Chapter 142 - Truth Revealed and Anger As A Motivator
Following our exhilarating wrestling match with Sean, I was able to kiss Jake goodbye in the hallway telling him I thought Sean had made some serious progress to liking male love. Jake scolded me and said I was creating a monster that he’d have to live with. I chuckled, but told him I thought he could handle it. Jake shook his head at me, but kissed me passionately and told me he loved me beyond my wildest dreams. I told him I loved him also, probably as much.
Eric had just arrived back from home about the time I got back to the dorm. He joined us in his boxers, relaxed and comfortable. “So, I have a shitload of stuff I have to do to get ready for this wedding, Josh. You’re involved in some of this also. You promised me you’d be my best man. We have to get measured for tux’s sometime in the very near future and we can do that at one of the chain mens’ stores and pick them up at home. If we can go down there this week, it would be most helpful. I already told Kevin we had to do this and he didn’t have any problems with getting measured. You two have to promise me you’ll be on good behavior when we do this. No measuring any other appendages when we do this,” Eric exclaimed.
“Oh, Eric, where’s the fun in that. This could be fun you know,” I said making light of a serious task we had to do.
“That’s what I was afraid of. This could get very interesting for my family and friends back home before it’s all over. But you know what? I don’t care. You and Kevin are my best friends in this whole wide world, and I love you both, so to hell with anyone else who doesn’t like it. Just try to act serious about this whole thing until it’s all over if you can. Please?” Eric pleaded.
“You know we will. But we are going to have fun every chance we get with you. To your friends and family back home, they’ll never know the difference, except some of your straight friends, if you have any, at the bachelor party. Now that could get interesting, if Allen has his way,” I warned. Eric looked to Allen.
“I just suggested we get some gay dancers for the gay guys, some Lesbos that love kissing each other for your straight guy friends and maybe even a female stripper for those breeders. We may have a strip contest between the men and the women to see who’s best at it. Just a few little kinky things like that to make the party exciting and interesting,” Allen said smiling.
“Oh, my Lord. This is not going to end well. I can see it now,” Eric said, putting his head in his hands.
“Relax, buddy. Have a great time and we’ll all get through this together. It’ll be a great time. I promise,” I told Eric to try to calm him down, only I wasn’t sure just what might happen. I was sure of one thing and that was he’d have a good time and get through it all unscathed. “So just when is the date if I’m not too nosey to ask?”
“It’ll be the second Saturday afternoon after schools out so mark that on your calendars. All you guys are invited of course. But I warn you, there will be several older aunts and uncles, younger cousins on both sides you’ll have to contend with. Just don’t seduce any of them if you can avoid it,” Eric warned.
“Hummm, any of them of our persuasion?” Allen asked.
“Quite possibly, but I don’t know. I never thought I’d be surrounded by this many of your persuasion in one place here. In that sense, nothing would surprise me. Oh, and by the way, Josh. Taylor will be there, of course, so you might have to deal with that. I somewhat think he might suspect or know of your persuasion, as I kind of think he was worried about Jake and finding a ‘friend’ for him when he set you guys up together. Just saying. I don’t think he cares and any of that will change his attitude towards you one little bit as he thinks the world and all of you and loves you for what you’ve done with Tuck and the friend you became with Jake. He thinks you’re the greatest, but I don’t know if he knows if you’re ‘out’ or not. I couldn’t not invite him as my big brother in the frat. I didn’t invite Tuck though as I didn’t think he’d care to come and I was concerned that something might be said that you didn’t want him to hear. Am I being too crazy?” Eric asked concerned.
“No, Eric, it’s your day and you have the right to invite whomever. We will be discreet. You don’t have to worry about us. Will he boys?” I said and looked at Allen, OBB and Erin. “I’ll clue Jake in. Looks like Taylor may be hanging around us that night anyway since we’ll be the only ones he knows there. Gees, you’re really cramping our style here, Eric,” I said jokingly. Eric looked concerned. “I’m joking, Eric. “We’ll be the same around Taylor there as we are here. You don’t have to worry about anything. It’ll all be fine. You think Taylor will be bringing a date?” I asked thinking about Taylor coming alone.
“I don’t know. The invitations are going out this week. They invite each one of you and a guest if you would like to bring one. Most of my other friends from home will be there stag so that will not be a big deal. Some might have dates and some of Maddy’s younger cousins and stuff might have, but most of my guy friends from home just hang together. Kevin knows most of them. You can check with him. This whole thing is almost out of control. You don’t know what it was like dealing with all this stuff you have to do to have a wedding. I just wanted a low key ceremony at the courthouse, but Maddy and her family wanted a big wedding. I hate spending all the money that will be spent on this thing. You spend a fortune for a few hours and pictures. I’d rather have a down payment on a house or a check to help get us started. A couple of weeks after the wedding Maddy’s mom is having a baby shower for her. I suggested they have the bridal and baby shower together, but almost got kicked out of the house for being so crass. Sounded like a good idea to me,” Eric said proud of his idea.
“Yeh, that one might have been a little over the edge, but practical as hell, Eric. Not a bad idea, but you know women. Everything has to happen in order, except in this case, the baby is already on the way. Maddy showing yet?” I asked curiously.
