Thread of Nonsensical Ramblings

[JPGhost]

TROLLS!!

 

[JPGhost]

Have you ever hang out with someone you know; a friend, bf, family member, relatives; buying an ice cream and when it's about to choose the flavor. He/She takes a great deal of pause for choosing the right flavor.
Uhhhhmmmmmmmm.........

hmmmmm...

hmmmooo....uhhmm

in the end, they still choose based on popular flavor or flavor that you just ordered.

"I'll have what you have then."


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Indecisiveness/ lack of self-will is very common affecting us. It's totally understandable when we showing indecisive sign for the lack of interest but it's quite problematic for almost every subject of life. Heavily- indecisive people often dont have direction in their life and it's quite dangerous to be like that.

The opposite of indecisiveness is to be decisive. Determinate people are the opposite of them. Too much determination is to become ambitious and ambitious people usually are idealists- Why? because they listen to the beat of their own drum and they often prefer to be originals.

Now, speaking of idealist people. They could say "Nothing in this world is able to satisfied me." So much for originality. The problem is...if he caters to his own head 100% without an actual reward- in reality, he becoming unhappy and unhappiness could turning him to a looney. FYI it's worsen with age.
So, idealist and original people need "manifestation." They need to manifest their ideas- in physical world. WHether it's material, idea, feeling or creativity.
They need an outlet.

Like me for sample; since I was teen I have vision of how women dress is supposed to be. Whenever I go to the mall or department stores- I often found " No, this dress need more pizzaazz!!" This lacking this, this doesn't need that.." My brain can't stop analyzing them, from that grow my interest to fashion.

I often made a sketch in my class (instead of listening to my teacher) some fashion sketches and showing that to girl classmates. They liked my sketches but when Im thinking "am I gonna go to fashion major?"
I think Nah..I dont have much beef in sewing. In fact I dont like tedious job- fashion is just too nitty gritty to me. But I have my own style, I have my vision! ^^

Time goes by..
and finally- since 2009 I notice fashion industry getting closer- and- closer to my favorite looks, they're getting refined each year (IMO) 2010 Im glad I knew about Alexander McQueen and Thierry Muggler and thanks to Gaga to bring me to them.
I love their costummy- glam-futurustic-avant garde look. Thanks to Balmain to bring those elements to casual wear.
But Im not all about structure- I also appreciate flowing dresses, texture, cut and especially color..
Was in awe for Ellie Saab in 2011
And now..I accidentally found him- where is he? From all these years? ^^

Stephane Rolland.

If Im a woman's clothing designer- I might make similar stuff like him. I might add few knick-knack finishing touch but overall- he has my brain. HE IS what I call manifestation of my fashion interest.

I bowed and grateful to him to make my taste happening!

His spring 2014 couture dresses are structural- futuristic- clean design and flowing altogether...
Idk what how he did that? The results were truly fantastic.

I looked back his previous designs from years before, and I still like them whereas McQueen I still have like and dislike to his dresses. Now! He's not only manifesting but he's also consistent. What could I asked more? ^^

He's a Leo-

Done in woman's fashion- not yet in men's fashion, the best remix I ever listen, the best body I could fap, automotive (just having interest recently since they're getting awesome every year, not like 90's car ) the best travel destination and of course ...THE MOST DELICIOUS FOOD IN THE WORLD

Let them all manifest!

 

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His spring 2014 couture dresses are structural- futuristic- clean design and flowing altogether...

++ billowing, fluffy, majestic, regal, grandeur... just like:

http://www.exoticfishfacts.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/11/Halfmoon-Betta.jpg

and..

 

[JPGhost]

TBH, Im not a fan of celebrities wearing couture gown. 'heard Mariah Carey has hobby to modified designer dress by herself and then returning the damage borrowed.
http://jezebel.com/the-celebrities-who-lose-steal-and-damage-borrowed-de-486137380
^
bad Mariah

They often think they're all that- and the dress must follow whatever taste they like. THAT'S NOT HAPPENING THAT WAY! DO IT according to fashion show!

I kudos for Gaga to "literally" brought runway look on the street.

and perhaps because her face and stature actually really high fashion.(Unconventional beauty)

^that for covering her eyes from semen, you know..sudden facial attack

But many celebs DIDN'T borrow the dress accordingly. Sometimes they borrowed gorgeous dress that's unflattering to them, different size but they custom fitted the dress to fit their posture. They bought it because they just think that dress is cute- which is a very misleading way to shop.

