The Object of My Affection

[Sweetwater]

Chapter 8 – He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not

“Wait!” Sean yelled as Jesse tried to crack the door. Luckily the door opened to the wall, not the bed and the rest of the room. There’s no telling how many relationships have been saved simply because they designed the doors at the fraternity house to open towards the wall of the bedroom instead of being able to crack it and see the entire room. The door shut. Sean pulled out of me and whispered, “Quick, hide in the closet.” I ran over to the closet and sat there in the dark. I could see out of a small crack. Sean was trying to put on his boxers, he bent over to pick them up giving me a full view of his ass and even his balls from behind as he bent over. I wanted to fuck that tight hole. His beautiful ass would get pounded by my hard dick and I would shoot my huge load inside him. Next time it was going to be him taking it. “Whew, I’m having a Blanche Devereaux moment, I better cool off,” I thought to myself. Sean cracked the door open just enough for Jesse to see him. “Sean, why aren’t you ready? You’re in your boxers!” “Baby, I’m sorry. I was asleep I took some medicine earlier I haven’t been feeling well today. I’ll go get ready now; can I pick you up in about 30 minutes?” As he said ‘can I pick you up in about 30 minutes’ he had that boyish, innocent look on his face that always gets him whatever he wants. I don’t say it to begrudge him, just to state an observation. All he has to do is make his eyes big, put a slight grin on his face, and tilt his head down a little as he does it. Works practically everytime on practically anybody. “He should be a politician,” I thought.

“I mean, I guess,” said Jesse, in a frustrated way. “Why did you tell me to wait when I knocked?,” she asked. Sean lowered his voice to make it sound like he didn’t want people to hear: “I was masturbating…I thought the door was locked. I thought you might have been one of the guys and I didn’t want them to see me jacking off.” I couldn’t help but be amazed at how good he was on his feet. And his knees…but that’s a different story. “Eww Sean. Why are boys always playing with their dicks? Wait, you know what, don’t answer that. Men are gross.” Jesse said. “We just do babe, that’s just how it is. How ‘bout I come get you in 30 minutes so I can get ready?” “Ok,” she said as she walked away.

Sean motioned for me to come out. “Damn that was close” He said. “Yeah, it was. I think we better both cum or we’re both gonna be blue-balling all night,” I said. “Right, where was I?” said Sean. This time we lubed up our dicks and jacked each other off as we made out. Sean was stroking my dick and reached his middle and index fingers in my ass and started rubbing my prostate. I liked to get fingered, so he was happy to oblige. I laid back to take it all in. Sean was jacking me off with his left hand, while he fingered me with his right hand and sucked my balls with his mouth. Holy Shit. I came load after load on top of myself. “Shit Jake, you’re like a geyser,” Sean said. I returned the favor, doing the same thing to him. Sean said he had never been fingered before, so I put some lube on my middle finger and went in. If he had ever bottomed it hadn’t been any time lately. It was tight as hell. I slowly started to add my index finger to my middle one inside him as I jacked him off. He made an uncomfortable face at first but I just took it slow. “Work it in and out,” He said. I started working my two fingers in and out of his ass. His look changed to a look of pleasure. “You like this? Howbout this?” With that I ran both fingers in as far at I could and rubbed his prostate. Precum began to leak out of his dick like water out of a faucet. I sucked his balls as I jacked him off and fingered him. The look on his face was pure bliss. He came bucketloads of jizz and I put my face over his throbbing cock as he shot loads of hot cum on it. He laid there for a second to take it all in, and then he grabbed a towel and threw it to me. He wiped off and started to get dressed. “I hate to…umm…how do I put this…’fuck and run’, but…” “I understand…Happy Birthday,” I said. “You’re really amazing, you know that?” he said as he smiled. I just laughed and smiled at his complement and said, “Well, I know you already had plans with Jesse and my visit was unexpected, but I’m just glad we were able to patch things up.” Sean laughed and said, “Yeah, I’d say we did. And it was probably the best unexpected visit I’ve ever had. I love the tie,” with that he paused, his face turned sentimental again, and he looked me in the eyes and said, “and I love you even more.”

