Strong gay urges married...

[nikola1995]

I'm 30 years old and married for 1 year now. She's basically my first girlfriend and the second woman I've ever slept with. I gave a blowjob 2 times to a man when i was really young and i loved it.

I know I'm not gay. I'm extremely attracted to women, and I love everything about them. An attractive woman gets my dick rock hard, and I want to fuck almost every woman I come in contact with.

But I've always craved gay sex and jerked off to gay porn.

What's confusing is that I'm not really attracted to men, but I love the idea of gay sex and specific type of sex with a man the idea of being really submissive to much really older man using me as a toy feeling really girly and weak extremely turns me on Does that make any sense? I am attracted to very few men and they really have to be specific looking, whereas I'm attracted to 90% of women.

I almost feel like I have a gay fetish. The IDEA of gay sex really turns me on. I'm not even exactly sure what it is about it. I'm particularly turned on by the idea of men (especially older men) fucking me. It's something about men using my body to get off,My biggest fantasy.

It sounds kind of fucked up even writing it, I'm sure it sounds weird.

I've been turned on by gay sex for as long as I can remember. Since puberty. But I've always been way more attracted to women and straight sex, so jerking off to gay porn once in a while with a dildo, chastity and all sorts of toys was enough for me to consider it a minor part of my life. I accepted that I wasn't straight, but somewhere in the middle. And I never wanted a relationship with a man, only women.

Since being marriee I haven't been able to jerk off to gay porn or use toys so I have no release for it. When craving really builds up i Sometimes I jerk off in the shower with my fingers in ma ass thinking about getting fucked and i can have some extremely fast orgsams like in 5 seconds... yeah it makes me that horny but not being able to really release the urge means it builds up more and more that i can orgsam so quick like sometimes i can orgsam 3 times in 1 minute but i have to think about gay stuff... while i love sex with my wife and its amazing i can last long in bed and hard like 30 minutes.

My wife has no idea about any of this. I think she'd be disgusted if I told her, but i aksed her a few times like a joke what if i had sex with a man and she replied "long as its not with another woman" i was suprised by her anwser cause whenever she sees men kissing shes disqusted by it so i kept asking her and she said " gay sex is different you would not do it if you didnt need it long as its not with other woman and use protection haha"

But it's eating me alive. Something I really regret is never experimenting with a guy to see if it's something i'm actually into.

I really, really want to have gay sex. I never thought it would consume me this much, and I just tucked it away in a little compartment of my mind when I got into this relationship. But not having any release, even on my own, is making it overwhelming.

I'm not sure what to do. I mostly just wanted to vent. I could never cheat on her and I won't. But I crave dick so bad.

 

[TX-Beau]

Well, if you're not going to do it, you just need a coping strategy. Trying to hide it is going to be tricky. If your partner is anything like mine, she probably knows you're hiding something. Maybe not what, but we are never as sneaky as we think we are. If this is the issue, surely you can find a moment to satisfy that part of your psyche. I, however, am a firm believer in being open about what you need sexually from your partner. You haven't betrayed her; don't let this pull you into a betrayal by hiding it from her and getting what you need elsewhere behind her back.


That said, if you just can't ignore it and it gets to the point that it's interfering in your relationship, chances are you are further along the spectrum than you admit. Anecdote: I used to live in WEHO, my neighbor was a bi guy, I didn't know he was bi for years, then the subject just came up one drunken night. I'd never bothered to ask because he had a parade of hot chicks running through his apartment. I never saw a guy. He said that an attraction was an attraction, and he didn't find guys hot all that much. After which, he made it clear that he had no problems switching gears when he did. The point being that when he saw a guy he wanted, he'd go for it, but when he was after a woman, guys just didn't prey on his mind. The attraction had to be there before he started thinking about it.

By the way, you don't have permission unless she EXPLICITLY says you do without any hint of humor or mitigating obfuscation involved. She must know you're serious and asking seriously before it's permission—and even then, take it from me. I've been in an open relationship for a long time, and what is agreed to intellectually may abruptly change when presented with reality. Be prepared for that.

If what is going on is that you have a repressed and serious attraction to men that you are trying to trivialize, you're on a rough road. The first step in getting off that path is to come clean with your wife now before the repression drags you into something that is actual betrayal.


