Silvernitrate
Porn Star
I miss my ex so much, and lately I've been dreaming about him. I know I need to get over him, but I still can't. Ever since the end of our sr year in high school, I'd always tell myself I would make more time for him, but I've done the exact opposite of that! In fact I moved far away from him.
I was hoping we could kind of ween ourselves a bit from each other, but things happen and something came up for me. We were always too scared about talking about leaving our separate ways for college, and I was scared to tell him I had plans to leave across the country, but I never actually thought it would really happen, and I had no idea I was leaving as quick as I did. It was LITERALLY a last minute thing.
It was graduation night, and we were hanging out with everyone at the post-graduation party and when it was 6 am I found out I had to leave for a trip at 8 15 am. So I left and said my goodbyes and figured I'd be back soon. I left for my week's trip came back, and then I had to go on another trip for some business stuff for two weeks! I came back and as I unpacking all my stuff, I got a call asking to come to california, and i was like, "Yeah, just tell me when, I'll be there" and he said, "Okay, well start getting ready you have two days, and you'll be back late august for university"
I also ended up having to go to New York the last few weeks, so by that time I was done, I had to start university. I didn't have time to go back to Texas, I just went and started school. After being there some time, I ended up living permanently here in California.
So basically the last day to live in my hometown, live with my parents in there house, be with all my family and friends was the night of graduation. It's so weird how that happened. It's been several years now and I can count the times I've been back on one hand with fingers to spare.
Sometimes I'll sit and think about him while listening to "The Secret" By Emery. I can relate to their lyrics So well!.. and the mood and sound of the song is so full of emotions, it's just so sad sounding. This song is amazing!
On the way to grey
I could hardly wait
To see you again
To feel your hands
Covering me
Till the storm is done
What seemed to be the end
Was not the end at all
When I hear the rain
Should I be afraid?
For my, for my
For my... life
Why do you look at me that way?
I told you that I was too busy to see you
I would never keep a secret from you
From you
From you
Is it over?
I am fine
Thank you dearly
For your time
I'll be leaving
Don't you cry
I'll be back soon
At least I'll try
Can't you see
There is no time to think
Selfishly
Yesterday's gone
Tomorrow's here
Can't turn back now
I won't quit
I still love you
I swear,
I always will
I always will
I always will
I was hoping we could kind of ween ourselves a bit from each other, but things happen and something came up for me. We were always too scared about talking about leaving our separate ways for college, and I was scared to tell him I had plans to leave across the country, but I never actually thought it would really happen, and I had no idea I was leaving as quick as I did. It was LITERALLY a last minute thing.
It was graduation night, and we were hanging out with everyone at the post-graduation party and when it was 6 am I found out I had to leave for a trip at 8 15 am. So I left and said my goodbyes and figured I'd be back soon. I left for my week's trip came back, and then I had to go on another trip for some business stuff for two weeks! I came back and as I unpacking all my stuff, I got a call asking to come to california, and i was like, "Yeah, just tell me when, I'll be there" and he said, "Okay, well start getting ready you have two days, and you'll be back late august for university"
I also ended up having to go to New York the last few weeks, so by that time I was done, I had to start university. I didn't have time to go back to Texas, I just went and started school. After being there some time, I ended up living permanently here in California.
So basically the last day to live in my hometown, live with my parents in there house, be with all my family and friends was the night of graduation. It's so weird how that happened. It's been several years now and I can count the times I've been back on one hand with fingers to spare.
Sometimes I'll sit and think about him while listening to "The Secret" By Emery. I can relate to their lyrics So well!.. and the mood and sound of the song is so full of emotions, it's just so sad sounding. This song is amazing!
On the way to grey
I could hardly wait
To see you again
To feel your hands
Covering me
Till the storm is done
What seemed to be the end
Was not the end at all
When I hear the rain
Should I be afraid?
For my, for my
For my... life
Why do you look at me that way?
I told you that I was too busy to see you
I would never keep a secret from you
From you
From you
Is it over?
I am fine
Thank you dearly
For your time
I'll be leaving
Don't you cry
I'll be back soon
At least I'll try
Can't you see
There is no time to think
Selfishly
Yesterday's gone
Tomorrow's here
Can't turn back now
I won't quit
I still love you
I swear,
I always will
I always will
I always will