The Inconvenience That Is Love!

[harry113]

Dear oh Dear!! Things are turning bad for TJ & Ryan. I hope they can work through it all. Thanks Storyteller, great chapter.
Waiting for more!!!
Harry

 

[kcm17480]

Wow, what an excellent story. Man, you sure left me at the edge of my seat. This is going to be a nail bitter and I don't even do that, until you turn out the next chapter. I also like the titles for your chapters. Very appropriate.

 

[consult28]

I would like to join the others in saying how much I enjoy your story, especially the long chapters. I like to have something to read just before sleep and your chapters are just about right. If I can't finish it before I fall asleep, I have it to finish when the dog wakes me for 2 to 3 AM outing. Thanks again and keep the reading cumming.

 

[ThyStoryTeller]

Before i add my next chapter i would like to just say thankyou to everyone who has replied to this story all of which are great compliments which just makes me want to write more and more, and make it all that much better, simply so you guys can enjoy. Thank you all so, so much for all the awsome comments you have all made. This story still has alot to go, and i hope all of you and many others will read it all, i know you'll all enjoy it!!! THANKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now enjoy the new chapter guys!

 

[ThyStoryTeller]

Chapter 6!
Taking The Plunge!​

I heard my mum's slippers sliding along the carpet as she came bustling into my room to wake me up for school. I heard her as she opened the door, walked to my bed, place a hand on my shoulder, and shake me.

"Come on" she said "Time to get up"

"I'm already awake," I said depressingly. I had lain in bed with my back towards the door, with the covers pulled up over my head, and truth be told, I had not slept a wink last night.

"Already" she exclaimed, "You must be keen" she joked with me.

I felt her rise off my bed and walk around my bed and to the other side of my room as she pulled open the blinds and the sunlight washed over my room.

"How are you feeling today?" she asked as she sat upon my bed once more, as she slipped down the blanket from over my face to look upon me "Tj you look terrible. Did you get any sleep at all?"

"Yes" I lied to her.

"So?" she asked once more "How are you?"

"I'm fine mum" I lied again.

"No I don't think you are," she said as her face filled with concern and intent to help "Something is wrong. I'll call my boss and tell him I can't work, and I'll stay and you can have the day off school and you can catch up on some sleep and we can talk about whatever is wrong. It isn't good for you to bottle everything up"

"I'm not bottling anything up" I lied yet again "Go to work mum, honestly I'm ok"

"Stop lying. I'm your mother and I worry," she said to me.

"I know mum" I replied "There is something, but it's just life," I said as I downplayed the situation "I promise I'll be ok"

"I will hold you to that promise. If you promise you will be ok, I believe you, and when I come back in six days I expect to see nothing but smiles on that face ok"

"I promise" I truly did wish I could keep my promise, and I was hoping that by the time she'd arrived home that everything would have settled down and all would be well.

Mum just looked down at me, she appeared to be thinking, she took a breath and said "You know Tj, you are going to continue to trip and fall on everything in front of you if keep looking back at what's behind you"

"I'm sorry, what?" I asked, where ever she pulled that line from, I was confused.

She just smiled at me and finished with "All I mean is, that you won't be able to move on with your life, to what's in front of you, if you keep dwelling on what's behind you, in the past, what's done is done, and there is nothing you can do about what has been made history, but you can decide to make something of it, but you have to move on"

"Wow mum that's deep" I joked with her as slowly a smile slipped onto my face "If you are referring to Jesse, I am over it mum, but he isn't, that's the problem"

"Time heals all wounds," she said as she stood up.

"That's what they all keep telling me, I just wish time would hurry the hell up"

She simply smiled at me then slapped me on the arm and said "Come on, up!" and left the room.

My eyes lids felt like they weighed a tonne, all I wanted to do was close my eyes and fall asleep. However, every time I did the thought of what was going to happen today was too much to bear, and it pounded against the sides of my skull. Jesse was going to expose Ryan because of his own shortcomings, he was going to hurt someone he didn't even know, just to get at me, and I couldn't help but feel terrible for it. I couldn't imagine what school was going to be like, was I yet again going to be bombarded with questions, and most importantly how was Ryan going to take this, was he going to deny it to the point of desperation, and refuse to admit what he is and deny the simple fact the he prefers guys. Would he cease all involvement with me, would I never speak to him again after this day. I shuddered at the thought I prayed it wouldn't be so, but there was only one way to find out.

I threw the covers aside, slipped my legs over the edge of the bed, and sat up straight, I seriously could not be bothered to stand, and I simply had no energy. However, I thought a shower might wake me up. Half an hour later I had, had my shower and I was sitting on the edge of the bath with my towel around my waist, regrettably the shower did nothing to amp up my energy or spirits, I sat there remembering back to the night that I sat where I sat now, Ryan beside me as I wiped the blood away from his cuts and cleaned them for him. My mind couldn't help but think negative thoughts at the moment, it was all my mind wanted to do and I couldn't stop it, and all it was doing was making me fall deeper and deeper into a depressed state.

I had walked into my room and sat on my bed in front of my cupboard looking at my wall of mirrors, it was as though my mirror turned into a window into the past as I saw the shadowy figures of me and Ryan as I pleased him that night, the night that Jesse had smudged the beautiful portrait that was Ryan's face. I squeezed my eyes shut trying desperately to push those thoughts out, knowing it will only make it worse. It seemed as though it took me forever to get ready, and it appeared to have. I looked at the time on my phone as I picked it up and slipped it into my pocket, I only had twenty minutes to get to school. I ran out into the kitchen where my mum had just finished cooking breakfast.

"Sorry I haven't got time," I said as I picked up a piece of toast to eat on the run. I leant in and kissed mum on the cheek and said "Have a good week where ever you're going, I'll see you when I get back" she gave me a kiss back and goodbye, and hugged me and simply said "Remember your promise" but I was already halfway out the door and slamming my feet on the steps as I jumped down them towards my car. I put the slice of toast in my mouth and threw my bag into the car and hopped in, slipping my seat belt across me and started the car, I reversed out and began to drive towards the inevitable doom that awaited me at school.

I had pulled up into the car park just in time as then I heard the bell ringing, a quickly parked and hastily jumped out with my bag and locked the door. I saw Kayla and Scott walking together across the patch of grass that separated the front gate and the car park I quickly ran up to them with a breathless 'hey'

"You guys haven't heard anything yet have you?" I asked them.

"Heard what?" asked Scott.

I quickly recounted to them the events of last night mere seconds after they had left, and told them what Jesse had threatened to do.

"No way!" spat Scott "He wouldn't!"

"Jesse has totally lost it," added Kayla.

"Lost it is an understatement, he's totally cracked it, something has broken in his freakin' head, he's messed up" corrected Scott.

"Tell me about it" I replied simply as we trudged off into the school bound for the long stretch of the ever so boring schoolwork, thankfully, I only had a few weeks left of school and that was it for the rest of my life, but yet a job was what I had to look forward to next.

As always, school was boring, slow, all my books had barely, and schoolwork in them, the main thing that was in all my books were little pictures I had drawn as I waited for the bell to ring. I sat in first period, staring out the window looking over the school grounds and just wondered if the secret was out, I knew gossip, especially within my grade and the people I associated with, it would be all over the school before school even began. Therefore, the prospect was looking good, Hopefully Jesse had seen the error of his ways and noticed what a dickhead he was being.

Second period was upon me and still no questions, no odd looks from anyone, nothing, slowly my spirits began to rise. I was yet again bored, and I was thinking to myself, I would like to go out somewhere with Ryan, like on a date, as we had really only spoken at school or he had been to my house. We had been through quite a bit in just a few short days, and we haven't really enjoyed much else. I got excited to myself thinking about it, thinking of places we could go for dinner or something, and pictured ourselves sitting sipping drinks and eating beautiful food. Nevertheless, in the back of my mind I had doubts that he would want to. I was glad that today was only a short day at school, all I had left was the twenty-minute break between second and third period, then I had third period, which was English, and then I could go home. I was excited to try and track down Ryan on our break and try and get him away from his friends so I could ask him if he would like to go on a date with me, and to my absolute delight, I did just that during our brake.

As I walked out of class I saw him at the end of the corridor with a group of guys, he turned and was walking towards the stairs to go out into the school grounds. I caught up with him and was walking behind him but he didn't know I was there. I was contemplating what to do or say to get him away from his friends, as everyone knew I was gay, and Ryan was still not ready I didn't want to jeopardize that. I panicked as he drew closer to the stairs and out into the schoolyard where I knew I wouldn't be able to get him alone. So I suddenly kicked my foot forward and hit Ryan's heel, he stumbled and fell over. I didn't mean to make him fall, but to only get his attention, I took a mental note to punch myself out when I got the chance.

But then suddenly one of his friends turned to me as Ryan stood up, his friend rounded at me and said "Fuck you fagot, what you do that for!?"

"Excuse me" I said in the gayest voice I could muster, only to annoy him, and I was simply not in the mood for no one’s bullshit, I was way too tired and short fused today "Well fuck you too" I shot at him.

His friend took a step forward, and was about to get up all in my face when Ryan outstretched his hand and placed it onto his friends chest and said casually "Don't be an idiot, it was an accident" His friend simply licked his lips and gave me the dirtiest look I think I have ever seen in my life and just turned and started walking away. Shit, I thought to myself, Ryan has quite some pull over his friends. I realised Ryan was walking away with his friends again towards the stairs, and I suddenly thought, well that didn't work, but then Ryan turned and looked at me. I quickly gave him the strangest look and nodded my head backwards indicating him to come back.

I saw him say something to his friends and turn back to walk towards me. Pretty much everyone had left the corridor, except all the dead heads who always lingered. Still Ryan looked around nervously as he approached me.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" he whispered as walked up to me and guided me to the side of the corridor.

"What I was just trying to get your attention, I didn't mean to trip you over" I said to him.

"Well you're lucky he didn't knock your head off, you shouldn't have been smart to him"

"Well the wanker called me a fagot"

"You did trip me over" he said to me as he eyes met mine only to leave them to scan the corridor for people.

"He's still a dickhead"

"Hey" he said abruptly "He's still my mate"

"Sorry" I said in defeat, I didn't want to start an argument over it.

"What do you want anyway?"

Suddenly a huge smile spread across my face, as I couldn't hold it in "Well I wanted to ask you if you wanted to do something later?"

"Yeah ok" he whispered his eyes still nervously scanning everywhere "I'll come over later ok" he was about to turn and leave, thinking that was the end of the conversation.

"No" I said as I grabbed the sleeve of his shirt and pulled him back "I meant go out somewhere. Like on a date"

"A date?" he repeated, his eyes falling upon mine and finally staying there.

"Yeah a date" I repeated.

"Are you serious?" he asked, a slight grin appearing on his adorable face.

"Well yeah, why not?"

"And do what exactly?" he said, his eyes still gazing into mine as his grin turned into a smile, I was hoping he was liking the suggestion.

"I dunno, just have a date," I said to him.

"Yeah but go where and do what?" he asked me through a soft laugh.

"We could go to dinner or something"

His eyes left me again as he looked around the corridor again, his eyes moving this way and that, but I don't think he as looking if anyone was watching I think he was in thought. He was deciding whether or not he wanted to do it.

"Ok" he finally said, "Let's do it"

"Yeah?" I said excitedly, he just smiled at me.