“Getting there. So far she’s been able to hide it, but by the time the wedding gets here, I’m not so sure. She’s all in a fret about the wedding dress and all that stuff. Flowers! Who the hell ever thought flowers were all that damned difficult. Shit the women were all in a tizzy about flowers for the wedding and what would be in bloom at that time of the year. Hell, it’s summer then and hot. Everything is in bloom then, I think anyway. Who gives a crap. No one will remember what flowers you had anyway. Hell, I told them to go to Walmart and just get some fake ones as much as it mattered to me. I almost got thrown out of the house for that one. This whole thing got extremely complicated and it just doesn’t have to be. It’s out of control. Sometimes I just think you guys have a much simpler life ahead of you. At times I feel like it would have been simpler to have just given in and become gay. Honestly,” Eric said somewhat frustrated with the whole wedding planning weekend he had just returned from. I patted him on his naked back.
“You’d have made a great lover, Eric. Could have been a damned good top. That’s for sure,” I said smiling.
“You think so? Is there still time to convert?” Eric asked jokingly.
“Always, my friend,” I said and gave him a sideways bro hug. Eric chuckled.
“I am going to miss all you guys terribly if for some reason I don’t get to work with you. You guys are my true brothers if there ever were any to be. I couldn’t be more proud of all of you,” Eric said getting a little emotional.
“We’ll always be a part of your life, Eric. You’re not getting rid of us that quick. I promise,” I said making him cheer up.
“Thanks, guys. I love you all. You guys are my rock, especially you, Josh. Gees, when I think of all the stuff we’ve been through this year, the frat, the dorm, Kevin and his problems, it’s amazing this group has hung together and supported each other the way it has. I’m not kidding. You guys are very special friends on this planet with me. I am so blessed with all of you. Don’t get me wrong, I love Maddy and all, but you guys are so special. This is one heck of a leap for me, leaving you guys and spending the rest of my life with a girl I love, but not have half as much fun as hanging with you guys. I promise you I’ll never get the attention in the shower in the mornings as I get here. That’ll never happen,” Eric said and laughed. The rest of us laughed with him. He was no doubt very right about that statement. “I gotta go call Maddy and let her know I got back okay. She’ll probably drown me in wedding bullshit for another hour or so. You guys may have to come and rescue me,” Eric said as he got up to leave. We all got up and gave him a group hug. He almost cried.
“Glad I’m not going through what he has to go through,” Allen said. “What a bunch of bullshit really when you think about it. The justice of the peace would have been a heck of a lot easier.”
“Every mother wants the wedding of a lifetime for their daughter, guys. Call it old fashioned if you will, but that’s one thing that hasn’t changed much over decades. Weddings seem to get more expensive and more elaborate as time goes by. Everyone tries to outdo each other. Go figure. I understand sacred vows and promises to each other given in front of family as witnesses, but spending tens of thousands of dollars, or hundreds of thousands of dollars, depending on which side of the tracks you live on, for events like that are just crazy. It gets more outrageous all the time and for what,” I stated. We all shook our heads.
We were all worn out from the weekend and ready for another week of classes and fun. We had the week mostly planned out except for when we might be called to the police station to get Erin’s ankle bracelet off and when Balls might have some numbers for us. The rest was fairly standard, except they never turned out that way. OBB bid us goodnight with kisses, hugs and gropes of man junk as he headed back to his place. Allen, Erin and I got naked, peed and brushed our teeth then hit the sack.
“If there’s any fucking going on tonight, leave me out of it this time. My dick has had it for a couple of days anyway,” Allen said as his goodnight speech. “Love you both now go to sleep.”
“Must have been a hot night last night,” I whispered to Erin as I held his hot naked body up against me in bed.
“It was. I heard that, Josh,” Allen affirmed from across the room. Erin and I chuckled. My stiffening cock felt great up against Erin. Erin rolled over and kissed me goodnight, then rolled over giving me his back once again.
“Just a kiss for tonight?” I asked jokingly.
“You’ve already drained your balls once tonight, silly,” Erin said chuckling.
“How did you know I did?” I had to ask.
“I can tell, Josh. I can just tell. But that’s good because it involved Jake. More power to you,” he whispered. I kissed him on the back of his neck. If he only knew it involved more than just Jake.
Monday mornings were always tough on me for some reason. I guess it was from the busy weekends with the bar and the traveling we had to do to get there and back. We always had a great time, but it was becoming a task. All the more reason to see if we could put together something locally. I was so in hopes it might all work out. If Balls would just call. We didn’t have Kevin to play with in the shower this morning which meant he probably spent the night with Calvin. I just hoped Calvin’s suite mates didn’t catch onto what they were up to. Eric didn’t make it in to join us either until we were all toweled off and ready to get dressed. We still had semi’s from the frivolity of sensuous washing in the shower. No one had spilled any semen this morning, however.
“Oh, wow. Not sure I’m going to miss a bathroom full of boners in the mornings. But the showers sure felt great,” Eric said hiding his eyes as if he didn’t need to see what he was seeing. We all laughed and patted him on his naked ass.
I was in hopes that our English class wasn’t too interesting this morning and I could possibly snooze through some of it and catch up on a little shuteye. Then I remembered Brady being in the class now and that brightened my day. He was adorable and needed fucked in the worst way in my opinion. I didn’t really need another friend to train, however, he was just too cute. He sat down beside me all smiles.
“So did my new friend have a great time at your place of business in the city this weekend? Anything exciting happen over there you can share?” he asked. I was so temped to tell him about all the excitement we have on the weekends, but I wasn’t sure how that might be accepted at this point. My gaydar said he was definitely interested, but I wasn’t sure if he had any experience or any knowledge of any of my interests.
“Had a great weekend, Brady. Had a great crowd both nights and the revenue was great. I worked on a couple of projects there and settled a personnel issue, even hired a new person. He did a great job his first couple of nights,” I explained without going into detail.
