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Chapter 87 – Back to School And Getting Caught Up With Friends - Wow
I didn’t sleep well through the night, tossing and turning, worried about Eric and his family and potential marital situation. It just wasn’t fair he had worked so hard to be in school, did so well on the wrestling team, was admired by other athletes, was becoming a fraternity brother and well accepted by not only his pledge class, but his future frat brothers. He was doing well in academics and had a promising future. All because of one little sperm cell gone awry, his whole life was going to change. I was hurt because he was hurting. When someone you care about so close to you hurts, you hurt with them. In most cases your friends help carry you and share your hurt, but in this case, I couldn’t share my burden with anyone but Eric nor could he share his with anyone but me. That was going to be hard. I figured I could share this with Jake as he’d never tell a soul and the secret would be totally safe. I didn’t dare tell Allen though, not right now anyway. Therefore I had one sleepless night. I finally fell asleep not long before we had to get up. When the alarm finally went off, Allen was spooning me instead of me spooning him. I felt the hard head of his cock up against my asshole. I had to admit, it did fell kind of good there. Still, it wasn’t seeking entry, just teasing for some reason. I pulled his arm over me and kissed his hand. Then he moved his hand to cup my balls and cock kissing the back of my neck, like I usually did him. He playfully teased my morning hardon with his fingertips.
“You gonna to tell me what’s bothering you?” he asked in a whisper, sounding still half asleep.
“I’m okay. Why?”
“No you’re not, Josh. You’ve been tossing and turning all night long. You kept waking me up. You don’t usually move at night, and here I am doing to you what you normally do to me. I have to admit, it feels kind of good, but that doesn’t solve your problems. Tell me what it is, and maybe I can help. Remember friends help friends. You know how much I love you. I’ll do whatever I can to help you with whatever’s bugging you.”
“Allen, it’s not me. I’m just concerned about a mutual friend of ours that I really don’t know how to help. It hurts me I don’t have a way to solve his problem. I just don’t know what to do, and you can see how it does bother me. I can’t stand it.”
“Josh, you can’t solve the world’s problems. People make choices and they have to live with those choices. If you make bad choices you can’t always expect your friends to make them right for you,” Allen said.
“He knows I can’t make it right. I just feel bad I don’t know how to help him. I wish there was something I could do, but there really isn’t. It’s making me miserable, Allen.”
“Josh, sometimes you care too much. You do that with all of us. Look how you put up with me when I was lost. I must have driven you crazy with all my stupidity I was only too proud to display. You hung in there for me when most friends would have let me wallow in my misery. Not you. You loved me in spite of myself. I’ll never forget that, Josh. I’ll love you the rest of my life because of your kindness and your friendship. Plus, I have to love that love muscle between your legs too, especially up against my ass every morning. I’ll never ever be able to forget that,” he said chuckling. I had to kiss him passionately for that one. Didn’t help my boner situation. “I assume this friend with the problem is Eric? I could tell you weren’t yourself after you talked to him last night. What’d he do, get his girlfriend pregnant and now he doesn’t know what to do?”
“Gees, Allen. Where do you come up with all this?” I just had to ask.
“I figured as much. Happens all the time. Straight guys have to be careful where they stick their cocks and spit their loads. We just have to enjoy ours.”
“You can’t say a word to anyone about this, Allen. I’m serious. It would kill Eric if he thought anyone else knew. Not a word. Please?”
“Josh, mum’s the word. Your confidence will not be compromised. Let me know if there is anything we can do to cheer him up though. I love him also. He’s a wonderful guy and friend. I know how tight you two guys are being in the frat together and all. Plus I know you share more than just the frat. He loves you also, Josh. But, hell, who knows you and doesn’t love you. You’re just so loveable,” Allen said as kissed me on the back of the neck again making my cock even harder. “Do we need to get up, or can I try to make you happy?”
“Allen, you make me happy every day. I love you so much. You’re so wise, but still crazy at the same time, which is what I love about you. OBB too. You guys are great together. Jake and I marvel at you guys sometimes. Well, maybe marvel at your stamina for sex mainly, I guess.”
“That’s not fair. It’s not all about sex. We have other redeeming values besides sex. We’re great athletes in the diving area. We’re great students, and we suck a mean cock and fuck a mean asshole. Well, maybe that’s sex, I guess. But we’re hot looking also.”
“Hey, you got me there. We’ve got 15 minutes. Are your going to stick that pole of yours in my ass, or are you going to talk me to death for the next 15 minutes?” I asked wiggling my ass up against his hard cock. Allen shoved his cock up my hole so fast it almost took my breath away. He fucked me pretty damn hard as he gave me a nice reach-around. He came in my ass as I shot a nice load up against the wall behind my bed. We came down from our post orgasm high watching my wad slide down the painted concrete block wall. Allen reached over and grabbed some and tasted it. Then he kissed me tenderly. “I love you, Allen.”
“I love you too, Josh. You got me last night, now I got you this morning. We both walked away with a load in our ass. Too bad Eric didn’t do the same.”
“Allen, not a word. Remember?”
“I got it, Josh. Can I suck his cock in the shower this morning? I do love that big cock of his. I guess his girlfriend loved it a little too much.”
“Allen!”
“Okay, okay. Enough with the Eric jokes, but we have to remain as normal as possible around him, and I do suck his cock from time to time in the shower.”
“Maybe today isn’t a good day for that. How about we play that by ear.” I slapped his bare ass and tried to hold his load inside me until I could get to the toilet. Then we hit the shower. Kevin arrived looking a little down.
“So what’s your problem this morning, Sunshine?” Allen asked.
“Oh, the whole idea of going out with Jason, his girlfriend, and another girl his girlfriend fixed me up with, is just stupid. I was miserable the entire time. You try making like you’re happy, when the guy you love is making over a girl in front of you. All I wanted was his cock up my ass the entire time and I had to listen to girl talk. The stupid part of that was he seemed to enjoy it. Go figure. I think we’re nearing the end of our relationship, at least our sexual one anyway. He can’t make me straight even if he thinks he can be. We’re wasting precious time, we could be spending together and loving each other, trying to entertain stupid women. It isn’t right. I don’t think I can keep doing this, even though Jason says he’ll make it up to me. He doesn’t have time to make it up to me if we keep going out with those girls,” Kevin said disgusted over the whole situation.
“Kev, do the girls sense anything between you and Jason? Do they have any idea of the relationship you guys have?” I had to ask.
“I don’t think so. They just think we’re really close, like asshole buddies. If they only knew we were really asshole buddies. But I don’t think so, or they probably wouldn’t have anything to do with us. Maybe that’s what I ought to do sometime, kiss him on the lips passionately and then they’d freak out and leave us alone,” he said almost convinced he might want to try that.
“Kev, I don’t think that would help the situation at all. You can make excuses not to go out with them anymore, but I wouldn’t ruin his reputation and make a fool out of yourself doing it. That wouldn’t be right. Just drop out of the equation. Jason will get the message. Either he loves you or he doesn’t. He can’t make you be someone you’re not. You control that outcome. If he doesn’t love you enough to follow, then it’s time to move on.”
“You’re right, Josh. I think my dating women days are just about over. Fuck that shit. I need cock and if it isn’t Jason’s, then I’ll find another. He can come crawling back. What’s with Eric? I thought one of his parents died as down as he is.”
“You’ll have to ask him, Kev. I’m just his next door neighbor. Let me know if it’s anything serious. We all love him.”
“I know, Josh. I think you love him just as much as I do if not more. He seems to relate better to you than he does to me for some reason, but I’m fine with that. It just kills me to see him down like this. He has to put up with me all the time in that condition and tries his best to cheer me up and pump me up, now he’s there. I don’t know how to help him. I’ll see if I can drag out whatever’s bothering him. You know Eric though. He can be stubborn. I’ll keep you posted.”
“Speaking of posts, how’s that one hanging between your legs, Kevin?” Allen asked as he took hold of Kevin’s semi-hard penis.
“I’d be lying to you if I told you it didn’t need some manly attention, but I’m a little short on time this morning. Maybe I’ll check with you and OBB later tonight if you guys wouldn’t mind some company,” Kevin replied.
“Always available to help out a good friend, Kevin,” Allen said smiling, then leaned down and kissed Kevin’s cock, then taking a couple of sucks on his flaccid cock while he was there, making Kevin start to stiffen. We left him with a boner as we got out of the shower to dry off. Eric arrived just as we were finishing up drying off. I quickly kissed him, which made him smile. Then he jumped into the shower with Kevin where we heard him do a double take.
“You’re not going to fuck me with that thing are you?” Eric asked Kevin, noticing his fully erect boner. “Looks like the boys have been at it again.” Allen and I took that as our que to leave.
I was a little apprehensive about my accounting lecture this morning. At least it wasn’t my lab which would have been one on one with KS. I had an extra day to figure out what to say to KS when I had his lab. I would, however, get to see him for a couple of moments in the lecture hall. I wasn’t sure what to expect, but in a way, I was anxious to see him again, if nothing else than to make sure our friendship was still intact and no damage had been done. When entering the lecture hall, I saw KS down in the front talking to the professor. He didn’t see me yet so I took my seat in the area I normally sat. It was only a couple of minutes when he noticed me, probably looking in the direction of where I normally sat, looking to see if I had arrived or not. He came walking up my way. Another TA stopped to talk to him before he made it to me.
“Hey, Josh. Good to see you got back okay. Did you get any rest?” he asked casually.
“Yep, made it back last night. What time did you and Jay get back?” I asked just as casually.
“We got back early afternoon. We had an early brunch then hit the road. There’s a lot of great restaurants over there with some great food. It was a nice trip. The roads were okay, but you know that anyway,” he said making small talk. I just smiled at him which made him smile back. “Are we okay with everything?” he asked a little nervously.
“More than okay now, KS. I think we kind of accidentally bonded this weekend, but that’s all good,” I said using his pet name. It made him smile, but nervous at the same time, with him looking around to see if anyone heard me say KS.
“Good, I’m kind of relieved,” he said blushing a little at the thought of bonding. “I do like the name, Josh. It’s kind of personal. I’m really looking forward to our discussion this week. How’s tomorrow afternoon before your swim practice. I think you said you had an hour between your last class and swim practice. We can kind of review some of the structure of the enterprise and maybe make plans to get together when we have more time if that suits you.”
“Suits me fine, KS. I’m looking forward to it. Anything I need to bring you’re particularly interested in?” I asked.
“No, just you for now, I guess. I mean not that I’m interested in just you which I am of course. That didn’t sound right. I mean I’m interested in you and what you have done with the business and all. Well, you too. I admire you. I mean I admire you for what you’ve achieved.” I stopped him by grabbing his arm and putting my finger to my lips.
“It’s okay, KS. I know what you mean. You don’t have to apologize for it. I got you. And I am looking forward to talking to you. No problems, we’ll be fine,” I managed to get out just as the bell started ringing. He squeezed my arm and took off as he said ‘see you then’. Well he was more nervous than I was. I still remembered, and I’m sure he did, the kisses we managed to have on Saturday night. He was a pretty hot number. I was actually looking forward more now than ever to our private teacher/student conference. It might be more interesting than most, I kind of suspected. At least if I had anything to do with it.
At the end of class, KS was talking to another student so I scurried off to meet Jake at the Student Union. I told Jake about the encounter with KS. He almost laughed suspecting how the conversation went. We were chowing down at the SU when Trevor and Betty saw us and headed our way. I really didn’t need to get bogged down in a conversation with them, but he was our new best friend I guess, so we had to at least say ‘hi’.
“Hey, guys. So how was the CNB this weekend? Did they miss me in the dance lineup?” Trevor asked.
“Yeh, Trev, we missed you. Half the crowd didn’t show up because you weren’t headlining this week. Go figure,” I said with my smartass self, getting a ‘yeh, right’ from him. “Now if you want to come back next week for the wet underwear contest, then that might bring the crowd back again,” I said making him smile and Betty giggle.