"I'll pick you up later alright"

"Oh you're gonna pick me up" I teased him "How official"

"Shut up" he joked at me "I'll pick you up at around seven thirty ok"

"Perfect, I'll find somewhere we can go" I replied to him as I watched him look away from me yet again, this time scanning the corridor for people once more, there was no one in the corridor as they were all outside, suddenly he turned to me and hastily leant and gave me one short kiss on the lips and just turned and walked away towards the stairs and down them.

As he walked away, I leant into the wall excited, and positively thrilled he said yes, I was stunned he wanted to do it, but I wouldn't complain, I then made my way down the stairs to tell Scott and Kayla the good news. Finally though my third and final period was over and I was on my way home, luckily I was ecstatic about tonight otherwise I might have fallen asleep at the wheel, I still felt rather tired though, I had a few hours until I would have to get ready before Ryan picked me up, so I was going to go inside and fall on my bed, mum would have left by now so I wouldn't have any interruptions, I could sleep soundly also knowing Jesse hadn't said a word yet, well at least I hoped.

I pulled up in the drive way and noticed a large truck out the front of Mrs. Adwin's house, it had the logo of a charity on the side, and I just assumed she bought something for a charity or was donating something, I didn't know, but unfortunately didn't care too much, I needed some sleep so I was fresh as a daisy for tonight. I hopped out of the car and ran inside bolting the door behind me, I went to my room and threw my bag to the floor and set my alarm for six o'clock in case I didn't wake up in time and simply fell on my bed fully clothed, and slowly drifted off to sleep.

I was standing naked in a dimly lit room, with no furniture, nothing whatsoever in there except a window with a curtain, I simply stood there doing nothing. Then suddenly I felt a soft hand, touch my shoulder, and the hand gently ran down past my shoulder blade, down my back, over the curve in my back, the touch was soft, it tickled my skin. Slowly the hand reached my bum where the hand opened up and placed there palm gently upon my butt cheek, as slowly they moved the hand around to the side, stopping at my thigh. Slowly, gently, and ever so erotic, the hand slid softly down my thigh, slowly moving around to the front. I turned my head to the side to see who the hand belonged to, but there face was hidden by a shadow, I turned back to face the front as I felt a naked body press up against me as their hand moved to the inner of my thigh.

I could feel the deep hot breath of the person behind me upon my neck, as slowly the hand moved upwards to my groin, by balls touching the top of their hand. There hand left me and slid over my dick, and upon my stomach as slowly it ran up my chest and stopped, I turned my head once more, and the light was now upon their face as Ryan stood behind me, I turned on the spot and placed my lips against his. However, suddenly a loud beeping noises echoed throughout the room, I turned my head to locate the noise, but then my eyes opened and I saw my cupboard doors, covered in mirrors in front of me. Drool had slipped from my mouth and onto my bed as I slept deeply, I wiped my mouth and I shot up off the bed and slammed down hard onto the alarm clock. It was now six o'clock and I needed to get ready, I walked towards my bedroom door and all I could think of was that I needed a cold shower.

An hour later I was showered and dressed all nice, smelling good, looking good, hair all spiffy, I was ready for my date. I went around the house just checking everything was locked up and everything was in order, I did a few little things around the house just to pass the time, I still had ten minutes, so I just decided to wait outside. I grabbed my wallet and house keys and went out the front. I locked the front door and then sat upon my front step. I noticed that there was now a different truck parked out the front of Mrs. Adwin's and was wondering what was going on, but then I heard someone call out.

"Hello!" I heard someone call.

I leant forward and peered around the bend a little to see a white guy standing at the low fence smiling at me. He would have been around twenty years old, he was rather tall and quite slim, he looked like he had brown hair with blonde streaks in them, his hair was all messy, but it looked like he styled it that way. Despite the darkness of the evening and the dark looming clouds above, I could see his eyes, they looked like very keen eyes, I could see the blue in the from the light that was on close to him. He had really full luscious lips that were quite profound.

"Umm hi" I said as I stood up and stepped down the final few steps.

"Hey" he said again waving slightly "I'm your new neighbor"

"You’re what?" I exclaimed at him, confused "Mrs. Adwin's gone?"

"Yeah she left about two hours ago, everything was signed and she left, she donated a lot of her things to charity so she didn't take much with her, just a small truck load" His voice was deep, it didn't suit his features as he was pretty much a pretty boy.

"Oh, so fast, she only had the house up for sale for a couple of days" I told this guy.

"Yeah well my mum was the one who got her to put it up for sale," he said to me.

"Oh, really?" I asked, "That was lucky I guess"

"Well my mum was the one who got her to put it up for sale" he repeated himself oddly "Then she bought it, for me"

Ok I was kind of confused, Mrs. Adwin told me a lady knocked on her door and wanted to know if she was interested in selling her house, Mrs. Adwin accepted, but then the lady buys it, for her son.

"You see, she's a real estate agent, and she makes commissions of a sale, and I saw this house and just wanted it, so my mum got the lady living here interested in selling, put it on the market through her company, paid for it, and made money back in commission" I didn't really know if he should be telling me things like that, but I found this guy to be really up himself, he had a real, I'm better than you all, air about him.

"Is that legal?" I asked interested.

"Dunno, don't care," he laughed to himself.

"So your parents bought this house for you?" I asked him.

"Yeah I wanted it"

"So they just buy you it, a house, they just get you one?" I asked him, I already didn't like this guy, he appeared to be a total snob and a brat.

"They always give me what I want, so yeah"

I was a little taken aback by that last comment but I politely replied, "Oh, ok, well you're lucky aren't you?"

He smiled an obnoxious smile and just nodded his head then said "My names Rhys by the way" he finished as he out stretched his hand.

I didn't really want to but I politely walked forward and shook his hands replying, "I'm Tj"

"Oh, nice hands, really smooth" he said as he shook my hand.

"Umm thanks" I replied as I quickly slipped my hand away from his, this guy was a little freaky to say the least.

"So what you all dressed up for?" he asked me as he looked me up and down with a look of interest.

"Oh I'm just going out" I said as I turned and faced the street trying to pay as little attention as I could to him, hoping he would just leave or something.

"Where you going?" he asked straightforwardly.

"Umm just out" I replied to him without looking at him, But I was saved as I saw up the street Ryan pulling in and driving towards my house and pulling up beside the curb.

"Who's that?" asked Rhys, again straight forwardly and out of line.

"Umm just a friend" I said as I turned to face him slightly eyeing him.

It was quite bizarre and freaky, his face suddenly narrowed onto Ryan in the car, as he lowered his head to look at him better, and then he asked "Just a friend?"

"Umm yeah kind of" I said to him, I was about to say I had to go when he cut me off.

"Kind of" he had straightened up to look at me in the eye, I couldn't figure out the look in his eye but I didn't really like it.

"Umm I've got to go, sorry" I simply turned and walked towards the car and jumped in.

"Who is that?" asked Ryan as he noticed him looking at him strangely.

"Apparently my new freakily strange neighbor" I replied as Ryan pulled away from the curb and began to drive down the street, I turned in my seat and looked back at my house to see this Rhys guy still standing where I left him, just staring at the car as it drove away.

"So where we going?" asked Ryan, bringing me back to reality.

I turned back to face him and realised he was dressed so nice and cute, he was looking really hot. I told him where we were going, I had all third period to think about it. We were going to this really posh nice restaurant, that served all kinds of crap, with ridiculous prices, but no one we knew, well that Ryan knew would go there and see him, so I thought it would be good, and a nice experience to share. We eventually arrived and we went in and we waited a little while to be seated which was annoying, but eventually we were sitting down and sipping on some drinks, as we waited for our food to be brought out to us.

For the majority of the night we just shared stories and flirted with one another, there was barely anyone there so we didn't care. We spoke about all kinds of crap, I learnt a few things about Ryan I didn't know and he about me. It was funny because like the first big chat we had where we got to know each other, we had spoken about everything we could think of at the time, and again the talk was moving to sexual things, but this time it was sexual history.

"So when and what was your first experience, and with who?" asked Ryan as he took the bite of food from his fork.

"Umm" I laughed at him "I don't really remember it that well. It was only a few weeks before I met Jesse, and I was at a party, it was my first party I'd ever been too, it was the first time I had ever drank. I hadn't had that much to drink but I had never drank before, and well I got really, really drunk. It was late and everyone was leaving and I was looking for my friends, and I found out that they had actually left without me. I was way too pissed I didn't know what was going on" Ryan was giggling at me as I told the story, I was glad he found it hilarious, because I didn't, but it was ok "I was walking through the house, where ever it was I can't remember, and I actually fell and landed on this guy. Now this guy was a total snob, little rich kid, thought everyone loved him and all. Anyway, long story short, he thought I was hitting on him when I fell on him, that's how in love with himself he was. Anyway, I was drunk, young, and stupid, he ended up giving me a lift home, and needless to say, we ended up in the back seat halfway home. I don't even remember what his name was, or what he even really looked like, I was that pissed. All I remember was that he had a nice car. Anyway I had given him my number apparently and he called me a few times after it, but I didn't like the sound of him so I basically just got rid of him, it was a one night stand, and I never saw him again"

Ryan couldn't help but continue to giggle at me.

"I know it's bad hey?" I said to him.

"Oh at least it was an adventure" he said, "I've only ever done it once with a girl, and not much else, I didn't even enjoy it, I remember it, but it wasn't memorable. It was just a chick I met and we hooked up, that's basically it"

The night was going wonderfully well, I was having a blast, we sat as we slowly ate our dinner, our feet playing with one another's under the table as we gazed at each other and smiled flirting like virtuous lovers. We sat and still asked any question that came to mind, I learnt a lot of unnecessary information about Ryan, but I still loved every bit I could get out of him. However, eventually our meals had been completed and we now just sat sipping our drinks and still smiling at each other.

"Tonight's been fun," said Ryan as he lowered his glass.

"Yeah it has" I replied "It's been nice to actually go out somewhere with you"

"So have you thought about what you are going to do after school?" he asked, dramatically changing the subject.

"No I haven't actually, mum wants me to find a job as soon as exams are over, but I don't know what I want to do" I explained to him "What about you?"

"Same" he said, "I have no idea"

I looked around the restaurant and noticed that everyone else was gone and I looked up towards the counter and saw staff just standing there looking at us.

"I think we should go" I said "I think they are waiting for us to finish" we laughed at one another and got up, wet to the counter and paid and apologized for keeping them waiting. We went outside and started walking towards the car.

The sky was completely black and no stars could be seen, suddenly a flash of lightning illuminated our surroundings for a split second. Ryan reached down and grabbed my hand, I looked up at him, and he just smiled at me. Even though it was rather late and no one was around, and it was dark, I was thrilled Ryan was holding my hand in public, but it was short lived as we reached the car and parted our hands and went to either side of the car and hopped in.

We pulled out of the car park and began to drive home. Ryan had reached over and placed a hand on my thigh to which I placed a hand upon the top of his hand as he drove one handed. Ryan wanted to drive around for a little bit and just look around, for what reason I didn't know, there wasn't anything attractive or appealing to look at in town, but yet we still drove around for a little bit. Rain had begun to fall heavily as thunder slapped the environment and flashes of lightning crashed all around us. However, eventually it was time to head off home, it was nearing eleven thirty, and we still had school the next day.

We pulled up into my driveway, as I saw a light at my weirdly strange new neighbors’ house go off. Ryan didn't turn off the car, but pulled the hand brake and took his feet away from the accelerator.

"I guess I'll see you at school tomorrow then" he said as he looked at me.

I didn't want to say goodbye, the night was so enjoyable, and I didn't want it to end. I could hear the rain pelting against the roof of the car, I didn't know why but it felt romantic. I looked at Ryan and my lust began to get the better of me. "Why don't you stay the night?" I asked him "I am all alone" I said giving him a fake sad look.