I melted. I dreamed of the day I would hear him say that. He hugged me, we kissed, and he said, “I love you Jake. I don’t know that I can fully explain how or why just yet, I don’t understand this strange new feeling of love I have in my heart. I’ve never had any affection for a guy beyond physical attraction. But you awaken feelings in me I didn’t know existed. And I love you for it.” I teared up. “I love you too, Sean. I do. I knew I did from the day you walked up to me at the first meeting to introduce yourself. I might not have been quite ready to admit I was in love with a guy either at that point, but that doesn’t matter to me now. All I know is I love you, and I want to be with you, and only you.”

Sean started to cry. I didn’t know why exactly, if it was a sad or happy cry, or if it was something else. “I don’t know what to do, Jake,” he said as he sobbed. “I love Jesse, but I’m not in love with her. I’d break up with her tonight if she weren’t carrying my son. But she is, and I don’t know what to do. I need some time to think. Can you give me some time?” I wasn’t thrilled to hear this…but I didn’t have a baby on the way either. “Sure, I understand. So it’s a boy?” “Yeah, we found out last week. We’re going to name him Tucker” Sean said. “Aww, little Tucker Watson, that sounds cute. I’ll bet he’ll be a stud just like his daddy.” Sean laughed as he dried his eyes and said, “Well I’m going to be late, I’ve got to go.” He gave me a brief kiss and said “Muah!” as he did it. We walked out of his room and went our separate ways for the evening.

That night I went back to my room, got in my bed, and hugged my pillow. I was overjoyed and sad at the same time. Sean told me he loved me, and I believed him. His eyes were genuine when he said it. What frightened me was also how genuine he looked when he talked about having to think things over. I went to sleep and dreamed about far away lands and far away people. Castles and Kings, Feasts and Merriment. My dreams were surreal even by dream standards, and I took such delight in them as they were a welcome distraction from reality.

I awoke the next morning, if you could call it morning. I had slept until 11:45am. Besides being emotional I was already stressed about finals coming up. I need to clear my head, so I walked down the street from the fraternity house to the park which ran along the river. It was a cold day; I had on my wool coat over my long-sleeve shirt and jeans. I like to go to that park to think. That was something Sean and I really had in common. We both like to go out somewhere at least semi-natural to look around at creation and think. I sat on a bench that faced the river. It was a relatively small river which ran through our town, about 75 yards across from one bank to the other in most places. I sat there watching the water flow by and I got a text: “Can we talk?” It was from Sean. “Sure. I’m at the Riverside Park.” He knew where to find me – he knew this was my “spot.”

“Hey,” he said as he sat down beside me, “how are you?” “I’m ok. How did things go last night?” “They went well,” he said, “that’s what I wanted to talk to you about,” his voice sounded hesitant and nervous, “I should have told you yesterday, but last week I proposed to Jesse and she accepted.” “What?!” I said. Sean got defensive, “Well you and I hadn’t spoken a word to each other in weeks at that point and I didn’t know if you even cared about getting with me after I saw you and Russell in the closet that night...I figured you just wanted to sleep with the President.” “FUCK YOU SEAN!,” I yelled emotionally as I slapped him in the face, making a loud ‘POP!’ “You think I just wanted to sleep with you because you’re the president?! The nerve! You cocky son of a bitch! How could you think my love for you was based on something as shallow as that?” “I don’t think that now.” He had calmed down. “I don’t think that now,” he repeated. “Then why the HELL did you make love to me yesterday, and worst of all why the HELL did you tell me you loved me? How could you do something like that to me?”

“I do love you Jake” he said. “DON’T SAY THAT!” I yelled at him with tears in my eyes. I was beginning to make a scene. “Look, I said it because I meant it, and I was emotional. You coming in my room yesterday to patch things up was a complete surprise. Your love was something I never expected. I got caught up in my emotions yesterday and I did and said some things that I shouldn’t have if I couldn’t follow through with it. I realize now how insensitive it was, but I meant everything I said and did yesterday.” “So you’re going to marry Jesse?” I asked pointedly and with disgust. “Yes” he said flatly. “She’s due in a couple of months. We set the date for February 14th next year. I have to be a good dad, Jake.” “How good of a dad can you be when you’re being someone you’re not? And what kind of example is that for your son?” Sean said nothing and looked at the ground. “I hope I haunt you Sean! I hope every time she leans her head on your shoulder you think about me! I hope every time you fuck her you reach around and try to grab a dick that isn’t there! I hope you cry in bed at night longing for me to touch you. And at the end of your miserable existence you call a life, I hope you look back and realize you spent your entire adult life wandering in shadow and regret. Get out of my life Sean, don’t ever text me, call me, or so much as look at me ever again.” Sean had tears rolling down his cheeks, and without saying anything, he closed his eyes and nodded his head, stood up, and walked away.

