The Just Venting, Airing Out, Talking Shit, Personal Beefs, Problems, Anger Management, and etc Thread for 2015

[dereperez]

I am in a rut. I want to go back and finish getting my degree but I also want to go out West and explore that side of the country. I've been wanting to travel West for a few years now but I keep chickening out. I am not good at taking risks. If I don't travel soon I feel as if I'll never pluck up the courage to do so in the future. I don't know what to do -_- I'll be looking for a sign.

How long does it take to finish your degree? You can still travel after getting your diploma. And if you want to go to other places, you can also do the study abroad thing.

Lately I've been getting awaken at 3:20 am every morning. It is cyclical as it can go on for months, stop for a while, then continue. It has been going on for years now and i have the hardest time getting back to sleep. Usually i have to take sleeping pills to break the cycle. Any ideas?

I find that light exercise in the afternoon or evening can help with sleep cycles.

 

[Anders123]

This thread is my little haven on JUB. I hope I haven't inadvertently opened the floodgates for the topics/arguments I've been trying to avoid. I'd hate to wish for a hide/collapse feature on this thread too.

My post was intended to highlight how weak-willed I can be sometimes, particularly when it comes to actively avoiding things that I find irritating. I thought it was funny that it hasn't even been a week and I'm already struggling with it despite how minor my grievances are when put into perspective. I suppose it's only fair that I take the blame for it since I did explicitly state that I was frustrated by things on JUB, but it wasn't really meant as an invitation to bring issues into here that have otherwise been contained to specific threads. I guess I was more hoping people would relate to me struggling to break a habit or to stick to a goal/resolution and perhaps share their similar experiences.

Of course, it's a public forum and I can't control what people take from my posts or which direction the conversation goes from there, but I would hate for this thread to devolve into the very same arguments that we can find in many other threads if we choose to.

Come on, help me stick to my resolution here.

 

[medic1]

Sorry buddy, we Scots are crap at "resolution". So that is me bowled out....

 

[Taz]

^ He said staring at his 640 by 480 resolution monitor.

 

[eastofeden]

This thread is my little haven on JUB. I hope I haven't inadvertently opened the floodgates for the topics/arguments I've been trying to avoid. I'd hate to wish for a hide/collapse feature on this thread too.

My post was intended to highlight how weak-willed I can be sometimes, particularly when it comes to actively avoiding things that I find irritating. I thought it was funny that it hasn't even been a week and I'm already struggling with it despite how minor my grievances are when put into perspective. I suppose it's only fair that I take the blame for it since I did explicitly state that I was frustrated by things on JUB, but it wasn't really meant as an invitation to bring issues into here that have otherwise been contained to specific threads. I guess I was more hoping people would relate to me struggling to break a habit or to stick to a goal/resolution and perhaps share their similar experiences.

Of course, it's a public forum and I can't control what people take from my posts or which direction the conversation goes from there, but I would hate for this thread to devolve into the very same arguments that we can find in many other threads if we choose to.

Come on, help me stick to my resolution here.

Positive reinfocement will take the place of willpower once you get used to it.

For example...I used to have a bad case of verbal diarrhea whenever the name "Ronald Reagan" was brought up. I joke about it but it is really serious...and damaging. So....I began congratulating myself everytime I wanted to bring Reagan into a conversation and didn't...it is similar to detox....and then when I didn't respond to anything with Reagan it it...THAT was a big congrats...and I think the positive reinforcement actually did the trick because I avoided a thread last week in CE&P about Reagan and the exact specific thing I hate the most about him...I might be cured.

So next time you avoid a thread...give yourself a pat on the back....and start looking forward to those pats LOL...it works!

 

[MakeDigitalLove]

Need to find a decent Vet around my area that wouldn't cost too much. This morning my Cat threw up and afterwards she lost her balance on one side. Scared the living shit out of me. I have to wait until next Friday until I can really do anything since money is tight. She is totally fine now though and is being sweet as ever, but can't help but worry.