He just smiled at me, and looked at me for a moment, then he reached down and put the car in park and turned off the car and took out his keys. He slipped of his seat belt and simply said jokingly "What are you scared of the rain?"

"No, shut up" I laughed at him "Just stay"

"Oh if you insist" he said in a fake tone like it was a hassle.

We jumped out of the car and ran towards my front door as rain pelted us. I fumbled around in my pocket for my keys, I pulled them out as rain fell all over me. I slipped my house key into the lock and turned and we stumbled through the threshold, ringing wet, even though we weren't in the rain for long, but it was coming down rather heavily. We walked down the darkened hallway and into the lounge room where I threw my keys onto the coffee table as I slipped my shoes off and kicked them under the table.

Ryan kicked off his shoes also and turned to me and said, "I'm just going to the loo" as he went back into the darkened hallway towards the toilet. I turned and was about to walk over to the lamp in the lounge room to emit soft light, When a flash of lightning burst upon the front lawn. My eyes flicked towards the window and for a fleeting moment, I thought I saw a pale face flash in front of the window when the lightning struck. My heart jumped and pounded against my chest, my stomach churned. Was someone watching me, I thought. Slowly I walked over to the light switch on the wall by the entrance to the lounge room, I turned to face the window and flicked it on. The light flooded through the window, and nothing was there, my mind must have been playing tricks on me. I flicked off the light and walked across the room to the lamp, my eyes still upon the window, even though I was sure nothing was there, it still frightened me for a moment.

I put my hand under the lampshade and flicked on the lamp, a soft low glow washed over the lounge room. Ryan had entered the lounge room and had walked behind the coach and stood there, before the entrance to the kitchen, his clothes still wet, but I had planned to get him out of them momentarily.

"You want a drink?" I asked him "A alcoholic drink?" I teased in a boyish tone, thinking a little alcohol would set the mood nicely.

"Umm sure" he replied as he raised his arm and scratched the back of his head, his bicep bulging.

I walked past him and went into the kitchen and pulled down two glasses, I reached for a bottle of alcohol in a cupboard that I had left from my eighteenth party and poured a bit in each glass, I went to the fridge, and thankfully, mum must have done a quick bit of shopping before she left. I pulled out a bottle of soft drink and topped up the glasses. I walked back into the lounge room, drinks in hand and handed him one. I couldn't help it but my eyes darted to the window again. My clothes stuck to me slightly as they were kind of wet as I went and sat down on the couch taking a sip of my drink, Ryan came and sat next to me. We sat for a while just sitting and talking, I didn't think we had much else to talk about but we managed to chat about pointless crap, as we drank our drinks. Soon enough we had fallen quiet and our drinks were finished. I picked up the glasses and went into the kitchen and placed them into the sink and turned and went back into the lounge room.

Ryan was standing by the door way and when I walked in he suddenly grabbed me by the arm. He pulled me into him and pushed his lips into mine, his hands pressed tightly around my arms with a firm grip. Suddenly all was lost as Ryan took complete charge, his lips left mine, and he reached down grabbing the bottom of my shirt and pulled it up. My wet shirt peeling off me, he lifted it up over my head and just threw it across the lounge room. His face fell into mine once more, as we kissed hard and rough. We were stumbling backwards as his hands fumbled around with my belt buckle, he finally achieved in undoing it and pulled it fiercely through the slots and letting go of it as it went flying across the room also.

His fingers popped open the button to my jeans, as he quickly slipped my fly open and shoved my pants down. I tripped as my pants gathered around my ankles, I fell slightly and slammed into the wall as my feet came free from my jeans. Ryan leant hardly into me his lips pressing deep against mine as I was backed hard into the wall. I reached down and grabbed the bottom of Ryan's top, it was still wet, and it stuck to his body. He was wearing a somewhat tight button up collar top. It would not budge, and I pulled harder but it didn't want to come up over his body, I placed my hands on Ryan's chest and pushed him hardly off me, and reached forward for the top button. My fingers slipped on the tight buttons and trying to get it through the wet slits in his shirt was too much effort. I grabbed the collar of his shirt and just pulled outward.

I felt a button hit me in the chest as I ripped open his shirt, revealing his chiselled body, as the little light from the lamp casted a shadow over his hot body. I grabbed the sides of his ripped open top and pulled him into me, his lips reconnected with mine, and we kissed hard and rough, my hands still on the sides of his top. I pulled back his shirt over his shoulder and pulled his sleeves down his arms. His top bunched up and got stuck, I let go of it, as Ryan pulled hard on his top and slipped it off him and threw it hard to the floor.

I reached for his belt and slipped it undone with ease, and slid it through the slots on his pants, I swung the belt around the back of him, my free hand catching the other side of it and I pulled on it as it slapped against his back and pushed him into me, I could feel his hard dick pressing into mine. Ryan grabbed one of my hands and pushed the belt out of it and stepped back, slowly walking backwards as he undid his pants and slipped them down and off. He grabbed the hem of his boxers and pulled them forward, teasing me, daring me to rip them off him. I grabbed the tip of my briefs and simply slid them down and off, I twirled them around my finger as I straightened up and flung them at him.

He laughed at me as I darted forward pushing my hands into his chest and pushing him into the wall behind him, I pushed myself against him and grabbed the bottom of his boxers and began to slide them down. I bent my knees as I slid his boxers down his legs. By the time, his boxers had reached his ankles my face was before his dick. I let go of his boxers and grabbed hold of his dick, it was hard and at full attention pointing towards the roof, I pushed it down so it pointed at me and I leant in and wrapped my lips around it pushing it deep into my mouth, Ryan gasped in pleasure and slammed his head against the wall as he free hands slapped to the wall, his right hand hitting a picture frame on a small table beside him and it slipped and fell to the floor.

My head bobbed back and forth, my tongue working his dick, hard and fast. Ryan placed his hands on the back of my head and gently pushed my head back and forth on his dick. I pulled back and his dick slipped from my lips slapping up against his skin. I stood up and he grabbed my shoulders and turned me to the right my waist hitting up against the small table against the wall, he turned and stood in front of me and pushed me into the wall, my bum pressing against the table, I placed my hands on the edge of the table and lifted myself up onto the table, I hit a small vase with fake flowers in it as it slid of the table and smashed on the floor. Ryan leant in and began kissing my neck, I dug my fingers into his back as he kissed me passionately upon my neck. He slowly made his way downward, my fingernails running up his back as he went down.

He grabbed the tip of my dick with his lips and slipped it in his mouth. A roar of thunder clashed outside and it vibrated the windows to the house, it was followed by a crack of lightning, the lightning flashed into the lounge room as I looked down upon Ryan sucking my dick. Ryan placed his hands onto the side of my bum and grabbed it hard. My dick left his mouth, as he ran his tongue from the base my dick up my shaft and over the head of my dick. His tongue licked from my belly button to my neck, up my neck and to my chin where his tongue left my skin and he pressed his lips against mine once more, his hands still against the sides of my ass.

I wrapped my legs around his waist and he lifted me up off the table as we still kiss hard, he now had one hand under my ass and one wrapped around my back, as he slowly moved past the door to the lounge room. We slammed into a wall, my back slamming against a picture that hung on the wall, its frame digging into my back, I let out a moan of slight pain, but it was oddly pleasurable, he moved me away from the wall as the picture fell to the floor. He moved to the side of the couch where the back of his legs caught the arm of the couch, his legs bent as we fell backwards, I let go of his waist with my legs as we fell and slumped into the couch, me on top of him. We kissed as we lay on the couch as I rubbed myself up against him, suddenly Ryan lips left mine. I placed my hands beside his head and lifted myself up to look into his eyes.

"Do you have rubbers?" he asked me, as his sparkling eyes looked deeply back into mine.

"What!" I said stunned "Are you sure?" I asked him.

For a moment he looked at me, a smile appearing on his face "Yes"

A huge grin spread onto my own face as I jumped up and darted into the hallway were I collided into the wall. It was pitch black and I couldn't see a damn thing. I scurried my way down the hallway, frantically sliding my hands along the wall waiting for my bedroom door to meet my heads. Alas my fingers found its goal, I slammed open my door and ran to the other side of my room, my dick flopped wildly. I ran past my bed and slammed my toe into the leg of my bed I shot my foot up grabbing it silently breathing "Fuck" in pain as I hopped on one leg, I fell on my bed as I rubbed my toe. However, I left it and rolled over and slid open my bedside table door, and rummaged my head around within it. Finally, my hand found the box of condoms I had and I pulled it out. I simply pulled a line of condoms out and just tore a few off in a rush and jumped off my bed and scurrying back down into the lounge room.

Ryan was sitting upright in the centre of the couch, his dick sticking out like a flagpole. I walked up to him and stepped in-between his legs and knelt down. I grabbed his dick and leant in deep throated it, I looked up with my eyes and into his as I slowly slid his dick back out as I wet his dick with saliva. I ripped open the condom wrapper and took out the condom, and just let the rest drop to the floor. I placed the rolled up condom onto the head of his dick and then leant in and placed my lips tightly around his head, and a slid his dick into my mouth as I slowly unrolled the condom down his dick. I let his dick slide out of my mouth with the condom properly on, I stood up and put my knees on either side of him on the couch, my ass now hovering over his dick.

Ryan lifted his fingers to his mouth where his lick them and then put his hand under me and wiped his fingers on my ass hole, wetting it for lubricant. I reached behind me and grabbed the tip of Ryan's dick and guided it to the right place. I let go of his dick and placed my hands on his shoulders as I slowly pushed my ass down. I felt the tip of his dick break into me. With a slight prick of pain, I pushed down further. My ass was still tight, as I had no preparation, and only a wipe of saliva, and the lube on the condom for lubricant, I pushed some more. My chest rose and fell with heavy breaths as small gasps came from Ryan as my ass tightened around his dick. I pushed down some more as I bit my bottom lip and squashed my eyes closed. I hadn't had anyone as thick or as long as Ryan within me before, so a slight pain arose as I forced more of him into me.

My breath deepened further and my fingers dug into Ryan's shoulders as I pushed and pushed his dick further into me. My ass finally met his thighs as I put all of him within me as I rose slightly and went back down, making slow sensual movements to loosen me up. I grinded back and forth for a moment and I felt his dick press against my prostate as I let out a long moan of pleasure as Ryan's hand met my waist as I rose again, and slid back down upon his dick as it nudged at my prostate. I grinded Ryan, his dick sliding in and out of me, I rose, kneeling, as Ryan began to fuck me. Grinding his dick into me, with each grind a groan of absolute pleasure escaped me. I felt his balls slapping against me as he pounded his dick into me.

I leant back over the gap between the couch and the coffee table and placed my hands on the edge of the table, and began grinding back into him. Ryan's arms had spread out beside him and he grabbed at the couch in pleasure. I grinded faster and faster, harder and harder, his balls still slapping up against me as I slid his dick back into me. It was pleasure like I had never felt it before, it was pure ecstasy. Ryan leant forward and wrapped his arms around me and pushed forward and I fell onto my back onto the coffee table, his dick still within me. Ryan leaned over me, my legs wrapped around him over his waist, as he leant in and kissed me as he grinded into me, back and forth.