“You guys are too much. I can’t keep up with you. So I was wondering if we might get together again some time soon? I think I might need to expound upon our last session. I still have some of the same problems thinking about you guys, and I just don’t know how to satisfy that curiosity,” he said. Now he was getting a little personal.
“Trevor, we put you through the test. You’re straight. Admit that you are and go on. Don’t torture yourself otherwise. Betty makes you happy so just stay happy with Betty and you’ll be fine. You already told us you and Betty had the best sex you’ve ever had after you met with us. That meant you were totally convinced you were straight and actually proved you liked it that way. No need for us to muddy the waters again. Give it up, Trevor. If not for your sake, for Betty’s sake,” I told him as Betty clutched his arm and acted like she adored him.
“I know you’re probably right, but there are a few more questions I need to ask you guys, some curiosity that still lingers.”
“You know curiosity killed a cat, Trevor. Not good to have that kind of curiosity,” Jake chimed in.
“No, not that kind, guys. I just have some deep seated feelings I want you guys to help me sort through, and then I think I’ll be okay,” he said still pleading for another meeting.
“Look Trevor, you’ve seen Jake and I naked. Curiosity satisfied there. You don’t have to worry about us with Betty. No curiosity there on our part, not that you’re not hot, Betty, but to straight guys only. You’re straight, Trevor, and find Betty extremely hot and have a great relationship with her, so why muddy the waters.” At this point I could see he was holding something back and visibly shaken. He didn’t speak right away.
“I really need to see you guys again if you could just please come over one more time. Please,” he said pleading in a nice way. I looked at Jake and he looked at me.
“Alright, one more time, Trevor, but this better be constructive. I think you’re wasting your time and ours also, and definitely Betty’s time with you. She should be beating you over the head right now for even asking,” I said looking at her.
“Actually, she suggested it,” he said which caused me to do a double take. I looked at him curiously. “She thinks I need to get it all totally out of my system, and then I’ll be fine. But until I do that, my curiosity gets the best of me.” I gave Betty a strange look.
“He’s right, guys. I think it best you get him straightened out once and for all,” Betty said which was the most words we had ever heard her speak since we first met her.
“What if it goes the other way, Betty? Are you prepared for that?” I asked.
“It won’t. He just has a strange infatuation with you two guys, not the male gender in general. He feels some sort of connection with you two for some reason, and I really don’t think it’s sexual. Can you kind of understand that?” she asked.
“I think it’s a wild shot, but I guess it’s possible. Like needing a bro to hang around with and confide in for guy things? Is that what you’re trying to say?” I asked.
“Close, I think, Josh. He never really had many guy friends. He’s had a lot of girlfriends, me being the longest he’s ever stayed with, which I guess I should be grateful. I think he just needs some male bonding, not really male sex. I’ve been studying up on this in Psychology, which is why I signed us up for the class we’re in with you guys. Hopefully, between you and the books, we can find some answers. Hang in there a little with us and see if we can’t resolve his issues.” Wow, we just got a whole paragraph out of Betty which was almost unheard of. She was smarter than I thought. Usually the good lookers didn’t have as much upstairs, but this one was hot and smart. Go figure. Well, at least she had good taste in men. Trevor was no dog. He was a hottie and had equipment any gay guy could admire and enjoy. We’d seen that first hand. Hell, I even held his equipment in my hand which made him nervous, I remembered.
“Okay, okay. I think we get the picture. Jake and I’ll be by one more time just to reset your straightness and get you back on the road to heteroville. Good grief, you’re a chore, Trevor. You need some straight guy friends though. Jake and I don’t share the same interests as you do, so you really need more straight friends. We can talk business, swimming, athletics, farming – we have a lot of interests, but we can’t talk pussy with you and shouldn’t be talking dick. Therefore, you need straight friends. Most of the guys we know are not straight, so we can’t help you there.” I was tired of talking about it anymore at this point.
“I trust you guys more than anyone. I feel some sort of connection with you for some reason, and I don’t know why. Maybe because of the bonding we did at the CNB.” I stopped him there.
“That’s not the type of bonding we should have been having. That kind of bonding was not helpful to your kind. It wasn’t constructive, Trevor. Anyway, Jake and I need to eat and get to our next class. So we’ll see you guys later,” I said turning away from them and back to my sandwich, cluing them it was time for them to move on. They thanked us again then walked away, arm in arm. What an enigma.
“Betty might be right, Josh,” Jake suggested. “He doesn’t have any male friends for all we know and from what Betty says. I’m sure he’s done his share of screwing around, but he’s probably never had guy friends to hang out with in their jocks, shooting hoops and sweating their balls off together, showering together in the gym and stuff like that, real guy stuff. So he thinks he’s interested in us sexually when he really isn’t. He’s kind of like Sean in a way. Sean likes to hang out naked. He’s not interested in having sex with guys, but he likes the male bonding thing, being naked around each other without it affecting anything. I guess in a way it was what Trevor was trying to do the other night by having all of us take off all our clothes. There were no inhibitions between us then. He didn’t seem to like being touched. That was weird to him, but he enjoyed being open, free and naked with us. We were buds, open with each other, totally transparent and naked. Maybe we need to get Trevor to hang out with Sean. That might work,” Jake offered.
“You might have a point, Jake. Some guys miss that bromance stuff, or male bonding, whatever you want to call it. It’s a far cry from being gay, but yet, it’s just a thing between guys, being together and just letting their hair down and dicks hang out. Nothing sensuous about it at all, just being open and free with one another, letting a little testosterone loose, I guess. I get it in a way. You may have stumbled onto something, although Betty kind of brought it up. We need to think about that some more.”
I always hated when lunch was over because I had to leave my beloved Jake. We managed to sneak in a few kisses in the shadows of the SU before heading off to our afternoon classes. Although I thought Jake and I were as close as you could possibly get, I continued to love him more and more and feel closer to him all the time. He warmed my heart every moment I got to spend with him.
In my hour before swim class I dropped in on Kevin to see if he picked up any vibes from Eric. “Kev, you get any insight into Eric? Maybe he’s just tired or something. He didn’t seem too bad when I talked to him the other night before you got back from your double date with Jason. By the way, that had to suck. That would be like Jake and I double dating with two women and he giving me the cold shoulder for the girl. That would not go over well with me. I would consider that almost the final nail in the coffin,” I said putting my two cents in.
“No on the Eric thing. He’s probably fine. He always gets a little melancholy every time he has to come back to school and leave his girlfriend. Give him a couple of days and we all seem to cheer him up. Frankly, I consider you, Allen and OBB more my family and friends than I do anyone at home. I guess you should count Jason in that circle, but he’s really starting to piss me off with this girlfriend thing. He’s not going to change me, and if he thinks he can change, he’s just postponing the inevitable disappointment. You and I both know it ain’t gonna happen. But I’m about done with his little charade. He can go on pretending if he wants, but I don’t care if people know I’m gay. I’m proud of it and that’s the way I want to live my life. If they like me, they like me. If they don’t, they don’t. I really don’t care one way or the other. I will be friends with anyone that accepts me for who I really am. I think I’ll start spending more time with Calvin and see where that goes. We have a good time together, it’s just I wish he was into the extracurricular activities that he probably isn’t aware of. I may have to push that a little. Maybe you could help with that, Josh, kind of like you did with Jason.”
“Kev, leave me the heck out of it. I get in enough trouble on my own for ‘transformations’. I don’t need a list of Josh disciples Find and cherish your own love, Kev. You’re a great guy. If there is interest it will be shown. Hell, if worse comes to worse, just ask Calvin if he ever thought about a relationship with another guy. All he can say is yes or no. I don’t think he’ll hate you for it, as great as you guys get along now. He might say, that doesn’t appeal to him, but he still likes you as a friend. You haven’t lost anything. I know the best thing to happen is for you both to find each other together and hopefully, that will happen. Keep pushing towards that goal. Find the things in life that touch him in some way, things that are meaningful to him, like trust, friendship, caring, support and even love. Get into some deep conversations with him. That way you find out what kind of character he really has. Is he emotional or care free. Do certain acts of kindness and friendship make a deep impression on him. Stuff like that. You’ll be able to tell. He may fall in love with you if you touch his soul deeply enough. Follow your heart, Kev. I can’t tell you that enough,” I said looking him in the eyes. Kevin hugged me deeply.
“You know I already fell in love with you a long time ago. I know I can’t have you, but that doesn’t stop me from loving you, Josh. Hell, even Eric loves you. Straight, gay, friends or acquaintances, they all love Josh. You affect everyone that way as wonderful as you are. I just hope enough of you rubs off on me someday,” he said, then kissed me on the lips. I kissed him back and squeezed his ass. “Anytime, Josh. Anytime. Take me whenever you so desire. That’s yours anytime.”
“Kev, you’re crazy, but I love you just the same. I guess I better find Allen and get to swim practice. Say hello to Calvin for me. I guess I could tell him what a great guy and friend you are when I see him sometime. Bring him to the basketball game this week and he can sit with us, unless you and Jason are double dating with babes for that also.”
“Don’t go there, Josh. Not going to happen,” Kevin said emphatically.
Allen asked me on the way to swim practice if Eric was any better. I told him I had not seen him since this morning, but Kevin had noticed something was wrong also. Allen felt so bad for him. We got naked in the locker room with Andy and OBB, changed into our trunks and then headed off to our respective squads. Andy told me on the way to our squads he couldn’t get over Francis’ history with Sky. I told Andy I still believed Francis enjoyed some male sexual interaction regardless of whether he thought he was straight. It appeared to me that he was forcing himself to be straight although his body might want something different. Still he seemed to be diligent in trying to be straight, except with maybe a few people he cared about such as us. Andy said it was all hard to understand sometimes, but he had no desire to ever have a sexual relationship with a woman. I told him never say never, but I felt the same way only I had a few occurrences, and couldn’t say they were that great. Andy just shook his head at me. I told him it was purely experimental of course, as I was open to see what it was like. It wasn’t that great, I had to admit to him. He said he didn’t need to know.
Jack was all happy to see us when we arrived and slapped Andy and I on the ass. “So how was the ole CNB this weekend? Get to see any new hot cock over there?” he asked all excited to hear about the weekend.
“Jack, by the way, we’re having a wet underwear contest this next weeked, and I think you might have a shot at winning it if you showed up. Maybe Ted would like to be there also. I mean that nice long cock of his is sure to get the boys excited. You show them a little of that orange bush and who knows what might happen. Andy and I would love to have you and Ted in the contest. Might meet some other hot guys also and have a good time,” I said trying to persuade him to participate. Andy said he should come as it would be a lot of fun, then left us to go join his squad.
“Let me think about that one. The part where there are other hot guys has me interested. Might be kind of hot. Not sure what Ted might think about it. He may not want to be in the contest, but he might go to watch. Gees, I might have to invest in some white bikini briefs just to be able to have my junk show through. I have to admit, it does sound intriguing, Josh. Let me think about it.”
“So’d you take care of Drew last Friday afternoon? Is he any more relieved?” I had to ask.
“Josh, that boy loves a cock up his ass more than anything else. I think he and his girlfriend are pretty much done. He says half the time it takes a while to get hard with her anymore, and she gives him shit about it. He says he tells her to give him head, but she doesn’t like doing it, and then when she does, it’s nothing like us. I think the kid has almost resigned himself to being gay. He just isn’t sure how to have a relationship with another guy. The sex part he thinks he can handle, but he isn’t sure about the relationship. I told him to just go with the flow. Anyway, he gave me a nice little nut that afternoon. He had a great one also. Nothing like taking the pressure off your balls. He’s got a hot little ass also. Damn, you should tap that more often. I’m telling you it’s there anytime you want it. He’s like needy now,” Jack said smiling.