“When are you going to have time to work out with me and tell me about all the interesting things you do with the business and the rest of your friends that are in it with you? I’m dying to spend some time with you when you get a chance. You’re such a great guy and interesting person, Josh. I just feel like I really want to get to know you better,” he said very sincerely.
“Ever think you might be wasting your time, Brady. I might be a very dull and uninteresting person if you really got to know me,” I replied.
“Not a chance, Josh. I can tell a person’s character right off the bat and I get nothing but greatness coming from you. I know you’re busy, but I would really love to spend time with you if we could ever get a chance,” Brady said looking at me with those puppy dog eyes. I could almost feel my dick getting hard.
“I’ll see what I have going on tonight at the frat. Maybe we can catch a workout in the gym in the basement. We’ll have a chance to talk more while we workout. I’ll see you tonight anyway,” I said thinking about the opportunity to spend some alone time with him that might lead to something else, but not sure I really needed to go there. “So how was your weekend here at school or did you go home?” I asked changing the subject.
“Got a lot of studying done, but other than that it was kind of lonely. I did have a couple of tennis matches on Saturday. I won both of them, both singles and doubles, which made me feel good. My partner in doubles is very talented, but not that friendly. I have a hard time making friends for some reason. That’s why I really like you. You’re so approachable and seem like a real caring friend,” Brady said again complimenting and fixating on me.
“Brady, you have a great personality. Who wouldn’t like to be friends with you?” I asked in amazement he made such a statement.
“Apparently, other guys think I’m strange for some reason. I just try to be me, but I guess because I don’t love to play video games all night long, go out drinking and getting drunk until I puke or go out on weekends and fuck girls I don’t care about, that I’m different. I don’t know,” Brady said somewhat discouraged.
“That’s bullshit, Brady. My friends and I don’t do that. You just don’t know the right people. Sounds like those guys are the lame ones and you are the exceptional one,” I said trying to reassure him.
“I’m exceptional alright. The exception to the good friend rule for some reason,” he said still wary of his inability to make friends.
“You just haven’t met the right ones. You will. Trust me on that one. College is where everyone eventually finds themselves in most cases. We’ll find you, Brady,” I said smiling at him and putting my hand on his arm reassuringly. Brady smiled. The bell finally rang ending our brief conversation. I let my leg drift over to his during the course of the class to see if that bothered him any. It didn’t. He didn’t try to move his at all. This boy liked closeness. That was a good discovery. I reached down and patted his leg as if to say I cared and reassured our friendship. Brady smiled at me as did I at him. I felt we had already made a connection of some type, petty intimacy, I like to call all my little actions. Question was how far did one take it. Even I wasn’t sure I wanted to, but he was so innocent, cute and didn’t have any close friends to hang with. Why did I always seem to attract guys like that, not that it was bad, but my heart was only so big. As we got up to leave, he half bro-hugged me. Well, he wasn’t bashful.
“Don’t forget me tonight if you can spare the time,” Brady said with hopefulness in his voice.
“You, as cute as you are. How could I ever forget you, dude.” I said patting him on his back. Brady laughed.
“You’re so funny, Josh. You’re just the greatest,” he said as we parted.
I picked up Jake in front of the Arts and Science building as we waited for Trevor to join us before going into class. “Okay, so Sean is completely out of his mind now, Josh, thanks to you. He couldn’t stop asking me questions about if it was gay or not to do what we were doing. I told him we were just experimenting a little and it amounted to something like masturbation. We were pleasing ourselves and no one got hurt over it. He semi agreed with me on that one. Then he asked if it was gay to experiment with sucking another guy’s cock. I told him, while that might be a little over the edge, it was just between us girls and who the fuck cared if we wanted to do it. He asked me if I’d ever done it. I didn’t answer that question but did say there was a first time for everything. That made him smile. He was ancy all night after that and kept asking more questions. I finally told him that he could experiment with you and I together if he had questions since we had done what we had done together already. I told him not to fret over anything as we were all friends and friends helped friends. You know, the bros helping bros thing. He liked that. He said there were times when he wondered what certain things like sucking a cock would feel like, but he always thought it was too gay or lame to ever try and then there were only certain friends you could discuss or do any of that stuff with. He was so glad that you and I were so open to discovering new things. I gave him a pathetic look, but he took that as a positive sign of some sorts. I’m telling you, you’ve created a monster there and I have no idea where the hell that’s going to end up. Just be careful with him. Our future actions may have long term psychological effects on the boy for all I know. He concerns me. Remember I sleep in the same room. The fucker jacked off like crazy last night after he thought I was asleep. We really got his juices flowing, Josh. I’m telling you. We need to be careful with that one,” Jake warned.
Trevor joined us as we made our way to Psych class. “Drew and I had the most amazing weekend, guys. We tried out a lot of different things. We stayed up almost all night on Friday night, then slept to early afternoon on Saturday, fooled around some more, then went out Saturday night for a couple of drinks, then back to bed again. We slept in again on Sunday also. Well, we’d wake up several times a night and cuddle and a few other things. It was so nice. Betty and I never did any crazy things like that. We’d just fuck and then fall asleep. I never really thought about all the other things we could talk about or do together. Drew and I are like soulmates. We just enjoy so many things together and talk about everything. He is so interesting to talk to. And he’s so interested in me also. He’s just the most amazing guy you’d ever want to meet,” Trevor said excitedly.
“Wow, Trev. You guys have really progressed for just a week of this. You didn’t run into Dawson anywhere this weekend did you?” I asked somewhat concerned.
“That’s the friend of Drew’s from home that didn’t want him to be gay, your swim team captain?” Trevor asked.
“That’s the one,” I said emphatically.