He leaned back and was on his knees, the coffee table was low, so it was the right height as I laid on my back as he placed his hands on the back of my legs behind my knees and pushed my legs up as he pushed his dick deep within me, I moaned in delight as he pounded me like the world was about to end and this was our last moment together. Faster and faster he grinded, louder and louder I screamed. I reached down to my dick, it had gone slightly soft, but I grabbed and began to pull like crazy, the feeling was so intense, I needed, I wanted to feel it in all its glory. I began to wank myself fast as Ryan penetrated me deep and hard my legs flapping wildly as he pounded me.

The pleasure began to intensify as I felt my body giving in, as I wanked harder. I scrunched up my shoulders as I felt myself about to cum, long deep moans escaping from my mouth, as I jerked my head upwards and hunched my back as cummed shot from my dick and shooting upon my chest, I clenched my ass muscles as I cummed, I heard Ryan moan in wonders as he plunged deeper into me. I felt his dick slide out of me I raised my head to see him pulling off the condom and moving forward, his dick hovering above mine, as cum squirted out of his dick without him even touching it, his body jerked as cum shot forward mixing with my own upon my chest. Suddenly Ryan fell backwards, as he slumped onto the ground his back against the foot of the couch.

I simply dropped my head back onto the Coffee table as long deep breaths escaped me, I was desperately trying to catch my breath. I could hear Ryan's deep breaths before me. I lifted my head to look at him, he had his head tilted backwards against the couch with his arms stretched out along the couch cushions, his chest rising and falling heavily. I let my head fall back onto the coffee table again, I didn't have the energy to keep it held up. I would have been quite fine with just laying where I was now, I was exhausted.

I felt Ryan moving in front of me, as I slowly raised my arm for him to help me up, he grabbed my hand and pulled me up, only for me to slump forward twisting as I went to fall back onto the couch as I felt the cum sliding down my chest. My legs were weak, and I simply couldn't walk. Ryan fell upon the couch beside me, his face beside mine as we both still breathed heavily.

"I can't move" I said slowly through my breaths.

Ryan just smiled as he too tried to catch his breath. I swallowed hard as my mouth began to dry up from my deep breaths. Ryan stood and helped me up and said we would have a shower, we walked through the darkened hallway with no sound except our deep breaths, as slowly I felt the feeling come back to my legs, the pleasure had been so intense, he had literally swept me of my feet. We walked into the bathroom as we both jumped in the shower with barely a word, we simply stood under the hot water, I didn't even have the energy to wipe the cum off me. I let the water run down my chest and stomach as Ryan wipe the cum of me with the water.

We slowly climbed out of the shower, as we started to smile and laugh at each other, we had become silly idiots just laughing at nothing, we both felt good, and were in high spirits, in my opinion I couldn't get any higher than this, I was happy that I now couldn't wipe the smile off my face. We slowly walked back into the hallway, still wet as we made for my room. We stepped in and the both of us just dropped onto my bed, naked and wet. I didn't care that my bed was getting wet, I just really wanted to lay there with Ryan and regain my energy and strength. We slowly and with much effort climbed in under the covers where we wrapped our arms around each other and contoured our bodies together, slowly drifting off to sleep.

 

[kcm17480]

Very Good. Great as a matter of fact. Lots and lots of detail. It's going to be very interesting when they go back to school and see what Jesse has in store for them.

 

[BlueD]

they are so cute together
I bet it's the wicked creepy neighbor peeking thru the window, that's bastard!!!

anyway, nice chapter, your writing got better and better

 

[ThyStoryTeller]

Chapter 7!
Inconclusive Fates!​

I felt the light pressing upon my face as slowly i opened my eyes to my window where my blinds were left opened. I squinted as my eyes adjusted to the light and i stretched my body. I suddenly realised that Ryan was still laying beside me. I turned my head and looked upon his adorable face, he looked so cute and comfortable, he was still asleep, his eyes still closed and his mouth slightly open and his hair all messy. I watched him as he moved his head and pushed the side of his face into the pillow a little more. I couldn't help but smile to myself as i watched him pull the covers up a bit more over his naked body.

I turned my face back to the window and realised that the day was gloomy and the sky was overcast but the light was still bright through the window as the sun attempted to burst through the thick clouds. I felt Ryan shuffle behind me, then i felt his hand slide over the side of my stomach and come to rest upon the front of my stomach as he pulled me closer into him my back against him as he pressed the side of his face against my back.

"Good Morning" he said groggily, he was still half asleep, his eyes still closed, but responsive none the less.

"Morning" i replied to him as i placed my hand on top of his and slid my fingers in between his and interlocked them.

I really did not want to get out of bed, the day was gloomy, and i was so warm and cozy here, in bed, with Ryan. I looked over at the clock on my bedside table and it read eleven thirty. "Oh shit!" i exclaimed.

"What" said Ryan slowly and sleepily.

"We're late for school!" i shot out aloud as i attempted to get out of bed, but Ryan tightened his arm around me and pulled me back.

"Who cares" he said "Just stay in bed.

I laid back down and rolled over to face Ryan, his arm still over the side of me. I looked upon him, he looked so peaceful and content. I moved in slowly and placed one quick short soft kiss upon his lips and then placed my head back upon the pillow.

"What was that for?" he asked slowly, his eyes still closed.

"No reason" i replied simply.

His eyes slowly opened, and as mine did, he squinted and allowed his eyes to adjust to the light. He looked at me with his beautiful light green eyes so charming and seductive as he smiled at me and returned the favour with a short soft kiss of his own.

"Won't your parents get the shits if they find out you didn't go to school?" i asked him. I didn't want him getting in trouble on my account.

"They won't even know" he replied "They don't really follow what i do, they are always too busy with work"

I didn't press the point but decided to return to looking at his dashing face.

"Stop staring at me" he laughed as he buried his face in the pillow.

I laughed at him and moved in closer to him "I like looking at you" i said "I'm just happy that we are here, together, and that you're all mine"

"Oh i'm all yours am i? he joked with me.

"Well i would like to think so"

"Well then i'm pleased to tell you, that i am all yours" he replied to me with a smile and soft kiss.

"Are we making this official?" i asked. I had wanted to ask this question for some time now, i was unsure as to what exactly we were, or if we were actually anything.

"Official?" he repeated.

"Yeah, like are we, going out?" i asked him.

"I thought we already were" he said.

I couldn't hold it in, i just smiled broadly and put my arms around him and cuddled him and gave him a kiss.

"Are you hungry?" i asked him.

"Starved"

Slowly after much resistance from Ryan, i eventually got out of bed and i grabbed some clean briefs from the door, and just threw on some random clothes and walked out of the room leaving Ryan laying in my bed, the blankets just above his waist as i looked at his body as i exited the room. I walked down the hallway and into the lounge room, to a complete mess. I looked around the room to see our clothes scattered everywhere. I looked to my left and saw a smashed vase with fake flowers scattered all around it and a picture frame of a picture of me and my mum, the glass facing cracked lying on the floor beside it. To my right i saw a painting that usually hung on the wall laying face down on the ground.

I walked over to the painting and bent over to pick it up, but i felt a slight shot of pain in the middle of my back as i bent over and stretched my back. I put my hand up the back of my shirt and felt a slight scab forming where the corner of the paintings frame had dug into me, it made me smile as i recalled how i got it, and the events that continued after. I hung the painting up on the wall again and went and grabbed the picture frame and put it back on top of the small table against the wall, taking a note to get a new one before mum came home, as well as a new vase to put the fake flowers back in as i picked the flowers up and put them on top of the table, i picked up the shards of the vase and walked into the kitchen to make Ryan and myself some breakfast.

I threw the shards into the bin and went to the fridge. I bent over to look at what we had, there wasn't much that was suited for breakfast. So i simply pulled out the jar of jam and peanut butter and vegimite, not knowing what Ryan preferred. I put in four pieces of bread into the toaster and thought i'd do something nice, so i went to the cupboard underneath the sink and pulled out the breakfast tray and placed it on the counter. I pulled down two glasses from the cupboard and went back to the fridge for some orange and passionfruit juice. I filled the glasses and put them on the tray and put the juice back in the fridge.

I went back out into the lounge room to get our clothes, i picked up my clothes and after a good search i finally found my belt behind the TV and threw them on the armchair in the corner of the room. I picked up Ryan's boxer shorts and pants and his belt, i then picked up his tattered shirt, which i had ripped in my haste to get Ryan undressed. I simply placed his clothes over the back of the coach and then returned to the kitchen. I was just in time to see my toast pop out of the toaster, i grabbed two small plates from the cupboard and put them on the breakfast tray, and then put two pieces of toast on each plate, alongside two butter knives. I lifted the breakfast tray and walked back through the house and into my room.

I walked back into my bedroom carrying the tray, Ryan smiled at me then shuffled up the bed to sit upright against the head of the bed. I walked forward and placed the tray infront of him and i sat on the end of the bed with my legs folded.

"Thankyou" he said simply as she reached for a glass of juice and took a sip.

I reached down and grabbed the jar of jam and opened it, dipped my knife into the jam and began smearing it onto my toast. Ryan had reached for the peanut butter and began smearing it upon his slice of toast. We began eating our toast and we kept catching each others eye and the both of us couldn't help ourselves but smile at one another.

"Last night was amazing" stated Ryan as he began to smear peanut butter on his second piece of toast.

"Yes it was" i replied to him with complete honesty.

"I've never felt anything like it before"

I couldn't help but laugh at him, i had warned him that he hadn't felt anything until he had done it with a guy. We sat on my bed, Ryan still naked underneath the covers as we finished off our breakfast, we talked and laughed about the previous night. I showed him the small cut on my back and we just laughed, he then showed me the scratch marks that i had made on his back, it was all so real, last night was truly amazing for the both of us, it was rough and hot, i can honestly say it was the best i have ever had. I was feeling truly happy at this moment, there was nothing that could ruin it for the moment. I still wondered though in the back of my head, if Jesse was going to stay true to his word and expose Ryan. He hadn't appeared to yet, and i was thrilled and oddly thankful towards him for not doing it, but i still had that forboding feeling, that he was still going to do the wrong thing.

"Hey" said Ryan suddenly as i went into a daze of thought "How would you like to come to my place?"

"What" i exclaimed "To your house?" i asked.

"Yeah. No one will be there at the moment, both my parents will be at work until at least six, and i just remembered you haven't been to my house yet"

"Umm, yeah, that'll be great" i was jumping for joy on the inside. I know this was a big step for Ryan, i knew how scared he was of being found out, and i hadn't yet been to his house, i was secretly excited to see where he lived and to see what his life was like, and to finally see his bedroom. I have always told myself you can tell a lot about a person for the way they have their room, their little domain.

"I need clothes though" said Ryan as he went to get out of bed "You tore my shirt last night" we laughed at each other and i jumped up and got some clothes out of my cupboard and threw him a pair of my briefs he could wear. He got dressed, and we were up, i grabbed my wallet and my keys, i was going to take my car and follow him to his house, so when i was ready to go, i could go, so he wouldn't have to drive me all the way back home. We walked through the house like idiots, fooling around and giving each other little cute shoves, we were all giddy with love, and i liked it.

Ryan grabbed his clothes from the coach and i locked up the house and we went out into the front yard, the sky still gloomy and threatened us with more rain. Ryan walked down the drive way to his car and i went to mine, i watched as he hopped in. But before i jumped in i looked to my new neighbors house, and parked in the drive way was a really hot car, i didn't know what kind of car it was, but it was damn fine, all done up, mags, spoilers, new body kit, the works, No doubt mummy and daddy bought it for him. I had seen this car before, it was oddly familiar, but i just assumed i had seen another like it around the streets somewhere.

