jamie_01930
JUB Addicts
I have gone from a deep depression and attempted suicide b/c I knew I was gay and didn't think I could live being out. What would people think and say.
My wife left me after I told her that I was gay. I wanted to be the person to tell her rather than she would hear it through rumors that I was seen in a gay bar. We were married for 35 years+/-. Adopted two babies a boy then a girl and watched and felt them grow with us into a family.
When the wife left me so did the kids/adults
I was looking for the guy that was looking for me. Something inside of me gave me the strength to go to a guys home that I never met to meet him, I always thought I was a shy and bashful and doing a hook was someone I wasn't. But it felt so right at the time.
It was the first kiss in the doorway that sealed the deal. From there Bob and I grew and became partners in life. He became my life. I never dreamed I could be that happy in my whole life.
We had only been together for just over 4 short years when he died from cancer. My world fell apart and I wanted to be with him so bad that five days after he died I tried to join him by taking my life. Failed at that for some unknown reason. Towards the end, Bob had told me many times that I should get out and enjoy the gay lifestyle.
I became close with his son, his wife, and their family. To this day we are close friends. Some of Bob's ashes sits in my livingroom with his picture by the door so he can greet people as they come and go.
I have been drinking with a guy at a local Elks lodge who became my friend. While I will never forget the love of my life I am getting to know a guy that could be Bob's twin, if he had one.
Haywood has become a great friend and we get along well together. We're testing the waters to see if we can get along without killing each other which so far we can.
We just got back from a short trip to Maine and plan to go back to the same lodge for this New Years. It's called Twin Ponds Lodge and is for naturists, which we have become ones.
Haywood and I had the best time in our life there. I made great progress in accepting who I am or what I am that weekend that would be a 64y/o ,overwt gay guy, who oftens puts himself down for having small equipment. just a hangup I have been dealing with all my life, not like there was ever a choice.
My wife left me after I told her that I was gay. I wanted to be the person to tell her rather than she would hear it through rumors that I was seen in a gay bar. We were married for 35 years+/-. Adopted two babies a boy then a girl and watched and felt them grow with us into a family.
When the wife left me so did the kids/adults
I was looking for the guy that was looking for me. Something inside of me gave me the strength to go to a guys home that I never met to meet him, I always thought I was a shy and bashful and doing a hook was someone I wasn't. But it felt so right at the time.
It was the first kiss in the doorway that sealed the deal. From there Bob and I grew and became partners in life. He became my life. I never dreamed I could be that happy in my whole life.
We had only been together for just over 4 short years when he died from cancer. My world fell apart and I wanted to be with him so bad that five days after he died I tried to join him by taking my life. Failed at that for some unknown reason. Towards the end, Bob had told me many times that I should get out and enjoy the gay lifestyle.
I became close with his son, his wife, and their family. To this day we are close friends. Some of Bob's ashes sits in my livingroom with his picture by the door so he can greet people as they come and go.
I have been drinking with a guy at a local Elks lodge who became my friend. While I will never forget the love of my life I am getting to know a guy that could be Bob's twin, if he had one.
Haywood has become a great friend and we get along well together. We're testing the waters to see if we can get along without killing each other which so far we can.
We just got back from a short trip to Maine and plan to go back to the same lodge for this New Years. It's called Twin Ponds Lodge and is for naturists, which we have become ones.
Haywood and I had the best time in our life there. I made great progress in accepting who I am or what I am that weekend that would be a 64y/o ,overwt gay guy, who oftens puts himself down for having small equipment. just a hangup I have been dealing with all my life, not like there was ever a choice.
The experience that I had this past weekend has changed my outlook in life. For the first time in my life I am proud to be who and what I am . That would be a maturing gay male that is excited to be alive and loves the pleasures that life has given me and believes that
"Everything Happens for a Reason"
"Everything Happens for a Reason"