Chapter 915 – Forest and Cal Separately Wrestle With Their Relationship
Damn, if Bryce wasn’t something else. He certainly knew how to capture my heart and he was getting better at it all the time. I resigned myself to the fact I needed to find him someone to truly love as he had so much love to give. I didn’t need all that tremendous love focused on me for sure. I found my way back to Forest and Russ. They were in Forest’s office having what appeared to be a congenial conversation which I was extremely happy to see. I walked in and took a seat beside Russ.
“Russ has been enlightening me about the days of the Kelly investigation, Josh. Seems if my boyfriend, your friend and even Russ’s fuck buddy, fell deeply in love with this Kelly,” Forest commented. I gulped, wondering just what all Russ had told Forest up to this point in my absence.
“That so?” I asked, trying to appear somewhat surprised. Forest scoffed.
“Don’t play stupid, Josh, as Cal tells you everything, and I know that for a fact because he’s told me you’re the only one he could really confide in and bare his soul,” Forest replied.
“I would say that might have been true at one time, but after his intimate relationship with you, Forest, I think that somewhat changed to you instead of me. I haven’t had sex with him since the two of you started dating. The only other times were just drunken experiences during a stakeout type situation well before he knew you. I felt sorry for him. He was happy when I finally introduced the two of you who seemed to hit it off,” I reminded him.
“Yes, how well I remember. Damn if we didn’t get right to the sex in a very short period of time. I think we were both in need, but maybe we should have been more prudent in getting to really know each other first,” Forest remarked. Russ laughed.
“You have to admit, Cal is really hot blooded. My only times with him were trying to console him over the Kelly arrest and sentencing. Forest, he was really lost at the time, and we just kind of found ourselves possibly drunk a couple of times and very horny. There was never really any love involved. We were more or less just friends helping out each other in a time of need,” Russ explained. Forest rolled his eyes.
“I can’t blame either one of you for what happened in the past as it was before me. Josh and I had some intimate time together, only he can really make you feel loved the first time his dick is up your ass, Russ, let me assure you. That happened to me and it took me some time to get over it, although I wouldn’t care if he jumped over this desk right now and fucked me up against the wall. He’s the most loving, thoughtful, caring friend you can have,” Forest stated on my behalf. I felt like getting up and taking a bow, but I just smiled and thanked him for his nice comments. He gave me this sexual hungry look which made me nervous. “Like I said, the past is the past. But after Cal and I first got together, like I said, the sex was great and we gradually began to really care about one another. At first we had no problems at all. He respected the fact that I was closeted, and with his job being what it was, no one knew his gender preference anyway as he had to play different roles in different investigations when he was undercover. Things were good and the relationship grew. Then as time went on, he wanted me to be able to accompany him socially like we were partners. That seemed to be the biggest hurdle in our relationship. He hounded me about that for quite some time. Even his partner in crime, Josh, hounded me about that saying that my boss, Tuck really didn’t care if I was gay or straight and only wants me to be happy in life. He wants the best for me according to Josh. He’s even willing to socialize with me accompanied by a male partner. I’ve warmed up to the idea that Josh is right and that Tuck is okay with my lifestyle and that won’t change the relationship Tuck and I have. Even his wife Millie wants what’s best for me. So, I’m about ready to tell Josh, who’s my counselor on many things associated with being gay, not to mention the best friend a guy could ever have, that I’m ready to meet with Tuck, along with him, and confess who I really am and who I really love. I was so close to making that happen, then Cal springs this Kelly guy on me, saying he might have to be his guardian during his probation to get him out of prison earlier, and there is a possibility this Kelly might have to live with us and would that be a problem?” So, I ask him, what was your relationship like when you lived with him and fucked him as part of your job. Was it just sex, or did you become emotional and possibly felt love. Oh, he stammered all over the place trying to answer that question to the point, I told him to stop as it was evident he’d become emotionally involved with the dude during his undercover work. He gives me this lame answer like, well maybe, but I still put him in prison and he’s going to be there for some time. I’m like well what’s it going to be like if you have to be responsible for him and he has to live with us when he gets out if you actually loved him at one time. First he jokes and says he’d be great for threesomes when we got bored with each other. I told him Josh might be but this Kelly, absolutely NOT! The fucker laughed. I told him it wasn’t funny,” Forest explained. I had to chuckle just a bit, getting a face from Forest.
