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Thad1527 - Archived Blog Posts

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The building I work in has a possessed HVAC and all winter the air has come on almost daily, making the offices on our floor colder than outside. And because of this I've had a slow recovery of my cold.
 
Times were so tough that I didn't remember to enjoy the summer.

Since I'm not in school any more, I can follow the real calendar and consider the first three weeks of September as summer. So I will.

More outdoors! More fun!
 
My younger brother is in the hospital. He had a heart attack this week.

Yikes. He takes pretty good care of himself, except for a really lousy diet. He is on his feet a lot working for the Post Office doing deliveries. But it's something I did not expect. I'm sure he didn't either!

I'm at his house now with two cats. His son is with his mom (they've been separated for a little while). He's probably not going to be working for a few weeks at best.

This is the kind of thing I don't want to hide...but don't really need to tell everybody about. Anyone who cares enough to come look at my blog...thanks, I wanted you to know!
 
Just saw this too, Ted... hoping for a full recovery for your brother and sending thoughts, prayers and good energies to all of you.
 
My brother (who had the heart attack) is back to work!

He's doing pretty well. I'm glad. I didn't expect him to go back so soon.

Thanks for your kind thoughts!

My slow season has started at work...I work only on Thursday this week. It's weird having no money at the holidays but that's normal for me...this happens every year. I just can't go real crazy!!
 
My busy season is starting so I won't be around JUB as much as I have been in December. But this is OK since I really don't like collecting unemployment for long. I get lazy and spoiled!

I was out for New Year's Eve but really didn't have a very good time. I watched the Flyers beat the Flames at the sports bar and didn't stay when the game was over; the new year actually slipped in without my noticing while I was riding the subway home. I actually kind of like that start to the year - no muss, no fuss, and it happens. Maybe if my friends were there or the atmosphere was different, I might have stayed...but I just wasn't having much fun.

And tomorrow I get up at 3 AM to start work at 4. Yikes.
 
It is always good to have a January 1st blog.

I wonder if this place is ever going to pick up and be as busy as it used to be.

Happy New Year.

David.
 
Oh, I am so bad.

The recent ice storm knocked out power to hundreds of thousands of people in the Philadelphia metropolitan area, especially those in the north and west.

Not me.

I was in my warm home with full power, watching TV news show people in towns where I work (and that I don't much like) with no electricity and downed trees and branches blocking roadways.

Ha. Ha. Ha.

I said...I'm so bad.

(note: I learned Yardley, a little town I do like, is still powerless. Maybe I take back some of it. But most of the suburbs and exurbs to the north...oh, sweet revenge for me having to go work there.)
 
it's annoying me more and more.

I thought the cold days were over., Maybe they are but I feel cold now. I want real springtime in full bloom.
 
It is finally here in the South of France, blue skies, flowers in bloom and air pollution above danger levels in town.
 
I'm a big library user. I'm blessed to live where we have excellent public libraries organized in a county-wide system; I can borrow from and return materials to any of the 28 branches. And I can ask for anything circulating from any branch to be delivered to me at whichever branch is most convenient for me. They'll even get books not in the county to me from elsewhere in the state. (I've done that three times and it still amazes me.)

My most recent special orders were for books by gay athletes; baseballer Billy Bean and basketballer John Amaechi. I recently ordered the first book in Anne Zouroudi's Seven Deadly Sins mystery series and the only one of Susan Conant's Dog Lovers Mysteries that I haven't yet read.

It's like I've been on a buying spree and I don't pay a cent. As long as I renew the books and return them in time...free and easy.
 
I miss using libraries but living here makes it complicated to get there.

As soon as I retire the library will be a pleasant walking distance from my flat so I have the intentions of using it daily; magazines, videos as well as books.
 
Sometimes people like me reach a point where they realize their life is pretty dysfunctional. I'm there.

The methods I've used to live my life, although perhaps appropriate in the past, are not working for me any more.

I've come to realize that I am a problem gambler, with the casino slot machines, and I'm going to get help I need with that. I've taken a step and disposed of my casino affinity cards, mailings, and e-mails.

My job isn't the best fit for me these days; I think I like odd hours but as I age it's not as easy as it was.

I haven't dealt well with responsibility in my life. I don't know why, but it's well past time for me to confront that.

It's probably for the best that I'm single, but I'm also rather isolated. I'm probably more familiar with my favorite slot machines than any of my friends. I've done a masterful job of blowing them off and losing touch.

I'm not ready to die, not suicidal at all, and am definitely no danger to others. But when I gamble away the rent money...whoa. Something has got to change here.

And it will. As I'm a morning person at heart, I like new days and sunrises. I've been living without them too long. But it's scary as well.

So it'll be one day at a time for me and I'm not going it alone. To start with, I've told you!
 
I really do sympathise; making life changes at our age is not so simple.

Once one is comfortable in a rhythm of life it is not always easy to reverse the trend, plus often it seems pointless to do so later in one's life.

Wishing you the courage you will need and hope you succeed.

Perhaps the best advice is to take small steps one at a time and to be aware that there must be support groups out there who could help you put yourself on the right rails; human contact is not to be neglected when one is going through such problems.

Take care.

David.
 
Know what? My gambling problem pales in comparison with others.

To begin with, it's specific. I have no interest in sports betting. I can resist the lottery. I don't play casino table games. I don't like the casinos outside Atlantic City.

And three of my favorite casinos are closing in the next three weeks! Yikes, if my money wasn't enough to keep them open I must be insignificant.

Anyhow, I've gone a month and a half without gambling at all. And I am pretty sure I'll be fine.
 
Here is hoping you manage to keep control of your gambling.

David.
 
I've had way too much time to think.

And I believe that, FOR ME, the closures are worse than the chance of contacting a flu-like illness.

I was an active person. I worked. I went places. I walked a lot.

I am totally sedentary now.

I wasn't depressed before. I had some social interaction.

Granted, FOR OTHERS, these restrictions might be helpful. But they're unhealthy for me.

And what can I do anyway? Very limited transit now. No places to eat. No restaurants. No entertainment. No bars. No theater. No sports. No libraries. No getaways. No parties.

I could work but it wouldn't be easy or worthwhile. My company offered temporary positions at two Philadelphia Walmarts. But with limited transit, how in hell do I get there? They require a three-vehicle trip at the best of times. And, honestly, I don't want to do that kind of work.

Yes, I'm fatalistic now. Maybe I need some better reasons to live.
 
Some folks are gonna make it through the 1st wave of the virus, some won't. I'm totally disabled and dependent on others. But my curiosity keeps me going. I want to see what happens.
Chances are the virus will mutate and make this an extinction event. Well, maybe.
Since "they" have to come up with a new flu vaccine every year this will probably be the case.
Some will probably survive everything and have to rebuild society.
I hope they get it right! We sure didn't.

Hang in there. It's a fight and the strong survive.
 
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