“No, we didn’t see him anywhere, but he kept calling Drew on his cell phone several times on Friday and Saturday nights. Drew just said he wasn’t going to answer it. Where he was and what he was doing was none of Dawson’s business. He said Dawson probably wanted to hang with him having pissed off several new girlfriends lately. The guy must be some sort of asshole from what I gather. Even though Drew gets mad at him, he still defends him in certain areas. One time he called him a true friend. I just don’t get it,” Trevor said somewhat bewildered by the relationship between Drew and Dawson.
“Trevor, they’ve been friends ever since grade school. Their families are close friends. They live at each other’s houses and have for years. They’re like brothers, those two, only I think maybe a little closer than brothers at times. Did Drew say what their relationship was like lately by any chance?” I asked.
“He told me about the sex thing with Dawson and how he really didn’t think Dawson loved him like he had wished he would. Drew seems to think Dawson has to fuck him at times just to appease Drew. I’m not so sure about that. It sounds like this Dawson character has had some significantly strange behavior towards Drew lately and Drew’s not sure what’s going on with Dawson. If you ask me that wanna be straight boy isn’t so straight after all even though he talks a good game and puts up a good front. Drew told me, one night when we stayed up all night talking and sharing, along with a few other distractions,” Trevor said giggling, “that at one time he really had a crush on Dawson, but painfully realized that nothing would ever come out of it, so he gave up on him. He thinks Dawson is just trying to punish him for being gay and fucks him once in a while as a power thing to keep him interested, but not too close. Drew told me it really screwed him up in the mind. Dawson told him he fucks him to protect him from himself and his gay leanings. I think the bastard is just using Drew and taking advantage of Drew’s undying love for him. I don’t get any of it. Why can’t guys just be who they are and not be false friends?” Trevor asked.
“That whole relationship totally puzzles me. The problem is Drew lets Dawson get away with whatever Dawson is doing to him. He keeps running back to the guy even though Dawson tortures him so. Honestly, I don’t know what Dawson is all about. He doesn’t hit any of the numbers on my gaydar. The guy thinks he’s a macho stud with the ladies, but lately he can’t seem to keep a girlfriend and is getting a reputation as a limp dick with the ladies, so I just don’t know what to say about him. Can you tell, or maybe Drew told you, is Drew over him yet? Because if he isn’t, Dawson will continue to torture Drew and Drew will let him, Trev.”
“Drew told me after a very intimate session we had that Dawson was history other than being a friend. He said he was never going to let Dawson have sex with him again. He was going to hold him to his own words about homosexuality. He was tired of the anguish Dawson was putting him through and he found someone more wonderful now with me. Made my day, let me tell you,” Trevor said.
“The day you sent Betty packing was the day that made your day, Trev,” I reminded him.
“Boy that’s for fucking sure. That bitch won’t stop calling me. She’s trying to lay a guilt trip on me now. It isn’t working and it’s driving her crazy, Josh. Damn, I love it. She just can’t let it go for some reason,” Trevor said somewhat chuckling as if he was getting the best of her.
“Two things, Trev. Keep an eye on Betty as she seems to be a vindictive Bitch, with a capital ‘B’. Second, keep an eye on Drew and Dawson. I don’t think Dawson gives up easy and I really don’t really understand or pretend to even understand what kind of psychological affect Dawson has on Drew. I’m glad Drew said he was not going to have sex with Dawson anymore. I’m sure you have been very instrumental in his decision on that. He found you and is happy for once. That’s not to say Dawson won’t try to split you guys up or to continue to mentally torture Drew. Knowing Dawson, he won’t give up on Drew for some reason. Someday, maybe we’ll find out why. Drew can’t figure it out and he knows Dawson better than anyone here. We could speculate on Dawson for days and maybe never come close to the real answer. Just be there for Drew, Trev. You guys seem good for each other. I’d hate to see that ruined by Dawson. Drew doesn’t deserve that, but he needs to grow a set of balls also,” I said emphatically disappointed about Drew’s inability to give up on Dawson.
“I’ll do my best, Josh. So far so good. We’ve shared a lot with each other, some deep intimate secrets. It feels so good to be able to share that with someone. I just feel great about Drew right now and I think he’s in a happy place so far anyway,” Trevor reassured me.
“Speaking of deep intimate secrets, who was the little birdie that told you about me? I’m dying to know who that was and what it was all about,” I presented Trevor with a moment of truth.
“Uh, are you sure you really want to know?” Trevor asked.
“I’ve never been more sure of anything in my life, Trevor. I really do want to know,” I said emphatically. Trevor him hawed around. “Listen dickhead, you need to tell me and tell me now,” I said starting to get pissed. Jake grabbed my arm.
“The guy that told me swore that he’d kill me if I ever told you about him,” Trevor said embarrassed about being in this situation.
“I don’t give a shit. I just want to know or I may kill you instead of him,” I said sternly.
Betty knew this one girl that was just infatuated with a guy on the swim team. She said he had the most beautiful cock ever and it could make her cum and cum all night long. She said the guy was a little narcissistic and treated girls as sex objects, but he was cute and she loved his cock. Anyway his name was Les and he got the information from supposedly Dew’s friend Dawson, the one we were just talking about. Apparently Les was having a conversation with this Dawson character about gay guys on the swim team. Some of the girls thought most of the guys on the team were gay because of those tight little suits you guys all wear. She thought you guys liked to show off your junk to each other. This Les guy was talking to Dawson about what his girlfriend thought and Dawson laughed about it and told Les that you, Andy and some other guy named Jack were the faggots, as he put it, on the team. Les told this girl, that he fucked only one time, about who Dawson said were the gay guys on the team. That’s how this all got started. I was interested in meeting someone of that persuasion and after what this Les guy had told this one night stand he had, who just happened to be a friend of Betty’s, that’s how I found you. Boy and I’m glad I did too. Betty wasn’t, but I was. Jake came with you so that was all the better. I searched you guys out in this class and got to know you. And here we are now,” Trevor said so proud of himself.