“Jack I have more than I can handle right now. Drew needs someone to care about, not just someone to tap that ass of his. You and I are recreational to him. He needs something more meaningful, someone he can count on to be there for him. We need to help him find that someone if we can.”
“You know the crazy thing is, Josh, I think Drew’s hung up on Dawson of all people,” he said just as seriously as he could.
“What the fuck, Jack? That doesn’t make any sense at all. Dawson won’t give him the time of day in that area. You know what he’s like.”
“Josh, I’m telling you, Drew has some fixation on Dawson. Remember they’ve been friends and messed around since they’ve had hair on their dicks. Dawson moved on like most of the hetero guys do, but Drew never quite got over it. You know that stuff happens.”
“Tell me about it. I saw the same thing with my suite mates Kevin and Eric. Kevin never got over it and Eric moved on. Eric was kind enough to care about Kevin and stay his best friend, but the two don’t have sex anymore. We finally got Kevin fixed up with some other guys, and I take care of him every now and then. Plus Allen and OBB take him for a ride every so often. He has a boyfriend now who thinks he needs to be straight. It’s a mess, but Kevin is surviving, luckily. He’s a great guy with a big cock. He’ll find someone.”
“Maybe you need to introduce him to me. I can always help him out if he has a big dick. I don’t mind spreading around the love a little. You know me, Josh,” Jack offered only too eagerly.
“Jack, you have Ted and who knows how many others on the side. Kevin’s looking for a relationship, kind of like Drew in a way. You have a dick for hire almost, but the boys need something more lasting. I thought you and Ted were getting to the relationship stage also. Everything okay there?”
“We’re fine, Josh. It’s just my willie needs some variety once in a while. It gets hungry for a different holes. And then there’s that cock of yours my ass gets hungry for. It’s been a while, Josh. Maybe you and I need to get together,” he said somewhat excited rubbing his groin.
“Can’t say I’d pass on the opportunity if it presented itself, Jack, but right now, I have more than I can take care of. I pretty much drained my balls this weekend. Weekends are hard on me with what we have to take care of at the CNB,” I replied.
“Gotta get over there and get into the action,” Jack said. “I’ll try to talk Ted into going this weekend for sure with that wet underwear contest. That’s gotta be hot.”
Just then Les walked by and flipped back the leg of his trunks giving me a shot of his cock head. I started laughing. He was grinning and took off. “I’m telling you, Josh. That boy wants you in the worst way. Beautiful cock too. You have to tap that sometime. I mean you just have to.”
Drew came up to us smiling, probably remembering the hot fuck he got on Friday from Jack. “Dawson wants to talk to you today, Josh. I think it has something to do with the state championship. He told me when I saw you to tell you the two of you needed to talk. He said to meet him in coach’s office.”
“You have a good weekend, buddy?” I asked.
“Yeh, it was good. Dawson and I went back home for the weekend. He had some sort of family reunion thing going and my parents said it had been awhile since I was home, and they’d like to see me, so I rode home with him. It was good to see my family again, and Dawson said he had a decent time at his reunion. I got to see his parents also while we were there. We got in late Friday night so I spent the night at this house then my parents picked me up the next morning. His parents claimed me as another son as much as I hung out at their house and spent tons of sleep overs there. Dawson and I were pretty much brothers in our parents’ eyes when we were growing up.”
“Cool. Then they were probably just as happy to see you also. Sounds like a decent trip then.”
“Yeh, it was nice to see everyone. The trip was a couple of hours each way, but not a bad trip at all,” he said smiling, as Jack was squeezing his buns one at a time, giving him a nice boner in his trunks. It was nice to get away. Anyway, go see what Dawson needs, and I’ll time Jack for a couple of runs.”
“Watch Jack’s hands, Drew. He already gave you a hardon,” I said winking at him as I went off to find Dawson. Drew was giving Jack a mischievous smile.
Dawson was talking to one of the other squad leaders when I found him outside coach’s office. He motioned for me to wait for him while he finished talking to the guy. That was okay as I got to see Erin’s profile in his trunks. He had a nice bulge there. I had seen Erin in the showers a few times and he was definitely nicely hung. I just never interacted with him that much so, other than enjoying a nice view of his cock and balls once in a while, I really didn’t know much about him. The more I stood and looked at him, the more he became more interesting. He was taller, about 6’ 1” I’d say, blonde hair, blue eyes, a pair of beautiful nipples that needed chewing on in the worst way, a slight, well cropped, treasure trail, some closely cropped arm pit hair, shapely arm muscles, legs to die for that you would want wrapped around you when you fucked the hell out his tight ass and the nicest bulge out in front of him, tightly restrained by his swim trunks, showing me the most wonderful profile and stimulating my middle leg. I really never paid him that much attention before, but Dawson, making me stand here and observe him as they talked, compelled me to scrutinize his beauty. He was just one of the ones I saw coming and going before, but standing still and studying this beautiful male specimen was actually making me kind of hard. Erin kept looking over at me also, as Dawson drowned him in some conversation about swimming, I supposed. Erin had a couple of days growth of facial hair, either meaning he was lazy about shaving or he liked that shadowed look. Okay, the conversation was dragging on so I had to study his toes. His toenails were well manicured, meaning he took special care in the way he looked and looked to others. He was meticulous about his presentation. Why was all this crap rolling through my head when I had to talk to Dawson, I have no idea, but since he was subjecting me to study Erin, I certainly didn’t turn the opportunity down. Erin might be one to get to know if I had more time, but, obviously, I did not. But, he was definitely hot to look at for the moment. My boy downstairs thought so also.
“Is that a stiffy in your trunks, Josh? Are you happy to see me?” Dawson asked as he finally got through talking to Erin who smiled and half waved at me as he left, giving me a nice view of his ass as he walked away. Damn, he was getting to me. I definitely had to follow up with him sometime.
“Yes, Dawson. I was just thinking of having your hot ass on the end of my cock when I win the state championship. We’re going to have one hot time, buddy. You might as well start getting that tight hole of yours prepared because the big boy is coming,” I said in my smartass voice. In fact, I was thinking we needed to get tested for STD’s beforehand so we do the deed raw. You know, making it more sensuous and meaningful. Who knows, we may even fall in love.”
“Josh, you are one bent and sometimes sick person, but kind of fun in a way,” Dawson replied as he unlocked the door to the coach’s office and turned on the lights. “Take a seat,” he said pointing to a chair in front of the coach’s desk as he shut the door behind us. He sat in a chair right beside the one I sat in and turned it towards me. I thought it was a little strange as I expected him to sit in coach’s chair behind the desk. “Josh, the reason I wanted to talk to you was about Drew. I don’t know how to put this, but I need your help in turning my friend around. This gay thing has gotten out of hand and we need to bring it to a close,” he said putting me immediately on the defensive. “I know you, Jack and Andy are gay and I don’t have any problem with that. You are what you are and you pretty much stick to yourselves. You’ve even got the respect of the rest of the guys, but Drew, he’s not gay, Josh. He’s been my friend practically my whole life and he’s not gay. For the last several weeks he thinks he might be for some reasons we can’t begin to imagine. At first we just poo pooed it, thinking it was a passing phase. I mean you guys had fun and all at coach’s pool party, even I had some fun with you guys. That was all fun and private. We were boozed up and let our hair down and our dicks out. When it was over, it was over. It was all fun and enjoyable, even I got off a few times thanks to you with some horrendous orgasms I never thought possible.” I stopped him right there.
“Look Dawson, everyone is who they are,” I started to say when he cut me off.
“Josh, just hear me out and then we can discuss it. I’ll give you your chance, but I need to say this all first while I still can. I love Drew as my friend, my pal, my brother. We’ve been friends for years before we even had hair on our dicks. When we finally found our cocks and how much fun we could have with them, we all loved getting together and draining our balls with each other. You know, circle jerks with your friends and seeing who could cum the furthest, having fun getting off with one another. It was all fun and curious at that age of 12 or 13. Lots of fun and it felt great. Then we graduated to helping one another out. I have to admit at the time, a different cock, other than the one you jacked off continually all the time, felt kind of good in your hands and to see that baby explode, well that just made you want to cum that much harder. I get that. Now we get to the age where we are starting to like titties and pussy. We start dating and then we see who we can bed. Sometimes we fuck our girlfriends and then we fuck the girls that don’t have boyfriends that are looking for a stiff dick to stuff up their pussies to get off with. You know, the no strings attached kind that just want fucked and then tell you to get the hell out after they’ve used you and you used them. That was all kind of fun. Mutual needs get satisfied. The male species has come of age and has had sex, proven to himself he is a man and graduated to manhood, even though we don’t have a fucking idea of what’s ahead of us and what the real world is like. We all went through the stages and managed to survive somehow. Now we look at being serious, settling down, finding a mate for life and having children as we start our careers. Some want to wait and play the field, others have found a mate they are comfortable with in college and are making marriage plans after they graduate. I get that. I’m not far from that. My gal and I have been dating a couple of years and I think she’s the one I’ll probably end up marrying if everything stays pretty much the way it has, and we all graduate and move on. I’m comfortable with her and she is with me. We have a lot in common and enjoy being with one another. Such is life. The cycle continues over and over again,” he said finally pausing.
“So what’s the point, Dawson? That too can happen for a gay male. We aren’t that much different except for the gender thing,” I threw at him.
“My point is this, Josh. You are a man that understands the affairs of the heart. You truly care about your friends. You care about Drew like I care about Drew only you express it in a different way than I’m comfortable expressing it,” he said as he dropped his head into his hands almost like he was embarrassed about having to tell me something. “I love the guy too, Josh. Not like you do, sexually, although we’ve had some pretty hot times together over the years with me trying to accommodate him even though he should have grown out of the stage he still seems to be stuck in. I’d never admit that to another living soul other than to you, because I know you know the value of love and friendship. You, more than anyone else I know, understand it the way I like to think of it, from an altruistic standpoint. I love Drew. I truly love him as my brother, my confidant. He’s the other half of me. We have laughed together, we have cried together, we have bared our souls to each other. He’s a major part of my life, Josh. I know you understand that. Hell, we’ve even been intimate with one another ,so there’s no secrets between us. He knows every inch of my body and I know his. We have no inhibitions with each other. I’m as comfortable around him naked as I am clothed. I totally trust the guy and love him as my brother,” he said looking me straight in the eyes and putting his hands on my shoulders commanding my full attention as he spoke.
“I get it, Dawson. You truly love your friend. I commend you for that. But you need to know you two are two different people. His needs and wants differ from yours. You have been understanding and tolerant of that. That makes you a true friend. You love him regardless of who he chooses to be. I respect you for that, and am relieved for Drew, as that could have been devastating to your friend had you not. So what’s the problem? You haven’t always acted like you approved of his different interests, if I can put it that way, but you’ve come around eventually. You and Drew having more problems lately?”
“Josh, Josh. I need your help. I can’t let him throw his life away. And I’m not making value judgements about you, so don’t take it that way. You are truly mature enough in your desires and know full well how to navigate and choose your friends in your world. Drew doesn’t have a clue. Drew was doing fine with his girlfriend up until this year and for the first few months of this school year. I mean he’d get an itch for what I call some sort of kinky sex now and then. He always did love a Dildo up his ass or a cock when it was available. Gawd knows I had to do that for him a few times and then the itch was scratched, then healed, and he was back to normal for a while, fucking his bitch like the rest of us. Things were going good. But now, they’re not so good. I tried to warn you and Jack things were getting out of hand and we were losing him. I’ve all but lost him, Josh. I don’t think he knows the gravity of the situation for him. My parents love him like a son and this would just kill them if they knew he might be gay. Trust me on that one. We were home this weekend and they just loved him to death asking everything there was to know about him. They asked about his girlfriend and how the romance was progressing. He told them it was kind of rocky at the moment. They’ve met his girlfriend, Josh. They like his girlfriend as much as they like mine because we are almost brothers, we spent so much time together living at one another’s houses growing up. His parents and my parents are great friends. We’re all one big family at home, Josh. What I’m trying to say is Drew is still confused at the moment. I need you to convince him the gay world just isn’t his world. He won’t survive in that one. He needs to lead a normal life with the wife, kids, parents, friends, family surrounding him, sitting on the couch with me drinking beer watching football on Sundays while the wives are fixing food, chatting away about daycare and school and PTA and stuff, and the kids are playing together. He can’t be showing up at the house with Bruce without kids and sporting a big bulge in his pants. What do we tell the kids? Uncle Drew puts his pee pee in Bruce’s butthole. I don’t think so. No disrespect, Josh. I know whoever your mate is will be loved by everyone you know and especially by your family who support you in every way. I am way over dramatizing the situation here, but yet, there’s some truth to it. You have to admit it. It’s very awkward. I don’t want to lose Drew, Josh. I love him too much, maybe more than I should, but I can’t help that. We’ve been together through thick and thin for most of the years we’ve been alive. Do you know what I’m saying?” he asked almost exasperated. I put my hands on his shoulders and looked him straight in the eyes.