To be continued…

 

[Sinestro]

Oh dear, that was certainly simultaneously something to be expected and yet was not at the same time. Of course I hope things work out for them somehow.

 

[Sweetwater]

Here is the final installement gents, I hope you enjoy. Please leave some feedback. Here ya go:


Chapter 9 – Beginnings and Endings

More weeks passed. I went home for Thanksgiving. It was the usual relatives and turkey. Came back for finals, then went back home again for Christmas. I was glad to be away from the university for the month, it helped me to get over things. The end of the Fall semester had been tough, but I managed to stay afloat with my grades and even squeeze in some social time.

I came back one day early from Christmas Break. I saw some of Sean’s stuff outside his door; he had come back a day early also for his and Jesse’s wedding shower that evening. He was the only other person in the fraternity house. I didn’t feel like talking to him, and I certainly didn’t want to go to the wedding shower. Although I had adapted to life without him, I still every day could feel him touching me, kissing me, making love to me, and then I hear him telling me why he can’t be with me. I decided to go down to the Riverside Park to my spot. I sat there, the only person in sight, on my bench looking at the river. It was a cold, early January afternoon. Christmas wreaths were still on the lampposts. I was bundled up from head to toe. The trees were bare and all the living creatures were burrowed up inside the ground or a nest. I felt utterly alone. Just as I was about to get up I heard some leaved crunching behind me. Someone was approaching.

Before I could turn around I heard a voice from behind me. “I can’t do it” a desperate voice said. I turned around to find Sean standing behind me. He had on a gray wool overcoat, under which he had on his navy suit, light blue dress shirt, and the blue and gold J.Crew tie I bought him for his birthday. “Can’t do what?” I asked as he sat down beside me, “and I thought I told you I wanted you to stay out of my life.” I had to say that so I didn’t look like a push-over, plus I wanted to see how he reacted. “I know you told me that, and I deserve it. I just had to tell you I can’t marry Jesse. I’m all dressed and ready to go to our wedding shower. As I got ready I found this tie. I started to tie it and with each motion to tie it I felt worse and worse – worse that I had broken your heart and worse that I was lying to myself. Jake, you’re all I want now and forever. If I’ve pushed you too far away I understand. I’d rather be single and happy than to be married and live a lie. But most of all I’d rather be with you, but I realize I’ve probably screwed up too much for that.”

I was at a loss for words. No I wasn’t. “You put me through HELL Sean! Have you any idea the pain I’ve gone through the past few months because of you. You tell me you love me one day and the next you tell me you’re getting married?!” “I know, I know. It’s the worst mistake I’ve ever made in my life. Ever since the last time we talked on this bench I’ve thought about the picture you painted for me of what my life will be like. I realized you were right. I’m truly sorry I hurt you, I’m sorry for everything. I thought being in love with you and being a good father were mutually exclusive things. But today I realized I can do both. I hope it’s not too late.” “Well, I’m gonna have to think about it. You can’t just come down here to find me sitting on a bench and sweep me off my feet. Not after all the things you’ve done to me” I said in a cold voice. I wanted him to feel some pain, too. “I understand,” he said, “and for whatever it’s worth, I just threw whatever chance I had to live a ‘normal’ life out the door for you. I hope that counts for something to show you how I feel.” “It does,” I said, “but it doesn’t mean I can just pretend everything is great all of a sudden.” “I understand,” he said again, “I’ll let you think.” And with that he got up and left.

I waited a few minutes and thought about things. I walked back up to the fraternity house. The dead leaves crunched underneath my footsteps as I walked up the stairs to the portico. I walked in the front of the house and to the hallway. Sean’s door was open, he was in there alone. He had taken off his overcoat and suit jacket, and now had his sleeves rolled up halfway to his elbows and his tie loosened. His face looked like his dog had just died. I walked in the door. “That tie looks sexy on you” I said to him with a smile. He looked up to see me in the doorway. He smiled. “Does that mean you forgive me?” he asked. “Well, I remembered something you told my pledge class last semester. You said, ‘If you mess up, it’s ok, just take responsibility for it and make it better next time. It’s not that you drop the ball that matters. It’s whether or not you pick it back up and keep going that makes you who you are.’ I realized you, probably without even remembering that quote, took responsibility for what you did and tried to make up for it. There’s something to be said for that. I just have to know you want to pick the ball back up and make it better this time.” Sean’s face looked relieved. He said, “That’s all I want to do. I want to make things right between us and keep going.” He was standing now, and I walked up to him, looked at him and said, “Then I forgive you.” With that I leaned in and kissed him. He grabbed my shoulders and pulled me towards him. We kissed for what seemed like hours.

