Hey fellas-
First off, let me apologize for not being able to respond to all of your gracious replies. I was sent over for a "training" stint (code word for we don't have enough qualified doctors right now). Mostly FST work, some aid station stuff. They wouldn't let me tag along on too many patrols. They've put too much money into me I guess. I was afraid to use any DoD computers to access this site, so it had to wait.
First off, thank you for your encouraging words. So much of my life has changed so radically within the recent past that sometimes just hearing that it will be okay is a welcome relief. Many of you have provided very good suggestions and I thank you for that too.
Right now we are going to keep doing what we are doing insofar as career choices are concerned. One thing that was repeatedly pressed upon me while I was there was that a lack of adequately-trained physicians and surgeons can kill people. I just can't walk out on my brothers and sisters like that. They are over there taking on bullets and bombs and the least I can do is give them every damn opportunity to live and live well when they have been wounded.
Chase didn't get deployed as expected. We were able to talk pretty frequently while I was gone, and me being gone involves a relatively safe job, usually in fairly secure areas, unlike what he does. Now I have some fairly vivid images burned into my brain and I don't want them haunting me when he does go. But I suppose that is part of the job. It is like that with everyone I know. Even before I went over there, I had seen death, and I can tell you that it is ugly.
As for my religious issues, I shouldn't have brought it up. I will just say this about God. I still belong to Him, and in the event that what Chase and I do in the bedroom is a sin, which I waiver over, then the grace of Christ is more than sufficient to cover all of my sin. He came to die for sinners like me. On the other hand, at the heart of the relationship I have with Chase is love that is pure, and that can only be of God.
For right now we are just enjoying each other. Playing Call of Duty around the clock (well almost
), Sleeping in late, and hoping that call doesn't come. Thanks again guys for the posts. If there were any questions asked that I didn't answer, please come back and berate me.
First off, let me apologize for not being able to respond to all of your gracious replies. I was sent over for a "training" stint (code word for we don't have enough qualified doctors right now). Mostly FST work, some aid station stuff. They wouldn't let me tag along on too many patrols. They've put too much money into me I guess. I was afraid to use any DoD computers to access this site, so it had to wait.
First off, thank you for your encouraging words. So much of my life has changed so radically within the recent past that sometimes just hearing that it will be okay is a welcome relief. Many of you have provided very good suggestions and I thank you for that too.
Right now we are going to keep doing what we are doing insofar as career choices are concerned. One thing that was repeatedly pressed upon me while I was there was that a lack of adequately-trained physicians and surgeons can kill people. I just can't walk out on my brothers and sisters like that. They are over there taking on bullets and bombs and the least I can do is give them every damn opportunity to live and live well when they have been wounded.
Chase didn't get deployed as expected. We were able to talk pretty frequently while I was gone, and me being gone involves a relatively safe job, usually in fairly secure areas, unlike what he does. Now I have some fairly vivid images burned into my brain and I don't want them haunting me when he does go. But I suppose that is part of the job. It is like that with everyone I know. Even before I went over there, I had seen death, and I can tell you that it is ugly.
As for my religious issues, I shouldn't have brought it up. I will just say this about God. I still belong to Him, and in the event that what Chase and I do in the bedroom is a sin, which I waiver over, then the grace of Christ is more than sufficient to cover all of my sin. He came to die for sinners like me. On the other hand, at the heart of the relationship I have with Chase is love that is pure, and that can only be of God.
For right now we are just enjoying each other. Playing Call of Duty around the clock (well almost
), Sleeping in late, and hoping that call doesn't come. Thanks again guys for the posts. If there were any questions asked that I didn't answer, please come back and berate me.