“Dawson, if you love your friend, accept him for who he is and what he needs to be in his mind and heart. That will only enhance the love and respect between you. You’ve got to let him be who he is. He will love you that much more being the true friend you are by continuing to love him no matter who he is, a truly wonderful person and friend who loves you back.”
“Josh, I just don’t think he knows all the ramifications of his actions here. If I thought he might totally be convinced beyond a shadow of a doubt he was really gay, I would have to accept him for that. I just don’t think he’s there yet. Maybe we have a chance to reverse the direction is what I’m asking. I’ve tried to talk to him and talk to him. He just makes light of the situation. We spent four hours in the car together this weekend going back home and coming back here. He even spent Friday night at my house, he was so excited to see my parents. We talked half the night. This whole trip probably only made things worse with a few things that happened.” Dawson put his head down in his hands once again. I lifted him up.
“Tell me what happened, Dawson. What made things worse? This is important for your friendship. What did you do or say to him?’’ I asked concerned, but noticing Drew was pretty happy when I was talking to him just before he sent me to Dawson. I had to imagine whatever happened wasn’t too terrible.
“I don’t know if I can even get it out of my mouth to tell you, Josh. It just almost makes me sick to say it.” Now I was totally intrigued. What had Dawson done to dissuade Drew from being gay that still had Drew smiling? I was really baffled at this point. “He, he, well we were talking about certain things while I was driving and he was sitting there trying to tease me and all. We were laughing, kind of like the old days when we were younger. He mentioned something about a freckle on my cock. I told him he was full of shit. We got to arguing and he unzipped my jeans and pulled out my willie after I told him he was full of shit, but he wanted to prove a point to me. Okay so he won the bet, but then he sucked me off while I was driving. I told him we were going to get caught but he kept on until I came in his mouth. Then he rolled down the window and spit out my load. He spit my load out, and half of it ended up on the side of the car. My dad even asked me how I got so much bird shit on the side of the car instead of the top. He even cleaned it off for me while I was home. I was never so embarrassed.”
“Why in the hell did you let him blow you, Dawson? I think you could have stopped that if you tried,” I said still amazed at what he just disclosed.
“Well it got worse, Josh. We always slept together in my bed when he stayed over. We don’t have that many bedrooms and I do have some younger brothers, one in high school and one in middle school so they each have their own rooms. We never think anything of sleeping together at our house. We talked for a long time about sex and things before going to sleep. I was trying to compare girlfriends and their various components and what turned them on. He was trying to show me what some of the guy triggers were. He played with my nipples which made me hard. We had taken a shower together before hitting the sack and nothing got played with other than my willie got washed off from the afternoon blow job he gave me. But then when he was trying to show me the trigger points, he had me lay on my stomach. I thought I was safe with that one since my cock was between me and the mattress, but then he sticks his tongue up my ass. UP MY ASS, JOSH! The guy sticks his tongue up my FUCKING ASS! What the fuck!” I started laughing and shaking my head. “So now get this. I’m all horned up and ready to fuck the wall if I have to, and he begs me to fuck him so he can show me some good moves for fucking. I couldn’t help myself, Josh. We fucked raw even. I thought I was out of my mind. He rode my cock, then he had me fuck him doggy style, then missionary style which is where he came all over himself, then he took my load right up his FUCKING ASS! And I gave it to him. Man did I give him a fucking load that time. The blow job was nothing compared to the fuck load I gave him. I mean I put it to him. Then I collapsed on top of him getting my gut all sticky with his fucking cum, my cock still in his ass, and the mother fucker kissed me, Josh, tongue and all. We fucking made out for several minutes until I came to my senses and backed off him after my cock slid out of his cum slimy ass. I laid there and shook thinking of what just happened and what I had done. I started to cry and he started to cry. Then we held each other and cried together, then consoled each other. He told me he loved me, Josh. He told me he had loved me ever since he knew me which was most of our lives when you figured it out. I thought I fucking lost my man card, Josh. I was so confused. What the fuck was the matter with me? I set out to change him and I almost got caught up in the whole mess myself,” he said almost shaking remembering the details of what happened.
“You love him, Dawson. There’s no denying the two of you really love each other. He loves you to a different degree than you love him. There’s nothing wrong with that. I honestly think what you did was beautiful and very loving,” I said hugging him a little. It took a real man to love your friend like you did. In fact, I’m proud of you, Dawson. You did what you had to do to make your friend happy and to really show him you honestly do love him. More power to you.”
“Josh, that doesn’t change anything though. I wanted to spend time to get him away from these crazy gay ideas he has and get him back on the straight and narrow. Just the opposite happened, and I helped facilitate it. It’s my fault to an extent,” he said exasperated, feeling guilty. “All those years we played around and I should have cut it off years before I did. I just thought he’d eventually grow out of it. Well, that didn’t happen, and then here I go promoting it again. I can’t deny I liked it, though. I mean that was one hell of an orgasm I had and a load I gave him. Makes me shiver just to think about it. Haven’t had one like that since the last time we did it or maybe when you blew me this last fall. That was pretty powerful in itself. I never raw fucked him before, but he said it was so much better than using a condom and since we had never had sex with anyone else without a condom, he said it was perfectly safe. That’s not going to make my dick fall off or anything doing it raw like that is it, Josh?”
“Dawson, I think you’re safe there, buddy. You guys are clean. So you actually enjoyed anal sex with your best friend, huh?” I had to ask that question.
“I’m not going to lie to you, Josh. It was hot. In fact, we did it again that night in the middle of the night. That time was even hotter than the first time. I mean we really made it special. He woke m up in the middle of the night sucking on my cock. He made me so fucking hard and that ass of his was so fucking hot, I couldn’t help myself. I thought I lost every sperm cell in my body the first time, but I gave him one hell of a load again the second time. Then we made out again. That’s not the point, though, I didn’t want it to be that way. I love the guy, truly I do, but I need to change him back to being straight again for his own good.”
“Dawson, you truly do love the guy to have had that much sex with him, so let him be who he is. You may not want to have sex with him anymore, but Drew is who he is and if you love him, you’ll let him be himself. You’ll only make him a mental basket case if you try to force him to be someone he’s not. He’ll end up hating you for it. You love him too much for that to happen. The loss of your friendship is not worth it. I think you know that. Underneath that gruff self of yours there’s this great heart. And between your legs is a one hell of a nice piece of man meat.” I had to throw that in there also to feed his large ego. It seemed to work.
“Yeh, I woke up the next morning with him sucking my morning hardon once again. He had his boner in my face so I jacked him off while he sucked me off. The fucker took my morning load and he SWALLOWED it, Josh! He swallowed my fucking cum! Damn, Josh. That just ain’t right. He told me he wanted part of me in him. Well he got that alright. He got two large loads up his ass and another one down his throat. I guess that took care of having some of me in him.”
“So where did he cum? What happened to his load?” I curiously asked being the smartass I was.
“Uh, um, I guess it just flew out somewhere, maybe on the pillow or something,” he said trying not to remember. I had other ideas, but was willing to bet I’d never hear the truth about it, although I was stymied he was telling me any of this so I settled for what information I got.
“Sure it did. I hope you cleaned it up before your mother had to deal with it in the wash.” He looked a little embarrassed. “So did you make any progress with your ‘straight talk’ on the way home?”
“Not exactly. He gave me another blow job on the way home after he tortured me sexually while I was trying to drive. I didn’t cum in his mouth that time though. I didn’t let that happen this time. Hell he just would have spit it out the window and got the car all dirty doing it.”
“So where did you cum when he blew you on the way back?” I asked, but he acted like he didn’t want to tell me.
“We drove down an old country gravel road and into a field right off the road. We got in the back seat and I fucked him raw one more time. He took my load up his ass again. Let that crazy fucker try to wash that shit out of his underwear this week sometime is all I have to say. Gawd, Josh. Nothing I had planned worked this weekend. It all went south.”
“I think it all went up Drew’s ass or down his throat if you ask me. Dawson, I can’t believe you. Are you sure you don’t have the same inclinations as Drew? Maybe you two really love each other with your hearts and your bodies, and you just can’t bring yourself to admit it. Are you sure you’re straight?”
“Damn straight, Josh. I fucked my bitch three times last night just to prove it to myself. I had to get Drew’s ass out of my fucking mind. Damn his ass was nice to my cock though. I’m kind of large and I don’t know how I kept from hurting the poor guy, but he took it like a champ and loved every inch of it. The boy has some stamina. I will say that. I really did like the feel of his ass though, nice and tight, loving your cock with every stroke, much different than a loose pussy.”
“Unbelievable. Why are you telling me all this? You and Drew should have kept all this intimacy to yourself as something special, only to be remembered privately between the two of you, Dawson. There wasn’t any need for me to know any of this. I really don’t understand why you told me.”
“I thought you might understand what it meant, Josh. I thought you might like to know how deeply I love my friend and how much I really want to help save him if I can. I’m desperate, if you can’t tell,” he said with a hint of desperation, but I wasn’t so sure.
“Dawson, you love Drew. Let him be. The knowledge of the intimacy the two of you shared is safe with me forever. I won’t even let Drew know you told me anything. I respect your friendship and the fact you cared enough about Drew and trusted me enough to tell me any of this. I have to admire you in a way, but I’m not exactly sure just how yet. There has to be some meaning in there somewhere, and I think it’s love. It got expressed a little strangely and in a way not anticipated, but it’s still love. Congratulations, Dawson. You have a heart and you know how to use it. I think you and Drew are fine. He seems really happy today laughing it up with Jack and I before I came in here. He’ll never say a word about any of this out of his love for you, Dawson. I think it’s wonderful the two of you had such a loving weekend together and were able to share so much of yourselves.”
“Thanks, Josh. I appreciate you listening. If you have any suggestions on how to resolve any of this, I’m all ears,” he said as he stood up. I got up and hugged him. The fucker had a boner from talking about his sexual escapades with his friend. Of course I had to run my hand over his thick cock constrained by his swim trunks, feeling its length and girth, admiring what I had hold of.
“Damn, Dawson. I’m sure Drew really loved that. What’s not to love about a big cock like this. I might have to take you home with me for a weekend if I could have that big one, raw up my ass.” Drew pushed me playfully.
“Don’t start, Josh. I have enough problems with Drew. I don’t need you also.” I patted him on his ass as I left him to join Drew and Jack once again, smiling all the way back.
Jack was in the pool with Drew on the side. I could tell they were just shooting the shit as I joined them. “What was that all about?” Jack asked. Drew looked interested also.
“Dawson wanted to talk to me about psychology and how to get it to work for you. He said you guys had a great weekend together, Drew, traveling home and spending time together. Good for you guys. You ought to do it more often,” I said smiling at him.
“We did have a great time, Josh. I think it brought us closer together in a way. Made me happy anyway,” he said smiling. I hadn’t seen him this relaxed in a long time. It was great to see him happy.
