Things I Learned Fooling Around...

[crubbed]

So, about three weeks ago I registered on a "dating" site. I posted shirtless pictures of me and apparently people really liked them.

There are several things I found out about myself after meeting all these guys - provided I've never been this promiscuous before, I fucked with 3 guys already, and kissed another one. Last year I only slept with three people.

1) I think I have a small penis. I thought I had a medium size (like 14 centimetres). But maybe I was wrong: all the guys I've slept with, they had beautiful, thick, two-hands-are-needed cocks. My penis pales in comparison. So, I don't think I have a medium size penis. Apparently, it's smaller than the norm. This is really bothering me for some reason. It's embarrassing when I get naked.

2) I can't keep up an erection - courtesy of 11+ years of porn. That's why I can't top. The opportunity came up a few days ago, and my cock flatlined. This is bothering me too. I wished I could top in order to stop cumming only by jerking off with my hand. I've gotten so tired of that. But apparently I can't. Meanwhile, I've learnt to enjoy bottoming and I received my first head in my life. But still. This is bothering me.

3) I'm not sure I can control my feelings. There's this guy I met on Friday. We went out for a walk together, and I really liked him. He's so cute and funny, kinda in a ditsy way. We kissed. Then we met up on Tuesday, he came over to my place for dinner. Guess what, we fucked. THREE TIMES. He had a beautiful cock (just like everyone else except me, I gather), FANTASTIC body, and he was such a good top. You wouldn't believe it. Then we had dinner. And we went out: I was supposed to meet my friends, and he was supposed to meet his. So, we parted ways. He told me: "We'll keep in touch". And I was like: "Yeah right". I'm so worried I'll never see him again. You know how these things go. You fuck and then it's sayonara.

We just clicked. I'd love to sleep on his chest. But I'm not sure he felt the same. Sure, he must have liked me to fuck me three times. But you never know...

Plus, this thing about the feelings I'm developing. It's really stressing me. 'Cause I'm worried I'll get hurt. That's why I really had trouble cumming, the second and the third time we had sex. The first time: ok, I enjoyed it. By the second time, I knew I liked him more than just a fuck. And it had me worried.

4) So, in order to forget this guy, I fucked another guy yesterday. I met him and we just fucked. It kinda helped a little. At least I'm not feeling worse. The problem with yesterday's fuck was that the guy found some of my crap on his penis. I was MORTIFIED. It had never happened to me. He works as a nurse so apparently it was no biggie for him. I was so embarressed. I swear I cleaned myself before leaving my place. My friends told me this is very common. I didn't know that. Thank God it hasn't happened with Mark (the guy from above - the one I've a crush on). But still. So embarrassing

To be continued...

PS. I always have protected sex, both oral and anal.

 

[HunterM]

Don't worry. Be happy.

Don't worry on things you have no control over, like the size of your cock. If the chemistry/attraction is right for these two people, there are other sex acts that are satisfying. Confidence and playfulness are sexier.

Do keep in touch with Mark. If he keeps coming back, then you can find out whether he has feelings for you or not. You have to take a chance. What's the worst that could happen? NO, Mark does not want to be in a deeper relationship with you. And so...you move on.

 

[BlondeCanadian]

did the people who you hooked up with have dick pics in their profile? or was it a surprise?

 

[hotatlboi]

Perspective: You are bigger than these guys: http://www.zbufu.com/view_video.php?viewkey=1656496530

 

[altlover85]

I hope you said "yeah right" in a joking manner. Although generally I wouldn't say that to someone that I didn't know well. Sarcasm can be misconstrued sometimes.

Overall it sounds like things are pretty good. Just be wary of having sex with one guy to lessen the intensity of feelings for another one. It could develop into a bad coping mechanism.

 

[crubbed]

So I sent Mark a private message: last week we talked about him wanting to learn German and I told him I'd send him a course. So I sent him the link to download the thing. He read the message, but didn't reply.

Guess all is said and done. I must say I'm very sad. I know I had to expect it. But still. Why do we have to act as if we were dead? I mean, we are alive. We had fun, why can't we freaking repeat it?

