The Coming of Josh

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Chapter 753 - D

“Thank God you two are okay. Who shot the asshole?” Lucky asked. I told him that Rowen was the hero that saved us. Rowen told him I was the one that saved us, all he did was shoot the bastard.

“Where the fuck have you been, guys?” I asked in a not too pleasant tone. “We were in the process of getting murdered in case you wanted to know. Didn’t get much backup after all the sophisticated equipment we have in this place,” I hollered at them. Cal took off his suit coat and came over and threw his arms around the two of us.

“You had Lucky and I scared shitless when someone finally figured out what the hell was going on over here. Garth called us and told us to pick up the feed as he thought something was wrong here. At first he thought you guys were just clowning around and putting on a show for him and Dylan, getting naked and teasing them. Then he realized there was someone else there that looked ugly and menacing. He called us immediately telling Lucky and I we needed to get to you guys to help and fast. We came immediately, but sorry we didn’t get here earlier,” Cal replied, apologizing as he hugged us both. He even kissed me on the cheek. “You scared the hell out of us, guys,” he went on to say. I told him that was the understatement of the year.

“So this is X, in case you hadn’t figured that out yet, Cal. The dude is dead so Kenny is in the clear for now,” I told him. Cal fiddled through his phone supposedly bringing up an FBI picture they used for X.

“No fucking shit. Damn, if it isn’t. Wow, that’s fantastic. Rowen, you just eliminated one of the top guys on the FBI’s Most Wanted list. Congratulations!” Cal told him. I swear Rowen was totally unimpressed at least at the moment. “Okay, we have some work to do here. Where’s the gun?” Cal asked. I pointed to where I laid it on the floor after I took it out of Rowen’s hands. “Good deal. Now let me think this through,” Cal commented as he scratched his head then pulled out a plastic evidence bag as if to bag the gun, but wiping it clean of prints before.

“Don’t you need the gun as it is with both Josh and my prints on it for evidence?” Rowen asked, still holding me tight, but confused as to what Cal was trying to do. Cal looked at us and smiled.

“This never happened here today. Get it? You two were never here and asshole here wasn’t shot here,” Cal said, confusing Lucky, Rowen and myself. Cal saw the look of concern on our faces. “I’ll explain in a minute, but, Josh, call Jake as he’s a basket case at the moment. I promised him on the phone I’d have you call him but he was not to come over here as I wasn’t sure what we’d find. He can’t see us either as I killed the camera feed so no one saw anything they didn’t need to see,” Cal explained.

“What, like seeing our brains blown out of our heads, that kind of thing?” I asked. Cal just smiled at me, saying no, that’s not what he meant, but surely no one needed to see anything like that either. I had to believe that’s what he did mean. I found my shorts then fished out my phone and dialed up Jake.

“OMG, you’re alive. Oh, Josh, I’ve never been so scared in all my life. Thank God you’re okay. What about Rowen?” Jake asked hastily.

“Jake, both of us are fine, a little rattled, well maybe a lot rattled, but we’re okay and the danger is over. Rowen was so brave and saved us both,” I told Jake, looking over to Rowen who told the guys it was me that got us through this. “Jake, tell the guys we’re all fine. No one is to know this happened either so swear everyone to secrecy. Oh, and X is out of the picture. He is no more, just so several people can relax a little,” I told him. He told me to hurry home as he had to hug me for several hours at least. I actually chuckled at the thought. “So what’s this major plan of yours to make this an incident that never happened?” I asked Cal. He smiled.

“I’ll explain it all, but why don’t you guys go hit the shower and get all the blood and sex off your bodies, get dressed and then I’ll fill you in on the plan,” Cal told us. “I mean you still look sexy to me, but I’m sure you’re not comfortable with all that blood on you and your ass leaking whatever it’s leaking down your leg,” Cal chided, trying to lighten the mood after the intense pressure we just survived. I frowned at him.

“Hey, I’m proud of you, Rowen,” Lucky said, wrapping his arms around Rowen in a tight hug, giving him a little kiss on the cheek.

“Lucky you’re going to get blood and cum on you, hugging me like that, although I have to admit it does feel good,” Rowen replied.

“Hey, you look kind of sexy right now. I don’t mind your cum on me at all,” Lucky replied. Rowen told him he couldn’t get away with teasing him like he did Neal. Lucky laughed at the thought.

Rowen and I walked into he bathroom and shut the door behind us. He grabbed me and hugged me one more time. “I still can’t believe we’re alive and safe. I was almost sure we were goners,” Rowen told me. I ran a hand up and down his back as we hugged, our genitalia once again pressed up against each other with no complaint from Rowen. I asked him how he got the drop on X and was able to shoot him as we never had the chance to talk about that. I just got flattened by his heavy bloody body and didn’t know how Rowen did what he did. “Kind of embarrassing, but when you had my cock in your mouth and X was standing behind you getting ready to, well you know, he left the gun on the floor for a second to use both hands to guide his dick into you. It was a fat dick and he needed to use both hands. The second he grabbed his dick with both hands, I grabbed the gun and shot him, three shots center mass, just exactly what we were trained to do when our life or the lives of others were in danger. I just did it. I didn’t even think about it,” Rowen replied to my surprise. I told him how proud of was of him. “I’m just glad it’s over, Josh. I’m sure I’ll have nightmares about this for ages to come, but right now, I think we need a shower and drink several beers once we see how Cal is going to handle this,” Rowen replied. I told him to turn the shower on, but I had to make a deposit in the toilet, then sat on it. “You going to take a dump in front of me?” Rowen asked a little concerned. I laughed.

“No, silly, I have to let the cum you deposited in my ass out or it will keep seeping down my leg half the night. You did this to me,” I kind of chided. That got me a small smile, one of the first since the incident.

“I’m so sorry, but I swear I couldn’t stop it, Josh. I guess it’s a natural thing as the damn broke and that’s all she wrote,” he replied, making me smile. I told him his dick was one of the better ones I’d ever sat on before. “I didn’t really need to hear that, but I guess I should be flattered. Do you think we could just keep this between ourselves?” he asked. I told him absolutely, although it was every gay boy’s dream to be fucked by a straight boy. Rowen chuckled. “Well I guess I fulfilled a dream out of a nightmare then. Damn, you were the first sex I’ve ever had. You sure as hell made me cum, there’s no denying that. It’s just not what I envisioned my first time to be. Do you know what I mean?” Rowen asked. I smiled, still listening to his cum slip from my ass into the toilet water.

“I know it wasn’t, Rowen, and I hate the fact that you haven’t had a straight sexual experience, but what you did saved our lives, so I guess we should be grateful for that. You’ll get your chance for some real action someday,” I assured him. He said he certainly hoped so. I felt like I’d deposited all Rowen gave me so I wiped my ass, got up and flushed the toilet. We stepped into Clay’s tub shower and helped lather one another inspecting each other to make sure we got all the blood and cum off us. I forget I coated Rowen’s chest with my seed. I thought we were mostly done and ready to get out but he stopped me.

“Are you going to wash my dick and balls?” Rowen asked me seriously.

“Really? I asked, somewhat shocked. “I don’t have any problem with that, but are you sure you want me to?” I asked. He smiled.

“With what we went through together tonight, I don’t think it really matters what you do with me anymore or where you touch me. I just know my dick was up your ass, Josh, so do you think I want to touch it?” he asked, concerned. I kind of chuckled, then knelt down, grabbed the bodywash and lathered up his cock and balls, getting a little rise out of him in the process. “Don’t get too carried away down there,” he chided. I kissed the head of his penis when I was finished. “Hey, that’s good, okay, I think we’re done,” he said pulling me back up to him.

 

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Chapter 753 - E

“For the record, you have a very nice cock, Rowen,” I told him somewhat embarrassing him with my words. I got another hug and another kiss. I patted his bare wet ass making him chuckle, then we got out and dried off.

“Gees, I thought you guys were going for round two as long as you were in the bathroom showering together. Did this start off a whole new romance or what?” Cal teased. I told him not to push it as we were still traumatized. I noticed that Cal had put a sheet over the X’s body so we didn’t have to look at it. We dropped our towels, found our underwear, then dressed in our t-shirts and shorts. Rowen and I sat at the kitchen table away from the body, not wanting to remind ourselves of the horror show we just experienced.

“So how are you going to make this go away, Cal? I mean a man was shot and killed here in this living room and there’s blood all over. Thankfully, Clay is staying with you or the sight of this would freak him the hell out as it almost freaks us out. Cal got serious then.