I didn’t sleep well through the night, tossing and turning, worried about Eric and his family and potential marital situation. It just wasn’t fair he had worked so hard to be in school, did so well on the wrestling team, was admired by other athletes, was becoming a fraternity brother and well accepted by not only his pledge class, but his future frat brothers. He was doing well in academics and had a promising future. All because of one little sperm cell gone awry, his whole life was going to change. I was hurt because he was hurting. When someone you care about so close to you hurts, you hurt with them. In most cases your friends help carry you and share your hurt, but in this case, I couldn’t share my burden with anyone but Eric nor could he share his with anyone but me. That was going to be hard. I figured I could share this with Jake as he’d never tell a soul and the secret would be totally safe. I didn’t dare tell Allen though, not right now anyway. Therefore I had one sleepless night. I finally fell asleep not long before we had to get up. When the alarm finally went off, Allen was spooning me instead of me spooning him. I felt the hard head of his cock up against my asshole. I had to admit, it did fell kind of good there. Still, it wasn’t seeking entry, just teasing for some reason. I pulled his arm over me and kissed his hand. Then he moved his hand to cup my balls and cock kissing the back of my neck, like I usually did him. He playfully teased my morning hardon with his fingertips.
“You gonna to tell me what’s bothering you?” he asked in a whisper, sounding still half asleep.
“I’m okay. Why?”
“No you’re not, Josh. You’ve been tossing and turning all night long. You kept waking me up. You don’t usually move at night, and here I am doing to you what you normally do to me. I have to admit, it feels kind of good, but that doesn’t solve your problems. Tell me what it is, and maybe I can help. Remember friends help friends. You know how much I love you. I’ll do whatever I can to help you with whatever’s bugging you.”
“Allen, it’s not me. I’m just concerned about a mutual friend of ours that I really don’t know how to help. It hurts me I don’t have a way to solve his problem. I just don’t know what to do, and you can see how it does bother me. I can’t stand it.”
“Josh, you can’t solve the world’s problems. People make choices and they have to live with those choices. If you make bad choices you can’t always expect your friends to make them right for you,” Allen said.
“He knows I can’t make it right. I just feel bad I don’t know how to help him. I wish there was something I could do, but there really isn’t. It’s making me miserable, Allen.”
“Josh, sometimes you care too much. You do that with all of us. Look how you put up with me when I was lost. I must have driven you crazy with all my stupidity I was only too proud to display. You hung in there for me when most friends would have let me wallow in my misery. Not you. You loved me in spite of myself. I’ll never forget that, Josh. I’ll love you the rest of my life because of your kindness and your friendship. Plus, I have to love that love muscle between your legs too, especially up against my ass every morning. I’ll never ever be able to forget that,” he said chuckling. I had to kiss him passionately for that one. Didn’t help my boner situation. “I assume this friend with the problem is Eric? I could tell you weren’t yourself after you talked to him last night. What’d he do, get his girlfriend pregnant and now he doesn’t know what to do?”
“Gees, Allen. Where do you come up with all this?” I just had to ask.
“I figured as much. Happens all the time. Straight guys have to be careful where they stick their cocks and spit their loads. We just have to enjoy ours.”
“You can’t say a word to anyone about this, Allen. I’m serious. It would kill Eric if he thought anyone else knew. Not a word. Please?”
“Josh, mum’s the word. Your confidence will not be compromised. Let me know if there is anything we can do to cheer him up though. I love him also. He’s a wonderful guy and friend. I know how tight you two guys are being in the frat together and all. Plus I know you share more than just the frat. He loves you also, Josh. But, hell, who knows you and doesn’t love you. You’re just so loveable,” Allen said as kissed me on the back of the neck again making my cock even harder. “Do we need to get up, or can I try to make you happy?”
“Allen, you make me happy every day. I love you so much. You’re so wise, but still crazy at the same time, which is what I love about you. OBB too. You guys are great together. Jake and I marvel at you guys sometimes. Well, maybe marvel at your stamina for sex mainly, I guess.”
“That’s not fair. It’s not all about sex. We have other redeeming values besides sex. We’re great athletes in the diving area. We’re great students, and we suck a mean cock and fuck a mean asshole. Well, maybe that’s sex, I guess. But we’re hot looking also.”
“Hey, you got me there. We’ve got 15 minutes. Are your going to stick that pole of yours in my ass, or are you going to talk me to death for the next 15 minutes?” I asked wiggling my ass up against his hard cock. Allen shoved his cock up my hole so fast it almost took my breath away. He fucked me pretty damn hard as he gave me a nice reach-around. He came in my ass as I shot a nice load up against the wall behind my bed. We came down from our post orgasm high watching my wad slide down the painted concrete block wall. Allen reached over and grabbed some and tasted it. Then he kissed me tenderly. “I love you, Allen.”
“I love you too, Josh. You got me last night, now I got you this morning. We both walked away with a load in our ass. Too bad Eric didn’t do the same.”
“Allen, not a word. Remember?”
“I got it, Josh. Can I suck his cock in the shower this morning? I do love that big cock of his. I guess his girlfriend loved it a little too much.”
“Allen!”
“Okay, okay. Enough with the Eric jokes, but we have to remain as normal as possible around him, and I do suck his cock from time to time in the shower.”
“Maybe today isn’t a good day for that. How about we play that by ear.” I slapped his bare ass and tried to hold his load inside me until I could get to the toilet. Then we hit the shower. Kevin arrived looking a little down.
“So what’s your problem this morning, Sunshine?” Allen asked.
“Oh, the whole idea of going out with Jason, his girlfriend, and another girl his girlfriend fixed me up with, is just stupid. I was miserable the entire time. You try making like you’re happy, when the guy you love is making over a girl in front of you. All I wanted was his cock up my ass the entire time and I had to listen to girl talk. The stupid part of that was he seemed to enjoy it. Go figure. I think we’re nearing the end of our relationship, at least our sexual one anyway. He can’t make me straight even if he thinks he can be. We’re wasting precious time, we could be spending together and loving each other, trying to entertain stupid women. It isn’t right. I don’t think I can keep doing this, even though Jason says he’ll make it up to me. He doesn’t have time to make it up to me if we keep going out with those girls,” Kevin said disgusted over the whole situation.
“Kev, do the girls sense anything between you and Jason? Do they have any idea of the relationship you guys have?” I had to ask.
“I don’t think so. They just think we’re really close, like asshole buddies. If they only knew we were really asshole buddies. But I don’t think so, or they probably wouldn’t have anything to do with us. Maybe that’s what I ought to do sometime, kiss him on the lips passionately and then they’d freak out and leave us alone,” he said almost convinced he might want to try that.
“Kev, I don’t think that would help the situation at all. You can make excuses not to go out with them anymore, but I wouldn’t ruin his reputation and make a fool out of yourself doing it. That wouldn’t be right. Just drop out of the equation. Jason will get the message. Either he loves you or he doesn’t. He can’t make you be someone you’re not. You control that outcome. If he doesn’t love you enough to follow, then it’s time to move on.”
“You’re right, Josh. I think my dating women days are just about over. Fuck that shit. I need cock and if it isn’t Jason’s, then I’ll find another. He can come crawling back. What’s with Eric? I thought one of his parents died as down as he is.”
“You’ll have to ask him, Kev. I’m just his next door neighbor. Let me know if it’s anything serious. We all love him.”
“I know, Josh. I think you love him just as much as I do if not more. He seems to relate better to you than he does to me for some reason, but I’m fine with that. It just kills me to see him down like this. He has to put up with me all the time in that condition and tries his best to cheer me up and pump me up, now he’s there. I don’t know how to help him. I’ll see if I can drag out whatever’s bothering him. You know Eric though. He can be stubborn. I’ll keep you posted.”
“Speaking of posts, how’s that one hanging between your legs, Kevin?” Allen asked as he took hold of Kevin’s semi-hard penis.
“I’d be lying to you if I told you it didn’t need some manly attention, but I’m a little short on time this morning. Maybe I’ll check with you and OBB later tonight if you guys wouldn’t mind some company,” Kevin replied.
“Always available to help out a good friend, Kevin,” Allen said smiling, then leaned down and kissed Kevin’s cock, then taking a couple of sucks on his flaccid cock while he was there, making Kevin start to stiffen. We left him with a boner as we got out of the shower to dry off. Eric arrived just as we were finishing up drying off. I quickly kissed him, which made him smile. Then he jumped into the shower with Kevin where we heard him do a double take.
“You’re not going to fuck me with that thing are you?” Eric asked Kevin, noticing his fully erect boner. “Looks like the boys have been at it again.” Allen and I took that as our que to leave.
I was a little apprehensive about my accounting lecture this morning. At least it wasn’t my lab which would have been one on one with KS. I had an extra day to figure out what to say to KS when I had his lab. I would, however, get to see him for a couple of moments in the lecture hall. I wasn’t sure what to expect, but in a way, I was anxious to see him again, if nothing else than to make sure our friendship was still intact and no damage had been done. When entering the lecture hall, I saw KS down in the front talking to the professor. He didn’t see me yet so I took my seat in the area I normally sat. It was only a couple of minutes when he noticed me, probably looking in the direction of where I normally sat, looking to see if I had arrived or not. He came walking up my way. Another TA stopped to talk to him before he made it to me.
“Hey, Josh. Good to see you got back okay. Did you get any rest?” he asked casually.
“Yep, made it back last night. What time did you and Jay get back?” I asked just as casually.
“We got back early afternoon. We had an early brunch then hit the road. There’s a lot of great restaurants over there with some great food. It was a nice trip. The roads were okay, but you know that anyway,” he said making small talk. I just smiled at him which made him smile back. “Are we okay with everything?” he asked a little nervously.
“More than okay now, KS. I think we kind of accidentally bonded this weekend, but that’s all good,” I said using his pet name. It made him smile, but nervous at the same time, with him looking around to see if anyone heard me say KS.
“Good, I’m kind of relieved,” he said blushing a little at the thought of bonding. “I do like the name, Josh. It’s kind of personal. I’m really looking forward to our discussion this week. How’s tomorrow afternoon before your swim practice. I think you said you had an hour between your last class and swim practice. We can kind of review some of the structure of the enterprise and maybe make plans to get together when we have more time if that suits you.”
“Suits me fine, KS. I’m looking forward to it. Anything I need to bring you’re particularly interested in?” I asked.
“No, just you for now, I guess. I mean not that I’m interested in just you which I am of course. That didn’t sound right. I mean I’m interested in you and what you have done with the business and all. Well, you too. I admire you. I mean I admire you for what you’ve achieved.” I stopped him by grabbing his arm and putting my finger to my lips.
“It’s okay, KS. I know what you mean. You don’t have to apologize for it. I got you. And I am looking forward to talking to you. No problems, we’ll be fine,” I managed to get out just as the bell started ringing. He squeezed my arm and took off as he said ‘see you then’. Well he was more nervous than I was. I still remembered, and I’m sure he did, the kisses we managed to have on Saturday night. He was a pretty hot number. I was actually looking forward more now than ever to our private teacher/student conference. It might be more interesting than most, I kind of suspected. At least if I had anything to do with it.
At the end of class, KS was talking to another student so I scurried off to meet Jake at the Student Union. I told Jake about the encounter with KS. He almost laughed suspecting how the conversation went. We were chowing down at the SU when Trevor and Betty saw us and headed our way. I really didn’t need to get bogged down in a conversation with them, but he was our new best friend I guess, so we had to at least say ‘hi’.
“Hey, guys. So how was the CNB this weekend? Did they miss me in the dance lineup?” Trevor asked.
“Yeh, Trev, we missed you. Half the crowd didn’t show up because you weren’t headlining this week. Go figure,” I said with my smartass self, getting a ‘yeh, right’ from him. “Now if you want to come back next week for the wet underwear contest, then that might bring the crowd back again,” I said making him smile and Betty giggle.