“If that doesn’t fucking beat all,” I said, my mind going a hundred miles an hour. “Dawson dimed me out to Les who dimed me out to a one-night stand. Those little pricks, Dawson and Les. Fuck,” I said thinking about the whole situation.
“One other thing. I did meet this Dawson character one time only didn’t realize the relationship with Drew or anything then. Hell, I didn’t even know any of you guys at that point. I casually asked this Dawson guy the same question about gay guys on the team and he pointed you out. I just wanted to be sure the information was correct before I pursued you. He was the one that told me if I ever said anything about it to anyone, he’d kill me as you were one heck of a guy and he’d defend you to the hilt. Just saying. He did seem to think a lot of you. Funny thing is he never mentioned Drew. Isn’t Erin on the team also?” Trevor asked.
“Yep, but Dawson was in denial about Drew and he didn’t know about Erin at the time. None of us did until Jake and I discovered him by accident.
“Oh, and I did see this Les guy there also at practice. You could see he was packing some heavy equipment down there between his legs. You ever get to see his big cock?” Trevor asked.
“Unfortunately, I have,” I said shaking my head. Finally, the bell rang and the lecture started. I still couldn’t stop thinking about Les diming me out to someone he hardly knew and Dawson diming me out to Les and later to Trevor, someone he didn’t even know. No wonder Les had acted so weirdly to me at the beginning of our friendship. He was taunting me all that time after Dawson fingered me. Les was just being Les, crazy as that might seem, but Dawson, that was just evil on his part. But then he did say he’d defend me to the hilt, basically saying I was a decent and wonderful friend and shouldn’t be discriminated against because I was gay. He cared about me as a friend. Must have been that blow job and couple of orgasms I gave him at Coach’s pool party. I was disturbed about the whole thing altogether, but at least I had the respect of both Dawson and Les. Dawson sure as hell didn’t know about Les, who actually really didn’t know about himself at the time, I guess, but that was the information Les needed when he sought out someone to experiment with. I didn’t know how to feel about all of this disclosure. I felt both used and loved at the same time. That was fucked up. One thing was for certain in my mind and that was I was definitely going to have a conversation with both Les and Dawson, but not together. Dawson sure as hell didn’t need to know about Les. Then there was the brother, Brandon, also. Damn, this world was confusing.
The three of us headed to the SU for lunch with the two ‘A’s’. Jake asked me if I was okay after Trevor’s disclosure. He said he didn’t know this Les guy, but from what he heard Trevor say, as strange as Dawson was, he had a high regard for me. I got that also. I told Jake, I’d be fine and it was no big deal. I just wondered how many others Dawson told about me and any of the other guys. I had to share this information with Andy since he was dimed out also. Andy was really pissed at first, but then said he guessed it was really no big deal as he wasn’t hiding his sexuality although he wasn’t prepared to come out to his parents yet. Andy wanted to know if we wanted to beat the shit out of Les. I told him Les was harmless and just being Les. Andy said for as macho as Les always acted, he seemed to tease the hell out of me acting like us. I just laughed and again saying he was harmless, just trying to make points with some babe he was fucking that night. I was surprised he even talked to the girl at all. According to him, he more or less, just fucked them and sent them on their way. Apparently, he spent a little more time with this one.
“Andy, maybe I need to meet this Les guy since he has a big cock and all. Might as well spread the joy,” Ashton jumped in. I could tell Andy was getting mad now.
“Les is a narcissistic womanizer, Ashton. He sure wouldn’t want his cock up your ass. The guy can be a creep sometimes, but he is funny. Maybe he really is interested in you, Josh, since he knows you’re gay now,” Andy added.
“He knows you and Jack are too. If he were the least bit interested, he’d be pursuing all of us, don’t you think?” I asked Andy. Andy just blew it off. I was not comfortable with this conversation and I was still bewildered and confused by Dawson and Les at the moment, but not letting on to the others. Jake knew I was still disappointed about the ‘outing’, but he didn’t really know the whole story and I wasn’t ready to share, although I wanted to in the worst way.
“I should never have told you what I told you, Josh,” Trevor said concerned about the way the information affected me. “I didn’t want any of this to hurt you. I didn’t really know the players, but this Dawson guy had high regards for you as a person and as a friend. I thought you’d be impressed by that,” Trevor added.
“It’s okay, Trevor. Thank you for finally letting me know. I needed to know that. It’s better I know the guys than have someone else out there that I don’t know, and may never be able to find out, spreading this information around. At least I can deal with this now and understand where it came from. It’s still a fairly close circle of friends,” I explained.
“You need to tell Les to keep his fucking mouth shut,” Andy said emphatically.
“Oh, I will do that. He will not be a problem. I can promise you that one and make it stick,” I said boldly. Andy kind of grimaced, not knowing what I might do.
“We could blackmail him into fucking my ass,” Ashton jumped in again. Andy was getting pissed again.
“You want the boy’s pussy dick up your male ass, Ash?” Andy asked, very annoyed at this point.
“Hey, as long as it’s big, I don’t care where it’s been,” Ashton replied.
“I’ll bet that’s true. Sounds like the slu.” Andy stopped short of what he was about to say.
“What? Say it. Like the slut I am? Is that what you meant to say? I really don’t care. You can say it and I won’t deny it. Now does that make you happy, calling me a slut?” Ashton asked matter of factly without any hint of anger.