“While you two were showering, I called into headquarters for a ‘Cleaner’. The Bureau has a crew on hand for just these types of incidents where we have to make something ‘go away’. There are about six crews in our organization throughout the country that handle these things. There is a crew out of Chicago that will be here tonight. By tomorrow morning, you’ll never know there was anything odd that happened in this apartment,” Cal explained. Lucky and I looked around outside. There were a few tenants coming and going and no one seemed to suspect anything that we could tell. The silencer muffled the shots so no one heard any shots fired which was convenient. The body will be removed and deposited with the gun for W&S to find as if one of their guys killed this dude. The gun is wiped clean so it looks like a professional hit, especially with the precision you shot him with, Rowen. Nice shooting by the way. Like I said, although you can’t take credit for it, as it never happened, but you eliminated one of the top guys on the FBI’s most wanted list. Only a few of us will know that, but that’s the breaks. Believe me it’s better this way or we’d have to have the cops out here to investigate and you’d have endless hours of questioning at the police barracks which we don’t need as we don’t need any attention surrounding this sting operation we’re conducting. It might all be undone forcing us to start over again. It’s better for everyone involved with what we’re trying to do here to just do it this way. You guys have any problems with that?” Cal asked us, being very serious about it all. We told him we respected what he was trying to do so we were good with however he played it. “Okay, so, Josh, you have a few guys at your place that know about it. Obviously, all my guys and Lucky know what happened, but guys like Conner and Neal do not. They don’t need to know right now. We can fill them in later once we wrap this whole investigation up, then disclose some of the things to them we put in place. It serves no purpose to distract the others working on all these components of bringing down the corruption and drug business in this whole investigation. That make sense to all of you?” he asked, including Lucky.

“So we just go about our lives as if nothing ever happened here tonight. Is that the case?” I asked. Cal shook his head yes. “Kind of hard to get this out of your mind as if it never happened. This could haunt us for a long time, Cal. We just always have to bury it in the back in our minds?” I asked.

“That was my next point, Josh. I’m going to be honest with both of you. Even in the Bureau, when a death occurs in the line of duty where a perp is taken out, it’s still a life that has been taken. Good or bad, it’s still a life. No matter how hard or callused you think you are, how tough, unemotional you might be, it eventually gets to you. This is very prevalent in the military in war. War is hell and people get killed. It’s easy to dramatize this in the movies as if it’s just shooting up the bad guys but in reality, you caused the death of a human being no matter how big an asshole or murderer they might be. That fact that it was either you or him as in this case tonight makes it easier, but it’s always there in the back of your mind. Sometimes this works its way out in different forms. That’s why I think it’s important for you to talk to a Bureau shrink, like I had to do when I ended my undercover case, to be able to get your feelings and concerns talked about. You’ll act like this wasn’t a problem at all, then you’ll start acting differently with your friends at times wondering why you’re acting the way you do. Call it mental therapy, whatever, you still need to talk to someone and express your feelings and emotions. They’ll help you understand things and heal faster, even when you think you don’t need to heal because there is nothing wrong. You, yourself, don’t recognize the symptoms, but your family and friends will. Tomorrow morning I’m having the lady that I had to talk to here to talk to the two of you. She’ll determine what type of program you need to be on and for how long. She can determine by talking to you, and asking you questions, what type of program to recommend. How is 10:00 tomorrow morning in your office sound to both of you?” Cal asked. I looked at Rowen who looked at me.

“I guess that’s okay, but is she going to know what happened, like everything that happened?” I asked, somewhat concerned.

“She’ll have every detail and then what you tell her. She’s good, guys, and you’ll want to tell her everything,” Cal emphasized. I frowned at him.

“Is this the woman that analyzed you that you blew off telling her there was no emotional involvement in your last case?” I asked. Cal got embarrassed.

“Do you listen to all the bullshit I spew when I’ve been drinking?” Cal asked. I nodded yes.

“All the pertinent stuff I do,” I replied with a smile. He shook his head.

“Do as I say, not as I do. I admit, I think I shortchanged myself in that area and should have been more truthful with her. I will say I’ve had the luxury of having you as a friend and listening to my honest expression of what goes through my mind and heart at times which has helped greatly since I’ve been involved with you guys. That’s important too, and I can’t emphasize that enough. You two guys need to lean on each other whenever you need it. You were both here together, experiencing this horrible experience together so you each know what the other went through because you went through it together. No one else can begin to imagine what that was like so it’s important that you lean on one another as necessary to support each other as this will bug you at times. I’m not shitting you, it will no matter how macho you think you are. The bad thing is there are only a handful of people you can talk to about what happened. As you hugged and embraced when we got here, you are going to have to do more of that as you go through life, supporting one another just as you did today,” Cal explained.

“When something happens like this in the department, we have to go through a rather extensive debriefing, if you want to call it that. It helps a lot and that door is always open for officers that need repeat visits or follow ups. Our department can’t emphasize the use of that enough. Like Cal said, I highly recommend it as I’m sure anyone in law enforcement would,” Lucky commented.

“I have to explain how the first time I’ve ever had sex, I had it with a dude? I have to explain that to a woman?” Rowen asked very concerned. Cal smiled sheepishly.

“No judgement, Rowen. They are not there to judge you, just to help you. All kinds of crazy things happen to guys that would never imagine what they might go through ever in one’s lifetime. Still, it happens and the shrinks are there to help your mind deal with it in a way you can understand it, process it and go on,” Cal explained.

“Like you did?” I shot back at him. Cal chuckled, then put his head down in his hands, saying ‘touché, Josh’. “Can’t we use our own psychologist, that we know and trust to help us process this?” I asked. Cal popped up again, somewhat liking what he just heard.

“Sure, but you might have to pay them which ours if free of charge,” Cal offered. I rolled my eyes.

“I have a close friend that’s head of the mental health services at Uni Hospital that he and I have worked on a few cases that I would trust. I’d feel a hell of a lot better telling him my emotions and feelings than some female shrink I don’t even know,” I replied. Rowen said that sounded a lot better to him also.

“Why don’t you talk to our shrink in the morning and suggest you might like to do just that. See what she thinks, and if she’s in agreement, then she can legally discuss the case with your shrink and brief him on the trauma the two of you went through. That sound okay?” Cal asked. Rowen and I both agreed that sounded better.

“Are we about done, as I’d like to get the hell out of here and put this behind us if you don’t mind. I think Rowen and I need several beers just to be able to sleep tonight,” I mentioned.

“If you think you need something to help you sleep, I have some medication on hand that will do just that. Just let me know and I’ll get it over to you,” Cal offered.

 

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Chapter 753 - F

“Medicine is fine, but liquor is quicker,” I replied. Cal shook his head chuckling, saying it was good to know I hadn’t lost my sense of humor through all of this. He did warn there might be some tough days mentally to come, and not to be surprised if it happened.

“Again there are only a few people you can talk to about this, guys. I’ve approved everyone that lives at your apartment, Josh, as those are the closest to you, I’m sure. Also, Will is included as I know how close the two of you are. Other than that, I wouldn’t let anyone else know as we need to keep this closely under wraps,” Cal warned. I asked about my senior staff. He cautioned me not to discuss it with them as he remembered how concerned Jordan was about my involvement in this stuff. “So business as usual tomorrow and after. Everyone understand?” Cal asked. We all agreed. “I’ll lock up after we leave with a special Bureau lock so the cleaning crew can get in here and wrap this up by tomorrow morning,” Cal said. Then I remembered why we came and looked around to find the Leniency Agreement. I picked it up and gave it to Cal to hold onto.

“Here is one of your loose ends that almost got Rowen and I killed. You can take care of it now,” I told him. Cal apologized as he took it.

Cal gave me a heartfelt hug, saying he’d have lost one of the best friends he had in life had anything happened to me. He gave me a kiss even, telling me how important I was to him. I thanked him for that and for showing up even if he was late. Lucky gave me a hug and kiss also, saying he would have lost the best thing that ever happened to him in life had something happened to me. I told him I loved him also. Lucky gave Rowen a hug and kissed him on the cheek.

“Take care of yourself, little partner. You’re like my partner, and I regret not having your back tonight. I should have been there to protect you, Rowen, which is what partners do,” Lucky told him. Rowen was shocked that Lucky looked at him as a partner.

“I guess I cant ride with you tomorrow, but I’ll be back after the weekend,” Rowen told him. Lucky patted Rowen on the back telling him he’d be there for him and if he ever needed to talk, he was there for that also. I could tell that meant a lot to Rowen.

Rowen and I jumped in my Jeep and headed for the CNB. I think we both breathed a sigh of relief that the trauma had passed. Rowen was quiet, I was sure deep in thought. “Hey, I’m sorry you had to go through all that sexual stuff tonight, Rowen. I feel so terrible you had to endure that,” I told him patting him on his bare thigh. He kind of chuckled just a bit.

“It really wasn’t all that bad, Josh. I mean, it was weird and all, but it didn’t hurt any and some of it was pretty intense as far as feeling was concerned. I mean I can honestly say, I’ve never had my asshole licked and prodded with a tongue before. I can’t imagine you having to do that for me, but it did feel interesting. I mean, I’m not sure how to relate it to anything as it was so different, but it stirred my juices when you did it, if that makes any sense,” Rowen replied. I chuckled, telling him I actually enjoyed doing that to my sexual partners as it’s a way of sharing some deep intimacy with them. I told Rowen that he had a killer of an asshole that really got my juices flowing for sure. I told him it made my dick hard as steel massaging his asshole with my tongue. “Well, I guess we certainly shared some deep intimacy between us tonight for sure then. Isn’t it weird having my penis up your asshole though? I mean what does it feel like? Doesn’t it hurt?” he asked curiously. I chuckled telling him it feels like having a dick up your asshole, as that’s the only way I could describe it actually. He chuckled. I asked him how it felt for him. “While I’ve never had sex with a girl, I have to believe it was somewhat like that, I guess anyway,” he replied. I told him it was, but the male asshole was a lot tighter than the female vagina and gave the top additional pleasure when having anal intercourse. I joked that he went right to he top as far as penile pleasure was concerned. “Not sure about that, but it sure did make me cum hard. Oh, and the blow job was earth-shattering, although I ‘d never admit it to anyone but you. You almost made me cum several times. Anytime you sucked on my cock, I swear it just wanted to let loose. It was hard to control,” he admitted, making me smile. I had to think about what was happening with that X guy to keep me from losing control with what we were doing. Honestly, I had no idea any of those things were as intense as they were,” Rowen confessed.