Ryan had turned his car on, i quickly snapped out of thought and jumped in, i put my key in the ignition an turned my car on, and we were off. I didn't have the foggiest clue where Ryan lived so i kept on his tail so i didn't lose him. We had been driving for twenty minutes when finally i saw his blinker go on to pull into a drive way. This can't be right, i thought to myself. We had been driving around the really posh large extravagant homes for the past ten minutes, and now he was pulling into the drive way of one. Does he really live here, i thought to myself, as i turned into the driveway. The house itself was barely short of being a mansion, it was enormous. I drove through the large brass front gates and began to drive down his driveway which was more like a long road leading up to the house. There was lavish gardens lining the drive way, and at the end, the drive way opened up into a circle where in the middle was a water feature surrounded by well kept flowers.

There was six different cars, all of the expensive type lined up on the left of the house, Ryan pulled up in his car, which was just your average range, it didn't match with the rest of the cars, and got out of his car. I pulled up next to him and also got out. I stood beside my car door and looked up at the house, it had of been at least three stories high, i looked at it, but i was shocked and couldn't figure out how many stories it was at the angle i was looking up at it.

"You live here?" i asked, shocked and amazed

"Yep" he said simply.

"How many stories is it?" i exclaimed.

"Three" he replied "Well four, if you count the parts of the house that go underground"

"Underground" i interjected.

"Yeah in some parts there are stairs down to rooms that are built into the ground" he replied to me. Ryan wasn't smiling at me or anything, he answered my question, but i don't think he really wanted to talk about the house, he just seem disconnected by it. "Come on!" he called out.

I turned my head and saw Ryan walking towards his huge front double doors, i went of at a jog towards him and i reached him as he slipped his key into the lock and stepped in. I stepped in after him to hear a beeping noise. Ryan quickly turned to his right and put numbers into an alarm system and the beeping stopped.

I turned around away from the front door and what i saw simply just made my jaw drop. I was standing in a huge cathedral like hall, with a dazzling chandelier hanging from the roof in the centre of the room. On the far side of the hall like room on either side were two sets of large half moon decadent stairs that met up the top to the upper level. In the middle of the stairs on the far wall was a pair of double doors, leading somewhere and on either side of the hall were two sets of doors on each wall before the stairs.

Ryan began walking across the hall towards the stairs on the left, and i walked behind him, my head turning this way and that, i looked at the floor and it looked like white slate, and there was a large long wide ravishing rug in the centre of the floor. We made the stairs and began climbing, and turned right to walk down a really long corridor.

"I feel like i'm in a movie or something" i stated "This is the type of shit you see on MTV or something, this is crazy"

"Yeah" stated Ryan without turning back to look at me. I was starting to think why i hadn't been here, i don't know why but i was getting the feeling that not many other people knew that Ryan lived in such a extravagant home, which clearly means his family has money, he just seemed so distant about it and disconnected by it, it was confusing. Eventually Ryan stopped by a door halfway down the corridor and placed his hand on the carved door handle, he turned and gave me a fake smile then opened the door.

Again, my jaw dropped. Ryan simply and unfazed walked of to the right to a desk against the wall and started putting his keys and wallet and other crap on it as i slowly walked into the centre of the largest bedroom i had set foot in. The flooring was of pristine wood, and there was a large rug in the middle, he had an overly large four poster bed at one end, and i saw a doorway into a private bathroom, he had a large walk in wardrobe which was more like a room full of clothes. There was the odd table here and there with beautiful lamps on them and the odd trinket here and there, it was beautiful.

"What do your parents do?" i asked, just simply dumb founded by all this.

"Well my dads a lawyer and owns his own firm, and my mum is a CEO of an electronics company that make phones, stereos and TV's and all that" he replied simply.

Ryan had walked to his bed and sat on it just watching me look around at everything "Tj" he called me.

"Yeah" i said as i walked up to his large bed and sat on the end of it.

"Don't make a big deal out of this ok" he said to me "And don't be telling people"

"Why?" i asked him concerningly "Are you ashamed of all this, because there isn't nothing to be ashamed of"

"I just don't tell people about this stuff" he said as he looked at me with saddened eyes. "You know what some people can be like, i want people to know me and like me for me, not because i can have cool cars, and a huge house and expensive things, it just isn't my thing" he finished as moved up on his bed and rested his back against the head of his bed, lifting his feet up onto the bed and relaxed as he played with his phone.

"It's ok, i won't say a thing" i said to him, as i turned my head and had another look, it still sinking in, i just had no idea.

"Thanks" he said behind me, i turned to face him and he was looking at me.

I looked upon him and then began to slowly crawl up the bed towards him.

"You know what?" i said to him cutely.

"What's that?" he asked as he reached over and placed his phone on his beside table, not taking his eyes of me.

"This is all very sexy" i said to him as i reached him and lifted a leg over his legs and sat upon his lap "It's kind of turning me on" i said through a smile.

"Oh is it now" he said as he raised his hands and placed them on my waist, as he leant up and pressed his lips into mine.

I ran my hands behind him and slid my hands under the back of his shirt running my hands up his back lifting his shirt slightly. "I guess we're gonna have to do something about that" he joked with me, as he tightened his grip on my waist and pushed my hips closer into him as i still ran my hands over his back, feeling the slight scratch marks i left the night before. He leaned in once more and pressed his lips against mine once more.

But then suddenly something from behind made us jump, as Ryan's bedroom door swung open, our heads shot towards the door, me still on top of him. A man walked in, he was a tall man with a very stern, whithered face, he had a large rounded gut, and he had grey short hair. He was wearing expensive business attire, he walked sharply into the room and only made it halfway across the room when he stopped dead in his tracks, his cold wide eyes upon us, his mouth slowly opened in dismay.

"What the hell is going on!?" he bellowed in a loud deep voice.

"Dad!" screamed Ryan as he pushed me off him and i landed on the bed as Ryan shot up off the bed and stood beside it.

"What are you doing here?" asked Ryan frantically.

"What do you think you're doing!?" Ryan's father bellowed again "What are you doing!?" he bellowed once more when Ryan didn't answer.

"Dad it's not" began Ryan, but his father's booming voice echoed over his.

"Get out of my house!" he bellowed once more, but it was directed at me.

"What!?" screamed Ryan.

"Get him out of my house!" his father screamed once more.

Slowly Ryan turned his head to look at me, i was still half laying on the bed, i didn't dare to move. Ryan's eyes were starting to fill with tears as he looked at me, i looked at him as i watched his lips slowly mouth the words 'I'm sorry" I quickly slid of the bed and slowly walked to the door, the whole time i looked at Ryan, i didn't dare to look at his father, he was rather frightening. I reached the bedroom door, and began to slowly walk down the corridor, as i heard shouting start to emit from Ryan's room. I started to run down the long corridor, as i could still hear raised voices echoing from his room. I reached the stairs and began to run down them skipping steps as i went, I raced towards the front door, my feet slamming against the white slate as i ran, my heavy footsteps echoing throughout the hall, as my heart raced, and i thought it would burst open and out of my chest. I threw open the large front door and just ran through it leaving it open, i pelted across the front of the extravagant home towards my car on the far side, i jumped in and turned the key that i had left in the ignition.

I rammed my gear stick into reverse and pulled out, spitting up gravel as i went, i rammed the car into drive and sped off down the long ever stretching driveway towards the large front gates, i sped through them and out into the road, and slammed my foot on the accelerator, i was desperate to get home.

Six hours, for six hours i have sat on my couch, just staring at my phone upon the coffee table, hoping, wishing, praying that it would ring and once i had answered it, Ryan's voice would answer back and all would be well, but as always i knew such a thing was not bound to happen, no such luck exsisted, and no such luck ever ran in my life. Rain lashed against the lounge room window, doing nothing but dampening my mood beyond that what it already was. What was bound for the future i did not know, what i have with Ryan has become an enigma, and i was at a moment in my life where i had no answers, and no idea what to do, it has been nothing but one thing after another since the moment me and Ryan connected for the first time.

I saw light from someone's headlights shine through the lounge room window as they normally do when one pulls into my drive way. I shot up off the couch and lunged for the window and looked out. Ryan had pulled up into my drive way and had stepped out of the car, i couldn't see that well due to the heavy downpour, but i knew it was him. He stood beside his car door as rain fell on him, he was looking down at his hands, he appeared to be deep in thought about something, and the fact that he was getting completely saturated didn't seem to worry him. But then he looked upon my house and then began to walk towards my front door.

I ran through my lounge room and down my hallway and skidded to a halt at the door, i unlocked the door and pulled it open to a sight i didn't expect, to a sight that made my stomach feel like it had fallen a hundred stories to be splattered upon the ground. Ryan stood before me, rain peltering against him, his hair flat to his head, wet. Ryan's bottom lip was bleeding and the cut that was upon his left eyebrow from Jesse, that was healing nicely had reopened to bleed once more. He had a large red puffy mark on his left cheek, slowly Ryan looked up to look at me with a look of such depression i had to swallow the knot in my throat to stop myself from crying, slowly he took a step forward and through the threshold and simply walked past me dripping wet and down the hallway.

I swung the door and let go and walked after him as i heard the door close behind me. Ryan turned and went into the lounge room to which i followed him to the couch and we sat down.

"What happened?" i asked, as i sat beside him, i raised a hand to check his cut, but he sharply turned his head away so i couldn't.

He slowly turned to look at me again as i placed my hand back upon my lap "My dad" he said softly.

"Your dad did this to you!?" i said angrily.

"It was my fault" he quickly added "We were arguing and i hit him first"

"That doesn't give him the right to bash the shit out of you" i replied, anger still boiling inside, only to be met by sympathy and sorrow.

"Tj we have to talk" he said slowly as he adverted his gaze to his hands upon his lap.

"Ok" i replied simply. I was scared of what was coming, i would be lying if i told you i wasn't expecting it, but not like this.

"This isn't working" he said slowly.

"What do you mean?" i replied, the knot in my throat returning and i couldn't get rid of it this time.

"Us" he said "We are not working. I have been through nothing but bullshit since i met you. I have taken punches to the face twice, for you" he said, his eyes still looking at his hands.

"What!" i exclaimed, trepidation rising to the surface, an overflow of emotion broke out of me, as my eyes swelled with fear "I'm sorry i've been such an inconvenience to you" i said angrily at the thought that Ryan believed it was my fault those things happened to him.

"It's too much Tj" he said, his eyes still not upon me "I can't take anymore of it, it's just too much"

"Life is too much Ryan, but we have to deal with what comes our way, not fucking run away from it" i shot at him.

"I'm sorry, i can't be with you anymore" his voice was soft spoken and his eyes still upon his hands.

"Look at me Ryan!" i yelled at him "Are these your words, or your farther's?" i asked through gritted teeth, my anger getting the better of me, it out weighed my sadness, but yet tears still slipped down my cheeks. "Look at me!"

He shot his face side ways and his eyes looked dead into mine, Ryan's eyes were full with tears as he yelled at me "It's over Tj, accept it, and move on!" He jumped up off the couch and stormed across the lounge room and vanished into the hallway.

I jumped out of the couch and ran after him, i caught the front door as he went to slam it behind him and i threw it back open and jumped down my front steps behind him. I grabbed his arm and twisted him around to face me "If you want to be with me, then be with me. Don't run away from me because your father doesn't accept what you are!" Rain fell from the heavens and drenched us, as we stood on my front lawn and argued like we never have before.

"Tj, it's finished, we're threw!" he shot at me as rain splashed over his face. He turned and began to walk towards his car yet again.