“I’m sorry, Ashton. We’re not having this conversation here. I just can’t,” Andy said and got up left. Ashton shrugged his shoulders as if it was no big deal, then he too got up and left. We all soon followed. I could tell Andy was really hurting now.
“Do you need to console Andy?” Jake asked me.
“Not now, Jake. I will at swim practice. Shit we have the state meet next week. We don’t need any of this right now. It sucks. It really does suck, you know,” I said looking into his eyes. Jake hugged me and told me he loved me. Almost made me cry.
I kissed Jake passionately as if it was the last kiss I might ever have the chance to give him in the shadows of the student union. I wanted him to hold me tight and tell me everything was going to be alright and Andy and Ashton would be fine. In my mind, I was very worried about Andy. I thought the two had come to some understanding the last night in the city, but apparently it was short lived if anything. I loved Andy so much, never ever getting over my first love. I loved Ashton also, but not like the love Andy and I had showed each other. Ashton was one of the group we fucked around with and I cared for him deeply, but not like I loved Andy. If Andy hurt, I hurt, that’s how much I loved Andy. Jake knew and understood this, and was right at my side and cared that I cared. It was hard to explain, but if you were ever in a situation like this, you’d understand.
I tried to keep from thinking about it, having one last class, accounting lecture, to go. I thought I’d stop into see KS before the lecture just to see a loving face. Luckily no one was in his office at the time. He was excited to see me and closed the door behind me and jumped my bones kissing me passionately.
“Fuck, that feels good,” I said coming up for air.
“Hell yes, it does. You gave me a boner with that kiss,” KS responded.
“Pull it out and I’ll suck it dry,” I said seriously. KS laughed.
“Now, would that really be a good idea right before our lecture?” KS asked smiling.
“Make the lecture go a hell of a lot better,” I replied as I felt his hard cock through his khakis. “Someone’s got a nice piece of hard meat there that begs for attention,” I said as I fondled his cock beneath the fabric of his slacks.
“Josh, stop. You’re going to give me a wet spot there. You know how to trip my triggers,” he said as if he was experiencing some pressure there in that beautiful cock of his. He brought me up for another kiss. I was hard now also, heated with passion and wanting some relief from this crazy morning I’d had.
“Fuck it, KS. I want to eat your cock,” I said as I opened his slacks and slid them down to his knees then pulled his boxers down freeing his beautiful cock and inhaling it in my mouth. He fell back against his filing cabinets as he frantically moved his back along the wall to secure the door so no one could enter.
“Josh, this feels to fucking good, but we really shouldn’t be doing this here,” he said panting in the throws of passion. “Fuck, you’re going to make me cum. You need to stop.”
“That’s the point,” I said looking up at him as I sucked and stroked his hard throbbing cock with a passion wanting his seed. I held his cock up and licked his balls, running my tongue all over those two beautiful orbs, then in between his inner thigh and his ball sac, stopping to suck on each ball. I had them all slicked up with my saliva. I loved the feel of his balls on my tongue and in my mouth. It was like I controlled his whole body with his balls in my mouth. I guess there was a feeling of power over my TA having sucked his manhood in my mouth and owning his balls and cock for a few precious moments until I relieved him of his male fluids. I was taking something of his, yet pleasuring him to death in a way. He loved the action and the intimacy we were sharing together for a few moments in the life of a day.
“Fuck, Josh. You’re killing me. I want to cum so hard,” he said, his bare legs shaking as he was leaning up against the filing cabinets. I slicked up my middle finger and inserted it into his asshole, making him tremble all the more. That was all it took and he unloaded a hot load of male cum in my mouth which I swallowed hastily as his face fucked me over and over pumping his semen into my mouth, legs trembling holding onto my head. He finally stopped and I swallowed the last of his hot creamy load, savoring all of it in my mouth. I swear he slid down the filing cabinets to his knees, then hugged and kissed me over and over. “Fuck, I love you so much, you crazy fool. I have never dreamed of anything like what we just did happening. I have to say, I loved it, but it was totally crazy, Josh. Gawd knows what would have happened if someone found out. Still, I love the spontaneity of your love making. We don’t have time for me to reciprocate. I feel terrible I can’t make you feel as wonderful as you just made me feel, Josh.”
“No worries, KS. I just need a part of you in me right now. I needed a diversion from my own world for a few moments and you helped me wonderfully. You’re such a sweetheart,” I said as I hugged and kissed him.
“I could hold you this way forever, as much as I love you, but we have class in five minutes. I need to get cleaned up a little before then,” Ken said as he looked at his now somewhat flaccid cock with a string of cum hanging from his piss slit. I picked up his cock and sucked the remaining cum from it, pleasuring him one more time. “Gawd, you’re fantastic. Wait until I tell James about our afternoon delight,” Ken said smiling. I smiled back at him and kissed him passionately one more time.
“Wish I had you and James here, and I’d have done you both. You both taste so good in my mouth and are so passionate,” I said smiling at him, then hugged him one more time. “Thanks, Ken, I needed that.”
“Thank me? Hell, I thank you. Seems as if I got the fantastic experience this afternoon. I can’t thank you enough, Josh. Shit, I feel like a million dollars. One of the sweetest, hottest guys in the world got down on his knees and gave me a BJ. I think I should be thanking you,” Ken said excitedly.
“No, I just needed to do something for someone I cared about and you were there for me, KS. I appreciate everything you do for me. Trust me on that,” I said meaningfully. Ken pulled me to him and kissed me again.