“You guys are too much. I can’t keep up with you. So I was wondering if we might get together again some time soon? I think I might need to expound upon our last session. I still have some of the same problems thinking about you guys, and I just don’t know how to satisfy that curiosity,” he said. Now he was getting a little personal.
“Trevor, we put you through the test. You’re straight. Admit that you are and go on. Don’t torture yourself otherwise. Betty makes you happy so just stay happy with Betty and you’ll be fine. You already told us you and Betty had the best sex you’ve ever had after you met with us. That meant you were totally convinced you were straight and actually proved you liked it that way. No need for us to muddy the waters again. Give it up, Trevor. If not for your sake, for Betty’s sake,” I told him as Betty clutched his arm and acted like she adored him.
“I know you’re probably right, but there are a few more questions I need to ask you guys, some curiosity that still lingers.”
“You know curiosity killed a cat, Trevor. Not good to have that kind of curiosity,” Jake chimed in.
“No, not that kind, guys. I just have some deep seated feelings I want you guys to help me sort through, and then I think I’ll be okay,” he said still pleading for another meeting.
“Look Trevor, you’ve seen Jake and I naked. Curiosity satisfied there. You don’t have to worry about us with Betty. No curiosity there on our part, not that you’re not hot, Betty, but to straight guys only. You’re straight, Trevor, and find Betty extremely hot and have a great relationship with her, so why muddy the waters.” At this point I could see he was holding something back and visibly shaken. He didn’t speak right away.
“I really need to see you guys again if you could just please come over one more time. Please,” he said pleading in a nice way. I looked at Jake and he looked at me.
“Alright, one more time, Trevor, but this better be constructive. I think you’re wasting your time and ours also, and definitely Betty’s time with you. She should be beating you over the head right now for even asking,” I said looking at her.
“Actually, she suggested it,” he said which caused me to do a double take. I looked at him curiously. “She thinks I need to get it all totally out of my system, and then I’ll be fine. But until I do that, my curiosity gets the best of me.” I gave Betty a strange look.
“He’s right, guys. I think it best you get him straightened out once and for all,” Betty said which was the most words we had ever heard her speak since we first met her.
“What if it goes the other way, Betty? Are you prepared for that?” I asked.
“It won’t. He just has a strange infatuation with you two guys, not the male gender in general. He feels some sort of connection with you two for some reason, and I really don’t think it’s sexual. Can you kind of understand that?” she asked.
“I think it’s a wild shot, but I guess it’s possible. Like needing a bro to hang around with and confide in for guy things? Is that what you’re trying to say?” I asked.
“Close, I think, Josh. He never really had many guy friends. He’s had a lot of girlfriends, me being the longest he’s ever stayed with, which I guess I should be grateful. I think he just needs some male bonding, not really male sex. I’ve been studying up on this in Psychology, which is why I signed us up for the class we’re in with you guys. Hopefully, between you and the books, we can find some answers. Hang in there a little with us and see if we can’t resolve his issues.” Wow, we just got a whole paragraph out of Betty which was almost unheard of. She was smarter than I thought. Usually the good lookers didn’t have as much upstairs, but this one was hot and smart. Go figure. Well, at least she had good taste in men. Trevor was no dog. He was a hottie and had equipment any gay guy could admire and enjoy. We’d seen that first hand. Hell, I even held his equipment in my hand which made him nervous, I remembered.
“Okay, okay. I think we get the picture. Jake and I’ll be by one more time just to reset your straightness and get you back on the road to heteroville. Good grief, you’re a chore, Trevor. You need some straight guy friends though. Jake and I don’t share the same interests as you do, so you really need more straight friends. We can talk business, swimming, athletics, farming – we have a lot of interests, but we can’t talk pussy with you and shouldn’t be talking dick. Therefore, you need straight friends. Most of the guys we know are not straight, so we can’t help you there.” I was tired of talking about it anymore at this point.
“I trust you guys more than anyone. I feel some sort of connection with you for some reason, and I don’t know why. Maybe because of the bonding we did at the CNB.” I stopped him there.
“That’s not the type of bonding we should have been having. That kind of bonding was not helpful to your kind. It wasn’t constructive, Trevor. Anyway, Jake and I need to eat and get to our next class. So we’ll see you guys later,” I said turning away from them and back to my sandwich, cluing them it was time for them to move on. They thanked us again then walked away, arm in arm. What an enigma.
“Betty might be right, Josh,” Jake suggested. “He doesn’t have any male friends for all we know and from what Betty says. I’m sure he’s done his share of screwing around, but he’s probably never had guy friends to hang out with in their jocks, shooting hoops and sweating their balls off together, showering together in the gym and stuff like that, real guy stuff. So he thinks he’s interested in us sexually when he really isn’t. He’s kind of like Sean in a way. Sean likes to hang out naked. He’s not interested in having sex with guys, but he likes the male bonding thing, being naked around each other without it affecting anything. I guess in a way it was what Trevor was trying to do the other night by having all of us take off all our clothes. There were no inhibitions between us then. He didn’t seem to like being touched. That was weird to him, but he enjoyed being open, free and naked with us. We were buds, open with each other, totally transparent and naked. Maybe we need to get Trevor to hang out with Sean. That might work,” Jake offered.
“You might have a point, Jake. Some guys miss that bromance stuff, or male bonding, whatever you want to call it. It’s a far cry from being gay, but yet, it’s just a thing between guys, being together and just letting their hair down and dicks hang out. Nothing sensuous about it at all, just being open and free with one another, letting a little testosterone loose, I guess. I get it in a way. You may have stumbled onto something, although Betty kind of brought it up. We need to think about that some more.”
I always hated when lunch was over because I had to leave my beloved Jake. We managed to sneak in a few kisses in the shadows of the SU before heading off to our afternoon classes. Although I thought Jake and I were as close as you could possibly get, I continued to love him more and more and feel closer to him all the time. He warmed my heart every moment I got to spend with him.
In my hour before swim class I dropped in on Kevin to see if he picked up any vibes from Eric. “Kev, you get any insight into Eric? Maybe he’s just tired or something. He didn’t seem too bad when I talked to him the other night before you got back from your double date with Jason. By the way, that had to suck. That would be like Jake and I double dating with two women and he giving me the cold shoulder for the girl. That would not go over well with me. I would consider that almost the final nail in the coffin,” I said putting my two cents in.
“No on the Eric thing. He’s probably fine. He always gets a little melancholy every time he has to come back to school and leave his girlfriend. Give him a couple of days and we all seem to cheer him up. Frankly, I consider you, Allen and OBB more my family and friends than I do anyone at home. I guess you should count Jason in that circle, but he’s really starting to piss me off with this girlfriend thing. He’s not going to change me, and if he thinks he can change, he’s just postponing the inevitable disappointment. You and I both know it ain’t gonna happen. But I’m about done with his little charade. He can go on pretending if he wants, but I don’t care if people know I’m gay. I’m proud of it and that’s the way I want to live my life. If they like me, they like me. If they don’t, they don’t. I really don’t care one way or the other. I will be friends with anyone that accepts me for who I really am. I think I’ll start spending more time with Calvin and see where that goes. We have a good time together, it’s just I wish he was into the extracurricular activities that he probably isn’t aware of. I may have to push that a little. Maybe you could help with that, Josh, kind of like you did with Jason.”
“Kev, leave me the heck out of it. I get in enough trouble on my own for ‘transformations’. I don’t need a list of Josh disciples Find and cherish your own love, Kev. You’re a great guy. If there is interest it will be shown. Hell, if worse comes to worse, just ask Calvin if he ever thought about a relationship with another guy. All he can say is yes or no. I don’t think he’ll hate you for it, as great as you guys get along now. He might say, that doesn’t appeal to him, but he still likes you as a friend. You haven’t lost anything. I know the best thing to happen is for you both to find each other together and hopefully, that will happen. Keep pushing towards that goal. Find the things in life that touch him in some way, things that are meaningful to him, like trust, friendship, caring, support and even love. Get into some deep conversations with him. That way you find out what kind of character he really has. Is he emotional or care free. Do certain acts of kindness and friendship make a deep impression on him. Stuff like that. You’ll be able to tell. He may fall in love with you if you touch his soul deeply enough. Follow your heart, Kev. I can’t tell you that enough,” I said looking him in the eyes. Kevin hugged me deeply.
“You know I already fell in love with you a long time ago. I know I can’t have you, but that doesn’t stop me from loving you, Josh. Hell, even Eric loves you. Straight, gay, friends or acquaintances, they all love Josh. You affect everyone that way as wonderful as you are. I just hope enough of you rubs off on me someday,” he said, then kissed me on the lips. I kissed him back and squeezed his ass. “Anytime, Josh. Anytime. Take me whenever you so desire. That’s yours anytime.”
“Kev, you’re crazy, but I love you just the same. I guess I better find Allen and get to swim practice. Say hello to Calvin for me. I guess I could tell him what a great guy and friend you are when I see him sometime. Bring him to the basketball game this week and he can sit with us, unless you and Jason are double dating with babes for that also.”
“Don’t go there, Josh. Not going to happen,” Kevin said emphatically.
Allen asked me on the way to swim practice if Eric was any better. I told him I had not seen him since this morning, but Kevin had noticed something was wrong also. Allen felt so bad for him. We got naked in the locker room with Andy and OBB, changed into our trunks and then headed off to our respective squads. Andy told me on the way to our squads he couldn’t get over Francis’ history with Sky. I told Andy I still believed Francis enjoyed some male sexual interaction regardless of whether he thought he was straight. It appeared to me that he was forcing himself to be straight although his body might want something different. Still he seemed to be diligent in trying to be straight, except with maybe a few people he cared about such as us. Andy said it was all hard to understand sometimes, but he had no desire to ever have a sexual relationship with a woman. I told him never say never, but I felt the same way only I had a few occurrences, and couldn’t say they were that great. Andy just shook his head at me. I told him it was purely experimental of course, as I was open to see what it was like. It wasn’t that great, I had to admit to him. He said he didn’t need to know.
Jack was all happy to see us when we arrived and slapped Andy and I on the ass. “So how was the ole CNB this weekend? Get to see any new hot cock over there?” he asked all excited to hear about the weekend.
“Jack, by the way, we’re having a wet underwear contest this next weeked, and I think you might have a shot at winning it if you showed up. Maybe Ted would like to be there also. I mean that nice long cock of his is sure to get the boys excited. You show them a little of that orange bush and who knows what might happen. Andy and I would love to have you and Ted in the contest. Might meet some other hot guys also and have a good time,” I said trying to persuade him to participate. Andy said he should come as it would be a lot of fun, then left us to go join his squad.
“Let me think about that one. The part where there are other hot guys has me interested. Might be kind of hot. Not sure what Ted might think about it. He may not want to be in the contest, but he might go to watch. Gees, I might have to invest in some white bikini briefs just to be able to have my junk show through. I have to admit, it does sound intriguing, Josh. Let me think about it.”
“So’d you take care of Drew last Friday afternoon? Is he any more relieved?” I had to ask.
“Josh, that boy loves a cock up his ass more than anything else. I think he and his girlfriend are pretty much done. He says half the time it takes a while to get hard with her anymore, and she gives him shit about it. He says he tells her to give him head, but she doesn’t like doing it, and then when she does, it’s nothing like us. I think the kid has almost resigned himself to being gay. He just isn’t sure how to have a relationship with another guy. The sex part he thinks he can handle, but he isn’t sure about the relationship. I told him to just go with the flow. Anyway, he gave me a nice little nut that afternoon. He had a great one also. Nothing like taking the pressure off your balls. He’s got a hot little ass also. Damn, you should tap that more often. I’m telling you it’s there anytime you want it. He’s like needy now,” Jack said smiling.
“Jack I have more than I can handle right now. Drew needs someone to care about, not just someone to tap that ass of his. You and I are recreational to him. He needs something more meaningful, someone he can count on to be there for him. We need to help him find that someone if we can.”