Sean shut the door. He started to take off his tie and unbutton his shirt. I unbuttoned his trousers and reached inside the back of his boxers, squeezing his plump, tight ass as we kissed. Then he took off my clothes. “I hope I don’t regret this” I thought to myself. We were lying in his bed side by side with our legs intertwined while we kissed. Sean said “I’ve missed your touch…I did lie in bed at night and long for you to touch me.” “Well, I’ve been known to have that effect on people” I said jokingly. He smiled and kissed me again. He went down and started to suck my balls, pulling on them with his mouth. “Damn that feels good” I thought to myself. He stroked the inside of my thighs sending chills up and down my body. Then he put his mouth around my cock head and licked the bottom with his tongue. My body twitched with pleasure. I laid my head back and took it all in. The next thing I felt was my cock go down this throat as he went and up and down so far he could kiss my trimmed pubic hair. It was glorious. He came up for air after a few minutes and said, “Fuck me Jake!” “I didn’t know you were a bottom?” I asked. “I’m not usually, but I will for you. I want to feel your cock thrust in me” he said. My cock was throbbing just from hearing him say this. He laid on his back on the edge of the bed. I stood up from the side of the bed, put his legs on either side of my neck, and put my dick up to his ass. I lubed his hole with my finger and poured some on my dick. I started to push in, Sean grunted with pain. “This is the worst part, hold on” I said. I slowly pushed it in. He grabbed my hand and held on tight as I went on. His face looked like he was in pain. I didn’t want to hurt him, but I wasn’t turning back now. I was in. Being inside Sean felt so good, his ass was so tight my dick felt like it just belonged in there. As I worked it his painful look lessened. I rubbed his feet and ankles against my cheeks and kissed his hairy legs. Everything about him turned me on. “Fuck me harder!” Sean yelled all of a sudden. I started violently fucking him, thrusting every last centimeter possible of my cock into his tight hole. He started jacking off his long, thick cock as I fucked his brains out. “Oh!…Jake!…Ohmy!…God!…Fuckme!…” He yelled as I threw my weight into each thrust. Sean was getting close to cumming. He started breathing faster and faster while he jacked off his cock. I heard something behind me. Just as Sean sprayed his load all over himself and moaned with pleasure we both turned to see Jesse standing inside the door with huge, bulging eyes. “OH MY GOD!” She said and ran out the door. I kept fucking Sean. I couldn’t stop now, I was almost there. “Almost…there…” I said in a winded voice. I pulled out of him and came all over his chest, even hitting his face as he lay there mixed between the pleasure of our sex and the startle of Jesse. He quickly took a towel and wiped off our cum and started to throw on a pair of jeans. “What was that all about?” I asked. “Well, I hadn’t told Jesse about us yet. I tried to call her earlier but she didn’t answer, she was probably getting ready for the shower.” He ran out of the room.

I threw on some clothes and ran out of Sean’s room. They were down the hall in the living room sitting on a couch. Jesse was crying. I kept my distance so they couldn’t see me, but close enough I could hear. “Sean, what the hell is wrong with you?! I came to get you for our wedding shower and I see you in your room getting your brains fucked out by another man! How could you?! Any why?! Are you drunk?” Jesse exclaimed. “Look, Jesse, it’s not that easy to explain. I tried to call you earlier…” Sean tried to talk but Jesse cut him off. “No Sean, it doesn’t matter, you were in there getting fucked. What do you want? Are we getting married or not?” Sean didn’t say anything and looked down. My heart sank. “If he does this to me again I don’t know how I will go on living” I thought to myself. Sean made his eyes big, grinned a little, and tilted his head. “Oh God, here it goes, he’s going to ask for forgiveness and kick me to the curb again…why am I so dumb?” I thought.