What you are describing has elements of Dom/sub fetish in it. That's a different beast than straight-up bisexuality, and it can get confusing. I've had exactly one BF into that, and I have Dom tendencies. I observed that the sub is not necessarily getting off on the gender; it's the surrender of control, and if the Dom knows what he or she is doing, either can provide that regardless of the sub's orientation. Why is a Dom a Dom? Why is a sub a sub? There's probably no one reason. If that is what is going on with you, your wife could be your Dom.

Just a thought.

Don't do anything that compromises your wife, your relationship, or the promise you made unless you've discussed this with her EXPLICITLY!

 

[MusicMan321]

From the looks of it that you are a married man and most men who are married not all of them but the ones who are married to a woman could be bisexual and have feelings towards men. And most of them don't even tell the wife at all keep it on the DL without getting caught but sounds like you've got the thing for some gay porn

 

[KaraBulut]

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I'm not sure what to do. I mostly just wanted to vent. I could never cheat on her and I won't. But I crave dick so bad.

You didn't ask for specific advice, so I am glad you found a safe place to vent.

What you are describing is more complex that just a gay, straight or bi question.

It's probably something that you would be better exploring with a therapist who can help you determine whether this is a fantasy or whether it's something that has more complicated origins.

 

[nikola1995]

From the looks of it that you are a married man and most men who are married not all of them but the ones who are married to a woman could be bisexual and have feelings towards men. And most of them don't even tell the wife at all keep it on the DL without getting caught but sounds like you've got the thing for some gay porn

For 3 years now i think i havent watched straight porn once only gay porn and has to be specific i love gay porn where there is a much older stronger man and much younger weaker fem man who is extremely submissive its cause i love imagine i am that younger man... the thing is i am starting to get in real life same sex crushes i dont plan on cheating but extreme urge to have gay sex is here...

 

[nikola1995]

You didn't ask for specific advice, so I am glad you found a safe place to vent.

What you are describing is more complex that just a gay, straight or bi question.

It's probably something that you would be better exploring with a therapist who can help you determine whether this is a fantasy or whether it's something that has more complicated origins.

I dont want to go to the therapist... i dont think its just a fantasy cause i have a huge crush on a guy who i work with every time i am close to him i feel myself getting turned on.

 

[KaraBulut]

I dont want to go to the therapist... i dont think its just a fantasy cause i have a huge crush on a guy who i work with every time i am close to him i feel myself getting turned on.

Perhaps.

My recommendation is based upon something in your first post above:

But it's eating me alive. Something I really regret is never experimenting with a guy to see if it's something i'm actually into.

I really, really want to have gay sex. I never thought it would consume me this much, and I just tucked it away in a little compartment of my mind when I got into this relationship. But not having any release, even on my own, is making it overwhelming.

At some point, you may reach a point where it begins to affect your relationships - to your wife, to your friends, to your coworkers.

Right now, you have a choice... to seek out someone with training to help you sort this all out and figure out why you're having these feelings and why they were causing you so much distress; or to wait until it begins to cause problems with relationships. A therapist is hard to find because there are so many people having issues at the moment, so I always recommend starting the process early.

 

[nikola1995]

Well, if you're not going to do it, you just need a coping strategy. Trying to hide it is going to be tricky. If your partner is anything like mine, she probably knows you're hiding something. Maybe not what, but we are never as sneaky as we think we are. If this is the issue, surely you can find a moment to satisfy that part of your psyche. I, however, am a firm believer in being open about what you need sexually from your partner. You haven't betrayed her; don't let this pull you into a betrayal by hiding it from her and getting what you need elsewhere behind her back.


That said, if you just can't ignore it and it gets to the point that it's interfering in your relationship, chances are you are further along the spectrum than you admit. Anecdote: I used to live in WEHO, my neighbor was a bi guy, I didn't know he was bi for years, then the subject just came up one drunken night. I'd never bothered to ask because he had a parade of hot chicks running through his apartment. I never saw a guy. He said that an attraction was an attraction, and he didn't find guys hot all that much. After which, he made it clear that he had no problems switching gears when he did. The point being that when he saw a guy he wanted, he'd go for it, but when he was after a woman, guys just didn't prey on his mind. The attraction had to be there before he started thinking about it.