They also often paired the dress with wrong hairdo- jewelries, make ups, shoes ,etc.
I.e Katy Perry:

This dress is suitable for women who looks like a bird/swan/phoenix; a very tall and slender women to handle the dress extreme silhouette.

But Perry; she's more firm and athletic, not to mention she paired that haute couture dress with a WRONG hairstyle x_x and I dont know what she mimed in that pic?- She must be performed her mediocre top-40 hits...double whammy downplaying that dress, a blasphemous act I must say.
http://www.ccxtfb.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/12/20131221_52b5f0a8bebc2.png

Kim in another sample. She's actually has a good taste. Her husband too.

But she was born with conventional 'voluptous' beauty that is not match for high fashion+ She's short. Just like fashion police said:

Kim K in Stephane Roland,
I’m so sorry Kim you are so beautiful but this was a no no, when you where a gown fresh of the run way its clear the gown is made for a coat hanger straight and up and town and tower tall, a beautiful curvy girl like you doesn’t work. But I like the risk taking.

http://nektariacreative.blogspot.com/
Agreed. In positive note- she wore her hair simple and elegant like that with the right accessories.

If you're not flat chested and skyhigh tall, what do you get when wearing this dress?

"Are my boobies out?" Yes they are

 

[The Fly]

Do you realise that "unconventional beauty" means ugly as fuck but no-one has enough balls to tell you?

 

[JPGhost]

^
that's so mean for me unconventional beauty means...kind of un-fapable.

 

[JPGhost]

Im SICK SICK SICK! Of my early 20's.
Especially for that era of music -_- It was the era of HIP HOP!
Im sick of them songs on the radio, 50 cent; rapper this, rapper that.

If Hip Hop wasn't played and there came FUGLY Punk Rock Bands like Fall Out Boys...DOWN DOWN DUDIDUDUDAM...SUGAR GOING DOWN SWINGING..

KILLL MEEEE!!!!

My prom night played Usher-"Yeah-Yeah-Yeah." I hate that song.

'Switch to dance station- FUGLY dance tracks too!!! x_x
What good around that time? Beyonce egged good tracks unlike now.
'Cuz I have a bad day nanananan..sing a sad song, You're beaoootifuuuulll!!! and Coldplay.

Ok. If Im sounded ungrateful, then yes I was! My youth blossoming in the era of not-so-good music and I felt wasted. Music started getting better since 2009- that's when hipster movements started but before I got headache much and can't jam to any of those songs- seriously, my body can't lie if I dont like what I heard. So- I went surfing for indie-youtube channel, to find non-mainstream music. First I found TammySzu- being hooked up ever since..
And I notice 2010-2011 HAS THE BEST!!! indie-underground electronic music..period. EVER!!^^
I think this channel still consistent with RetroWave- difficult to get the exact station out there.
http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCc2NzEjxuzPheYOCV9msA3A

Retro Wave like; Breakbot, Tesla Boys, Barretso, Fear of Tiger, Jensen Sportag..they're not famous- that's good

Thank GOD for 80's synth revival!
Thank GOD for French House- music. Thank GOD for ITALO DISCO! ^^

If you're not familiar to what that is? - Lady Gag "Do what you want" actually has similar tune with Retro-wave-. She's pretty late to snatch that genre in 2013. While she was busy with pops- from 2008-2012.

 

[JPGhost]

Around 2012-2013- Indie Electronic switched to more downtempo, simple beat, getting alot of 90's vibe, remixing many hip hop works from early 90s
i.e: Azalea Banks, Grimes and The Wekknd- which tune later copied by Bey&Jay in "Drunk in Love" I listened to the Weeknd long way before he became famous.
Eton Messy is the channel.
Sometimes they get really dark ambient- witch house they say...dark wave- recently Lorde brought the tune to mainstream ears, to make it more pop/digestable. Otherwise too much ambients/noises sort of wanna hypnotize you. @_@

From 2011-early 2013. Pop Music finally blend with electronic, everywhere you go you hear Pop Dance Anthem..like music to be play on Arena. HI-ENRGY! Crazy Auto tune abuse..by B.E.P, LMFAO, J-LO, FLORAIDA, PITTBULL, Nicki Minaj, Katy Perry "FIREWORK"

this is the campiest I can get from that period

^
they are GARBAGE!!!! I must say Those musics were made for entertaining adolescents.

