ballentyne84
On the Prowl
(I should posted this way way back before I posted it today. I somehow had caught in the time and totally forgot about it.)
Thank You JUB
This is my first time writing a blog and English is not my first language, so apologize me if you found grammatical error from time to time. FYI I actually a newbie in the JUB, just joined in a few days ago. I never thought to find a website like JUB and how it helps people with their problems regarding love crush, sexuality and stuff like that especially to the gay community around the world and I’m one of them.
This is how I discovered JUB. A few days ago, while I’m browsing through internet searching something that I can’t recalled rite now. After I got what I want to search for, I just sit there staring on my screen with mind totally blank what I want to do next. At the first thought, I just may be disconnect instantly, since I’m using dial up, but something make me to do otherwise. My fingers began to type something in the search box that I don’t actually aware off. When I tried to lift my head to look what the heck I’m typing, my right hand just instantly press the enter button so I don’t have a glimpse of what I’m typing. Feeling weird what just happen to me. A few seconds later, the search result came out. I started to read the blue underline text, 'Bedtime Story' and '....Gay..." in bold black text beneath it. WTF I said to myself in shock. I check my room to see whether any of my younger brothers/sisters were there. No sign of them and gave a quick glance to my door. I quickly jump up from my ass to lock my door. I take a quick look at my clock on the wall pointed to nearly one am in the morning. I decided to stay up for a few hours to check up a few of this websites. I began to scroll down the page and just simply clicked on one of them.
A few minutes later, it finished downloading the whole page. At the top of the page I can see Just Us Boys logo and started to read the page. I continued to read it till the middle page of the story; I found that this is actually something worth to read. Without finishing the rest of the page, I began to save it to my computer creating a new folder for easy access. I clicked on the next page and save it until the last page of the story. Then I clicked on another thread and save it. I kept on doing it for about six to seven titles, and then I thought I have enough for now and disconnect my line.
I opened the file that I have read earlier and start to read it al over again. Hey this story was actually hot with romantic scene and of course the sex scene as well, I thought to myself. I have been pulled and drag at the same time into the story. When it came to the sad part, my eyes broke to tears. Oh shit! This story is awesome. I kept reading and open the next page to it until I have finished the entire story.
In my utter amazement, I realized that there a people out there having the same problems with me. Being gay and all of that stuff. I just sat there in front my monitor, doing nothing, just stared at the screen. My mind began to bring me back to my past six years. thinking how I felt myself being different from my friends, how I later discovered that I liked both male and female in sexual way, how the feeling become more and more stronger inside me from day to day, how it slowly change my taste from being a bi to a totally gay because I feel more into male than female. Thinking how I kept trying to shove the thought away and just kept it inside me without telling any my friends/family about it and any other thoughts on what I have done in the last 6 years. I began to break into tears again that night just thinking about it.
You will soon have a chance to read my whole story in my next blog. for now, I just wana say thank you millions millions times from the bottom of my heart to all people in JUB including the founder, moderator, staff, members, authors and all the people that have contributed their time, money, support, ideas, advice, etc. I do feel really really good after I found JUB and u guys. Thanks again. I will keep on writing my blog in the future; hopefully you guys will like it.
Thank You JUB
This is my first time writing a blog and English is not my first language, so apologize me if you found grammatical error from time to time. FYI I actually a newbie in the JUB, just joined in a few days ago. I never thought to find a website like JUB and how it helps people with their problems regarding love crush, sexuality and stuff like that especially to the gay community around the world and I’m one of them.
This is how I discovered JUB. A few days ago, while I’m browsing through internet searching something that I can’t recalled rite now. After I got what I want to search for, I just sit there staring on my screen with mind totally blank what I want to do next. At the first thought, I just may be disconnect instantly, since I’m using dial up, but something make me to do otherwise. My fingers began to type something in the search box that I don’t actually aware off. When I tried to lift my head to look what the heck I’m typing, my right hand just instantly press the enter button so I don’t have a glimpse of what I’m typing. Feeling weird what just happen to me. A few seconds later, the search result came out. I started to read the blue underline text, 'Bedtime Story' and '....Gay..." in bold black text beneath it. WTF I said to myself in shock. I check my room to see whether any of my younger brothers/sisters were there. No sign of them and gave a quick glance to my door. I quickly jump up from my ass to lock my door. I take a quick look at my clock on the wall pointed to nearly one am in the morning. I decided to stay up for a few hours to check up a few of this websites. I began to scroll down the page and just simply clicked on one of them.
A few minutes later, it finished downloading the whole page. At the top of the page I can see Just Us Boys logo and started to read the page. I continued to read it till the middle page of the story; I found that this is actually something worth to read. Without finishing the rest of the page, I began to save it to my computer creating a new folder for easy access. I clicked on the next page and save it until the last page of the story. Then I clicked on another thread and save it. I kept on doing it for about six to seven titles, and then I thought I have enough for now and disconnect my line.
I opened the file that I have read earlier and start to read it al over again. Hey this story was actually hot with romantic scene and of course the sex scene as well, I thought to myself. I have been pulled and drag at the same time into the story. When it came to the sad part, my eyes broke to tears. Oh shit! This story is awesome. I kept reading and open the next page to it until I have finished the entire story.
In my utter amazement, I realized that there a people out there having the same problems with me. Being gay and all of that stuff. I just sat there in front my monitor, doing nothing, just stared at the screen. My mind began to bring me back to my past six years. thinking how I felt myself being different from my friends, how I later discovered that I liked both male and female in sexual way, how the feeling become more and more stronger inside me from day to day, how it slowly change my taste from being a bi to a totally gay because I feel more into male than female. Thinking how I kept trying to shove the thought away and just kept it inside me without telling any my friends/family about it and any other thoughts on what I have done in the last 6 years. I began to break into tears again that night just thinking about it.
You will soon have a chance to read my whole story in my next blog. for now, I just wana say thank you millions millions times from the bottom of my heart to all people in JUB including the founder, moderator, staff, members, authors and all the people that have contributed their time, money, support, ideas, advice, etc. I do feel really really good after I found JUB and u guys. Thanks again. I will keep on writing my blog in the future; hopefully you guys will like it.