 

[mikemizanin729]

The post is ridiculous lately. Who leaves a delivery outside the front door without even knocking or trying to disguise it?

 

[The Fly]

Need to find a decent Vet around my area that wouldn't cost too much. This morning my Cat threw up and afterwards she lost her balance on one side. Scared the living shit out of me. I have to wait until next Friday until I can really do anything since money is tight. She is totally fine now though and is being sweet as ever, but can't help but worry.

Best of luck to you both. It totally sucks when a pet is sick or injured.

 

[Gentleheart]

Carrying this over from another thread...

I know some of you have seen me say some rather disturbing things about heterosexual people on this site. I try not to show it too much, but I admit that I am afraid of straight men. They make me extremely nervous and I always feel like I'm having a mini panic attack when I have to interact with them in certain situations. It's like I almost expect to be treated horribly by them, until they prove otherwise. I think it's some sort of PTSD from my middle-high school years that I have never really worked past. Now I don't want you guys to think that I completely shut down/can't function, but I am very cautious/kinda scared around them. Even though I know there are a lot of straight guys out there who are gay friendly/nonjudgmental, etc. I still feel like I'm in danger to some degree. I still carry a lot of hurt for the way I was treated in school. I won't go out of my way to make straight guy friends, and the ones I've met through school, work and such...I've always kept at arms length. There's also resentment there...anger.

I am very comfortable in my sexuality, so anyone who may be thinking that plays a part...it's not about that at all.

Does anyone else feel this way?

I know..I should probably look into counseling about it or something.

 

[borg69unimatrix]

Carrying this over from another thread...

I know some of you have seen me say some rather disturbing things about heterosexual people on this site. I try not to show it too much, but I admit that I am afraid of straight men. They make me extremely nervous and I always feel like I'm having a mini panic attack when I have to interact with them in certain situations. It's like I almost expect to be treated horribly by them, until they prove otherwise. I think it's some sort of PTSD from my middle-high school years that I have never really worked past. Now I don't want you guys to think that I completely shut down/can't function, but I am very cautious/kinda scared around them. Even though I know there are a lot of straight guys out there who are gay friendly/nonjudgmental, etc. I still feel like I'm in danger to some degree. I still carry a lot of hurt for the way I was treated in school. I won't go out of my way to make straight guy friends, and the ones I've met through school, work and such...I've always kept at arms length. There's also resentment there...anger.

I am very comfortable in my sexuality, so anyone who may be thinking that plays a part...it's not about that at all.

Does anyone else feel this way?

I know..I should probably look into counseling about it or something.

^^^^ I feel the same way about bull dyke lesbians. Seriously.

 

[rareboy]

Carrying this over from another thread...

I know some of you have seen me say some rather disturbing things about heterosexual people on this site. I try not to show it too much, but I admit that I am afraid of straight men. They make me extremely nervous and I always feel like I'm having a mini panic attack when I have to interact with them in certain situations. It's like I almost expect to be treated horribly by them, until they prove otherwise. I think it's some sort of PTSD from my middle-high school years that I have never really worked past. Now I don't want you guys to think that I completely shut down/can't function, but I am very cautious/kinda scared around them. Even though I know there are a lot of straight guys out there who are gay friendly/nonjudgmental, etc. I still feel like I'm in danger to some degree. I still carry a lot of hurt for the way I was treated in school. I won't go out of my way to make straight guy friends, and the ones I've met through school, work and such...I've always kept at arms length. There's also resentment there...anger.

I am very comfortable in my sexuality, so anyone who may be thinking that plays a part...it's not about that at all.

Does anyone else feel this way?

I know..I should probably look into counseling about it or something.

this is going to sound weird....but I haven't had an issue with straight guys intimidating me ever since I realized that while I could probably...under duress mind you....fuck a female of the species....they could never likely bring themselves to fuck a guy if they were really straight and homophobic.