“You know the crazy thing is, Josh, I think Drew’s hung up on Dawson of all people,” he said just as seriously as he could.
“What the fuck, Jack? That doesn’t make any sense at all. Dawson won’t give him the time of day in that area. You know what he’s like.”
“Josh, I’m telling you, Drew has some fixation on Dawson. Remember they’ve been friends and messed around since they’ve had hair on their dicks. Dawson moved on like most of the hetero guys do, but Drew never quite got over it. You know that stuff happens.”
“Tell me about it. I saw the same thing with my suite mates Kevin and Eric. Kevin never got over it and Eric moved on. Eric was kind enough to care about Kevin and stay his best friend, but the two don’t have sex anymore. We finally got Kevin fixed up with some other guys, and I take care of him every now and then. Plus Allen and OBB take him for a ride every so often. He has a boyfriend now who thinks he needs to be straight. It’s a mess, but Kevin is surviving, luckily. He’s a great guy with a big cock. He’ll find someone.”
“Maybe you need to introduce him to me. I can always help him out if he has a big dick. I don’t mind spreading around the love a little. You know me, Josh,” Jack offered only too eagerly.
“Jack, you have Ted and who knows how many others on the side. Kevin’s looking for a relationship, kind of like Drew in a way. You have a dick for hire almost, but the boys need something more lasting. I thought you and Ted were getting to the relationship stage also. Everything okay there?”
“We’re fine, Josh. It’s just my willie needs some variety once in a while. It gets hungry for a different holes. And then there’s that cock of yours my ass gets hungry for. It’s been a while, Josh. Maybe you and I need to get together,” he said somewhat excited rubbing his groin.
“Can’t say I’d pass on the opportunity if it presented itself, Jack, but right now, I have more than I can take care of. I pretty much drained my balls this weekend. Weekends are hard on me with what we have to take care of at the CNB,” I replied.
“Gotta get over there and get into the action,” Jack said. “I’ll try to talk Ted into going this weekend for sure with that wet underwear contest. That’s gotta be hot.”
Just then Les walked by and flipped back the leg of his trunks giving me a shot of his cock head. I started laughing. He was grinning and took off. “I’m telling you, Josh. That boy wants you in the worst way. Beautiful cock too. You have to tap that sometime. I mean you just have to.”
Drew came up to us smiling, probably remembering the hot fuck he got on Friday from Jack. “Dawson wants to talk to you today, Josh. I think it has something to do with the state championship. He told me when I saw you to tell you the two of you needed to talk. He said to meet him in coach’s office.”
“You have a good weekend, buddy?” I asked.
“Yeh, it was good. Dawson and I went back home for the weekend. He had some sort of family reunion thing going and my parents said it had been awhile since I was home, and they’d like to see me, so I rode home with him. It was good to see my family again, and Dawson said he had a decent time at his reunion. I got to see his parents also while we were there. We got in late Friday night so I spent the night at this house then my parents picked me up the next morning. His parents claimed me as another son as much as I hung out at their house and spent tons of sleep overs there. Dawson and I were pretty much brothers in our parents’ eyes when we were growing up.”
“Cool. Then they were probably just as happy to see you also. Sounds like a decent trip then.”
“Yeh, it was nice to see everyone. The trip was a couple of hours each way, but not a bad trip at all,” he said smiling, as Jack was squeezing his buns one at a time, giving him a nice boner in his trunks. It was nice to get away. Anyway, go see what Dawson needs, and I’ll time Jack for a couple of runs.”
“Watch Jack’s hands, Drew. He already gave you a hardon,” I said winking at him as I went off to find Dawson. Drew was giving Jack a mischievous smile.
Dawson was talking to one of the other squad leaders when I found him outside coach’s office. He motioned for me to wait for him while he finished talking to the guy. That was okay as I got to see Erin’s profile in his trunks. He had a nice bulge there. I had seen Erin in the showers a few times and he was definitely nicely hung. I just never interacted with him that much so, other than enjoying a nice view of his cock and balls once in a while, I really didn’t know much about him. The more I stood and looked at him, the more he became more interesting. He was taller, about 6’ 1” I’d say, blonde hair, blue eyes, a pair of beautiful nipples that needed chewing on in the worst way, a slight, well cropped, treasure trail, some closely cropped arm pit hair, shapely arm muscles, legs to die for that you would want wrapped around you when you fucked the hell out his tight ass and the nicest bulge out in front of him, tightly restrained by his swim trunks, showing me the most wonderful profile and stimulating my middle leg. I really never paid him that much attention before, but Dawson, making me stand here and observe him as they talked, compelled me to scrutinize his beauty. He was just one of the ones I saw coming and going before, but standing still and studying this beautiful male specimen was actually making me kind of hard. Erin kept looking over at me also, as Dawson drowned him in some conversation about swimming, I supposed. Erin had a couple of days growth of facial hair, either meaning he was lazy about shaving or he liked that shadowed look. Okay, the conversation was dragging on so I had to study his toes. His toenails were well manicured, meaning he took special care in the way he looked and looked to others. He was meticulous about his presentation. Why was all this crap rolling through my head when I had to talk to Dawson, I have no idea, but since he was subjecting me to study Erin, I certainly didn’t turn the opportunity down. Erin might be one to get to know if I had more time, but, obviously, I did not. But, he was definitely hot to look at for the moment. My boy downstairs thought so also.
“Is that a stiffy in your trunks, Josh? Are you happy to see me?” Dawson asked as he finally got through talking to Erin who smiled and half waved at me as he left, giving me a nice view of his ass as he walked away. Damn, he was getting to me. I definitely had to follow up with him sometime.
“Yes, Dawson. I was just thinking of having your hot ass on the end of my cock when I win the state championship. We’re going to have one hot time, buddy. You might as well start getting that tight hole of yours prepared because the big boy is coming,” I said in my smartass voice. In fact, I was thinking we needed to get tested for STD’s beforehand so we do the deed raw. You know, making it more sensuous and meaningful. Who knows, we may even fall in love.”
“Josh, you are one bent and sometimes sick person, but kind of fun in a way,” Dawson replied as he unlocked the door to the coach’s office and turned on the lights. “Take a seat,” he said pointing to a chair in front of the coach’s desk as he shut the door behind us. He sat in a chair right beside the one I sat in and turned it towards me. I thought it was a little strange as I expected him to sit in coach’s chair behind the desk. “Josh, the reason I wanted to talk to you was about Drew. I don’t know how to put this, but I need your help in turning my friend around. This gay thing has gotten out of hand and we need to bring it to a close,” he said putting me immediately on the defensive. “I know you, Jack and Andy are gay and I don’t have any problem with that. You are what you are and you pretty much stick to yourselves. You’ve even got the respect of the rest of the guys, but Drew, he’s not gay, Josh. He’s been my friend practically my whole life and he’s not gay. For the last several weeks he thinks he might be for some reasons we can’t begin to imagine. At first we just poo pooed it, thinking it was a passing phase. I mean you guys had fun and all at coach’s pool party, even I had some fun with you guys. That was all fun and private. We were boozed up and let our hair down and our dicks out. When it was over, it was over. It was all fun and enjoyable, even I got off a few times thanks to you with some horrendous orgasms I never thought possible.” I stopped him right there.
“Look Dawson, everyone is who they are,” I started to say when he cut me off.
“Josh, just hear me out and then we can discuss it. I’ll give you your chance, but I need to say this all first while I still can. I love Drew as my friend, my pal, my brother. We’ve been friends for years before we even had hair on our dicks. When we finally found our cocks and how much fun we could have with them, we all loved getting together and draining our balls with each other. You know, circle jerks with your friends and seeing who could cum the furthest, having fun getting off with one another. It was all fun and curious at that age of 12 or 13. Lots of fun and it felt great. Then we graduated to helping one another out. I have to admit at the time, a different cock, other than the one you jacked off continually all the time, felt kind of good in your hands and to see that baby explode, well that just made you want to cum that much harder. I get that. Now we get to the age where we are starting to like titties and pussy. We start dating and then we see who we can bed. Sometimes we fuck our girlfriends and then we fuck the girls that don’t have boyfriends that are looking for a stiff dick to stuff up their pussies to get off with. You know, the no strings attached kind that just want fucked and then tell you to get the hell out after they’ve used you and you used them. That was all kind of fun. Mutual needs get satisfied. The male species has come of age and has had sex, proven to himself he is a man and graduated to manhood, even though we don’t have a fucking idea of what’s ahead of us and what the real world is like. We all went through the stages and managed to survive somehow. Now we look at being serious, settling down, finding a mate for life and having children as we start our careers. Some want to wait and play the field, others have found a mate they are comfortable with in college and are making marriage plans after they graduate. I get that. I’m not far from that. My gal and I have been dating a couple of years and I think she’s the one I’ll probably end up marrying if everything stays pretty much the way it has, and we all graduate and move on. I’m comfortable with her and she is with me. We have a lot in common and enjoy being with one another. Such is life. The cycle continues over and over again,” he said finally pausing.
“So what’s the point, Dawson? That too can happen for a gay male. We aren’t that much different except for the gender thing,” I threw at him.
“My point is this, Josh. You are a man that understands the affairs of the heart. You truly care about your friends. You care about Drew like I care about Drew only you express it in a different way than I’m comfortable expressing it,” he said as he dropped his head into his hands almost like he was embarrassed about having to tell me something. “I love the guy too, Josh. Not like you do, sexually, although we’ve had some pretty hot times together over the years with me trying to accommodate him even though he should have grown out of the stage he still seems to be stuck in. I’d never admit that to another living soul other than to you, because I know you know the value of love and friendship. You, more than anyone else I know, understand it the way I like to think of it, from an altruistic standpoint. I love Drew. I truly love him as my brother, my confidant. He’s the other half of me. We have laughed together, we have cried together, we have bared our souls to each other. He’s a major part of my life, Josh. I know you understand that. Hell, we’ve even been intimate with one another ,so there’s no secrets between us. He knows every inch of my body and I know his. We have no inhibitions with each other. I’m as comfortable around him naked as I am clothed. I totally trust the guy and love him as my brother,” he said looking me straight in the eyes and putting his hands on my shoulders commanding my full attention as he spoke.
“I get it, Dawson. You truly love your friend. I commend you for that. But you need to know you two are two different people. His needs and wants differ from yours. You have been understanding and tolerant of that. That makes you a true friend. You love him regardless of who he chooses to be. I respect you for that, and am relieved for Drew, as that could have been devastating to your friend had you not. So what’s the problem? You haven’t always acted like you approved of his different interests, if I can put it that way, but you’ve come around eventually. You and Drew having more problems lately?”
“Josh, Josh. I need your help. I can’t let him throw his life away. And I’m not making value judgements about you, so don’t take it that way. You are truly mature enough in your desires and know full well how to navigate and choose your friends in your world. Drew doesn’t have a clue. Drew was doing fine with his girlfriend up until this year and for the first few months of this school year. I mean he’d get an itch for what I call some sort of kinky sex now and then. He always did love a Dildo up his ass or a cock when it was available. Gawd knows I had to do that for him a few times and then the itch was scratched, then healed, and he was back to normal for a while, fucking his bitch like the rest of us. Things were going good. But now, they’re not so good. I tried to warn you and Jack things were getting out of hand and we were losing him. I’ve all but lost him, Josh. I don’t think he knows the gravity of the situation for him. My parents love him like a son and this would just kill them if they knew he might be gay. Trust me on that one. We were home this weekend and they just loved him to death asking everything there was to know about him. They asked about his girlfriend and how the romance was progressing. He told them it was kind of rocky at the moment. They’ve met his girlfriend, Josh. They like his girlfriend as much as they like mine because we are almost brothers, we spent so much time together living at one another’s houses growing up. His parents and my parents are great friends. We’re all one big family at home, Josh. What I’m trying to say is Drew is still confused at the moment. I need you to convince him the gay world just isn’t his world. He won’t survive in that one. He needs to lead a normal life with the wife, kids, parents, friends, family surrounding him, sitting on the couch with me drinking beer watching football on Sundays while the wives are fixing food, chatting away about daycare and school and PTA and stuff, and the kids are playing together. He can’t be showing up at the house with Bruce without kids and sporting a big bulge in his pants. What do we tell the kids? Uncle Drew puts his pee pee in Bruce’s butthole. I don’t think so. No disrespect, Josh. I know whoever your mate is will be loved by everyone you know and especially by your family who support you in every way. I am way over dramatizing the situation here, but yet, there’s some truth to it. You have to admit it. It’s very awkward. I don’t want to lose Drew, Josh. I love him too much, maybe more than I should, but I can’t help that. We’ve been together through thick and thin for most of the years we’ve been alive. Do you know what I’m saying?” he asked almost exasperated. I put my hands on his shoulders and looked him straight in the eyes.