“You mean so much to me, Josh. You turned my life around and gave me James. I can’t thank you enough for saving my life. Then you go and do crazy wonderful things like this afternoon which makes me love you even more. I’m so lucky to have you in my life,” Ken said then kissed me again. “Now we have to get my shriveling ugly cock back into my slacks and get our asses to class before we’re late,” he said stuffing his cock back into his boxers and pulling up his khakis. I helped him buckle his belt. We had one last hug then headed out to class.
I gave him a couple of seconds head start into the lecture halls so it didn’t seem we arrived there together. Thad was waiting for me as I slipped into my usual spot beside him. “Gees, you’re late today,” Thad said noting the bell was about to ring.
“Had some last minute business I had to take care of, but I got it all done,” I said smiling and licking my lips.
“What kind of business?” Thad asked with great anticipation.
“Had to give Ken a blow job. Do I have any cum on my lips? Fuck he tasted good this afternoon. He must have eaten something sweet for lunch because his cum was sweet today,” I said smiling at Thad who had a dumbfounded look on his face.
“You are incorrigible, Josh. Sometimes I almost believe you. Then again it almost scares me to believe you. But then again Ken seems happy today, so maybe you aren’t full of shit. Don’t know how you do it though,” Thad said shaking his head at me.
“You just open your mouth and stick that hot throbbing cock in your mouth and treat it so special you take the breath right out of the guy you’re sucking on. Then you play with his balls and slick those up with your saliva as you stroke that hard cock and beg it for its juice. You pump and suck that hot stick until it explodes in your mouth and then you swallow all the hot sweet cum right down for all the protein it has. That’s how you do it, Thad. We’ll have to try it out on you sometime,” I said to a shocked face.
“Wow, that almost made me hard,” Thad said as he looked like a deer staring into headlights. “That wasn’t the answer I was looking for, but knowing you, I guess I should have expected it. I should know better,” he said as the bell rang. I could see a bulge in his jeans. I knew I got to the boy with my crazy banter. But it was the truth. During the boring lecture I placed my hand on his leg. He picked it up and moved it back over to my leg. Then I put it on his inner thigh. He again picked it back up and put it on my leg. Then I ran my hand on his leg from his knee to his inner thigh and brushed his junk. He picked up my hand and moved it to my leg again. I was smiling at him the entire time. Then I took his hand and placed it on my junk, holding it there until he couldn’t take it anymore and forcefully removed it. I laughed. “What the fuck are you doing?” Thad whispered.
“Just a little testing to see what your tolerance is,” I said smiling back at him. “I want to see if you have what it takes to be a part of our business project.”
“Oh, believe me I’ve got what it takes,” he said emphatically. I put my hand on his crotch and groped his junk. He jumped a little.
“I think you might have, but I have to see it first,” I said smiling.
“In your dreams, buddy,” he responded.
“That might be sooner than you think,” I said half chuckling. Class was finally over and we got up to walk out together.
“So, when are we ever going to get together to discuss this project and what part I can play in it?” Thad asked.
“Anytime, buddy. But be prepared to go all the way when we do,” I advised him.
“What do you mean by ‘all the way’?” he asked.
“I’ve got to know the total naked person of who I’m getting involved with. We have to be totally honest and naked with each other to get beyond that point,” I said looking him up and down. He wasn’t sure how to take me.
“Like naked with no clothes on or totally open and up front with each other?” he asked.
“That’ll work,” I said and pinched his ass as we split outside. I smiled at him and he just shook his head at me, half smiling back.
I texted Andy and told him to meet me at the natatorium early so we could talk. He said he’d be there. I left Allen a note that I already left for swim practice and I’d see him there. I got back a ‘K’. Andy and I met at our usual locker as we got naked to change. He had tears in his eyes. I pulled him to me naked and hugged him, neither one of us getting aroused, but genuinely caring for one another.
“Sit on the bench and tell me what’s going on if you don’t mind me asking,” I said to him.
“Josh, I don’t know if Ashton really loves me anymore. He seems to want sex with other guys more and more these days. I thought he’d get over it if I gave him some freedom in Florida, but now, it seems like he needs strange sex even more. He craves large cocks and mine’s only average. He just keeps saying the bigger the better. He’s not kidding anymore, he’s serious about it. I couldn’t take it anymore at lunch and had to get out of there. He knows I’m pissed. I thought we talked it all out at the apartment last night Saturday night, but apparently, it was only a short term truce. He told me no matter who fucked him, he still loved me and that I shouldn’t take it personally. Fucking with other guys was just a diversion and not love like he and I had. I told him if he really loved me and our friends then why did there have to be others that he didn’t even know. He just said he had needs. I asked him why he thought his brother was a slut then and not himself. He told me his brother brought home societal rejects and he only fucked decent guys with big cocks. I told him who was to judge. It seemed like they both had tendencies towards being sluts. That made him mad. He said there was a difference between who he fucked and who Parker fucked and he only fucked clean and decent guys while Parker would fuck anything with a cock big or small. Josh, I don’t know what to do. I love the guy and I know he loves me, but this is killing me. I don’t know how much more of this I can take,” Andy said burying his head his hands. I ran my hand over his naked back consoling him.
“Andy, you might have to give him some space and allow him some outside the circle sexual activity as long as he keeps it clean if you want to keep him. His needs seem pretty strong. He never stops talking about it and I don’t think his needs are less today. They seem to be getting stronger. I’m not sure if that’s because of your resistance or it they’re actually getting stronger,” I said with a concerned look on my face.