“You’re not mad at me for doing the sexual things with you tonight then?” I had to ask. He looked over at me and smiled.

“Josh, that saved our lives. Even if it hurt, which was far from anything like that, it would have been worth it. What you did to keep us alive for that long was ingenious, and I couldn’t be more grateful for what you did. Not only that, but in all of that, I never felt so close to anyone else in my life. I guess sex does enhance a caring relationship. I just never realized what a wonderful caring relationship you and all your friends really have because you are able to share like that together. I have a whole new appreciation for who you and your friends are now. Having that experience I now understand what it is to share like that,” Rowen shared.

“I think it’s wonderful to be able to love friends like we do and share what we do. If you ever get tired of beating off when you’re horny, my lips are yours for a blow job or whatever you want to experience. Just so you know, we’re intimate friends now, but I won’t tell anyone about it other than the ones that already know having watched us. Our excuse is we had to do it to stay alive, which is the honest to God’s truth,” I replied. He patted me on my leg for reassurance as we arrived back at the CNB.

Once entering the apartment, Jake picked me up and hugged me like he never wanted to let me go. Will was there also jumping in on the hugs and kisses also, saying I’d scared the shit out of all of them. I saw Rowen standing there and pulled him into the hugs. “Rowen saved my life tonight,” I told them all. They grabbed Rowen and hugged him also, making him feel special. Zach told me to never ever let anything like that happen to me again as Rowen and I scared them half to death. They wanted the full report on what happened. I told them Rowen and I needed beer and lots of it. All the guys went to grab beer for us. Rowen and I sat on the couch together drinking our beers. I started off explaining what had happened. Jake and Will were in tears as they heard what we went through. Zach got very emotional also. Dylan got very emotional. He was the one that finally discovered we were in trouble. He apologized profusely for not recognizing we were in trouble sooner than he did. He thought Rowen and I were just goofing off hoping Garth and Dylan would get a kick out of it. Dylan said being naked was one thing but when he saw me going down on Rowen, he knew immediately something was wrong. Rowen thanked him for that. Dylan said he was beside himself trying to get hold of Cal and Lucky. He dispatched them both and they both got there at the same time. I made all of them promise not a word of this was to leave this group, as it could compromise the whole investigation. They all agreed to keep it quiet but were worried about the wellbeing of Rowen and me. I told them we’d get over it eventually with their help. We both got smothered with hugs again.

Clay called me so I went into our bedroom to talk to him. “Josh, Cal told me what happened. I am so sorry. I had no idea anything like that could happen. I feel awful, like I almost got you killed,” Clay told me.

“Clay, no one knew X was here in town. I guess Kenny got a tip, but didn’t know for sure. He just alerted you there could be a problem. At any rate, X is out of the picture finally and good riddens,” I replied. Clay agreed.

“Cal said there wasn’t a story here yet until someone discovered the body, then I can report on what was found depending if anyone turned it in to the police. Who knows if that will happen or it will just disappear into the underworld of this town,” Clay replied. I told him I wasn’t sure what would happen other than Rowen and I were clear of all of it finally. “I’m so relieved the two of you are okay. Just keep it that way,” he told me.

“You need to be careful as X knew Kenny had a boyfriend of some sort. He didn’t have a name, but he had your address. I’m not sure if he had any minions here with him or if he came by himself. Just keep an eye out and watch your back,” I warned. Clay said he was certainly going to do that. Clay told me that Cal was picking him up tonight to take him home as he didn’t want him to leave the studio by himself anymore. I told Clay that was sweet of Cal. Clay just chuckled like really it was no big deal. Clay and I said we loved one another before we hung up. It was good hearing from him and knowing he was okay as who knew all the crazy players that might be in town ready to start a turf war. I knew one thing and that was, it would take a couple of days at least for the various factions to figure out what might be going on.

I had a couple more beers along with Rowen, Will and Jake. Jake and Will swore they weren’t going to let me out of their sight ever again. I told them I did not think that would be necessary. They told Rowen that Lucky was now his official bodyguard. Rowen chuckled at the thought, saying it was supposed to be the other way around. Jake told Rowen that Lucky was beside himself when they called to tell him what was going on, and that he needed to head over immediately. Rowen thought that was sweet of Lucky. The two had become great friends through all of this.

 

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Chapter 753 - G

Somewhat drunk and exhausted, we headed for bed. Will said he’d see me at the office in the morning after kissing me and hugging me goodbye. Jake and I said goodnight to Rowen in the hallway. “Are you going to be okay by yourself tonight?” I asked Rowen. He turned around with tears in his eyes and hugged me, shaking some. “Okay, that’s it, your sleeping with us tonight. You’re going to feel safe and not alone. Jake and I will hold you all night if that’s what it takes. I swear the beer helped but nothing like our arms around each other,” I told him. Rowen didn’t resist. Jake and I took off our briefs. Rowen slipped his off also which surprised Jake and me. We put Rowen in the middle. I put my arms around him, and Jake put his arms around both of us, telling us he was so grateful for the two of us doing what we had to do to stay alive. He told us both how brave we really were. Rowen was a little shaky at first, but finally relaxed enough to fall asleep. I, on the other hand was not as lucky. My mind wouldn’t stop reliving the horror Rowan and I experienced tonight.

 

[Hlas]

Wow. What a rollercoaster.
So, X is out of the picture now.
There is still a lot to do to clean all this mess.

 

[Thanatos]

Yes, X is out. But there are some hard times coming for Josh (probably PTSD related). And that will be interesting for sure to see how it evolves.

And as for the last chapter, great work so keep it coming FT, keep it cumming

 

[highflyer99]

Oh yeah, grear chapter. Scary, and satisfying too, since X got what he deserved. For sure Josh and Rowen are going to have post-traumatic stress to deal with, but they're both young and ambitious and focussed on achieving success in their lives, so with Dr Wayne's help I'm confident they'll manage it.

It was Rowen who had the presence of mind to come up with the story about using Clay's apartment for sex. Smart lad, obviously highly capable of thinking on his feet. I was also impressed with the boys' ability to actually perform in the circumstances! I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be able to get hard while a Mexican thug was holding me at gunpoint. Hats off to our boys

Very much looking forward to the next chapter.

Cheers, HF

 

[bs29697]

I agree with Hlas, Thanatos and HF's comments about this chapter. I was on pins and needles reading these last two chapters filled with suspense and a little fear about the outcome.

Rowen wasn't afraid to show his feelings for Josh after the scare of their life ended for now with the death of X, Josh and Jake both made Rowen feel their love sleeping in their bed.

I'm truly looking forward to the next installment.

Brian

 

[bigcannon]

Wow, that really was one hell of a chapter, FT. Like Brian said, we were on pins and needles during the first part of the chapter until X was neutralized. HF was right in that Rowen came up with the excuse he and Josh were using the apartment of a friend for sex. Quick thinking and for a straight boy also. Kudos. Will this affect Rowen long term? Hopefully not, but you never know. I have a feeling Josh can cope better than Rowen, who had to experience gay sex as the first sex ever the boy experienced. I can't imagine what that might be. Not only that, but it was at gunpoint also, like HF mentioned. But, if anyone could get another male hard, Josh is the man to do it. It will be interesting to see how the two cope with this going forward. I hope Cal, Lucky and the rest of the guys, mainly Jake and Will help our two boys out during this recovery time. They need a lot of consideration and love.

Damn, you got me all riled up with this last chapter. Can't wait for the next one to see if things mellow some. BC

 

[funtimes]

Glad to know you all survived the last chapter. It was a little scary to write. Had been thinking about the concept for some time. Now the healing process starts except the war isn't over yet. Rowen and Josh are still on edge having experienced what they experienced together. So we go on. They boys get to talk to psychologists in this next chapter and then Rowen has some questions of his own as to the sex he and Josh had. Enjoy. I'll be back with another chapter in a few days, first of the week, hopefully. Have a great rest of your weekend. FT.

 

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Chapter 754 – Working On Sleep and Then Therapy

The night was a little tumultuous for me. My mind seemed to race back and forth, playing back almost every little detail. I was angry and scared all at the same time. I kept looking at the clock. Surely the night had to be over soon. I know Rowen was having the same problem as he’d put his arm around me from time to time to tell me we were safe now, no need to worry anymore. Then I’d settle down. I had to do that to him a couple of times. Even Jake tossed and turned, talking in his sleep telling me he was coming to rescue me. When the alarm finally went off, I felt like I hadn’t slept at all. Rowen’s morning wood was up against my ass with his arm around me. I chuckled, asking him if he didn’t get enough of my ass last night. That only embarrassed him, for which I apologized for, telling him his cock actually felt good where it was at the moment. That made him crack a smile and thrust it playfully a couple of times. I had to give him a quick kiss which made him smile. Jake finally woke up asking us if we were going at it again. Rowen told him he didn’t think he needed any more of that. Jake told him he should definitely think about it since he had some experience already. Rowen told him he thought that might be a once and done thing, but he didn’t know.