“Dawson, if you love your friend, accept him for who he is and what he needs to be in his mind and heart. That will only enhance the love and respect between you. You’ve got to let him be who he is. He will love you that much more being the true friend you are by continuing to love him no matter who he is, a truly wonderful person and friend who loves you back.”
“Josh, I just don’t think he knows all the ramifications of his actions here. If I thought he might totally be convinced beyond a shadow of a doubt he was really gay, I would have to accept him for that. I just don’t think he’s there yet. Maybe we have a chance to reverse the direction is what I’m asking. I’ve tried to talk to him and talk to him. He just makes light of the situation. We spent four hours in the car together this weekend going back home and coming back here. He even spent Friday night at my house, he was so excited to see my parents. We talked half the night. This whole trip probably only made things worse with a few things that happened.” Dawson put his head down in his hands once again. I lifted him up.
“Tell me what happened, Dawson. What made things worse? This is important for your friendship. What did you do or say to him?’’ I asked concerned, but noticing Drew was pretty happy when I was talking to him just before he sent me to Dawson. I had to imagine whatever happened wasn’t too terrible.
“I don’t know if I can even get it out of my mouth to tell you, Josh. It just almost makes me sick to say it.” Now I was totally intrigued. What had Dawson done to dissuade Drew from being gay that still had Drew smiling? I was really baffled at this point. “He, he, well we were talking about certain things while I was driving and he was sitting there trying to tease me and all. We were laughing, kind of like the old days when we were younger. He mentioned something about a freckle on my cock. I told him he was full of shit. We got to arguing and he unzipped my jeans and pulled out my willie after I told him he was full of shit, but he wanted to prove a point to me. Okay so he won the bet, but then he sucked me off while I was driving. I told him we were going to get caught but he kept on until I came in his mouth. Then he rolled down the window and spit out my load. He spit my load out, and half of it ended up on the side of the car. My dad even asked me how I got so much bird shit on the side of the car instead of the top. He even cleaned it off for me while I was home. I was never so embarrassed.”
“Why in the hell did you let him blow you, Dawson? I think you could have stopped that if you tried,” I said still amazed at what he just disclosed.
“Well it got worse, Josh. We always slept together in my bed when he stayed over. We don’t have that many bedrooms and I do have some younger brothers, one in high school and one in middle school so they each have their own rooms. We never think anything of sleeping together at our house. We talked for a long time about sex and things before going to sleep. I was trying to compare girlfriends and their various components and what turned them on. He was trying to show me what some of the guy triggers were. He played with my nipples which made me hard. We had taken a shower together before hitting the sack and nothing got played with other than my willie got washed off from the afternoon blow job he gave me. But then when he was trying to show me the trigger points, he had me lay on my stomach. I thought I was safe with that one since my cock was between me and the mattress, but then he sticks his tongue up my ass. UP MY ASS, JOSH! The guy sticks his tongue up my FUCKING ASS! What the fuck!” I started laughing and shaking my head. “So now get this. I’m all horned up and ready to fuck the wall if I have to, and he begs me to fuck him so he can show me some good moves for fucking. I couldn’t help myself, Josh. We fucked raw even. I thought I was out of my mind. He rode my cock, then he had me fuck him doggy style, then missionary style which is where he came all over himself, then he took my load right up his FUCKING ASS! And I gave it to him. Man did I give him a fucking load that time. The blow job was nothing compared to the fuck load I gave him. I mean I put it to him. Then I collapsed on top of him getting my gut all sticky with his fucking cum, my cock still in his ass, and the mother fucker kissed me, Josh, tongue and all. We fucking made out for several minutes until I came to my senses and backed off him after my cock slid out of his cum slimy ass. I laid there and shook thinking of what just happened and what I had done. I started to cry and he started to cry. Then we held each other and cried together, then consoled each other. He told me he loved me, Josh. He told me he had loved me ever since he knew me which was most of our lives when you figured it out. I thought I fucking lost my man card, Josh. I was so confused. What the fuck was the matter with me? I set out to change him and I almost got caught up in the whole mess myself,” he said almost shaking remembering the details of what happened.
“You love him, Dawson. There’s no denying the two of you really love each other. He loves you to a different degree than you love him. There’s nothing wrong with that. I honestly think what you did was beautiful and very loving,” I said hugging him a little. It took a real man to love your friend like you did. In fact, I’m proud of you, Dawson. You did what you had to do to make your friend happy and to really show him you honestly do love him. More power to you.”
“Josh, that doesn’t change anything though. I wanted to spend time to get him away from these crazy gay ideas he has and get him back on the straight and narrow. Just the opposite happened, and I helped facilitate it. It’s my fault to an extent,” he said exasperated, feeling guilty. “All those years we played around and I should have cut it off years before I did. I just thought he’d eventually grow out of it. Well, that didn’t happen, and then here I go promoting it again. I can’t deny I liked it, though. I mean that was one hell of an orgasm I had and a load I gave him. Makes me shiver just to think about it. Haven’t had one like that since the last time we did it or maybe when you blew me this last fall. That was pretty powerful in itself. I never raw fucked him before, but he said it was so much better than using a condom and since we had never had sex with anyone else without a condom, he said it was perfectly safe. That’s not going to make my dick fall off or anything doing it raw like that is it, Josh?”
“Dawson, I think you’re safe there, buddy. You guys are clean. So you actually enjoyed anal sex with your best friend, huh?” I had to ask that question.
“I’m not going to lie to you, Josh. It was hot. In fact, we did it again that night in the middle of the night. That time was even hotter than the first time. I mean we really made it special. He woke m up in the middle of the night sucking on my cock. He made me so fucking hard and that ass of his was so fucking hot, I couldn’t help myself. I thought I lost every sperm cell in my body the first time, but I gave him one hell of a load again the second time. Then we made out again. That’s not the point, though, I didn’t want it to be that way. I love the guy, truly I do, but I need to change him back to being straight again for his own good.”
“Dawson, you truly do love the guy to have had that much sex with him, so let him be who he is. You may not want to have sex with him anymore, but Drew is who he is and if you love him, you’ll let him be himself. You’ll only make him a mental basket case if you try to force him to be someone he’s not. He’ll end up hating you for it. You love him too much for that to happen. The loss of your friendship is not worth it. I think you know that. Underneath that gruff self of yours there’s this great heart. And between your legs is a one hell of a nice piece of man meat.” I had to throw that in there also to feed his large ego. It seemed to work.
“Yeh, I woke up the next morning with him sucking my morning hardon once again. He had his boner in my face so I jacked him off while he sucked me off. The fucker took my morning load and he SWALLOWED it, Josh! He swallowed my fucking cum! Damn, Josh. That just ain’t right. He told me he wanted part of me in him. Well he got that alright. He got two large loads up his ass and another one down his throat. I guess that took care of having some of me in him.”
“So where did he cum? What happened to his load?” I curiously asked being the smartass I was.
“Uh, um, I guess it just flew out somewhere, maybe on the pillow or something,” he said trying not to remember. I had other ideas, but was willing to bet I’d never hear the truth about it, although I was stymied he was telling me any of this so I settled for what information I got.
“Sure it did. I hope you cleaned it up before your mother had to deal with it in the wash.” He looked a little embarrassed. “So did you make any progress with your ‘straight talk’ on the way home?”
“Not exactly. He gave me another blow job on the way home after he tortured me sexually while I was trying to drive. I didn’t cum in his mouth that time though. I didn’t let that happen this time. Hell he just would have spit it out the window and got the car all dirty doing it.”
“So where did you cum when he blew you on the way back?” I asked, but he acted like he didn’t want to tell me.
“We drove down an old country gravel road and into a field right off the road. We got in the back seat and I fucked him raw one more time. He took my load up his ass again. Let that crazy fucker try to wash that shit out of his underwear this week sometime is all I have to say. Gawd, Josh. Nothing I had planned worked this weekend. It all went south.”
“I think it all went up Drew’s ass or down his throat if you ask me. Dawson, I can’t believe you. Are you sure you don’t have the same inclinations as Drew? Maybe you two really love each other with your hearts and your bodies, and you just can’t bring yourself to admit it. Are you sure you’re straight?”
“Damn straight, Josh. I fucked my bitch three times last night just to prove it to myself. I had to get Drew’s ass out of my fucking mind. Damn his ass was nice to my cock though. I’m kind of large and I don’t know how I kept from hurting the poor guy, but he took it like a champ and loved every inch of it. The boy has some stamina. I will say that. I really did like the feel of his ass though, nice and tight, loving your cock with every stroke, much different than a loose pussy.”
“Unbelievable. Why are you telling me all this? You and Drew should have kept all this intimacy to yourself as something special, only to be remembered privately between the two of you, Dawson. There wasn’t any need for me to know any of this. I really don’t understand why you told me.”
“I thought you might understand what it meant, Josh. I thought you might like to know how deeply I love my friend and how much I really want to help save him if I can. I’m desperate, if you can’t tell,” he said with a hint of desperation, but I wasn’t so sure.
“Dawson, you love Drew. Let him be. The knowledge of the intimacy the two of you shared is safe with me forever. I won’t even let Drew know you told me anything. I respect your friendship and the fact you cared enough about Drew and trusted me enough to tell me any of this. I have to admire you in a way, but I’m not exactly sure just how yet. There has to be some meaning in there somewhere, and I think it’s love. It got expressed a little strangely and in a way not anticipated, but it’s still love. Congratulations, Dawson. You have a heart and you know how to use it. I think you and Drew are fine. He seems really happy today laughing it up with Jack and I before I came in here. He’ll never say a word about any of this out of his love for you, Dawson. I think it’s wonderful the two of you had such a loving weekend together and were able to share so much of yourselves.”
“Thanks, Josh. I appreciate you listening. If you have any suggestions on how to resolve any of this, I’m all ears,” he said as he stood up. I got up and hugged him. The fucker had a boner from talking about his sexual escapades with his friend. Of course I had to run my hand over his thick cock constrained by his swim trunks, feeling its length and girth, admiring what I had hold of.
“Damn, Dawson. I’m sure Drew really loved that. What’s not to love about a big cock like this. I might have to take you home with me for a weekend if I could have that big one, raw up my ass.” Drew pushed me playfully.
“Don’t start, Josh. I have enough problems with Drew. I don’t need you also.” I patted him on his ass as I left him to join Drew and Jack once again, smiling all the way back.
Jack was in the pool with Drew on the side. I could tell they were just shooting the shit as I joined them. “What was that all about?” Jack asked. Drew looked interested also.
“Dawson wanted to talk to me about psychology and how to get it to work for you. He said you guys had a great weekend together, Drew, traveling home and spending time together. Good for you guys. You ought to do it more often,” I said smiling at him.
“We did have a great time, Josh. I think it brought us closer together in a way. Made me happy anyway,” he said smiling. I hadn’t seen him this relaxed in a long time. It was great to see him happy.