By the way, you don't have permission unless she EXPLICITLY says you do without any hint of humor or mitigating obfuscation involved. She must know you're serious and asking seriously before it's permission—and even then, take it from me. I've been in an open relationship for a long time, and what is agreed to intellectually may abruptly change when presented with reality. Be prepared for that.

If what is going on is that you have a repressed and serious attraction to men that you are trying to trivialize, you're on a rough road. The first step in getting off that path is to come clean with your wife now before the repression drags you into something that is actual betrayal.


What you are describing has elements of Dom/sub fetish in it. That's a different beast than straight-up bisexuality, and it can get confusing. I've had exactly one BF into that, and I have Dom tendencies. I observed that the sub is not necessarily getting off on the gender; it's the surrender of control, and if the Dom knows what he or she is doing, either can provide that regardless of the sub's orientation. Why is a Dom a Dom? Why is a sub a sub? There's probably no one reason. If that is what is going on with you, your wife could be your Dom.

Just a thought.

Don't do anything that compromises your wife, your relationship, or the promise you made unless you've discussed this with her EXPLICITLY!

These cravings really creep up on me and get really strong i want to hide it and burry it but this craving is really strong and feel like it will always be part of me and its growing stronger... and i will never be able to hide it.. few days ago i was watching nude pictures of men on my phone and some porn and i love to play gay video games but i didnt orgasm the next day my wife told me i was moaning in my sleep but i dont remember i had a dream... i havent watched straight porn for 3 years now only gay porn i love specific kind of gay porn in a video it needs to be much older stronger looking man who is dominant and a much younger looking man who is almost femboyish and i like to imagine i am the younger man... i love this kind of porn... or just naked pictures of older men.. also there is this guy at work(yes he is much older 45 years) i cant explain it everytime he is close to me i feel really weird i am always turned on i can feel my penis become really sensetive like if i grab it i will orgsam i love the feeling i just love being really close to him i alwaya in my fantasies wanted to feel next to a man like a woman like we are walking together i feel protected and really fem.. and he is very nice to me very domonant but really nice wich drives me crazy.. we talk alot and massege everday ask me how am i... buys me things, asks me out on a coffee and movies i love riding with him on his bike.. my wife knows i hang out with him and that we chat.. the thing is i know he is gay..yeah.. cause few years back i had grindr just to chat with men it turned me on.. and i saw his profile. We never done nothing sexual... exept one little thing and my wife knows this we went to play pool and almost everytime i bent over and no one was looking he would slap my ass and even grab it and hold his hand it drove me crazy everytime he did it i felt precum exiting me... and after that time to time when we hug goodbye he would grab me... when i told my wife she basiclly died of laughter and asked me did i like it? I told her it was ok she said i cant believe my husband is a bottom i figured you more like a top and liked younger men she was laughing the whole time she was saying that i told her whats wrong being a bottom? She said nothing if you like older dick its fine with me just dont bring your daddy home hahaha.... i was shocked and turned on in the same time wich i think that she saw my porn history and thinks i like younger men and being dominant wich is quite the opposite... she must know since she said it like that. i dont plan on cheating but i really like hanging with him and chatting i dont want a relationship with him but truth is i really crave too feel like woman next to a man and the gay videos i watch to experiance that time to time. Aftwr i orgsam i feel like i dont want to do anything with a man and just be with my wife.

 

[TX-Beau]