I finally got out of bed, although I felt exhausted. I pulled Rowen up, boner and all. He didn’t seem to cover himself, not embarrassed anymore after what we went through. I pulled Jake up also. He was sporting wood in all its glory also. “Wow, this is kind of strange, but you guys are like my real brothers now, so what the hell. It is what it is,” Rowen commented. Jake and I hugged him between us. “Somehow this feels right,” he said welcoming the affection we were giving him. We made our way to the showers, naked and ready to get civilized. I did wash Rowen’s back again after Jake and I lathered each other up. I even drew my middle finger through his ass crack this time passing over his asshole. He never budged, but did chuckle some. I guess we had crossed that boundary finally. I did give him a quick smile. Zach and Brady gave me a hug in the showers, so grateful I was okay. They even hugged Rowen who allowed them to hug him naked for once. I began to think great progress had been made.

We all had breakfast together after our shower. Jake, Zach and Brady took off for the dorm, after Jake asked me if Rowen and I were going to be okay. I assured him we were okay, just a little sleepy and a little shaky, but otherwise I thought we were fine. Rowen said he thought he was okay. I reminded Jake we were to go about out lives as if nothing happened. Jake said to call him if anything came up or if I just needed to talk. I told him I would but to get things done as we had a deadline to meet. He said nothing mattered but my own wellbeing at this time. The rest could wait. I gave him a big hug and a long kiss.

I took Rowen with me to the office after the rest of the guys left for the dorm. I told him to make himself comfortable or he could make us some coffee in our little kitchen between Jake’s and my office. He thought our setup between the offices with the small kitchen and the nice bathroom with a shower was pretty cool. I told him I thought it was a little overkill, but there were times when it came in handy. He definitely agreed. Will popped in shortly after we arrived. He had a cup of coffee with us.

“Anyone else in the office know what happened last night?” Will asked me. I told him the did not unless he told someone. He assured me he hadn’t told a soul. He said he even talked to Forest last night and didn’t tell him anything either. I thanked him for keeping all this quiet. “Has Cal been up to see you yet?” Will asked. I told him he was supposed to be here with a woman shrink at 10:00 to see what kind of mental damage had been done to the two of us. “I don’t think it did much damage to you, but I am concerned about Rowen,” Will chided. I rolled my eyes. “Well, you kind of gave him a crash course in male to male sex last night, one he wasn’t prepared for. Just not sure how traumatic that might be,” Will went on to say. Rowen smiled.

“It didn’t kill me like not doing it might have. At least it was with someone that I cared about and trusted to get me through. I thought Josh was the more courageous one, killing time until the guys showed up,” Rowen commented.

“Nonsense, you’re the one that went for the gun and shot the dude which saved both our lives. I think you’re the most courageous one,” I replied.

“It’s a wonder you’re both alive, and quick thinking on both of your parts is what saved you. The two of you made a good team. We couldn’t be more grateful for the outcome,” Will remarked.

“Will, do you want to handle lunch today with the senior staff. I think Rowen and I are wiped out. I don’t think either one of us got much sleep last night and right now, coffee is the only thing keeping me awake. I’m going to have to take a nap here and soon. That is if I can even sleep without having nightmares again,” I replied. Will said he’d be glad to conduct the luncheon meeting, asking what kind of excuse was he to use to tell them why I wasn’t there. I had to stop and think about that. “Just tell them Rowen and I are working with Cal and the task force or something. They’re about to make some moves and they needed my input. Tell them whatever you want, but I just don’t think I’ll have the energy to sit through lunch with them, thinking about what happened over and over,” I replied. Will said he understood.

I got a call from Cal who wanted to know if he could come up to talk. I gave him access to the elevator and told him to come on up, sending Will out to let him in the office suite. Moments later Will was back with Cal. Cal came right over and hugged me.

“How was last night? Couldn’t sleep, could you?” he asked. I nodded ‘yes’. “Thought so. Had a few of those nights myself when I was first starting out and dealing with unpleasantries. I certainly know the feeling,” he replied. “Rowen, you the same way?” Rowen sleepily nodded ‘yes’ also. Cal gave him a big hug also, telling him how brave the two of us were and what a fantastic job we did together. Rowen didn’t say much. “Okay, so in less than an hour I’ll have Beverly up here to talk to the two of you. She may want to talk to the two of you, then talk to your separately also. Be truthful and open with her. Tell her any little thing on your mind. Don’t hold back anything good or bad. She needs to know what goes through your mind. This is just round one of several rounds to come, just so you know. Trust me on this, it’s all so new to you and happened so fast that once your mind has had time to rest and everything that’s jumbled currently kind of starts to straighten itself out, there will be things you’ll want to talk about you don’t even have a clue at the moment what those things are. Right now there are a lot of things buried in the back of your minds you don’t even realize. She’ll ask you questions that will help dig those things out and get them out in the open so they don’t show up and hurt you someday. I know it sounds weird, and I’m not the best example of going through that situation, but I want the best for the two of you so do as she says and not what I did. Honestly, Josh, you and your friends have been the best therapy for me, and helped me to realize who I really am and be comfortable with it. I swear you did more for me than any therapist could have done. The sad thing is, I don’t think I can do that for you, so you’re stuck with the shrinks, you and Rowen both. Will and Jake can help. The more normal you are around the sooner you’ll get past all this and it goes away. The sad thing is, it never goes away, you’re just able to deal with it better in the future and limit the damage it can do to your mind,” Cal told Rowen and me.

“I don’t feel any crazy emotion at the moment, Cal,” Rowen told him. “It was just something that needed to be done, and I stepped up and did my job. I don’t feel sorry for what I did at all. Maybe I should feel some remorse, but the way I look at it, it was either X or Josh and me. It needed to be the bad guy, X, not Josh or me,” Rowen stated. Cal smiled.

“You’re absolutely right. The thing is you’ll play this over and over in your mind until it almost drives you crazy. You have to get out all your feelings, even those you think you shouldn’t feel. You’re being logical in your thinking, but your mind is going to make you think differently at some point in time. There is guilt of taking a life, no matter who it is. I know it sounds weird and isn’t right, but it happens. Maybe it won’t with the two of you, but I’ve been through enough of this with my other agents as well as the undercover perp I was living with so you just don’t know. Beverly is going to give you things to think about to help thwart some of those guilt feelings. You just need to listen to what she has to say and take them seriously no matter how crazy they might sound now, but will sneak up on you later,” Cal warned.

“What about using my friend, Dr. Wayne whom I have a personal relationship with working with two other, possibly three other, friends of mine?” I asked Cal. He shrugged his shoulders.

“If you would prefer to use him and he’s willing to work with you and Rowen, then by all means, let’s bring him in. I would ask that Beverly meet with him first and advise him of everything that happened, stressing the confidentiality of the situation before he talk to either of you, just so you know,” Cal replied. I told him that wasn’t a problem with me.

 

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Chapter 754 - B

“I’d be a lot more comfortable talking to a male professional about what happened than I would a female no matter how good she might be. I mean there were things that could have changed my life last night I had to do to stay alive that I’m not proud of but would be embarrassed as hell to explain it to any woman no matter how educated in mental health they were,” Rowen commented. Cal smiled.

“I totally understand, Rowen and if that makes you more comfortable, then that’s probably the route we need to take, and I’m sure Beverly will agree. No problem. I’m glad you’re being honest about it and not shy,” Cal replied.

“I woke up naked this morning with a boner in front of Jake and Josh, something that would have almost traumatized me before with extreme embarrassment. Hell, it didn’t phase me at all. I don’t know what I’m going through right now or if I even care, but I keep thinking the old me, before I had the experience of male sex with Josh last night, might wake up one of these days and damn near kill me. I have no idea if that would happen or not, but I need to try to make sure it doesn’t,” Rowen explained. Cal smiled.

“Damn, I would have enjoyed that myself, waking up between Josh and Jake naked with a boner, but I totally understand what you’re saying. It’d be better explaining that to Josh’s friend, Dr. Wayne than Beverly. I have to warn you though, Beverly is kind of hot and she wears a short skirt,” Cal commented.

“Well you can count me out then,” I chided. Rowen said maybe he needed to rethink this some. We all chuckled.

We heard a knock on the door. I told whoever to come in. Ken cracked open the door saying he didn’t mean to interrupt, but Lucky was here to see us. I told him to let him in. I told Ken to come on in. Ken let Lucky in then disappeared again downstairs. Lucky grabbed Rowen and enveloped him with his long arms hugging him tightly with his cheek up against Rowen’s.

“So glad you two are okay. Did you have a sucky night?” Lucky asked Rowen. Rowen acknowledged he did. “Thought so. I felt for you, man. Had a few of those myself, but it does get better,” Lucky told Rowen, then came over and hugged me.

“Josh helped, Lucky. He and Jake slept with me last night, and I’m not ashamed they did as it felt good someone holding onto you and making me feel safe. When they told me goodnight last night, I broke down and felt like the loneliest person on earth. They both made me feel safe last night. I couldn’t be more grateful to both of them,” Rowen told Lucky.