I've withered many a straight guy in meetings and negotiations with the expression on my face and the tone of my voice.

Even the hefty guys don't intimidate me. I've actually dared one of them to haul off and hit me so I could finish them once and for all. I've also had one removed from a project for making a homophobic comment. Nope. Not intimidated at all.

 

[jdcnow]

I know that this is an exceptionally dark, heavy post for a Hot Topics thread, but since this is the airing out thread, and I just wanted to make this one-off post...

Although, my psychiatric meds (Wellbutrin and Magnesium) are working relatively just fine, I can always tell when my severe clinical depression worsens - inside my head, I hear this little boy just crying his eyes out, and he won't stop. For anything. He just cries endlessly, day and night, night and day...

I see my psychiatrist day after tomorrow, I'll ask him about it. I know this crying little boy represents the extensive psychiatric damage my highly abusive past has caused. I wish I could get some peace and quiet.

Meanwhile, my therapist wants me to join a random meetup group. I have to say, I'm not exactly thrilled. If I'm not working at one of my jobs, it'd suit me just fine to not leave my bedroom office computer, from the time I get up, to the time I go back to bed.

 

[dpnice]

.......................................... it'd suit me just fine to not leave my bedroom office computer, from the time I get up, to the time I go back to bed.

That is seriously a bad idea. As difficult as it is and I know it requires a huge amount of courage and effort get out into the world and meet people.

 

[GreyUnderscore]

I know that this is an exceptionally dark, heavy post for a Hot Topics thread, but since this is the airing out thread, and I just wanted to make this one-off post...

Although, my psychiatric meds (Wellbutrin and Magnesium) are working relatively just fine, I can always tell when my severe clinical depression worsens - inside my head, I hear this little boy just crying his eyes out, and he won't stop. For anything. He just cries endlessly, day and night, night and day...

I see my psychiatrist day after tomorrow, I'll ask him about it. I know this crying little boy represents the extensive psychiatric damage my highly abusive past has caused. I wish I could get some peace and quiet.

Meanwhile, my therapist wants me to join a random meetup group. I have to say, I'm not exactly thrilled. If I'm not working at one of my jobs, it'd suit me just fine to not leave my bedroom office computer, from the time I get up, to the time I go back to bed.

I've met up with some people I've only spoken to online a few times and while I was a nervous mess I did have a good time and we all ended up meeting again a few months later. I almost cancelled twice but I ignored that little voice and I'm glad I did.

Fuck depression. I hope you wake up and feel better than you do today

 

[mikemizanin729]

The post in this country (UK) is getting worse lately. I paid good money to Royal Mail and 3 days on still waiting for special delivery.

Terrible service. The postman is deeply lazy and out of shape.:rollseyes:

 

[medic1]

^I tend to agree with you on this topic Max.

Can you remember when there were always two deliveries a day, except on a Saturday?

Normally a special delivery is signed for the next working day, if i were you i would take my receipt to the post office and get them to have it tracked for you.

You should be entitled to some form of recompense, am quite sure of that.

 

[mikemizanin729]

^I tend to agree with you on this topic Max.

Can you remember when there were always two deliveries a day, except on a Saturday?

Normally a special delivery is signed for the next working day, if i were you i would take my receipt to the post office and get them to have it tracked for you.

You should be entitled to some form of recompense, am quite sure of that.

Yeah Royal mail is getting much, much worse than ever.

 

[mikemizanin729]

Anyways, back to the topic.


Yes, Royal Mail are deeply stupid these days and they clearly aren't even trying with their customers. I would strongly suggest that our UK Jubbers be very careful when paying for special delivery because it will never be the next day.

 

[justanothershyguy]

I would quote people in this forum, but I won't for two reasons:

1) It's against the rules to talk/mention children.

2)

 

[Taz]

Give it a rest Ramona.