These cravings really creep up on me and get really strong i want to hide it and burry it but this craving is really strong and feel like it will always be part of me and its growing stronger... and i will never be able to hide it.. few days ago i was watching nude pictures of men on my phone and some porn and i love to play gay video games but i didnt orgasm the next day my wife told me i was moaning in my sleep but i dont remember i had a dream... i havent watched straight porn for 3 years now only gay porn i love specific kind of gay porn in a video it needs to be much older stronger looking man who is dominant and a much younger looking man who is almost femboyish and i like to imagine i am the younger man... i love this kind of porn... or just naked pictures of older men.. also there is this guy at work(yes he is much older 45 years) i cant explain it everytime he is close to me i feel really weird i am always turned on i can feel my penis become really sensetive like if i grab it i will orgsam i love the feeling i just love being really close to him i alwaya in my fantasies wanted to feel next to a man like a woman like we are walking together i feel protected and really fem.. and he is very nice to me very domonant but really nice wich drives me crazy.. we talk alot and massege everday ask me how am i... buys me things, asks me out on a coffee and movies i love riding with him on his bike.. my wife knows i hang out with him and that we chat.. the thing is i know he is gay..yeah.. cause few years back i had grindr just to chat with men it turned me on.. and i saw his profile. We never done nothing sexual... exept one little thing and my wife knows this we went to play pool and almost everytime i bent over and no one was looking he would slap my ass and even grab it and hold his hand it drove me crazy everytime he did it i felt precum exiting me... and after that time to time when we hug goodbye he would grab me... when i told my wife she basiclly died of laughter and asked me did i like it? I told her it was ok she said i cant believe my husband is a bottom i figured you more like a top and liked younger men she was laughing the whole time she was saying that i told her whats wrong being a bottom? She said nothing if you like older dick its fine with me just dont bring your daddy home hahaha.... i was shocked and turned on in the same time wich i think that she saw my porn history and thinks i like younger men and being dominant wich is quite the opposite... she must know since she said it like that. i dont plan on cheating but i really like hanging with him and chatting i dont want a relationship with him but truth is i really crave too feel like woman next to a man and the gay videos i watch to experiance that time to time. Aftwr i orgsam i feel like i dont want to do anything with a man and just be with my wife.

Ok, that's way more information. So, you're assuming she "knows" things she apparently hasn't actually said. That won't work. If you're joking around, that isn't the same as having a serious conversation, and humor, by its nature, is non-comital; it leaves open the possibility of denial. Dude, you have to discuss this with her.

I also suggest you find a counselor; even if you don't, you still owe your wife honesty either way. Why? Because there's a term for what you're doing with that other guy, which is dating. I know several women who would consider what you are doing as cheating. It's not just hanging out when there is intent.

You committed; no one forced you into that. It's time to be a stand-up guy and explain what's going on with yourself. You are standing on the line of betrayal and damage; she doesn't deserve it either. If you care about her at all, it's time to fess up.

 

[nikola1995]

Ok, that's way more information. So, you're assuming she "knows" things she apparently hasn't actually said. That won't work. If you're joking around, that isn't the same as having a serious conversation, and humor, by its nature, is non-comital; it leaves open the possibility of denial. Dude, you have to discuss this with her.

I also suggest you find a counselor; even if you don't, you still owe your wife honesty either way. Why? Because there's a term for what you're doing with that other guy, which is dating. I know several women who would consider what you are doing as cheating. It's not just hanging out when there is intent.

You committed; no one forced you into that. It's time to be a stand-up guy and explain what's going on with yourself. You are standing on the line of betrayal and damage; she doesn't deserve it either. If you care about her at all, it's time to fess up.

Thank you.. i sat down with my wife and we had a long serious talk about it...

and the things she told me i already suspected but was not 100% sure...

she told me she always knew i was attracted to men she saw my internet history and pictures videos on phone i have but didnt know what type of men i like and what exactly turns me on and that it bothered me so much and that she didnt want to bring out a serious talk cause she knew when i was ready i would tell her about it and that she tried to make me relaxed about it that shes okay with it and does not mind it cause she knows i love her and that we are best friends...

she already thought i was having some kind of sex with men(with my friend) wich i found it really funny cause i dont find him attractive at all she told me again the same thing she quite got angry cause i didnt find her serious she said if i really needed sex with men i would do it and long as its only with men cause it her mind casual sex with men is not the same as with other women the only woman i need is her and if i sleep with other women she would be jelous and agry cause why then i need her?

And if i had sex with a man or did something sexual with them to get off while shes not able cause of work she would be totally okay with it...

i dont undestand quite the logic she thinks but thats how she thinks. Also i told the guy i am into i mean not everything we talked about but it was more like a joke cause at work when we were alone he grabbed me and started massaging my ass and i completely let him do it when he wanted to stop i told him why did you stop? And he asked me then what about your wife? And i told him like my wife does not mind if i fool around with other men haha" and the moment i said that he started kissing me and pulled my pants down and nothing really happend but i came from just kissing him he just was grabbing my ass i loved it i cant lie... now everyday we see each other we kiss in the mouth as good morning and goodbye i think very soon its going to lead to something more.. i told my wife that we kissed and she laughed and said i hope hes not a better kisser than me

haha what do you think about it? Kinda messed up situation yeah...