“I woke up shaking sometime during the night and Rowen put his arm around me and told me everything was okay. He helped me also,” I told them all. Rowen said he didn’t remember doing that, but he was glad he could help. I assured him he did.

“I just wanted to make sure you two were okay. It gets better with time, but for a couple of days, it’s going to suck, especially when there’s only a few people you can talk to in this world about it, which is extremely limited in your world,” Lucky told us, with Cal agreeing.

Lucky told Cal they needed him downstairs as Conner and Neal had just turned up. They thought they might have found X finally, only it was a dead X, from what Lucky told us. Cal smiled. “I guess my plan worked after all. I’ll be right down to hear what they have to say, not that I don’t know the details already, but I’ll let them explain it to me,” Cal stated. Lucky smiled, saying their explanation should be interesting to say the least.

I sat behind my desk not knowing what to do. Rowen was about to go to sleep sitting in front of me with Will beside him. I told Will he could go do what he needed to do. He told me he promised Jake to keep an eye on me today and take care of my every need. I had to smile, thinking about Jake telling him that, knowing if he couldn’t be with me to watch over me, Will was the next best thing. Rowen nodded off. I got up and picked him up out of his chair and slung my arm under his shoulders and walked him to the couch and laid him down, picking up his feet and putting them on the couch with a pillow under his head. He was out. Will told me how sweet and innocent he looked at the moment. Will then hugged me tightly and told me how scared he was with what was happening as they let him know. He said what he did see of what happened would scare the shit out of everyone that was sane. I told him there were a few moments there when I wondered if I’d ever see him or Jake again. He hugged me tightly.

“You can’t ever leave me, Josh. We have to die of old age having the most intense sex ever when we go, buddy. I couldn’t live without you in my life. Never,” he said, as he hugged me, then gave me an intense kiss.

“Oh, you’ll die in the arms of a young stud when I’m old, decrepit and gone,” I teased. He swore that would never happen as he didn’t want to ever leave my side even if he had to share it with Jake. I laughed. Then he asked if I’d talked to my parents. “Haven’t lately, but I sure as hell thought about that last night. I should probably call them just to see how they are,” I replied. Will told me to call them now before the hot looking shrink lady showed up and wanted to look at my dick. He did make me chuckle.

I called them getting my mom, as Dad was out farming like he should have been. It was all small talk with a million questions as to what I’d been up to and how many companies had I bought since we last talked. There was little relevance to our conversation, but it just felt good to talk, to hear her voice and know she was there. I told her I loved her and Dad several times and really missed the farm at times. I did tell her I’d been to the ranch we owned recently and how nice it was to walk the land and be in nature again. I left out the highwall diving, naked sunbathing and hot sex I had with Malachi as she didn’t need to know that part, nor did Will who was listening in. Of course she asked how Zach and Jake were. I told her they were just fine. I told her I was just thinking about them this morning, and when I did, I would usually forget to call and check up on them, but I made it a point to be sure and call them today. She thought that was sweet, but told me to do it more often. I had to say, ‘yes, mam’. She chuckled. I told Will when I hung up, I really missed them and should try to get down to the farm soon to see them. They weren’t getting any younger and I was letting too much time pass between visits. Will agreed, saying he’d love to go with me sometime when I went. I told him Zach needed to go also as they were as much his parents as they were mine, as much time as he spent with them my Freshmen year here. Will agreed.

It was only a short time before the guard called and told me that there was a Dr. Beverly Macintosh here to see me and Agent Calihan. I told the guard to send them up then sent Will to fetch Cal. Will gave me a look. He said he’d go get him but he wasn’t going to ‘fetch’ him. I told him to live a little. Will told me the more he thought about it, he wasn’t sure who Cal really was, and didn’t know if he wanted to invest the time in him to find out, as he wasn’t sure Cal even knew. I told him he had a point, but he was kind of hot in bed. Will gave me the raspberries, saying I seemed to be getting some of my sense of humor back which he was glad to see, as he took off to fetch Cal for me.

The two arrived back as I woke Rowen up and handed him another cup of coffee. I kissed him on the forehead, something I felt like I just needed to do. He smiled when I did, telling me that was nice. “Last night was a little different kind of kissing,” he chided, making me chuckle but then apologize to him for having to kiss him that way. “It was okay, Josh. Kind of different, but kind of nice in a way. The truth is, I’d never kissed anyone like that before. At least I know what it feels like now,” he commented, making me smile. I told him I was proud to be his first, but I didn’t kiss and tell so his secret was safe with me. “You and everyone that watched us on camera last night. Good grief, I hope I didn’t look too stupid not knowing what the hell I was doing,” he replied. I told him he couldn’t have been better. He smiled, but I had a feeling it still bothered him.

Cal appeared with Dr. Macintosh who told us to call her Beverly. Cal wasn’t far off as far as looks were concerned. She was probably in her late thirties, but had a tight short skirt on and a couple of big knockers on her chest and long blonde hair. She could have been a Cover Girl at one time. She shook our hands. Cal suggested that Will give us some privacy so he said he’d be close if we needed him and left, shutting the office door behind him.

 

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Chapter 754 - C

“So, Cal gave me a full briefing last night and this morning on my way over here from the City. I’m terribly sorry you two had to experience what you did. I’m sure it’s all a foggy dream, but what I hope to accomplish with you two, collectively and individually, is to dig all the bad stuff out of your mind, work together with you to make sense out of it all, and then peacefully bury it away in a place where it can’t hurt you anymore. This may take some time, but just remember, time heals all wounds. I know that sounds like a cliché but it’s true. I feel like the more you talk about it and get it out on the table the better you’ll feel about yourself and handling this. Regular routines, keeping busy is also a way to overcome a lot of what haunts you. I hate to tell you this, but you need to know, this incident will haunt you, so don’t be surprised when it does and don’t think you are crazy as it’s only natural. We’ll deal with it. I’ve asked Cal to find me an apartment over here in Uni so I can be local to help you through all of this as it’s our duty to make sure we heal you as fast as possible, but I warn you this will take time and a lot of follow-ups,” she assured us.

“Beverly, Josh has asked if it were possible for his own psychologist to treat him and Rowen who is male, thinking they’d feel more comfortable sharing with him than you being a female, not that there’s anything wrong with tha,t but as I related to you last night, there were things they did that they’d rather not have to share with you because of your gender,” Cal told Beverly.

“Oh, well, okay. Although there is nothing you can tell me that I haven’t dealt with before or can’t handle, but if that’s the case and you have someone here you trust and know, that actually might work better as it would skip a lot of having to get to know each other which would save some valuable time in your healing process. Do you have contact information for your psychologist?” Beverly asked. I sent her Dr. Wayne’s contact information for her to contact him. Turns out she knew him and spoke very highly of Dr. Wayne. She called him right away. He even had her in his phone and called her by name when he answered his phone. She said it was urgent that she see him right away in regards to a friend of his, then named me. He said absolutely he would and would clear his schedule for this afternoon so he could see us as well when he heard the urgency in her voice. She finally hung up. “Okay then, I am off to consult with Dr. Wayne who will keep me informed on your progress. He will want to see the two of you this afternoon so please make yourself available to him. Oh, and the Bureau will pick up Dr. Wayne’s fee for the two of you. I’ll take care of that when I get back to the City this evening. Cal, let me know if you need anything else and we really should get together and talk about your situation again sometime. You’ve missed several requests for appointments, and if I don’t see you soon, if may affect your fitness rating to work. So, keep that in mind the next time I request to see you, would you?” she said, somewhat scolding Cal. He said he wouldn’t miss it for the world, which I knew was a huge lie. Beverly shook hands with us again and wished us luck on our therapy, telling us to listen to Dr. Wayne and follow his suggestions, not Cal’s. I told Cal I believed she had his number. She told me she did. Cal rolled his eyes.

“Okay, I’m back downstairs. Oh, in case you were wondering, the police are looking for a possible killer of a short ugly Spanish male whose body was mysteriously dumped on the front steps of the W&S Construction Co. sometime in the wee hours of the morning. W&S has no idea how it got there or who dumped it there. Their cameras weren’t recording last night for some unknown reason so they have absolutely no video of anything that went on. Clay is covering the story as we speak, talking to the old men themselves asking if this had something to do with his two kids and the trouble they were in. You can imagine how that went over. I’m sure Aikens got an earful of that from W&S to call off the dogs. Anyway, Clay is having fun today and will have one hell of a report tonight. Oh, and by the way, Clay has some new furniture and new carpeting in his apartment. I guess he decided to remodel. Ain’t that something,” Cal said with a huge smile, making Rowen and I smile also. Cal said he’d let us know about Dr. Wayne wanting to see us but suspected Beverly would set something up for this afternoon after she was sure he had a full briefing. Then he took off. Rowen looked at me like what do we do next. I smiled.

“How about we take a nap. I have two couches, one for you and one for me. They look pretty inviting to me like I’m sure they are to you,” I told him. Rowen smiled.

“There’s only one thing wrong with two couches,” Rowen replied, causing me to give him a curious look. “You can’t hold me if you’re on a different couch.” I smiled.