Not only that- around that time was the dying of hip hop.. eversince every new hip hop/R&B crossover switched to Pop Dance like Nicki Minaj, Jason Derulo, etc..There is one radio station used to be a BIG Hip Hop station in my city: Cube93, on that time they played Nicki feat Justin Bieber So death... but they dont have a choice.

 

[JPGhost]

And finally 2013- and still until now...the era of Mountain Man- ^^ Idk what genre it is..but them Mumford and Son- I'll be there I'll be there for you!! You belong to me, I belong to you..sweetheart! Heyyyyy...brother...T_T
^
WHat kind of songs are that? Sounds foreign to me..make me fell like stranded on mountain cabin with a bunch of rural mountain man. And also...very-very white and sort of beardy
It's the opposite of 2004-2007, those days when hip hop and high life reigns and also very black. This is the opposite- it's very........thrift store, more modest and humble.^^

Im not really loving that tune..for once, they're ok but it just sounds really strange- like they brought folk music from Ireland/Scotts? to become pop?

However, little indie band still brought fire from retro wave but more 'rockish' that's why they've been undetected by me even when they started in 2010 since I always listen to dance-version.

The Naked and Famous [ww)
them and Lorde put me RESPECT! To New Zealanders

This is their genre according to wiki: Post-punk revival, indie rock, indie pop, synthpop, indietronica, noise pop, nu gaze
Young Blood- like a breath of fresh air in this era of ugly music. I knew them pretty late (2013) from my lil-sis (she went to their concert, lucky bastard -_-) because my sis listen to rock-alternative.

^
I declared that as..the most beautiful song in 2010
And..Phoenix from French actually turned to be a beautiful band, Passion Pitt too.
I group them all with Ellie Goulding- even though she's less rock and more electronic- they're the best legacy from 2012-2013.

And...with confident I declare Wake Me Up/ Avicii as the song of the year for 2013

That song brought the tune- to mainstream and practically everywhere . have you gotten sick yet? ^^

If you dont like what you listen on your radio- go on music hunting- sometimes the reward is big..like I know exactly what music I like...it's become your musical taste. And maybe to be true; there is no era with ugly music because music is relative opinion. The good thing to live in postmodern era- we have gazzilion of choices/options to choose. But it makes me wonder What's next for 2014? What would it be..the new trend of music?

 

[JPGhost]

And perhaps because Im too picky for music, that's why I never go to concert Money always fly somewhere else..but never on concert.
If only there is a multi concerts event like Burning man festival/ Lollapalooza/ Lilith fair, Jingle Bell bash, etc THAT play all artist on my playlist and they only PLAY the songs I LIKE

>>>not gonna happen, that's why No concert for me! ^^

Nice

 

[JPGhost]

Masculinity and Attraction; The Gays we are

Gay man are like insects ...attracted to masculine light. We're attracted to character, look, beauty and the ideal product of "masculine."

We are a bunch of insects variety.

Fly= a regular gay bloke with little or less to offer

Flies= A bunch of them
The flies may have variation of preference- some just ok with looks (me) some need characters and look, some love guys who can perform some demand EVERYTHING must be luminous!
I have ONE thing really IMPORTANT to SAY!!:
If you're a fly- a gay guy with discriminative nature and desperately drawn to light (whatever you ideal is) you better take a note for yourself..."LOOK AT YOURSELF" in the MIRROR?!
If you drawn to 'popular' market and wanting to buy, you better have money/exchange. Because every desire; just like food you eat, need an exchange. Desire isn't free...if you start with desire- you gotta payback him later..It's true, whether concrete/emotional/ some expense will be charged from you.

There are some flies who think they're shit and they can order.