 

[BiBtm64]

Thank you.. i sat down with my wife and we had a long serious talk about it...

and the things she told me i already suspected but was not 100% sure...

she told me she always knew i was attracted to men she saw my internet history and pictures videos on phone i have but didnt know what type of men i like and what exactly turns me on and that it bothered me so much and that she didnt want to bring out a serious talk cause she knew when i was ready i would tell her about it and that she tried to make me relaxed about it that shes okay with it and does not mind it cause she knows i love her and that we are best friends...

she already thought i was having some kind of sex with men(with my friend) wich i found it really funny cause i dont find him attractive at all she told me again the same thing she quite got angry cause i didnt find her serious she said if i really needed sex with men i would do it and long as its only with men cause it her mind casual sex with men is not the same as with other women the only woman i need is her and if i sleep with other women she would be jelous and agry cause why then i need her?

And if i had sex with a man or did something sexual with them to get off while shes not able cause of work she would be totally okay with it...

i dont undestand quite the logic she thinks but thats how she thinks. Also i told the guy i am into i mean not everything we talked about but it was more like a joke cause at work when we were alone he grabbed me and started massaging my ass and i completely let him do it when he wanted to stop i told him why did you stop? And he asked me then what about your wife? And i told him like my wife does not mind if i fool around with other men haha" and the moment i said that he started kissing me and pulled my pants down and nothing really happend but i came from just kissing him he just was grabbing my ass i loved it i cant lie... now everyday we see each other we kiss in the mouth as good morning and goodbye i think very soon its going to lead to something more.. i told my wife that we kissed and she laughed and said i hope hes not a better kisser than me

haha what do you think about it? Kinda messed up situation yeah...

I think it's not a messed up situation. What you describe - being attracted to women, being in a good relationship with a woman, and yet craving man-sex - is normal and quite common. You describe me as well. Man-sex is exciting, thrilling, and the act of submitting to a man's lust is so different to what you do with a woman that even the best woman-sex in the world cannot substitute for it. No matter how good the woman-sex, the urge for cock remains strong.

I think it's amazing that you have such a wonderful and understanding wife. As I read your posts from the start, I thought "what are you going to do?" because the urge for man-sex eats away at you, like it does with me. If you go behind her back and cheat on her, your guilt will eat away at you, and women have a way of finding out. Now, all your problems are solved by your honesty and her understanding.

The best thing now is to decide how it will work for both of you. Will you tell her when you have man-sex, or will she prefer not to know the details? Will she be jealous, or concerned that you might leave her for a man? What if she also has urges to have sex outside of your relationdship - will you have an open relationship, and how will you feel about it? Also it would be worthwhile deciding about safe sex preferences to safeguard her sexual health.

Good luck and have fun! You have some exciting times ahead of you.

 

[TotallyLostatLife]

Thank you.. i sat down with my wife and we had a long serious talk about it...

and the things she told me i already suspected but was not 100% sure...

she told me she always knew i was attracted to men she saw my internet history and pictures videos on phone i have but didnt know what type of men i like and what exactly turns me on and that it bothered me so much and that she didnt want to bring out a serious talk cause she knew when i was ready i would tell her about it and that she tried to make me relaxed about it that shes okay with it and does not mind it cause she knows i love her and that we are best friends...

she already thought i was having some kind of sex with men(with my friend) wich i found it really funny cause i dont find him attractive at all she told me again the same thing she quite got angry cause i didnt find her serious she said if i really needed sex with men i would do it and long as its only with men cause it her mind casual sex with men is not the same as with other women the only woman i need is her and if i sleep with other women she would be jelous and agry cause why then i need her?

And if i had sex with a man or did something sexual with them to get off while shes not able cause of work she would be totally okay with it...

i dont undestand quite the logic she thinks but thats how she thinks. Also i told the guy i am into i mean not everything we talked about but it was more like a joke cause at work when we were alone he grabbed me and started massaging my ass and i completely let him do it when he wanted to stop i told him why did you stop? And he asked me then what about your wife? And i told him like my wife does not mind if i fool around with other men haha" and the moment i said that he started kissing me and pulled my pants down and nothing really happend but i came from just kissing him he just was grabbing my ass i loved it i cant lie... now everyday we see each other we kiss in the mouth as good morning and goodbye i think very soon its going to lead to something more.. i told my wife that we kissed and she laughed and said i hope hes not a better kisser than me

haha what do you think about it? Kinda messed up situation yeah...