“Well, we’ll just have to put the cushions on the floor because if you need holding, I’m going to hold you,” I assured him. Rowen smiled. We took the cushions off the couch and settled in. I spooned him making him feel safe. We quickly fell asleep.

I was awakened by a phone call from Cal after about an hour. “Hey, your psychology friend has been briefed by Beverly and has agreed to see the two of you at 1:30 if that works for you,” Cal informed me. I told him the day was wasted already as worn out as Rowen and I felt, so we’d be there, not that I was sure it would do any good, but I’d enjoy seeing Dr. Wayne. Cal told me I was crazy but wanted to help me any way he could. I thanked him for that. I woke up Rowen and told him we had to get up and get some lunch as we had a 1:30 appointment with Dr. Wayne. I could tell Rowen was in a deep sleep as it took a while to bring him back to life. We picked up the cushions and put them back on the couches. I told him we’d go back to the apartment and grab a sandwich to avoid the luncheon meeting with the senior staff. Rowen didn’t care one way or another.

“Did you dream any while you were napping?” I asked curiously. He smiled.

“Not really sure, but I felt peaceful for the first time in hours. Is that crazy?” he asked. I told him we’d ask Dr. Wayne, but I thought it was a healthy sign. “Kind of hated to wake up it felt so good,” he added. I told him that was because I had my arms around him. He chuckled, but said maybe there was something to that. I told him I was sure there was.

We grabbed some lunch at the apartment, avoiding being seen by my senior staff meeting, then headed over to the hospital to Dr. Wayne’s office. I told Rowen he’d like Dr. Wayne who I called Doc. I told him he was easy on the eyes also, kind of hot even though he was a few years older. I also told him about Henry, his significant other, being our banker, and how he was put together rather nicely and very friendly. Rowen was somewhat shocked to know Doc was gay, but then said he should have suspected it and shook his head at me, asking if there were other values I liked about his ability to help us not just provide eye candy for myself. That made me laugh and apologize for not sharing his professional values first. Rowen said that was just me, but he thought it was funny. I told him about Dawson, then Trent who also had a history with X, then Cam who we both worked with. Rowen wanted to know about Cam, what was wrong with him as he always thought Cam was a great guy. I told Rowen how Simon and Spence traumatized Cam at a young age and how reclusive he became because of that. I explained that it was our friendship and caring plus the love of flying that turned him around and made him whole. Rowen was shocked to hear what happened to Cam. “Now I understand why you have such a huge interest in taking down these idiots. They damn near destroyed two of your close friends,” Rowen commented. I told him that was exactly right. I reminded him that X even spoke about Trent the night we took him down. Rowen remembered him saying something about Trent, but he had no idea what X was talking about. I told Rowen that X actually shot and wounded Trent as he tried to escape out in Phoenix.

“There should be no remorse whatsoever that X was killed. He was a horrible evil man that destroyed the lives of many. He had no redeemable value on this earth.” Rowen said he had to think about that.

We had to wait a few minutes for Dr. Wayne as his receptionist said he was on the phone but she expected him off shortly as he knew we were coming. The door opened and he welcomed us in. I immediately hugged him. “Oh, I kind of forget what a hugger you are. Okay, good to see you too, I guess I should say. And this is Rowen?” Doc asked, as I finally let him go to shake hands with Rowen. He told us to take a seat. “I’m kind of at a loss for words here as I don’t think I could have imagined what the two of you just went through, right here in Uni of all places. Josh, you never cease to amaze me,” Doc stated, making me shrug my shoulders.

“Kind of thought we were at the end of our rope last night for sure this time,” I replied. “That was one scary dude coming through the door shooting last night.”

 

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Chapter 754 - D

“I can’t begin to imagine, Josh. Kind of a weird way to stall for time for help to arrive, but it seemed to work. What we have to do now is to talk about feelings and emotions you went through you may not even realize you had at the time, but will eventually come out and haunt you to a certain extent. It’s all too crazy right now, and we need to give it some time to settle in. I’m gong to set you up for some group therapy together, just the three of us, however, you two being the group and then some private sessions between me and you, Josh, and then Rowen and me. There may be things I’m going to dig deep into your psyche that you might feel embarrassed talking about in front of others. Rowen, Josh knows me only too well, but for you, you need to know that I don’t judge anyone for the way they are or what they feel or think. I just help you deal with your emotions and try to bring you back to the level of comfort with the life you had before an incident like this. If we discover more feelings you didn’t realize you had through this process, I’ll help you understand those also and deal with them. There is no right or wrong answers here. Right now, like I said, it’s too early for you to process what all happened and how horrified you really were with what happened last night. Things will eventually surface in your mind you didn’t know were there. Throughout this process, I would encourage both of you to talk things out between you also to help you both understand one another and what you’re dealing with here. If you have concerns about differences of understanding you can’t deal with between you, then those are the things we’ll work through in our combined sessions,” Doc explained. “Can you grasp what I’m telling you or do you have any questions as to the way we approach this?” Doc asked. “Rowen, for instance, tell me what you’re thinking about the whole situation at the moment. Like I said there are no wrong or right answers.”

“Right now?” Rowen asked, totally unsure of what he thought at the moment, I was sure. “Uh, I guess I was happy when Josh and I left to go to Clay’s apartment. Josh always has a way of making you feel happy. I remember I had just showered after a day of a ride-a-long with Lucky, a local policeman who’s a friend of Josh’s. I’m in the police academy studying to be a law enforcement officer in case you didn’t know. Josh took me in to help provide some security for him and his group with all the craziness he was involved with helping out the FBI. I really like living with his team. It’s been a tremendous help to me and my wellbeing. Anyway, the next thing we both knew, when we first arrived for a simple task at Clay’s apartment, was some crazy guy bashing the door in and shooting up two pillows on Clay’s couch scaring the shit out of us. Josh used his personality skills to deal with the guy. He asked us where this guy Kenny was that we supposedly knew. Although we knew of him, we told him we’d never heard of him. He obviously didn’t buy that, and asked us why we were there when Clay wasn’t. Josh seemed to hesitate so I told him we were a gay couple and Clay let us borrow his apartment to have sex when he was working as we lived in separate dorm rooms at Uni. Might have been a dumb move, but he told us not to let him stop us for having one last romp before he killed us. At that point, I thought we were basically dead as I had no idea how to have sex with Josh. Josh told me he’d guide me through it, and he did. After we finished with the sex thing, the X guy wanted to have anal sex with Josh. He was about to penetrate him when he laid his gun down to direct his penis, and that’s when I grabbed his gun and shot him, three shots center mass like I’ve been trained to do,” Rowen explained, looking up to Doc for some kind of reaction.

“So that’s what happened, now we’ll work on how those actions affected you. Any feelings so far on any of this?” Doc asked.

“I shot a person, but it was either him or us. I found out I could do what I needed to do to protect Josh and myself. Our instructor has warned us about freezing when you need to act as some aren’t capable of pulling the trigger or hesitate to where it’s used on you. I took direct action and moved,” Rowen explained. Doc asked him if he had any regrets at this point. “No. I knew if I didn’t shoot him, he was definitely going to shoot us, so it was a justified shoot,” Rowen replied, assuring himself he did the right thing.

“I think most sane individuals would agree with you, Rowen, thinking you were a hero for what you did. I’m sure Josh is grateful for you saving both your lives. You stared death in the face and both of you acted rationally to remove the threat. It sounds good so far. Both of you have justified the shooting in your mind and have rationalized the shooting was justifiable and necessary to save your own lives. That’s a good start. Let’s hope it stays that way for both of you, and I’m sure it will. You handled tremendous fear rationally, which is great, by the way. Now, I understand you are not gay in your sexual preference. What did you think about having sex gay sex with Josh? Any misgivings there?” Doc asked. Rowen chuckled a little.

“Yes, I guess I was disappointed he wasn’t a girl with nice tits for my first sexual experience, but I got through it all,” Rowen replied. Doc and I chuckled.

“Do you have any feelings like you did something horrible there, immoral or feel any less of a man for having sex with Josh?” Doc asked. Rowen looked confused.

“I don’t think so. I mean it was weird and awkward, but Josh made me feel comfortable through the whole process and to tell you the truth I didn’t think much about it at all at the time, as I was concentrating on how to get the gun away from the perp and save our lives,” Rowen replied.

“You don’t have any feelings that Josh took advantage of you at the time then?” Doc asked, making me a little concerned.

“Josh? No, we did what we had to do to kill time, humor the guy and then eventually take him out,” Rowen replied. Doc asked if any emotional feelings he had towards me changed from before the incident after the incident. “Not that I know of. I mean we stared death in the face together. We shared that horrendous experience together and yes, we had sex together which was a little crazy but necessary to stay alive. I guess you could say we pretty much bonded through that experience, hell, I guess in more ways than one when you think about it. I really appreciated him as a friend before and I probably appreciate him more now because we bonded trying to save one another. Doesn’t that seem logical?” Rowen asked. Doc smiled saying it was perfectly logical, but sex had been known to change the relationship between two people. He did say, as a form of necessity in this incident, he felt if we were both comfortable with each other for what happened. So far it sounded like everything would be fine. That seemed to concern Rowen. “You don’t think what happened will make me gay do you?” Rowen asked. Doc chuckled as did I.