Artificial light=

Who's the light?^^ Gay guys who can date anyone they like because they're genetically/self-made luminating themselves on the surface...they're still 'some' type from people's preference (very minor) but they rarely experience deficit, stock market never down. Some race notoriously reach the 'light' status faster/at ease..creating mess- that's common It's difficult to separate masculinity with artificial light just like a well blend sugar in the water. How about a luminous-seductive fem boy? Or a grande bright- leotard master?
Well, they can be whatever they want to be but they're definitely NOT the LIGHT in reality -_-

 

[JPGhost]

Fireflies=

Of course there is another type of gay guys: The luminners ^^ (Oh they're not a band!) but these are the type of guys I mentioned above- who seek beyond the surface-outlook..sometimes they get an average fly, sometimes a fat moth, pocket fruit fly, etc..I just exagerating. but THEIR DESTINY is to mate with another firefly IT's their life purpose! Are you a firefly? ^^
Could you emanating light from yourself? Im using shape-shifting metaphor..in this insects-gay man analogy...we could be any of those!
Of course fireflies also attracted to the light but being fireflies, they don't need artificial light as much as the other insects; as it making them difficult to mate (distracted) They're glowing inside and they're mostly faithful

and there are geckos..geckos aren't necessarily attracted to light but they come to them because they're attracted to insects...they appreciate insects more than light..these are the guys with having rule of attraction different than others but still- whatever their attraction type is ..still superficial.

Spiders= gay serial killer
Hmm...what is spider?

Interesting fact:
light and flies usually date themselves than one another, that's common. Flies usually get burned if they're too close with artificial light. Fly sometimes refuse to date another fly because they think other flies are ugly.

Oh! and what about LED light? LED light emanating brilliant light but I heard they dont attract insects?
LED light is like...a light whose too full for himself and rather appear too repulsive/unattractive to other insects..and that makes them alone
But LED light..I believe still attract something..^^ maybe their kinds?

* So, even if you're a luminous fireflies whose un-judgemental to others but is that treatment also happening to you? Of course not..Your virtue and endurance being tested EVERY single DAY! It's easy to lose your light and just drawn to artificial light.

Like I said earlier: Flies usually get burned if they're too close with artificial light. It's a destructive power. You can say whatever- sure -_-

Ok, so back who am I? I am a fly , Im no different than gazzilion flies in the world.
I wanna say Im fireflies but I can't glow from the inside, so I won't pretend ^^
That's why I dont think Im special or anything- at least in 'relationship' category.

Maybe someday I could become a firefly

keep on dreaming...

 

[Harke the Boeotarch]

Flies aren't into light, they're into feces.

Now what does that say about the masculine persons that homosexuals crave?

 

[JPGhost]

Re: Masculinity and Attraction; The Gays we are

Sometimes twinks just have it
http://xhamster.com/movies/2319033/open_holes_1_gaping_asshole_compilation.html?embed=view

ya know..

 

[JPGhost]

Flies aren't into light, they're into feces.

Now what does that say about the masculine persons that homosexuals crave?

Idk..make your own theory then ^^

 

[Harke the Boeotarch]

Idk..make your own theory then ^^

Try this dating idea inspired by insects. Mimicry. It worked miracles for me, but requires a little effort.

 

[JPGhost]

^
when I include your theory in mine, I think they're not fit.
Because those night insects are totally from different species- although mimicry could happen in between them but once a fly- he's a fly for life. The light- could downgrading themselves to become insect. But the fly-and tiny bugs are still the same- no matter how many hours they spend on the gym.

 

[Harke the Boeotarch]

They look like the bugs they want to attract and catch them.

 

[JPGhost]

^
I know what you thinking and it's not difficult to think like that.
However ^^
Once a fly you're always a fly
I just knew who invented workout P90 from Inside edition- he's a tiny guy.
http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/c/c6/Tony_Horton_and_fans.jpg
Yes he's healthy but his frame is never be like this:

'cuz he wasn't born that way.
Even his pupils have better frame: this guy is taller and studlier when standing next to him:

and thank cod Im not born with this frame

could' be my worst nightmare...

sweet dream for their admirers, not to me personally.

 

[JPGhost]

Well..to clarify things in my theory:

Fly='still a regular gay bloke with little or less to offer and they never be too attractive, if they're really attractive they becoming "artificial light" because BOTH operate like stock market- buy and sell. They are basically SELFISH and hardly motivated by heart.

Fireflies could be attractive/unattractive physically- they operate from "heart" /with heart-reason. WE ALL WANT a guy who is kind and also good looking but the reason artificial light "burn" because the flies/insects thought that artificial light as non dangerous which actually they are and many insects fooled by the appearance- they thought art.light as their soulmate.

Fireflies are safe and I personify them as faithful and loving kind gay man which are getting rare..everyday.