The stupidity of youth.

[Audio Tech]

Not sure where to post this, so mods please move if needed.

This was me at 18. Deeply closeted and thought no one would ever want me. I just found this picture..... I came out at 46, you can read my posts here.

i was so stupid and so repressed. I look at this picture of myself and want to cry. I was young and lean, a twink by today's standard. Acne and all. And all I thought is that I was ugly.

Would you have done me?

My life isn't over, but if you are young and see this, don't make the same mistake. Be who you are born to be... Be happy. Value yourself.

 

[rareboy]

Hey, a lot of us went through the self-conscious phase in High School.

I am sorry that you didn't come out until later in life...but I'm sure a lot of guys would have hit it if you'd given the chance!

 

[Audio Tech]

Yeah, well... Maybe if even just ONE guy had given me signs that he liked me. But I think in 82 it wasn't too safe to be out.
Anyway, no nudes, sorry. Never took any.

 

[Kyanimal]

It's not all about WHEN you come Out, it's about IF you ever come Out!

And, though it was "later", you've overcome that threshold!

I, too, was naive, stupid, and, admittedly, Scared! I was also raised to be Very sensitive about my perceived Social standing, and "rep". I didn't fully come Out until I was 30. And, that was 12yr. after I'd moved 500mi. away from my family's Public.

Some might think our prime years of Youth were wasted. I don't see it that way, though.

What we endured, what we experienced (or didn't), even through denying, and suppressing, our True selves, has lead us to being who/what we are Today!

Looking back, and perhaps regretting what we Didn't do, is something we have to realize is a general waste of time, at least for Us. It's over. It's done. We can't go back to change any of it.

What's important NOW is what we do Today, and for the rest of our Tomorrows yet to come!

The best we can hope for, as far as Yesterday goes, is to try our darndest, as difficult as it might be, to pass on the Wisdom that we've gained to the "Youngsters" that are just beginning to start down their own roads.

Just all the more reasons to ... No Matter What ...

Keep Smilin'!!
Chaz

 

[jensu846]

cute! I would have tried to play with you had I'd been in school with you. would love to see what you look like now too!

 

[ronboy]

In high school, I was so nervous that someone would find out what I did with Vincent in private.

We had our own little world behind our locked bedroom doors That was where we declared and made our love, in fear that the world (or worse yet, our parents) would find out we were gay and in love.

Your feelings at 18 were perfectly normal and common. Today's gay youth has so much more acceptance than we did. That is not to say that there are still not huge problems to overcome, but I think, in this world, where more states and nations are recognizing same sex couple relationships, things are much better than they were when I was 18, in 1981.

 

[Shepherd 2]

Read my blogs, and note that I was a lot like you.
Shep+

 

[CupidBoy]

My life isn't over, but if you are young and see this, don't make the same mistake. Be who you are born to be... Be happy. Value yourself.

You looked beautiful, and thank you for sharing. I came out at 18 and I wish anyone who feels that they are not good enough or acceptable because they are gay know that that's just an irrational fear. I hope no young gay boys try to conform for the sake of being accepted by people. We get one life, then we die.

 

[cubbybear01]

I think you were very cute and I definitely would have given you my number in high school.

 

[ScottishBiTeen]

I definitely would've shown interest in you. You were incredibly cute.

 

[Telstra]

Not sure where to post this, so mods please move if needed.

This was me at 18. Deeply closeted and thought no one would ever want me. I just found this picture..... I came out at 46, you can read my posts here.

i was so stupid and so repressed. I look at this picture of myself and want to cry. I was young and lean, a twink by today's standard. Acne and all. And all I thought is that I was ugly.

Would you have done me?

My life isn't over, but if you are young and see this, don't make the same mistake. Be who you are born to be... Be happy. Value yourself.

Yea me too.
I was hot and stupid and done nothing much ...

 

[fsubbb]

It's not all about WHEN you come Out, it's about IF you ever come Out!

And, though it was "later", you've overcome that threshold!

I, too, was naive, stupid, and, admittedly, Scared! I was also raised to be Very sensitive about my perceived Social standing, and "rep". I didn't fully come Out until I was 30. And, that was 12yr. after I'd moved 500mi. away from my family's Public.

Some might think our prime years of Youth were wasted. I don't see it that way, though.

What we endured, what we experienced (or didn't), even through denying, and suppressing, our True selves, has lead us to being who/what we are Today!

Looking back, and perhaps regretting what we Didn't do, is something we have to realize is a general waste of time, at least for Us. It's over. It's done. We can't go back to change any of it.

What's important NOW is what we do Today, and for the rest of our Tomorrows yet to come!

The best we can hope for, as far as Yesterday goes, is to try our darndest, as difficult as it might be, to pass on the Wisdom that we've gained to the "Youngsters" that are just beginning to start down their own roads.

Just all the more reasons to ... No Matter What ...

Keep Smilin'!!
Chaz

Amazing post, i've come out last year (was 28) and i'm a lot happier now than I was before, but I don't think it was wrong "waiting" that long, on the contrary, i think it was the right time for me since i fully know and accept myself by now, i'm a lot more secure about living the life the way I want and the only thing missing is moving to a new place, experience new things that way too, it's the next step. I'm sure i'll take an better approach to life from now on but i'm ok about how long it took and how i see things today.

 

[Audio Tech]

I'd have fucked you in a heartbeat.

I can see why you didn't come out at the time, especially with AIDS being in the news throughout the 80's and the rampant homophobia that went with it.

Thank God we live in more enlightened times now.

Yep, that AIDS thing and the homophobia that came with it. Heard it in High School over and over.... "What does GAY stand for?.... Got Aids Yet?"

Yeah, would have been thrilled to come out. Pretty sure a lot of boys I knew where gay, but no one let on.

I am glad times are better now. And I'm glad guys are coming out sooner. Youth, and the delight that goes with it, is fleeting.
And let's not deny it, the clock is ticking when it comes to finding someone. The older you get, the harder it is.

Anyhow, thanks for the kind comments.

 

[seven2go]

The older you get, the harder it is.

I believe the corollary to that is "The older the buck the stiffer the horn"........

 

[borg69unimatrix]

cute! I would have tried to play with you had I'd been in school with you. would love to see what you look like now too!

^^^^ I agree !!!