“No, Rowen, I don’t. It was just one of those crazy adventures that happened in life that is of no consequence for the most part, kind of like when young teenagers are experimenting with sex with each other, then outgrown it to date hot chics later. It won’t make you gay by any means. Josh, what about you? Did you experience any emotional feelings with Rowen during your sexual experience with him?” Doc asked me. While I wanted to be a smartass here, I decided on being truthful for Rowen’s sake and Doc’s.

“No, like Rowen said, we were just kind of going through the motions of having sex, trying to stall so someone might show up and rescue us. I was somewhat concerned for Rowen having to endure what he did having sex with a guy, but I tried to make it as comfortable for him as I could. As scared as we were there was no way we were going to fall in love, if that’s what you’re getting at,” I told Doc. Rowen seemed to agree.

“You did tell X that my dick was yours to enjoy and if you were going out, you were going to love my dick and ride it out into the sunset until you were no longer here. I did think that was kind of poetic in a way,” Rowen replied.

“No, that sounds like something Josh would say, knowing him as well as I do,” Doc replied. I frowned at Doc, who smiled at me.

“Oh, and he did tell me, if he had to have sex under these circumstances, he was just glad it was with me, someone he cared about and not some stranger. That touched me emotionally. I mean it made me feel good at the time. Actually, some of the things he did made me feel damn good when I think back on them now, but at the time, I was just holding on to get through it all,” Rowen confessed. Doc looked a little suspicious.

“You see how things can change thinking about them now, compared to the times they were happening? That’s why I say this is going to take a while to get through and sort everything out,” Doc warned. “How did you sleep last night? Tell me about sleep,” Doc asked us. Rowen and I looked at each other unsure as to what to say. I started.

“Horrible. I kept tossing and turning and reliving the whole nightmare in my mind until I was too exhausted to think about it anymore and eventually fell asleep. Rowen had to shake me out of it during one nightmare,” I confessed. Doc looked curious.

“You and Rowen slept together then last night?” Doc asked. I rolled my eyes.

 

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Chapter 754 - E

“No, Doc, we didn’t have sex a second time. He was trembling last night as we were going to bed so Jake dragged him into bed with us, putting him between us. Nothing happened except we comforted each other, that’s all,” I explained. Doc seemed satisfied with the answer.

“So the two of you had nightmares which is perfectly normal given the circumstances. You comforted one another, which again is supporting one another. Anything else?” Doc asked.

“We took a nap late this morning before we came to see you. We both slept pretty good then,” I replied. Doc seemed satisfied, but asked if we were together or separated at the time. “We were on the floor of my office on couch cushions, but we slept fine,” I replied. Doc asked why we didn’t sleep on the couch or couches. I rolled my eyes. “We felt it was better if we held onto one another, Doc. I don’t know, it just made us feel safer to do that and let us finally get some rest. I swear to you there was nothing sexual involved in any of it. We just bonded,” I told him. He smiled.

“Perfectly normal, Josh, to comfort and support one another. I’m glad that gave you peace and allowed you to get some rest,” he replied. “Okay, I think I have the gist of everything so far. I want you two to take the weekend, and then we’ll schedule an appointment for Monday afternoon at the same time. Try to rest and relax and not think about this horrible experience. Trying not to is going to be hard, but try to think of happy thoughts with all your friends as best you can. Here’s my card, Rowen, and I want you to call me if you feel any kind of personal panic over anything. Josh has my number on speed dial so he already has it. If you feel uncomfortable at all, please call me day or night twenty-four hours a day and we’ll talk or I’ll come to you. I don’t want you to suffer any if we can help it. Not saying you will as you seem extremely well adjusted for the circumstances, but I’m more worried about your friend Josh here as he’s a little crazy if you haven’t learned that already,” Doc chided.

“Do I get the same service as Rowen does? Will you come to me in the middle of the night to comfort me? If you will, can you bring Henry with you?” I had to ask, making Doc roll his eyes, telling Rowen that’s why he was more worried about me. Rowen took it all in stride.

Doc stood up and told us he thought we were doing well so far, but we needed to communicate honestly with one another and keep everything in perspective. He shook hands with Rowen, then I hugged him tightly, thanking him for being my friend. I think he really felt he hug was heartfelt, and it was, but I still had to pat his ass as I broke the hug, making him jump. “Josh, I’m not sure I can ever quite get used to you, but I have to like you. Watch this character, Rowen. He can be a handful at times,” Doc warned.

Leaving the hospital, Rowen said he felt comfortable talking to Doc. He thought he was going to like him, but wondered why Doc felt like we were going to need some extended therapy to get this behind us. I told Rowen, having never been through a traumatic incident like this, I wasn’t sure what to expect after listening to Beverly and Doc, as I felt like we did what we had to do and moved on. Rowen thought that was strange also.

“Can I ask you somewhat of a personal question, Josh?” Rowen asked as we made our way back to the CNB. I told him to shoot as I was always there for him. “Why when you licked my asshole, which I don’t know how you could do something like that as it just seems so dirty, did it feel so good to me?” he asked. I chuckled.

“You just showered, Rowen so I knew you were clean. When clean, the asshole is just as clean as any of the rest of your skin so it wasn’t a nasty thing to do. The anus is a very sensitive part of the male anatomy. Teasing it with a tongue can send thrills through the male body. Did you feel any of that when I did it to you?” I asked.

“Oh yeh. I mean, yes, there was a sensation there that kind of grabbed me, one I’d never experienced in my entire life. I just couldn’t imagine how you could do such a thing. But, I guess you’re right if it’s clean, then I guess it would be like licking any other part of your skin. What if I farted though? Wouldn’t that be sick?” he asked concerned. I laughed.

“I’d bite your ass for farting in my face. How’s that?” I teased. He laughed, saying he guessed that was justified. “Usually you’re aroused to the point things like that don’t happen, but they definitely could. Doesn’t usually though. By the way, you have an intriguing asshole, one that got my juices flowing,” I told him. He gave me a strange look.

“How could an asshole be remotely intriguing, much less create male arousal? It’s not like female breasts or a vagina,” he asked, concerned. I smiled.

“Well, to a gay guy, it’s kind of like female breasts to a straight guy. You have a tight ass, tight buns, very shapely by the way. There are these fine hairs in your ass crack that adorn your asshole that really made my dick hard and felt great as I bathed them with my tongue. And, you have this cute virgin asshole which is a huge turn-on to me, and would be others like me,” I replied. He looked at me kind of funny.

“I guess I’ve never seen my asshole so I have to take your word for it. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I could get excited looking at a male asshole, or even a female one for that matter. I’ll just have to take your word for it. You did stick a finger, I guess it was, inside me there, at least it felt like you did,” he told me. I smiled.

“I had to make it look realistic to X what I was doing. Normally, had you been a gay partner, I would have fingered your asshole to loosen you up some to take a dick after our foreplay. Did you know that by sticking a finger in your ass, I can make you cum if I touch your prostate the right way? Or I can give you a prostate massage that will edge you beyond belief and drive you have crazy wanting to cum and cum hard,” I told him. He gave me a shocked look.

“Really? That’s possible?” he asked, stunned. I smiled.

“There are so many things guys can do to give each other incredible orgasms, it’s not funny, way more than with women. Straight guys don’t know what they’re missing really. There are straight guys that love to have their asses fucked occasionally. And there are straight guys that love to fuck a gay boy’s ass because it’s so much tighter than a woman’s vagina. I’m not saying they do it all the time, but occasionally they enjoy that type of thing,” I explained. He asked me why that was. “Because the pleasure is totally different than with a woman. If you just wanted to get off and have an incredible orgasm, and you have a gay friend that loves being fucked by a straight guy, then it’s just like helping each other out. It doesn’t make you gay, just adventurous I guess you could say,” I replied. He chuckled.

“Kind of like what we did then?” he asked. I told him exactly. “So with the intercourse we had last night, did it feel good for you?” he asked. I just beamed.

“Rowen, you were fantastic. I didn’t know what to expect, but your cock was made for a male ass. I’m telling you, you could fuck anyone in our group, and they’d love you for it. Yeh, you were great in that area. Under different circumstances it would have been fantastic,” I replied. There was a sheepish smile on his face. “If you ever want to do it again, that wouldn’t be a problem. Oh, and by the way, not that you want to hear this, but you did a nice job sucking cock also,” I shared. Now he looked embarrassed.

“I just had to think about what you told me, that it was just a piece of skin and nothing else. It was different but kind of interesting, doing what I thought I’d want to feel as you were doing it to me, but then you did a lot of other things too. You sucking on my balls was a real thrill. I couldn’t believe how great that felt. Like you said, under different circumstances the whole experience might have been a lot better, but it wasn’t bad other than I had no idea what I was doing. Thank you for getting us through all of that,” Rowen said appreciatively. I patted his bare knee thanking him for being such a great sport through it all.

“This might sound stupid, but how was my penis able to slide into your asshole? I’d swear that had to hurt,” he asked.