What a happy ending, just saying, buy some flowers for your wife, she knows and loves you.
Use condoms and prepare for the wild ride of getting fuck and eat cum for your daddy.

 

[magicdick]

I'm 30 years old and married for 1 year now. She's basically my first girlfriend and the second woman I've ever slept with. I gave a blowjob 2 times to a man when i was really young and i loved it.

I know I'm not gay. I'm extremely attracted to women, and I love everything about them. An attractive woman gets my dick rock hard, and I want to fuck almost every woman I come in contact with.

But I've always craved gay sex and jerked off to gay porn.

What's confusing is that I'm not really attracted to men, but I love the idea of gay sex and specific type of sex with a man the idea of being really submissive to much really older man using me as a toy feeling really girly and weak extremely turns me on Does that make any sense? I am attracted to very few men and they really have to be specific looking, whereas I'm attracted to 90% of women.

I almost feel like I have a gay fetish. The IDEA of gay sex really turns me on. I'm not even exactly sure what it is about it. I'm particularly turned on by the idea of men (especially older men) fucking me. It's something about men using my body to get off,My biggest fantasy.

It sounds kind of fucked up even writing it, I'm sure it sounds weird.

I've been turned on by gay sex for as long as I can remember. Since puberty. But I've always been way more attracted to women and straight sex, so jerking off to gay porn once in a while with a dildo, chastity and all sorts of toys was enough for me to consider it a minor part of my life. I accepted that I wasn't straight, but somewhere in the middle. And I never wanted a relationship with a man, only women.

Since being marriee I haven't been able to jerk off to gay porn or use toys so I have no release for it. When craving really builds up i Sometimes I jerk off in the shower with my fingers in ma ass thinking about getting fucked and i can have some extremely fast orgsams like in 5 seconds... yeah it makes me that horny but not being able to really release the urge means it builds up more and more that i can orgsam so quick like sometimes i can orgsam 3 times in 1 minute but i have to think about gay stuff... while i love sex with my wife and its amazing i can last long in bed and hard like 30 minutes.

My wife has no idea about any of this. I think she'd be disgusted if I told her, but i aksed her a few times like a joke what if i had sex with a man and she replied "long as its not with another woman" i was suprised by her anwser cause whenever she sees men kissing shes disqusted by it so i kept asking her and she said " gay sex is different you would not do it if you didnt need it long as its not with other woman and use protection haha"

But it's eating me alive. Something I really regret is never experimenting with a guy to see if it's something i'm actually into.

I really, really want to have gay sex. I never thought it would consume me this much, and I just tucked it away in a little compartment of my mind when I got into this relationship. But not having any release, even on my own, is making it overwhelming.

I'm not sure what to do. I mostly just wanted to vent. I could never cheat on her and I won't. But I crave dick so bad.

Well, props to you, babe, for your dedication to your marriage. I hope venting helped. You wrote, the idea of being really submissive to much really older man using me as a toy feeling really girly and weak extremely turns me on Does that make any sense? It makes a lot of sense. This won't ease your pain, but getting fucked by a guy who treats you as his woman is awesome. I lost my virginity to a guy Thanksgiving night 2023. I submitted to him, let him take charge. When he had a crazy screaming orgasm and came in me I felt so fucking complete. I was a woman for those 40 minutes. I should tell you I'm bi and love women, but this experience was an order of magnitude different. Not so much better. Just different. Have you ever thought about getting fucked just once and walking away?

 

[BiBtm64]

Well, props to you, babe, for your dedication to your marriage. I hope venting helped. You wrote, the idea of being really submissive to much really older man using me as a toy feeling really girly and weak extremely turns me on Does that make any sense? It makes a lot of sense. This won't ease your pain, but getting fucked by a guy who treats you as his woman is awesome. I lost my virginity to a guy Thanksgiving night 2023. I submitted to him, let him take charge. When he had a crazy screaming orgasm and came in me I felt so fucking complete. I was a woman for those 40 minutes. I should tell you I'm bi and love women, but this experience was an order of magnitude different. Not so much better. Just different. Have you ever thought about getting fucked just once and walking away?

That's a beautiful description. But he cannot get fucked just once and walk away from it all. I know that, you know that. Once you've been fucked, it changes you forever, and you need to get fucked again. For nikola1995 it's inevitable. I look forward to hearing about his first time.

