorrow. My thoughts and prayers are with you!

 

[Fastdavy]

Praying for you Steve

 

[josefjosef]

It is really hard to say anything . . . you are a strong person

I do not know you, but have been reading your messages over the past few months. Your struggle is more than I could ever endure.

My religious feelings and emotions do not allow me to say that I will pray for you, but I shall offer some incense as a reminder to the universal spirit of love to be kind and guiding and to bring you through this horrible experience corrected and well.

Continue to be strong.

 

[Soilwork]

This has been a pretty rotton year for you, hasnt' it?

I look at my "problems" and then I think of what you're going through and I feel like a little whiner.

I figure you need to pretend you're in a movie... deal with it like that.. become someone who likes the wire mesh.

It'll be over one day... I wrap my protection around you.

 

[portohottie]

My partner went through cancer last year, I understand how you feel.

hang in there, you'll do wonderfully

All the best to you

 

[blooeyz]

I'll be thinking of you until I see you post again.
We're praying for you.

 

[buzzj]

God bless you! You're in my prayers!

 

[Pegasus69]

Well, I am back from boston and doing well enough. Very tired! I will try and update you guys tomorrow, along with some pictures. By the way, I did learn through this that I am not into bondage. The pics will explain.

Posted by Soilwork - It'll be over one day... I wrap my protection around you.

I appreciate the protection wrap and please feel free to wrap anything else you want around me.

 

[Croynan]

WELCOME HOME.
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