 

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Chapter 754 - F

“Conditioning. Had I done that to you, like X suggested I do to take your cherry, it would have hurt like hell the first time for a few minutes at least. You have to work up to that for the first time. I’ve had a lot of anal intercourse so it doesn’t hurt anymore other than if I take a huge cock, then it might for a few moments then it dissolves into pure pleasure. If this is too much information, let me know, but Jake and I are what you would call versatile. We can fuck or get fucked either one. Some guys are what we call total bottoms. They just love having a dick up their ass and the cum fucked out of them, so to speak. Jake and I can go either way. We enjoy both ways and pleasing one another,” I explained. Rowen smiled, then asked me what Dylan liked. I chuckled, remembering how Dylan teased Rowen all the time. “Dylan is versatile also. He likes it either way. I think Garth is mostly a top so that works well. Will, on the other hand likes to bottom, have a dick inside him. He can be versatile when he wants to be but prefers to bottom as he gets the most pleasure out of having his partner inside him,” I explained. Rowen asked me about Lucky. I laughed. “Are you compiling a list to keep in case you want to do something with these guys or what?” I asked, chuckling which caused him to chuckle. He shook his head, somewhat embarrassed, telling me he was just curious. “Lucky is versatile also. If you’re a bottom, his dick is to die for, but he’s just as happy on the receiving end also, maybe more so. I’m thinking Marvin, his boyfriend, is more of a bottom, but I could be wrong,” I explained. “Don’t go telling any of these guys I’m giving out personal information,” I teasingly warned. He chuckled.

“Don’t go telling anyone I did a decent job sucking your cock, and we have a deal,” he replied, making me laugh. I patted his leg again.

“You’re a good sport, Rowen, a great guy. I’m glad we can laugh about this considering what we just went through together. Very few gay guys share such intimacy as I did with a straight friend. I felt terrible for you at the time, but to be honest, it felt great to share myself with you. That probably brought us closer together than anything. Sex usually does if you keep it in perspective,” I commented.

“That was about as close as I ever care to get with a male friend, I guess you could say. I don’t know how you could get much closer,” he replied as we pulled up to my parking space at the office building. I suggested we go up and check out the war room and see if there were any new developments.

Lucky, Cal and Tomkins were in the war room. We both got hugged by Cal and Lucky. Tomkins just shook hands. Lucky had his arms wrapped around Rowen, his head cheek to cheek with Rowen, not really wanting to let go.

“You sure you’re okay, Rowen. As your partner, I have to look after you,” Lucky told him. Rowen smiled, saying he was flattered Lucky considered hm a partner. Lucky promised to do more for both Rowen and me in the future, not wanting to take any chances. I told him I appreciated that, but Rowen did an outstanding job for me last night. Rowen again said it was a joint effort.

“Rough night last night, I hear,” Tomkins said to me as he shook my hand and looked suspiciously at Rowen. I shook my head.

“Damn rough night. Traumatizing you might say,” I replied. Rowen told him the same thing. Cal said the whole thing blew his mind, saying they were still trying to figure out how X slipped into town undetected. Cal said he had agents working on that as he was concerned there may be other cartel members that came with him. “I damn sure think it would be good to know. I sure as hell don’t want to go through what we went through last night again,” I assured them.

“Well some of it wasn’t all bad,” Cal replied. I gave him an evil look. “Sorry, that wasn’t nice. So how did your session go with your doctor friend this afternoon?” Cal asked. I told him it went well but we were warned there would be more coming at us and we had a follow-up visit next Monday afternoon. “You want to make sure you make all your appointments, both of you. There are things that come up you haven’t even thought about at the moment, but you will and they can cause damage if you don’t deal with them,” Cal warned.

“Is that why you are the way you are?” I teased, getting a cute smile from Cal. Tomkins said I didn’t know the half of it. Cal told Tomkins not to encourage me.

“So we we’ve been listening to our boy Kenny all day and have collected some food intel. He’s been making some drops and been to the convenience store we know as a distribution point. I have to give him credit as he’s been including things in his conversations to let us know where he is. Like he’ll ask his clients how things are at the such and such place today, so we can hear where he is. Kind of proud of him in a way. He’s been summoned by Spence and Simon to discuss the X situation that landed on the doorstep of the construction company this morning of all things. I can’t believe they called law enforcement to report it, as if it was some migrant that got shot and dumped on their doorstep. Clay is going to work in more of the background of X, reporting that police have determined he’s on the FBI’s most wanted list. That ought to shake up W&S some. For some reason Spence and Simon want to discuss damage control with Kenny on the X matter. This ought to be interesting when they get together to discuss it. You guys are welcome to listen in if you want,” Call offered. Rowen and I were eager to finally hear a conversation between Spence, Simon and Kenny. Lucky said he was anxious to hear it also.

“Now that the X matter is handled and contained, how much longer is it going to be until you’re ready to round up all these gangbangers and put an end to all of this shit?” I asked Cal.

“We still have a lot of logistics stuff that Kenny is putting together for us. We don’t want to get a few distribution points and part of the gang when we strike. We want it all and we’re prepared to work this until we get it all. I don’t think we’re looking at a lot of time, but Kenny has the goons watching his every move. On top of that, Spence and Simon are giving him orders as to what they want him to do, orders which aren’t what the mobsters are telling him. I don’t know how the kid has held it all together, frankly. I can definitely understand why he wanted out as they’d drive anyone crazy just having to put up with those two idiots.” Just then Kenny came across on our listening device.

“To whoever is listening, I’m almost to Spence and Simon’s townhouse. I have to knock on the door with a special knock, then enter the code on the door before I enter. I have to yell at them when I open the door. They get trigger happy sometimes so I have to call them before I even knock and tell them I’m coming in. Obviously, they are not supposed to have weapons either out on bail, but they have them which is more dangerous to them than to others as drunk and high as they get playing with their guns at times, and I’m not just talking about the ones between their legs either. Just thought I’d let you know before I get there so you aren’t gong crazy trying to figure out what’s going on and send in the troops. Oh, and the whole organization is going crazy today as to what happened to X in case you didn’t know. We still don’t know what happened to him, but I have a feeling the mob boys intercepted him somewhere and took him out. If I’d had to rely on X to get me out of this mess, before you guys stepped in, I would have lost all chance of that for sure. I’m glad we’re doing what we’re doing and you can rest assured I am cooperating to the fullest extent I can. Gees this is weird talking to my cock like this. I just hope you got all this,” Kenny said, then added ‘over and out’.

“Okay, we got him loud and clear. All is continuing to work well at this point. I guess we get ready for a front row seat with Kenny meeting Spence and Simon. Moments later we heard him go through the routine he told us he followed. He called them to tell them he was coming in, then knocked on the door six times, then waited a couple of seconds, then knocked three fast ones. We heard him punch in a code on an electric keypad, then open the door and yell, ‘hey assholes, it’s me, Kenny’. We all got a chuckle out of that.

We listened intently as we could hear muffled voices in the background. We heard keys hit a hard surface, possibly Kenny throwing his keys on the counter. “Hey, Kenny, bro. Bout time your ass showed up,” someone said to him, either Spence or Simon we presumed.

“In case you guys haven’t figured it out, I actually have to work while you guys stay here fucking around. Must be nice not to have anything to do,” Kenny replied. We heard chuckling in the background. Then we heard several muffled sounds, we weren’t sure what they were. “Why are you guys patting me down?” Kenny asked. There were more chuckles.

 

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Chapter 754 - G

“Can’t be too careful these days as something has definitely gone wrong lately with this X situation. Tell you what, why don’t we all get naked like we used to as kids for some of the circle jerks we used to have back in the day when we’d get drunk and horny? Those were some fun times,” one of the S’s commented.

“Don’t you think we’ve grown up a tad since then or do you guys get turned on seeing my cock?” Kenny asked. We heard more chuckling. Then another one said, ‘go ahead and strip’. “What the fuck, if it’ll turn you on, only don’t get handsy. I’m not in the mood today with all this shit going on,” we heard Kenny reply as we heard clothes coming off. “Damn, Spence I forgot what a little pecker you had. Sorry to see it never grew up,” Kenny teased.

“Fuck you, Kenny. You never complained when you sucked it for me,” supposedly Spence answered him. “What the fuck, Kenny, what’s with the metal cock ring. You planning on some intense fucking. Let me see that thing,” Spence commented with supposedly Simon chiming in he wanted to see it also. We started to get concerned.

 

[Thanatos]

This chapter has a kind mood, after all the trauma and the sleepless night for Rowen and Josh. There will be long term issues, but they're in good hands (even the FBI doctor says so since she knows our doc, so we're good ).

And right at the end, after the silliest opening knock ever at Simon and Spence's, a little cliffhanger: as Kenny says, they're probably drunk and high, so they could be totally harmless or hair-triggered to shoot for whatever reason. So, can't wait to hear what they have to say about and to the cockring

As always, great work so keep it coming FT, keep it cumming

 

[Hlas]

Wow. The day after is difficult. Josh and Rowen are trying to cope.
Is this ring scene going to be the next crazy adventure? We will see.

Great work, FT.

 

[bs29697]

I agree with Thanatos and Hlas' comments about this chapter.

I can only hope for Kennys sake Simon and Spence are not techie nerds who would know if something was bluetooth enabled or not just by looking.

With Dr. Wayne's help hopefully Josh and Rowen can put the trauma they had with X behind them as quick as possible

I'm excited for the next installment.

Brian