“Sorry, Forest, but I’d never do a threesome with you and Cal as you two are crazy when you two fuck. I love you both, but I’m not getting in the middle of that,” I remarked. Forest chuckled. Russ said he’d buy tickets to something like that. I gave Russ the eye.
“Searching my own soul, I had to ask myself if I could live with someone I was just starting to feel comfortable with, opening up to who I really am and coming out to friends, and my team members, living with another man in our house that my boyfriend/going to become partner, loved deeply before he met me? Tell me I’m full of shit for thinking that way, but I don’t think so,” Forest confessed.
“You’re not full of shit or crazy for thinking that way, Forest. When we first arrested Kelly, I spent a lot of time with Cal because he was depressed. I knew I was gay, but I wasn’t sure Cal really was, other than he’d been playing that role as a live in lover to a gay man for over a year. Somehow we ended up having sex. I know I wanted to as I was kind of falling for him, however I told myself this probably wasn’t going to last because Cal wasn’t even sure if he was gay. He was just used to having gay sex and hadn’t had any straight sex for over a year. The sex we had was kind of mechanical, but hot nonetheless. Let’s face it, the boy has a nice ass and dick, does he not?” Russ asked, making Forest and I chuckle.
“Well, you seem to have pretty good knowledge of his sexual features,” Forest replied.
“I’m not gloating here, Forest. What I’m getting to does have a point. Just hang in there with me as I’m getting there. So, I thought maybe I might want to wait this out a bit and take care of his needs when he needed it and maybe things would swing my way, or he’d start dating girls and I’d just become his good friend. I care about him as a friend either way. Well, he was still heartbroken over Kelly. Then he compared our sex to the sex he had with Kelly. Kelly was not going away as far as I could tell, so I finally slapped myself into reality that I was not Kelly and no one but Kelly could really make him happy. I give you great kudos, Forest, for getting him as far along as you have, developing a fairly solid relationship with Cal without a mention of Kelly in his past other than a brief mention of what he did undercover and him leaving out the part he was madly in love with his perp. You made great progress with the boy. But then time has passed, he’d determined he did like gay sex and finally admitted to himself he was gay and probably should find a steady boyfriend and settle down. I can tell he admires the hell out of you, Forest. It’s bothering him that he thinks he’s hurt you. I think Josh feels that way also,” Russ stated. I told Forest I knew, in his own crazy way, Cal did love Forest.
“Ah, but the kicker is the revered loved one is back into his life now. Do either of you think it’s remotely possible that he won’t fall in love with this Kelly guy again especially if he has to take charge of him during his probation period? Josh, you met this Kelly yesterday. What did you think the chances are he’s going to fall in love with him again. Be frank with me, as you and I were friends before Cal entered the picture and we confided in one another. You helped me with my problem with Dave and I got over it and am fine now. I trust your instinct,” Forest asked. Russ rolled his eyes.
“Forest, as much as I don’t want to get involved as I think that should be something between you and Cal to determine, I care about you also, which you know damn well I do. Who helped you physically at times when you were going through some problems, much like Russ helped out Cal. I hate myself for having to say this, but the chemistry in the room when Kelly walked in, seeing Cal for the first time in ages and him seeing Kelly, I’m telling you, it was off the charts. Cal tried to maintain some professional decorum as did Kelly, but damn if they didn’t want to rip off their clothes and fuck each other senseless. I can tell you emphatically, Cal having parole responsibility for Kelly is not going to work for any other relationship he has. Like I said, I hate myself for having to tell you this, but I saw it with my own eyes. The words being said were professional but the emotions they were disguising were dripping with lust. I’ve never seen anything like it,” I replied to a rather stoic Forest, as he stared into space.