“Come here, Jake” Sean said. I emerged from the corner and saw them both sitting there. Jesse was showing now, much more from the last time I saw her. She looked at me with confusion. “Jesse, last semester Jake and I got to know each other pretty well…really, really well. I can’t really describe it to you babe, but I love Jake. He’s put up with a lot of crap from me because I tried to live a double life, having sex with him while still dating you. I’ve treated both of you like dirt and it’s not fair to either of you. Jesse, I love you…but I’m not in love with you. Jake completes me in a way I didn’t know I could be completed. So, I guess this is it. You can keep the ring if you want.” “Oh my God,” I thought to myself, “I love that man.” Sean continued, “I just want to be a part of Tucker’s life. That’s my only request.” Jesse was crying. She tried to stand up, Sean helped her. She walked up to me and said in a calm, grieving voice, “I can’t say that I’m surprised. Jake, from the first football game when I met you I saw how Sean looked at you. I heard the difference in his voice when he talked about you. I tried to ignore it and to believe I was over thinking it. But, in the very back of my mind, I knew by the way he looked at you that he was in love with you. I hope you love him that same way.” “I do, Jesse….I do. And Sean loves you and he loves your soon-to-be-born son. He didn’t know what to do. I don’t know what I would have done if I had been in his shoes either” I said. Jesse nodded her head, walked back to Sean, and said “I’ll tell everyone the wedding shower is off tonight.” Sean kissed her on the cheek and walked her to her car. I went back to his room.

Sean walked back in, laid down beside me in his bed, and said, “Well, all’s well that ends well I guess.” “Ends well? We’re just beginning!” I said. He smiled and said, “Right you are, my love.” Sean cuddled up to me, putting his head on my shoulder. I reached for his hand; we interlocked fingers. “Today’s been a good day, Jake.” “Yes, it has, Sean.” “I love you” Sean whispered in my ear. “I love you too, Mr. President.”


The next day Sean’s term ended as President of the Fraternity. During the meeting he announced to everyone he and Jesse would not be getting married, which caused a lot of confused looks. He further explained that the two of us were together and he hoped they all still had the same respect for him and me that we had for them. This intensified the confused looks. As he sat down his friend Mark stood up and said, “I respect the hell out of you, bro. Nothing about you is going to change that.” With that Mark started to applaud. One by one, applause filled the entire room. I looked at Sean and said, “You’re amazing, you know that?” “You’re amazing-er!” he said. We refrained from kissing, we figured they weren’t quite ready for that yet.

Sean graduated that May and stayed at the university to attend the law school. This way I would graduate from undergraduate school the same time he graduated from law school. My junior year I was elected President of our fraternity. I was the first and only openly gay Greek president at the university and was also a Student Government Council member. There’s still a picture of Sean and me sitting beside our bed taken the day I was sworn in as the fraternity’s president. He said it was the proudest he’d ever been.

“Uncle Jake!” said a small voice while grabbing at my knee. I looked down to see Tucker with Jesse behind him. “Can I stay with you and Daddy tonight?” he asked. “Sure” said Sean, coming up behind him. That night we sat there on the couch in Sean’s apartment watching “The Lion King” with Tucker sitting between us. Sean looked at me, smiled, and said “Love you Uncle Jake.” “Love you too, babe.” Tucker had fallen asleep between us and was leaning on Sean. A little circle of drool had developed on Sean’s shirt around Tucker’s mouth. “Real sexy, pledge” I said to Tucker as he slept. Sean laughed so hard he cried. For those blissful moments and for the years to come, everything was right with the world.

The End.

 

[DonQuixote]

Sweetwater,
I just finished reading the last two chapters - what a tornado of turmoil, emotions, thoughts.

A great story, with a wonderful ending. Not Quite "they all lived happily every after", but yeah. We don't know what happened to Jesse/if she found the right guy for her, but we know Tucker is in love with his Daddy and Uncle.

Thanks for sharing your talents with us.

 

[HaydenLogan]

*sigh* I didn't want it to end. Please keep writing more stories. 2 thumbs up

 

[rocabar]

Brought a tear to my eye... Tks, Sweetwater!

 

[Sweetwater]

Thanks gents! I appreciate all your feedback, I'm glad you enjoyed the story. I felt like, in keeping with the tempo of the story I had kind of already established, it was time to wind it up. If another story starts develop I'll be sure to post it.

Thanks!

 

[Sinestro]

Sweetwater, if your other stories are as good as this one then by all means make to sure to write them. The ending was a really good way to complete the story.