That's why I couldn't enjoy the sex. I liked it so much but at the same time I thought "I must enjoy this at all costs, 'cause it's the last time I'm with this guy". OMG it's ridicoulus.

 

[HunterM]

Since I don't know you two, give him the benefit of the doubt. We all live busy lives. He received the information. Does he need to reply to you? Unless you asked a question for him to answer, some people don't think a reply is necessary.

Invite him out for a drink. Set a date for next week and ask if it works for his schedule. When you ask a question, then he knows it's up to him to respond to your message. If he's not responding after 3 days or more, follow up with another message or call him up (if you have his number). People who are passive need a little more encouragement to make the next move.

What's the worst that could happen? You will find out he does not want to see you again. So...you have your answer. So...you move on.

 

[Aymotin]

Mate, perhaps he is busy?

Leave it some time, on a weekend ask if he would like to go out, do things.

If yes: Yes
If no: Maybe sad, but you will find someone else to have fun with.

There is not only one person in the entire world you can "click" with.

Why do we have to act as if we were dead?

We dont have to, get ready, go out, have fun.

When I was still single I never met one guy twice (until I met my bf, what started as a normal sexdate). It was just a habit of me, nothing personal about the guys I met.

Don´t put to much effort in it, have fun and live your life. If it "clicks" on both sides : Jackpot. If not....keep on having fun and living.

 

[BlondeCanadian]

So I sent Mark a private message: last week we talked about him wanting to learn German and I told him I'd send him a course. So I sent him the link to download the thing. He read the message, but didn't reply.

Guess all is said and done. I must say I'm very sad. I know I had to expect it. But still. Why do we have to act as if we were dead? I mean, we are alive. We had fun, why can't we freaking repeat it?

That's why I couldn't enjoy the sex. I liked it so much but at the same time I thought "I must enjoy this at all costs, 'cause it's the last time I'm with this guy". OMG it's ridicoulus.

Try sending a follow up message like hey did that course help at all? or something i know i border on the rude side sometimes where if i get a message at an inconvenient time I will not reply then forget about it.. plus if he is gone it is too late to fuck anything up and if he isnt a follow up text wont hurt

 

[AlmondMilk]

Try sending a follow up message like hey did that course help at all? or something i know i border on the rude side sometimes where if i get a message at an inconvenient time I will not reply then forget about it.. plus if he is gone it is too late to fuck anything up and if he isnt a follow up text wont hurt

This is good advice.

And if it makes you feel better, my dick is smaller by a lot

 

[crubbed]

Thank you guys. I doubt he was busy. He was online the whole time, if he wanted to reply he could. And we all know the German course thing was just an excuse.

I'm just bummed that I was stupid enough to fall for this. I should have known better, it's just that he sent me mixed signals.

We met on a Friday, and we kissed. We kept pm-ing each other on Saturday and Sunday. He invited me out for lunch (not at his place). But he couldn't make it that day. Then we met on Tuesday and we fucked. My question is: why would he invite me to lunch if all he wanted to do was fuck?

This is a big issue for me: my very first guy was a guy I was in love with, and he knew it; he seduced me, he fucked me and then he disappeared in thin air. I cried so much. Then my first boyfriend was a long-distance relationship. It was so painful to say goodbye to him everytime I took a plane to go back to my country. It was awful to run my life without him. So to me this goes back to old unresolved issues.

I'm not looking for a relationship, I don't believe in relationships at this place in my life. What I'm looking for is fuckbuddies. People I can contact the minute I'm horny and fuck. But how can I manage to have some, if they all keep disappearing after the first fuck?

So, yesterday I met this other guy. He's a dancer. I am not really crazy about him, but he has such a great body. So we talked and talked and later we fucked. Guess what, he had a large penis LOL It's unbelievable, they're all like this, I swear.

I didn't feel like topping this time either. I mean, I see a large cock, the first thing I wanna do is put it in my ass. I mean, mine pales in comparison. But I know this is silly thinking. The point is that I'm anxious I'll lose my erection if I put on a condom. Hope that will change in time.