 

[KaraBulut]

It's probably a moot discussion since the OP hasn't returned since his last post 3 months ago.

 

[BiBtm64]

It's probably a moot discussion since the OP hasn't returned since his last post 3 months ago.

Yes, that's a fair point. Thanks for noticing. It may have become more about our own strong gay urges while married or partnered which can still be a worthwhile discussion.

 

[KaraBulut]

The OP lives in a very conservative, religious country, so hopefully things have worked out for him. Perhaps he'll return to give an update but my past experience is that most don't.

 

[magicdick]

That's a beautiful description. But he cannot get fucked just once and walk away from it all. I know that, you know that. Once you've been fucked, it changes you forever, and you need to get fucked again. For nikola1995 it's inevitable. I look forward to hearing about his first time.

I agree. As I posted I knew that if he was like me - and he is - he would need to be fucked as much he needs to breathe. I know that's how I am.

 

[nikola1995]

I think it's not a messed up situation. What you describe - being attracted to women, being in a good relationship with a woman, and yet craving man-sex - is normal and quite common. You describe me as well. Man-sex is exciting, thrilling, and the act of submitting to a man's lust is so different to what you do with a woman that even the best woman-sex in the world cannot substitute for it. No matter how good the woman-sex, the urge for cock remains strong.

I think it's amazing that you have such a wonderful and understanding wife. As I read your posts from the start, I thought "what are you going to do?" because the urge for man-sex eats away at you, like it does with me. If you go behind her back and cheat on her, your guilt will eat away at you, and women have a way of finding out. Now, all your problems are solved by your honesty and her understanding.

The best thing now is to decide how it will work for both of you. Will you tell her when you have man-sex, or will she prefer not to know the details? Will she be jealous, or concerned that you might leave her for a man? What if she also has urges to have sex outside of your relationdship - will you have an open relationship, and how will you feel about it? Also it would be worthwhile deciding about safe sex preferences to safeguard her sexual health.

Good luck and have fun! You have some exciting times ahead of you.

Hello for these few months my wife i cant even explain how much she understood me while she masterbates me we would watch gay porn together and i would get frustated that i get so much harder and cum harder to it than when she just jacks me off and she would be quite supportive

Well you were right quite exciting things happend i talked about this quite alot with my wife and we started while she masterbates me to watch gay porn together at first i got really frustated cause she sees that i get much harder and cum harder to gay porn but she is quite supportive which blows my mind she said it does not turn her on but she can watch it with me if it makes me feel good i even told her that i like dirty talk i mean to make me feel like a pussy which i cant believe she started doing it she would comment on gay porn like look how big those cocks are dont look at me look at those juicy dicks much bigger than yours you want to take those dicks inside your ass dont you?

Also she would say stuff about my penis how small it is and that she does not even feel it she faked orgsams Stuff like that and it makes me cum really hard also in the same momment angry and worried that its actually small something like that she said to me i should be happy cause not many wifes would do this with their husband... since when i orgsam i start to deny that i like being submissive and gay stuff she told me shes going to help me accept that little part of me and it can be our little secret so when i orgsam she would kinda force me to continue watching gay porn and even when i am at work not thinking at all about it she would send me dick pics and naked men and ask me if i like them and want to talk dirty stuff about them which i cant lie it turns me on really hard we even went to sex shop together and bought sex toys like strapon and stuff which she barelly got me to go cause yeah when i orgsam i dont want any of it and i chicken out and after some time we bought it i usee to buy sexy lingare and sexy clothes for her when we are having sex but now we wear them together and even more sexy stuff for me and let me tell you something me being dressed in sexy lingare and her being also dressed and being pegged while watching gay porn and she talks dirty to me is the best sex i ever had with her... the thing it kinda worries me i dont see what pleasure she gets from it cause alot of the time i wanted to penetrate her she would say she does not need it and i would ask her you dont need it at all? She said it gives her pleasure seeing me shake and moan that she does not need stimulation which is kinda hard for me to believe i dont know

 

[nikola1995]

What a happy ending, just saying, buy some flowers for your wife, she knows and loves you.
Use condoms and prepare for the wild ride of getting fuck and eat cum for your daddy.

Thank you i already did hahah i still am mind blown how supportive she is