On Topic Discussion Taralen's 2018 Random Musings About Life...

[Taralen]

Re: Reddit post made me mad

You have oh so much to offer.

What do I have to offer?

 

[Taralen]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

Really like this song. It's like a mix of R&B/Hip-Hop, jazz, pop, dance, electronic etc. I got introduced to this group from a guy who was an artist and did animation/cartoons videos tutorials on youtube. He used some of their music in his videos.

 

[Taralen]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

I can't stop listening to this song.

Justin Timberlake's new album just came out. To me it's absolute shit. But this track right here I love so much. That most of critics said sounds boring. Oh well, fuck them.

It's like a mix of R&B/Hip Hop, alternative rock, space rock, punk rock, country music, hillbilly, outer space, space island, underwater sounding all at once.

 

[ballcaphair]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

Anything EDM and pop too. Juices flowin' or chill are my go to's

 

[MakeDigitalLove]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

A lot of Elliott Smith.

 

[Taralen]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

Oh my god. I Just love this track. Sorry. Fuck.

 

[ballcaphair]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

A lot of Elliott Smith.

This is beautiful, so sad, but moving and beautiful.

 

[Taralen]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

Damn this is some sad ass hip hop soul jazzy R&B. More R&B love on JUB.

 

[Taralen]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

Damn this track too. I remember being in my Freshmen year of college (which I sadly dropped out of college, and I'm not going back. It's just not for me.) when I stumbled upon this one accidentally. This was when I was crushing on one of my professors that hated my guts and I actually failed his class lol. He was young and Seth Rogen looking too. Nice smooth soul jazzy hip hop R&B track.

This lyrics are kinda sociopathic and depressing and sad as fuck and kinda thrilling and scary too.

 

[Taralen]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

This is another good one. Again. First heard this one in my first year of college again. (which I sadly dropped out of college, and I'm not going back. It's just not for me.)

This song is so thrilling and scary and creepy and romantic. Lovely R&B soulful jazzy song.

Being a person that always found evening/nighttime to be more lovely than the day, and a more night owl person and a more nocturnal person. Being up late at night and being so lovestruck and depressed.

I love going to bed and having very sexual and thrilling and romantic dreams about guys I've seen in my past that I'm crushing on. Even though in reality they do not like me and don't want me.

As my dreams and hopes is all I have left.

The bridge is just wonderful and is the story of my life.

"Living in an endless dream".

That's basically what being black and gay and alone is. A fucking endless dream. Even though my life has been pretty much a nightmare sometimes.

This the ending of the song I guess. Which is just John Coltrane's : Fingertips. Again sad track. Love comes to an end before it even begins. Crush that doens't even want to be friends. It's sad.

 

[Taralen]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

I actually messed up in the post above. That's actually Giant Steps not Fingertips by John Coltrane.
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But this track right here.

I remember I saw this really crappy movie called Cheap Thrills online that came out a few years ago. I remember after I saw that movie, I accidentally found this track. Another one that Pharrell Williams did.

Very erotic and thrilling sounding. Good soulful sounding jazzy hip hop R&B.

 

[Taralen]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

Now I first heard this track my senior year of High School. I was like 17.

The DX Experience on youtube
https://www.youtube.com/thexdexperience

Who he was friends with BarrettTV.
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCIIBZS8Dbh5j-HvftBmW1pQ

Had this song in one of his videos. I fell in love with it since. It's so lovely and nice. Good jazzy soulful R&B. The Bridge especially is so lovely. That electric guitar riff.

 

[Taralen]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

Now this track. Again I found accidentally.

This is like a very funky and jazzy hip hop, R&B electro song.

The lyrics are so lovely and nice. Very thrilling smooth song.

 

[Taralen]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

Another track I found randomly.

Such a lovely 90s dance R&B jazzy soulful song. Which covers Deniece Williams : Free.

 

[Taralen]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

OMG this track. Nice. I remember getting very high and stoned with this song. Damn. This song is so sexy and romantic as fuck. nice R&B and funky jazzy music.

 

[Taralen]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

Wow this song reminds me of Junior High school being bullied. Love Mariah Carey so much.

 

[Taralen]

Why is everyone so oblivious here? YOU GUYS EXIST AS GAY MEN IN REAL LIFE

So this is like part 4 of this thread.
http://www.justusboys.com/forum/threads/449957-Being-a-gay-male-is-a-life-ruiner-Reddit-post

I finally figured it out.

Why I'm so fucking mad being a black gay feminine man.