"Ryan don't do this, i love you!" i hadn't meant to say it, it just came out, i wasn't sure if i meant it, but i knew i felt something, if it were love, i didn't know, it was a feeling i was so unfamiliar with, but i was sure it could be love.

Ryan abruptly stopped beside his car, he stood still for a moment as the rain still fell upon us heavily. Slowly Ryan turned his head to me and replied simply "I don't love you?"

I couldn't help it, i simply just broke down, my face scrunched up in agony as tears sprung from my eyes at those words, i didn't want to believe, i could not "I don't believe you!" i pleaded with him "Your not speaking for yourself, i don't believe you, please Ryan don't do this!" i yelled across my lawn over the noise of the torrential rain "Please Ryan don't do this!"

Ryan opened his car door, but before he got into his car, he turned and coldly said to me "Don't beg Tj, it doesn't suit you"

My knees gave way and i slumped to the muddy ground upon my knees as i fell back to sit upon my feet, the agony of despair and sorrow destroying me from within, my heart snapping in two as i watched Ryan pull out of the drive way and down the street. I sat there just crying loudly, slowly i picked myself up and turned, but as i turned i saw Rhys, my bizarre new neighbor just standing in the rain by his front porch, staring at me, at my pain.

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU LOOKING AT!" i screamed with all my lung capacity. I stood and looked at him for a moment, as a smile appeared on his face ,i broke down again as this man i did not even know smiled at my anguish, tears escaped me like they never have, and i hoped they never would, but my heart had been broken, and i was left all alone.

I shot across my front lawn as Rhys continued to stare at me with a smile, i jumped up my front steps and ran through the door slamming it behind me. I stopped behind the door and fell back into it, sliding to the floor, burying my face into my hands. I screamed in despair as loud cries left my mouth. I slowly got up and walked along the hallway, tears still streaming down my cheeks as the rain dripped off me. i walked into my bedroom and walked towards my bed and simply fell face down upon it, burying my face into the pillow.

I felt like shit, i couldn't handle all this, why did he have to do this to me, i was sure those words were his fathers and he hadn't meant it, Ryan had spoken briefly of his father and he sounded like a real asshole, and he seemed the type to not want a gay man for a son, but it was no reason to destroy what we had, to desecrate our connection purely because his father did not approve, if he loved me, he wouldn't care. Perhaps he didn't love me, and this is why he has done it, maybe he didn't care for me as much i do for him.

Suddenly a noise made my heard jerk up, i heard the front door open and then moments later close. Fleeting hope sprang into my heart, had Ryan regretted what he had said, was he coming back to make amends. I jumped excitedly off the bed and sprang towards my bedroom door. I looked down the darkened hallway, and saw a figure, a smile spread on my face knowing Ryan had come back. But i was wrong, slowly the figure began to walk forward, and when the figure had met the door to the lounge room and the light from that room spread across the figure i realised that it was not Ryan, but Rhys, my new fucked up neighbor.

"What are you doing!?" i shot at him as i began to step backwards, as he slowly walked forwards.

"I've come to see you" he said simply in his deep demeaning voice.

"What! You don't just walk into my house, get out!" i yelled at him.

"But we can be together now" he said slowly and deeply as he rose his arms as if expecting a hug.

"What!" i exclaimed "Be together? Look i don't know you buddy, just leave" my heart pounded against my chest, as fear began to edge it way through me.

"Your no longer with that guy, now we can resume what we had" he still spoke slowly with his deep eerie voice, he was truly frightening me.

"I don't know you, so get out of my house!" i yelled, as i gasped in fear as my back met the end of the hallway, and i had no where to go, as he still slowly walked towards me.

"I've been watching and waiting for this moment, and i know you want this as much as i do, don't fight temptation. I thought it would get to the point where i would have to step in and make sure we were together again, but it seems fate as opened it's arms to me" he was now standing before me, his arms still raised expecting me to embrace him, as his electric blue eyes drilled their sight into me.

"I don't" i began to say, but he began to 'shh' me and shake his head slightly.

"It's ok, he's gone now, it's our turn"

"I don't know who the fuck you are! Just get out!" i yelled him.

Suddenly his face changed from the eerie smile he had, to an angry and disbelieving glare "You don't remember me?"

"Look just leave or i'm calling the cops"

"NO!" he yelled "It's our turn now, and no one will prevent us from making something magical together!" he screamed as he hands lunged forward and grabbed hold of my shoulders.

Without realising, without a seconds thought, my knee shot up and plunged itself into his groin. His hands left my shoulders and they grabbed for his dick, i pushed him over and jumped over him, intent on running for my phone. But i felt his hand grasp my ankle and i fell forwards, i threw out my arms to brake my fall as i slammed hard into the ground beside the bathroom door. I, not knowing where they would connect, starting kicking my legs, and his hand let go, he began to scramble to his feet, i quickly shot up and dashed to my left into the bathroom, i slammed the door behind me and pushed my whole weight against it as i flicked the lock upon the door and stepped back and leant against the bathroom sink, attempting to catch my breath.

Suddenly bangs issued from the door, as he kicked and punched it and he yelled "Tj why are you denying it, we shared something special, you know we did!"

I did not reply. I simply slid down to the floor and brought my legs close into me and hugged them tightly as he continued to bang, tears of sorrow for Ryan, and tears of fear of Rhys washed over me as the banging stopped. I heard heavy footsteps pounding against the floor, i then heard the front door slam horribly as i heard something smash. I tried to attune my ears to any noise, but none met me, but i was far too scared to open the door to see if he had truly left.

 

[hungbuzz]

i hope that ryan comes to his senses and comes back to tj. that guy nxt door is really creepy

love the story, cant wait to see what happens next.


Mikko

 

[Thou]

Is Rhys the rich snob that TJ had his first experience with? I think so. =)

 

[kcm17480]

OMG. What the hell just happened? Is Rhys someone from his past that he doesn't remember? Rhys does sound kind of creepy, a sort of fatal attraction. Damn what a cliff hanger. Please make the next chapter quick. First problems with Jesse and now this. I Think TJ needs to get out of Dodge for a while. Excellent story with a whole lot of drama and detail. You know it's amazing how fast a day can turn to shit.

 

[ThyStoryTeller]

Hey guys! Just letting you all know that the next chapter may be another day or two. I've been really, really, REALLY! sick the past few days and i'm only just starting to get over it and i just can't concentrate on writing to make it good enough, but it will be up soon! and i'm glad you all like it, much much much more drama to come, trust me!

 

[hungbuzz]

Hey storyteller, hope you feel better soon


xoxo
Mikko

 

[harry113]

Hey storyteller, sorry you are bad. hope you feel better soon.
My, What a chapter. Things moved at such a pace!! Sounds as if weird Rhys has a fatal attraction to TJ. Has he been stalking TJ ?? Did he get his Mum to buy the house so he could spy on TJ ???
It's all getting scary .... hope TJ will be ok.
Thanks
Harry

 

[PATMAN]

where is the rest of this story?? i am missing it!

 

[ThyStoryTeller]

I am so, so, so sorry for not posting fo soooo long! But i have good reason, i was feeling a little sick when i wrote my last entry, but after that i just got REALLY sick! My doc said to have complete bed rest, so i was scared to anything lol! because i was due to go on holiday, far far away for two weeks time, so i wanted to get over it, and it stayed with me for ages and i couldn't shake, but then i got better but it was time to pack for holidays, so then i went away for two and half weeks where no internet was available or computer to write on, so i took a break, but i'm back with a fresh new chap for you all! Just think of chap 1-7 a series 1 or something, this is now series 2 i suppose. Hope you all enjoy, i loved writing this one, it has been waiting to be typed for a while now, so hope you all love it!!!!!

 

[ThyStoryTeller]

Chapter 8!
Buried Secrets!​

My body ached all over as i slowly opened my eyes and looked upon the ceiling in my bathroom as light flooded through the sun light, the revelations of what happened last night returning to me as i realised i had fallen asleep in the bathroom. I raised my hand and rubbed the back of my head and neck, it was stiff and sore, i couldn't believe i had spent the night upon my bathroom floor, the fact that i was attacked by my crazed neighbor drilling into my mind making my eyes watery with fear. What was his deal? i thought to myself, what was the motivation behind last night, he rambled on about being together, that we had shared something special, but i was certain i had never met him until the day he moved in. Perhaps he had some mental issues to deal with, whatever it was, i no longer felt safe in my own home, and the realization that the man that attacked me, mere hours ago, lived mere feet away.

I stood up off the floor and stepped towards the door, i leant in and pressed my ear against the door and listened. There was no sound coming from anywhere that i could hear from. My hand slowly raised and took grasp of the door handle and turned slowly and stepping back from the door as i slowly opened it. My head slowly passing the threshold, looking up and down the hallway, this asshole making me fear the shadows and doors in my own home, i stepped through and into the hallway, i worked down the hallway, my eyes darting this way and that, it was morning and the sun was out, the house was full of light, but yet, fear still filled me, i was frightened he still may be within the house.

My eyes then found the shards of glass on the floor by the front door, as Rhys had slammed the door shut, one of the panes of glass that was beside the front door had shattered when he slammed the door shut. I walked into the lounge room and went straight to the window and looked out at Rhys' house. His car was gone, so perhaps he was not home, i thought, that thought made my heart feel a little at ease. I turned and looked nervously at my phone on the coffee table, should i call the police? i thought, in the back of my mind i knew i should have already rung them, but something was stopping me, something was telling me not to, i wasn't sure why i felt that, but i still hadn't rung them, and i currently wasn't planning to.

A thought that i have avoided for three years was now creeping into my mind as paranoia began to settle in. Did Rhys know my deep dark secret, a secret that none but three others knew, my mum and Scott being two of them, even Scott did not know the whole truth and i was desperate to keep it that way. How he could know, was beyond me, even if he actually knew i didn't know, but i had to be cautious, and now i knew i could not involve the cops. Perhaps too many questions will be asked and Rhys may know too much, i simply could not risk it.

I looked at the clock on the wall, it was 9:46 am, i should of been at school, but i don't think i could face that today, but i needed Scott to be here now, i have to tell him what's happened, he knows just enough to be a liability, and what if Rhys was to confront him. I picked up my phone and knowing Scott was in class i sent him a message to somehow get out of school and get to my house immediately and alone. I couldn't believe what was happening, what is it about Ryan that has been attracting such bad luck, are we being tested or are we simply not compatible, but why, why now is everything creeping out from the cracks to bite me in the ass, have i done too much bad in my life for it to ever go away, is this what my life will always be like, will i always be running from my past mistakes.

The fact the Ryan left me last night was not troubling me at this present moment, the paranoia that has kicked in has numbed me from it's affects as i sat on my couch frightened of what may come my way. My eyes darted everywhere, every shadow, every object in the room frightening me, because what had happened, the secret that i keep, happened in this very room. What was to come of my life, i was scared to think of the prospect, but i still didn't know the true motives behind Rhys' actions, perhaps i was over reacting, but the secret i have cannot be taken lightly, and i have to be prepared for the worst.

I heard a car pulling into the driveway, my heart began to race, i felt it's heavy fast beats pounding against the inner of my chest, my face flushed with heat as i jumped up to look out the window to see Scott getting out of his car. I took a sigh of relief knowing it was just him. I looked at the clock on the wall and it read 10:24, i had been sitting for nearly an hour in paranoia tearing my mind apart. I raced the to front door and opened it as Scott walked up my front steps.

"What happened to your window?" he asked as he reached the door.

"Get in quick" i said as i shot my gaze over to Rhys' house.