“Might be a little of both. I’m not sure of anything anymore. He swears he only loves me, and the rest are just sexual objects to be had and then thrown away, no emotional value to them whatsoever. But what if one of them does touch him emotionally. You know how strong sex can be as far as an emotional power over you. We know what that’s like. You and I have lived it. It’s there, and even now that you’re with Jake and I’m with Ashton, it’s still there between us, Josh. You and I both know that. I love you just as much today as I did when we were a couple. That hasn’t changed and I’m not sure I want it ever to change,” Andy said hugging me tightly. I ran my hand up and down his back as we hugged. Truth be known, I did love him so much and I knew he loved me just as much if not more. This last weekend when we made love, we didn’t fuck, we made love. He knew it and I knew it. We saw it in each other’s eyes when we were totally immersed in passion with one another, our bodies exploring and connected to one another as only he and I could do with one another. Still it was different than with Jake. I was totally in love with Jake, while making love to Andy was almost a reminder of what a great love we had together as we had moved on, but still very much loved each other. Does that sound strange? Not sure, but I deeply loved the boy still to this day.
“What do you want to do, Andy?” I asked as if to see if he had any kind of resolution to the situation.
“I guess, I’m going to have to give him a little more leash and hope to God, I don’t lose him along the way. I just don’t want to hear about all the big cocks he’s stuffed up his ass. He better have a condom on those cocks also. I’m going to make him get tested monthly, if not more often, if he’s going to fuck around. And, he better be amorous to me also and show me he really does love me,” Andy said looking down at the ground.
“You going to be okay through all of this?” I asked concerned.
“I’ll have to be. I guess we’ll find out if it works or not. If not, I guess I’ll be moving on. Don’t know what that does to our partnership involvement if we split up for good,” Andy said wondering.
“We’ll cross that bridge when we come to it, and hopefully, we never come to it,” I said hugging him again. I kissed him on the top of his head.
“I think you’re the only one that truly loves me, Josh. I fucked that all up. I am so sorry that I fucked that all up. That never should have happened, yet I let it happen. I’m so sorry, Josh. I am so so sorry. I loved you so much and I still do. Promise me you’ll never desert me. Promise me that, would you?” Andy asked sobbing.
“Andy, you are my loving friend for life. I’ll always be there for you. I’m not ever going away unless you send me away, and even then, I’ll still love you,” I said holding him tightly. Just then, Allen and Erin showed up and saw Andy and I were deeply into something. They backed off, but I motioned them to us. “Give Andy a hug, guys. He needs one right now. Both Andy and Erin gave Andy a big hug and consoled him.
“I love you guys so much,” Andy said to Erin and Allen, then OBB showed up and got a hug also. We finally got ourselves back together, got our trunks on then headed to our squads.
Andy finally left Erin and I as we got to Drew. “Erin, we’re going all out today. I’m pissed as hell at Les and Dawson for outing me and I’m taking it out on the pool until I can take it out on both of them. We’re going to fuck up all the records today. Are you with me?” I said as we got to our practice pool. He gave me the go sign he was in. We jumped into the pool and did our warmups without Drew having to say a word. Then when we thought we were good and ready, we climbed out to the staring platforms. I gave Drew the signal we were ready for time trials. Drew sounded the buzzer and we were off. The madder I got the harder I swam. I was pissed at Les, I was pissed at Dawson, I was pissed at Ashton, and I was even more pissed at Max, my opponent next week. I dug my hands deep into the water and pulled for all my might, harder and harder as those names flashed through my brain and made me angrier as my body flowed faster and faster through the water. I was moving, but I wasn’t thinking of swimming. I was thinking of confrontation and proving myself a better person than those of my so called friends. I pulled and pulled and pulled even harder as I got angrier and angrier at the betrayal of so called friends and one pompous ass, Max, who thought he could beat me again after his win last year. That would never happen this year and I would have my cock up his ass as a victory lap. I wanted to see the fear in his eyes of my cock exploding in his bowels, my seed flowing through his innards so he could feel my presence as I bred his hot pucker hole and made him scream with pleasure. Oh, he would be mine this year, to be my bitch and take my seed. Yes, he would be mine and I would make him my bitch. I hit the wall before I realized it, almost startling me as my mind was on my adversaries I had chosen to be angry with this afternoon, most of whom were deserving. Drew pulled me from the water, beaming all over. He had his stopwatch in his hand.
“According to the stopwatch you set another record today, Josh. Let me get the official clock reading off the computer and we’ll see just exactly where you are today,” Drew said as he smacked my ass with his hand and went to get the computer number. I pulled Erin out of the water.
“Fuck you ran off and left me like I was standing still today, Josh. What the hell got into you? Where’d you get all the energy?” Erin aked somewhat dismayed.
“It’s crazy what things motivate you from time to time. I think I found my motivation today. We’ll see what Drew has first before I say too much,” I said with my arm around Erin. Drew came running back to us.
“Josh, you did it again, you son of a bitch. You set a new school record. You beat your last one by another second which beat everyone in the state by at least five seconds. Don’t know what got your ass on fire today, but hang onto it at least until state championships are over next week and you’ll be the new state champion, buddy,” Drew said excitedly.
Dawson came walking over. Drew excitedly showed Dawson the new times. Dawson got all excited. “Fuck, Josh, you just might win this thing next week,” he said somewhat excited.
“Damn straight, Dawson. You better get you a nice sized
Dildo and start loosening up that tight ass of yours, as this big cock of mine is going to rip that straight tight pucker hole of yours wide open and fill our guts with my hot creamy man spunk, buddy. Get ready because here it comes,” I said as I groped myself. Dawson walked off in disgust. I really wanted to open him up today, but now was not the time. We would have time for that discussion next week with his ass on the end of my cock. Now, I couldn’t wait.