Why I have damn near eleven years worth of pent up anger.

This place is so damn fucking oblivious, and everyone treats each other like we are all Gumby characters. Like we don't exist in the real world.

You guys are actual gay men, and we treat each other like absolute shit.

I could understand if this shit were The Sims or some crap like that. To where nobody was real here.

I could understand if this were Sesame Street, and this was all trivial and happy happy joy joy and shit. It's not.

I could understand if this were an afterschool fucking special. To where none of this were real, and this was all a fictionalized universe. It's not.

WE ARE LESS THAN A FEW PERCENT (IF EVEN THAT) OF THE WORLD'S POPULATION BEING QUEER MEN. SO THERE IS NO EXCUSE FOR THAT. THERE IS NOT ENOUGH OF US OUT HERE FOR THAT. ALL OF US FUCKING KNOW EACH OTHER WHETHER YOU WANT TO FUCKING ADMIT IT OR NOT.

You guys are all gay men and queers like I motherfucking am.

People are racist, sexist, fem shaming, body shaming. Bears only want bears. Masc guys only want masc guys. White queer men are racist. Just a bunch of shit.

Me being a gay feminine black man, the fact I'm attracted to more bear type guys. I'm looked at like I'm fucking crazy.

There are so many cliques here and people being shitty.

You can say that this place isn't representative of gay men. It is.

Every gay man has been on the gay side of pornhub. Every gay man has watched a gay youtube channel etc. So fuck all that.

"Oh, well not every gay guy uses JUB"

Bull fucking shit.

I'm sorry. Every fucking gay man whether he's active here or not, has heard of JUB. Some guys that I have seen on other gay sites, that were originally on JUB.

This is the number one gay porn media hub. This is a big place.

It may not be now, but it still is.

I just came across a gay guy on social media, who used to be very popular on here, he deactivated his JUB account.

People do deactivate their accounts. I've seen thousands of guys come and go from this site.

WE ARE ALL ACTUAL GAY MEN IN THE REAL WORLD, YET WE TREAT EACH OTHER LIKE GARBAGE. I DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT SHIT.

It's very possible to find love and romance and friendships on JUB.

BUT BECAUSE YOU GUYS ARE ALL OBLIVIOUS ASSHOLES, (MUCH LIKE THE QUEER MALE COMMUNITY IN ITSELF) THAT DREAM IS OVER AND ENDED.

So there.

I finally figured out the reason as to why I'm so mad.

I bring actual issues to this site. I complain about love and romance. Being single. Nobody cares. Nobody understands that I'm an actual queer/gay black man.

With no friends or family or support.

You see I'm a fucking eleven year member here. Smh.

I'm being treated like a Gumby character. I'm being told I'm a victim. I'm being treated like trash in the motherfucking alley.

I talk about not fitting in with the gay community,

NOT ONE, NOT ONE. NOT ONE MOTHERFUCKING PERSON MESSAGED OR DMED ME TO ASK IF I WAS OKAY. OR PMED THEIR PHONE NUMBER IF THEY LIVE IN CALIFORNIA OR THE MIDWEST, FUCK EVEN AMERICA IN GENERAL (I CAN TRAVEL IT'S OKAY). IF THEY WANTED TO GO OUT FOR A DRINK OR A BEER OR MOTHERFUCKING TEA AND CRUMPETS. NONE OF THAT SHIT.

SO YOU KNOW WHAT,, I DON'T KNOW WHAT. I'M.

Let me stop myself. Calm myself down.

Just fuck it.

I feel like this is the fucking Twilight Zone I do.

I'm damn near almost 30, dealing with this shit as a gay black man. I feel like this can't be fucking real life, it can't be.

Why the fuck did I have to be black and gay and dealing with this shit.

 

[Cormac135]

Re: Why is everyone so oblivious here? YOU GUYS EXIST AS GAY MEN IN REAL LIFE

I'd usually tell you to stop talking shite, but after the abuse i've had on here today i can only agree with you.

Feel free to PM me if you ever want a chatter, and of course the invitation to the last post win in Fun&Games is always open.

 

[Taralen]

Re: What kind of music do you like?

Damn. Christina Aguilera so lovely. Elementary School Jam. Damn. So lovely. R&B soul and jazzy.

 

[eastofeden]

Re: Why is everyone so oblivious here? YOU GUYS EXIST AS GAY MEN IN REAL LIFE

Y O U A R E P R O J E C T I N G

This is so tiring...listening to you spew your abusive crap ...

But yeah..everyone else is the problem...

Poor you...