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Oh summer- what would it be without that one (or more) guy(s) you crush unbearbly over.
Unfortunately I fall into all familiar trap. My summer crush is a very close friend of mine....who is straight. Please don't misunderstand, I don't like him because he is straight-- he is, quite simply, my type to the T. And I hate it.
In fact, I've had a crush on him for years, since we were kids at camp. Now here we are, as close as ever, counselors at the very camp where we first met, and I, more than anything, want to be with him. We only see each other here-- throughout the school term we both live in seperate states.
He knows I'm gay- he is completely pro-gay everything...and sometimes I get a slight inkling that curiosity has crossed his mind a time or two. There have been a few wrestling matches in the lake. And a few times i felt him almost grab under my arms as if he may have had the sudden impulse to bear hug me from behind in public- at which time he regains his hetero-composure and stops. He has told me he loves me, but with the masculine 'man' attatched to the end in order to preserve his man-ness. And we sleep in the same bed on our days off. voluntarily.
So what do you think guys, am I just so smitten that I have concocted these neutral passes into something far more, for lack of better term, gay....or do you think he maybe, just maybe have the slightest attaction towards me?
Wow. I feel like such a sap. A gitty school girl sap.
what a way to begin posts here on JUB 
Unfortunately I fall into all familiar trap. My summer crush is a very close friend of mine....who is straight. Please don't misunderstand, I don't like him because he is straight-- he is, quite simply, my type to the T. And I hate it.
In fact, I've had a crush on him for years, since we were kids at camp. Now here we are, as close as ever, counselors at the very camp where we first met, and I, more than anything, want to be with him. We only see each other here-- throughout the school term we both live in seperate states.
He knows I'm gay- he is completely pro-gay everything...and sometimes I get a slight inkling that curiosity has crossed his mind a time or two. There have been a few wrestling matches in the lake. And a few times i felt him almost grab under my arms as if he may have had the sudden impulse to bear hug me from behind in public- at which time he regains his hetero-composure and stops. He has told me he loves me, but with the masculine 'man' attatched to the end in order to preserve his man-ness. And we sleep in the same bed on our days off. voluntarily.
So what do you think guys, am I just so smitten that I have concocted these neutral passes into something far more, for lack of better term, gay....or do you think he maybe, just maybe have the slightest attaction towards me?
Wow. I feel like such a sap. A gitty school girl sap.





