"What's going on?" he asked as he stepped through. I closed the door and locked it, what good it would do, i didn't know, for the window was broken and anyone could just reach in and unlock it, but it made me feel slightly more secure.

We both walked into the lounge room and sat down, i immediately shot my attention to Scott and said "I think my neighbor knows"

"What!" exclaimed Scott, he knew immediately to what i was referring to.

"He attacked me last night" i finished.

"He what!" shot Scott. Scott's expression turned blank as he took his gaze from me and just stared into space as he continued to speak to me "Do you know if he actually knows or?" he asked plainly.

"I'm not sure if he actually knows" i replied to Scott as i stared at him.

"What did he say to you?

"He went on about being together and that we shared something special" i recalled to Scott.

Scott suddenly snapped out of his daze and looked at me again "Well that sounds as though he's infatuated with you" he said "Besides, why would he attack you over it, it isn't as though he is connected to it in anyway"

"Not that we know of anyway" i replied.

"Well i can't see how there would be a connection" said Scott "What are we going to do?"

"There isn't much we can do" i said to Scott "I can't call the cops, incase he does know, i can't do much of anything"

"Have you contacted your mum?" asked Scott. My mum was as involved in this as Scott and I, my mother was there the night it happened, in fact my mother was a key player in all this.

"No i haven't, i'm going to wait until she gets back, i don't want to frighten her about it just yet"

"Maybe we should confront him, see if he knows anything, try and calm the situation" suggested Scott.

"No!" i shot at him "We can't do that. Besides knowing you, you'll knock him out over all this, we should do nothing for now i think. We just need to see what happens"

Scott and I sat in silence for at least half an hour, the both of us allowing our minds to travel to that fateful night three years ago, my eyes travelling to the point on the carpet that my mum scrubbed at so hard for days. I could not believe after three years of complete secrecy, after the matter had been dealt with, not a word had been uttered between Scott, my Mum and myself and the other that was involved about the whole ordeal, not a single word, and now, i feared the secret was out.

I had later told Scott everything that happened last night between Ryan, with Rhys, and why i wasn't at school. Scott had told everyone that i was just sick, and no one asked questions after that, Scott also informed me that Ryan was not at school today either. Since telling Scott about Rhys and then what happened with Ryan, my mind began to think of Ryan, and as much as i wanted him, as much as i missed him right now, perhaps it was better if he was out of the picture, perhaps it was meant to be that he left me last night, perhaps it was fate. It was better that he was not in the picture no more, especially if my secret was to be exposed. But now i couldn't help but think of him, think of his childish smile, his green soothing eyes and his warm touch, i wanted all that in my life, i wanted Ryan in my life, but i knew if i allowed that, that Ryan would more than likely just get burnt and i would ruin his life and take him down with me, i couldn't allow that to happen to him, i had to keep my distance, as much as it pained me to do so.

For the whole day Scott and I spent it within my house, everytime we heard a car we would run to the window to see if it were Rhys coming home, but still his driveway stood empty, all day my thoughts were dark, as we realised what would happen to us if the secret became public. It was now 6:30 and we were fixing something to eat in the kitchen, when we heard the front door open and heard Kayla's voice call out "Hello!"she called. Scott and I quickly stumbled out of the Kitchen and into the lounge room where we met Kayla.

"What's going on?" she asked "Why is your front window smashed?"

"Oh it was just an accident" i lied to her "It's nothing"

"Where have you been?" she asked again as Kayla and I sat on the couch and Scott on the armchair.

"Just didn't feel like going to school" i said to her, she was asking guestions and i didn't like it, i didn't like lying to her, and i just didn't want to be drilled about it all "Ryan dumped me" i told her, knowing that, that's all she is going to want to talk about for at least an hour, so i knew the questions would stop, but to my dismay, it didn't quite go that way. After several moments of sympathy from Kayla, and he reassurance that all would be well, she turned on Scott, who she has been growing friendlier with over the past two weeks, they were kind of a couple now, but not official.

"And why did you fake sick to get out of school today, you just left without even letting me know, i looked everywhere for you, i've been calling you all day" she said to Scott.

Scott reached a hand to his pocket to feel his phone in there, but it wasn't there "Sorry i left my phone in the car"

"Seriously" she said to us "What's going on? You two didn't sleep together did you?"

I laughed at her notion and quickly replied "No, no of course not"

"Then what's going on?" she asked again "Something is up, you two are acting funny"

"Honestly Kayla" i began to lie once more "There is nothing up, nothing going on, i'm just down about Ryan and didn't feel like being alone, so i got Scott to come over is all"

Kayla looked from me to Scott with an odd look and finally, with much relief to myself, she simply replied "Ok" but i knew she suspected something.

I hated this, i hated sitting here and lying to one of my most dearest friends, knowing she was suspicious, knowing that the thoughts going through her mind were that her friends were lying to her. Two hours later Kayla and Scott were leaving, they were both continuously asking if i wanted them to stay, i kept replying no for one particular reason. We were standing at the front door, my eyes trailing to Rhys' house every few seconds, Kayla had walked down to her car and was waiting for Scott as he was going to stay at her house for a while before going home.

"Are you sure you don't want me to stay?" he asked me before he left to go to his car.

"No, it's ok" i said honestly "There's something i have to do" i told him "I have to ring him, i have to let him know, he has a right, if Rhys does know something, i should warn him"

"Well i'm not far away, if anything, anything, just call me ok" he told me "I don't think you should call him, not with what he did to you last week, but if you want to, that's your call"

With that i said good bye to them and watched as they got into the cars and drove away, leaving me alone. I shot another quick fearful look towards Rhys' house, the drive way still deprived of his cars presence. I closed the door and locked it, Scot and i had put up a board over the broken window earlier, so i felt slightly more safe. I turned and walked down the lit up hallway, i had every light on in the house, i turned and walked into the lounge room and sat on the couch. I picked up my phone and went into the phone book and skimmed down the numbers before i found the name i was looking for. I pressed the dial number and put my phone to my right ear. I listened as it rang, but then the one voice i didn't really want to hear answered the phone.

"Hello" he answered.

"You need to come over" i said simply.

"Tj" he replied "Is that you?"

"Yes" i said to him "This is serious, you need to come over"

"What's going on?" he asked me.

"Three years ago" i said to him. Everything went silent and he did not respond to me, i simply said again "You need to come over"

"I'll be there in a minute" he said back to me, then all i heard was the noise of him hanging up, and then silence.

I slowly lowered the phone from my right ear, taking a deep breath and letting it out slowly. As much as i didn't want to make that phone call, i had to, it would have been wrong of me not to warn him. But oddly, the sound of his voice seemed strangely soothing as it once did, and i got butterflies of the thought of him coming over, despite the concept of his presence, i found myself calming down, and feeling slightly at ease, knowing he was going to be here. I suddenly shook my head to try and stop those thought from occurring to me, but i couldn't help it, old habits, old feelings were arising, this secret that bound us, a secret that i knew he would never expose, a secret that has left us with a life long connection, the secret, and what had happened was the main reason we ended up together for so long, the reason we were so deeply connected, and the secret being the reason he acted so strongly over Ryan, it's something none of us can forget, it's something that affects our every action, something that has bound us together forever.

I did not know how much time had passed since i called him, but i rose from the couch as i heard the knock on the door. I walked down the hallway and to the front door. I took a deep breath and unchained the door and flipped the lock on the back of the handle and opened, and there he stood, Jesse. He turned his head away from the smashed window, that was now boarded up as i opened the door and smiled at me with that smile that use to make me melt. I stepped aside and he walked in and went straight into the lounge room. I closed the door and locked it once more. I leant forward and pressed my for head against the back of the front door, wondering if i was doing the right thing, but i knew i was. I turned and made my way into the lounge room.

I went in and sat beside Jesse and just looked at him, as his blue eyes looked back at me, his face clear with concern and i could tell he was worried "What's happened?" he asked.

I went on and explained all that had happened, even that i was no longer going out with Ryan, i saw his eyes change and his lips make the most smallest of smirks when the words left my mouth. Jesse has never heard of my neighbor, he doesn't even know his name, i simply told him it was my new neighbor, i wasn't giving to much detail to him. But at the moment i told Jesse he attacked me it was enough to make him jump out of the couch and off towards the front door.

"Jesse don't!" i screamed "Please just sit down, don't make the situation worse than it already is"

"But this guy came after you Tj" he said to me as he sat back on the couch beside me and placed a hand on my knee "We can't let this little fuck get away with it"

"Yes we are" i replied simply "If he does know Jesse, we can't do anything to provoke him, to do anything else, or tell someone"

"Are you certain he knows?" asked Jesse.

"Well no" i said to him, i then went on to explain what he had said to me.

"It doesn't seem like he knows, sounds like he just wants you" added Jesse. "Well i'm staying the night, you aren't staying on your own"

As much as i didn't want to stay home alone, i didn't particularly want it to be Jesse who stayed with me, but i didn't want to ruin Scott and Kayla's night, so i gave in and agreed he could stay, but he'd be sleeping on the couch. I knew if i let him sleep in my bed he would try something, and mum don' want people sleeping in her bed, so it was the couch for him.

As the night went on, i began to feel at ease, Jesse thought some alcohol would help calm our nerves, so we grabbed a bottle of Vodka, and some soft drink and were just sitting in the lounge room drinking and laughing at each other. It was nearing 1 am and i had drunk way too much and i was now leaning up against Jesse with his arm around me, i was feeling like i once did, when we were together, i felt safe and secure, his arm around me, giving me the security i needed to feel right now. It was hard to believe that we were now apart and i had attempted to sustain a new relationship and failed. It was hard to believe that Jesse had fought with Ryan, and now Ryan was gone, it was hard to believe, still to this day, that Jesse had actually cheated on me.

"You hurt me you know" i said suddenly out of the blue "You really hurt me" I was drunk and i knew it, i wouldn't have said this to him otherwise.

"I know" he replied groggily, his eyes barely opened "But you have to believe me when i say i'm sorry, because it's the truth" he finished as he slurred a few words "IT was stupid and i know i have no one to blame but me for it. I was a fuck head and i know it, and you got no clue how much i regret it. Especially when i saw you with Ryan, i just lost it, cause that's when i knew it was over, that it was actually over"

"Who was it that you did it with?" i asked, i truly didn't want to know this, but i was too drunk to give a shit.

"You don't know them, you've never met" he replied to me as he shook his head slightly as he put down his drink that was in his free hand, i have been drunk with Jesse before, and i knew he had, had too much to dink also.

"I still want to know his name" i said to Jesse.

"No lets not do this" began Jesse "It will just make things worse"

"Well just as long as you know how much you hurt me by doing it" i said to him as i still leaned close into him, my legs now curled up on the couch, my head resting on his shoulder.

"If i could take it all back, i would" he told me "I made a pathetic mistake, and i regret it so much"

Jesse shuffled in his seat and made me sit up straight, he turned and faced me and i turned to face him.

"Just as long as you know that i do love you, and i always will" he told me "We have literally been through things no one will ever imagine, we share things that can't be shared by other people, we share a bond, we are tied by a secret Tj, nothing can get in the way of us"

A smile began to spread across my face, i wasn't sure if i was smiling because i liked and wanted to hear what i was hearing or because i was drunk, or both, i didn't know, but for the moment i liked it. Jesse lifted his hands and placed them on my cheeks and he held me softly, he slowly leant in and placed his soft tender lips on to mine and kissed me then pulled back, removing his hands. We simply looked into each others eyes for the moment, then he leant in again and kissed me once more. Slipping his tonge into my mouth as he placed a hand on the back of my head, and his other on my thigh slowly sliding upward towards my dick. Our kissing became more intense as he shuffled in closer towards me, his hand now rubbing my dick through my pants.

"No stop" i said as i put my hand on Jesse's chest and pushed him back slightly. "I can't do this, not right now"

Slowly Jesse's hand slipped away from my groin and he just looked at me and said "That's fine"

I got up from the couch and went to the cupboard at the end of the hallway and grabbed a pillow and a blanket and stumbled drunkenly back down the hallway and into the lounge room. I threw Jesse the pillow and blanket and he put the pillow against the arm of the couch, slipped his shoes and shocks off and lifted his shirt up over his head. I was sure he took his shirt of on purpose, he knew how much i loved his body, he worked on it vigorously whilst we were together, it was a body i came to love so much, every groove in his abs, the shape of his pecs, the small patch of hair on the middle of his chest that i use to love to play with after sex, the V shape that ran done to his groin, the best i've ever seen, and it always made me melt and to grab at what it lead it. The small and thin snail trail that went up to his belly button, and his cute nipples, seeing it again made me realise how much i loved Jesse, but not for his good looks, but the fact i knew every inch of his body, like the small freckle he has on his left ass cheek, i knew every inch of him, and loved every inch.

Jesse laid down and pulled the blanket over him, i walked up to him and bent down and gave him one short kiss on the lips and said goodnight. In the back of my mind i knew i wouldn't have been doing this if i weren't drunk, but i was, and the majority of us make stupid decisions when we have had a few too much.

I walked out of the lounge room turning the lights out as i went, down the hall and into my room. I took off my shoes and shocks, undid my belt and let my pants slide off me, i lifted my shirt up over my head to be left in my briefs, i slowly crawled over my bed, slipping down the covers and slipped in between the sheets and pulling them back up over me. I laid in bed, i was drunk and sleepy, but i couldn't manage to close my eyes and drift away into the world of dreams, everything was just running through my mind like a movie, watching as Ryan walked away as i stood in the rain, as Rhys stood eerily in my dark hallway, and the things he said. Then my thoughts ran to that night, the night that it happened, the night that my mum, Scott, Jesse and I were bound by what happened, and then my thoughts went to what Jesse did for us that fateful night.

My mind began to think of all the good times Jesse and i had together, the best of which was during the time he cheated. Was it all a lie, or did Jesse just make a foolish mistake, i knew for certain that he loved me, but was that enough, or had he done far too much damage for us to ever be able to coexist as a couple. At these thoughts i began to feel loneliness wash over me, i threw the covers off me and i threw my legs over the edge of the bed. I stood up and walked out of my room and back down the hall and to the lounge room.

"Jesse" i said to the darkness in the lounge room.

"Mmmm" i heard Jesse's sleepy voice reply in the dark.

I reached out to the right and flicked the light on, Jesse lifted his head off the pillow and turned to look at me, he squinted from the brightness of the light "Can you come sleep in my bed tonight?" i said to him. He just looked at me for a moment then threw the blanket off him and he slipped off the couch and walked towards me "You sure?" he asked me, i simply nodded.

I turned the light back off in the lounge room and we walked down the dark hallway and into my room. I jumped back into bed again, flipping the covers down on the other side the let Jesse in. He unbuckled his belt and undid his jeans and slipped them off, he too was now in his briefs. He wasn't expecting anything, but this is how we always slept in our briefs when we were together. He slipped into bed and pulled the covers up and rolled over so my back was against his front and he slipped an arm over me and i grabbed hold of his hand, he then whispered in my ear "Everything will be ok" I rolled over to face him and i simply could not help myself, i just could no longer resist, i felt like we did when we were going out, when we were having the time of our lives together. Old emotions etched their way to the surface, the love i have, and forever will for Jesse no matter whom i'm with, Jesse is my first true love, the first guy i actually had sex with. He'll forever be in my heart and mind, there is no possible way for me to truly let go of him. I slowly leant in and pressed my lips against his, the loneliness lifting, passion swarming all over me, lust over coming me, i was lost, and there was only one way to be found.

The sunlight swarmed through the window in my room and pressed against my face and stung my eyes as i tried to open them, i stretched out my arms and tensed up my muscles. I stretched out my arm to my right and my hand fell upon someones chest. I moved my hand slightly and felt a small patch of hair between two well defined pecs, i turned my head to the right and saw Jesse sleeping soundly beside me with no covers over him whatsoever, i looked down and saw that he was naked, his beautiful dick just limp and relaxed laying against him in the groove of his V leading down to his groin, his well trimmed pubes out for all to see, i looked back at his face and saw the little smirk on his face that he always had after a night of sex.

"Fuck" i muttered to myself. I lifted the sheets slightly and looked down at my own nakedness and muttered "Fuck" once more. How stupid of me, i cannot believe i had sex with him last night. How much did i drink, i thought to myself. I'm such an idiot, i shouldn't have done it, it was a mistake, i had a weak moment and i caved in to old emotions, but i shouldn't have done it.

I quickly slipped my legs off the bad and sat up, i looked behind me at his perfect naked body, and at his beautiful face, he needed to shave, but it was a sexy stubble. No, i shot at myself, stop it, i beat myself up on in the inside. I've got to stop thinking like this, it isn't the time for all this, i'm not in the right state to be doing all this, i was weak and i allowed this to happen, now i knew i was going to pay for it.

I stood up and walked towards my chest of drawers and i saw the used condom on the ground that we must have just chucked aside when we were done, i knew i was the one who was fucked, i could feel it. I grabbed a pair of briefs from my drawer and slipped my legs through and pulled them up, i walked out into the kitchen, desperate for a glass of water, my mouth was all dry, my head felt groggy, and my stomach was uneasy. I was standing at my breakfast counter, when i heard movement in the hallway, then i heard the bathroom door close and the shower turn on. Jesse practically live here for the three years we went out as my mum was never home, and he basically treated my house as his own, which i wanted, so he would always grab a quick shower in the morning as soon as he woke up and always made his own meals and all, he was welcome to do as he pleased here.

But it kind of pissed me off this morning, maybe because i was slightly hung over and irritable, or maybe because we weren't together anymore, and last night was clearly a mistake, if he thought we were just going to return to normal like nothing has happened, it isn't going to happen. I stood there, drinking water and waiting for my toast to pop as i heard the shower running. My toast popped and i spread Jam all over it and scoffed it down as i was rather hungry. I heard the shower stop and i put a piece of toast in the toaster for Jesse and pulled out the peanut butter as it was his favorite. I growled at myself for doing this, as much as it pissed me off that he was acting like he use to when we were going on, so was i, getting his breakfast ready when i knew he was coming out of the shower, as i was always up before him.

I heard him coming down the hallway and i knew he was about to turn the corner into the lounge room in his towel, and i was right, he stepped into the lounge room and i could see him from the kitchen as he walked in covered by nothing but the towel that was wrapped around his waist, he looked so hot and i just wanted to go and rip that towel off him. NO! i screamed within my head, STOP IT YOU FOOL! i argued with myself, i can't do this right now, all it will do is cause far too many problems, and i can't trust Jesse, i just couldn't, the one i truly wanted to be with was Ryan, even though i could not be with Ryan as i could with Jesse, i wanted top be able to have the chance to grow with Ryan and get to that point of feeling complete and comfortable, i knew if i had the chance i would be able to become like that with Ryan.

"Look" i said to Jesse as he sat down on the stool at the breakfast table where i could see up the towel "Last night was great, but it was just a one time thing, it would be a mistake to start things up again"

"I know" he replied to me then he took a bite of his toast smothered in peanut butter.

"You do?" i asked, slightly confused.

"You were feeling lonely and scared" he said "It's ok i understand. Don't get me wrong, i'd love to start up again, but i know that's not what you want"

I was a little surprised by all this, mainly due to the fact of how he acted when he found out i was with Ryan and now, he was being understanding and respective of my decision "How come you couldn't be like this at first?"

"I was jealous" he replied "I got burnt by it, and didn't like that you had found someone so soon and i hadn't, because i wanted you back, and still do, but i know that's nit what you want right now"

"Thankyou" i said to him sincerely.

"Besides" he said "I know you broke up with Ryan, but i know you want him back, and i know you two will work through whatever bullshit you two are going through" he said as he put the last piece of toast in his mouth "I'll get dressed and i'll leave you alone ok"

I just smiled at him and said "Thanks"

He smiled back at me and rose from his stool and walked into the lounge room. I picked up the dirty glasses and plates and was putting them in the sink when i heard a knock on the door. I heard Jesse call out from the hallway "It's alright i'll get it" I looked time on the microwave and it was only 8:45, i assumed it may have been Scott coming over instead of school, but to my horror, it was not.

I walked into the lounge room to go the front door to see who it was when i heard Ryan's voice say "You" to which i heard Jesse reply "You" in a shocked tone.

I stepped into the hallway and all i had on was briefs and all Jesse had on was a towel, and i knew straight away how it looked, and it was exactly how it looked. Ryan gave me a quick wide eyed look that scream 'what the fuck' a look that he wanted an explanation, but he simply turned on the spot and turned and went down the steps.

"RYAN!" i called out to him. But he had begun to briskly walk back towards his car. "RYAN!" i called again from the front door as he got in his car "RYAN!" i screamed once more as i heard his car start up, and then he drove away. I turned and walked back into the hallway, Jesse closed the front door and walked past me muttering "I'll just get dressed and go"

I couldn't take anymore, it was just one thing after another i couldn't escape, i realised what i took as bad luck was not that at all. But that i made my own luck and i made stupid idiotic decisions that always put me into these predicament's. I was the cause of my own dilemmas and of my own destruction, i was the cause of my depression, i have no one to blame but myself. But enough was enough, it was the last straw and i cracked, i simply couldn't not handle another thing. I felt frustration, anger, bewilderment at why i always do this bullshit. I ran my fingers angrily though my hair, and i couldn't hold it in, i just screamed.

My mouth was wide and a deep long bellow escaped my lungs as i worked them to their capacity, i just screamed, and i couldn't stop myself, everything that was within me was coming out, i needed to release my tension, my sorrow, my fear, my anger. My capacity to love was my real downfall and my own problem, such a thing as love is meant to be good, but i loved too much, and i allowed my love to blind me to the point that i make foolish decisions, and that i hurt others around me, and suck those around me in, and allowed my problems, my secrets to slowly deteriorate what we have. My lungs gave way as i collapsed to my knees as tears began to slip down over my cheeks and drip to the floor. I raised my hands and buried my face in them. Where was Jesse now, if he loved me he would be beside me, comforting me, not desperately getting dressed to get out of here.

My secrets, have destroyed too much around me, but i still must keep my secrets, they are far too damaging to me, and others that know. But as we all know, secrets can't be kept secrets for much longer, and when all those dirty little secrets creep through the cracks of time and present themselves, and make their presence known, there is nothing we can do to stop the effects it will cause, and we must live with those effects and deal with it's aftermath.

 

[harry113]

Hey, Dear Guy. So glad you are well again.
Thanks for a great chapter .... whatever is this terrible secret ??
Poor Tj seems to be heading for a breakdown, I do hope it will be all sorted for him !!
Harry

 

[PATMAN]

another hiatus that is just too long!!! come back!!!

 

[kcm17480]

This is really an awesome story. It just keeps getting better with time. What is this secret? Did you kill someone or what?
I am glad you are feeling better

Thanks Ken