JOHN B
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A friend of mine moved to Toronto to go to school up there about 6 years ago. He invited me up there to visit during his first year there. I had never really traveled out of Ohio in most of my adult life. I have since been to Toronto about once a year for the last six years. Twice the year he married his boyfriend up there and I was his Best Man.
Ever since my first visit there, I felt I had found "Home". I don't know if any of you have ever visited a place and felt "this is where I belong". Have you? When I went there; and every time I go there; I finally felt at peace. I forgot all about my personal problems and felt so RELAXED. As if I was "back where I belong" even from my first visit there. I've had vacations before, but I always seemed to bring my problems and worries with me on them. I am now obsessed with Toronto and being able to go there as much as possible. About once a month I even go on to YouTube and watch peoples vacation videos from there. I see familiar buildings on them and feel homesick. Homesick for a place I did not grow up in, and have only visited about once a year.
I never have liked Ohio very much as an adult, though I grew up in Ohio and came back here for college and then settled down here. I would sell my soul to move there (Toronto) and even joined JUB hoping to make contacts up there other than my friend. That way I could keep a connection up there and visit more often. But in my two years here I have yet to even make any friends off this site, oh well, that's another thread.
Plus it takes money to move, of which I have very little.
But I do have to ask myself if my problems (insecurities, social loner TRYING to not be, money problems, etc....) would really go away or just follow me. Here in Cleveland I have given up trying to meet guys. I have gotten to the point where I go to work, come home, and jump on-line, usually here to JUB. I tell myself that if I moved to Toronto all that would change. It's a big city with lots of bars, bathhouses, and even Church street, which is a large gay community. Cleveland is a dead city, and even Lakewood, a supposedly "gay city" is nothing compared to Toronto. When I was in Toronto guys would check me out on the street (never here), the city was open late (lakewood practically shuts down at sundown), people were MUCH friendlier in general, and I felt I really belonged.
Or-----am I just imagining this. Could Cleveland/lakewood be like that for me here if I got off my computer and gave it ANOTHER try? Maybe EVERY large city is like Toronto, and I just haven't been able to explore other options.
But all this may even be a moot point, because I've been exploring the issue of moving to Canada and realized that it is a very difficult and expensive process. One that I can't afford right now, nor have the ties to that area to help me get my foot in the door. If anyone reading this HAS moved fron the United States to Canada/Toronto, can you please let me know how easy/difficult it is. How did you do it?
Well that's it for now. Thanks for letting me vent and ramble on as I did. Please give me some feedback if you can....
Ever since my first visit there, I felt I had found "Home". I don't know if any of you have ever visited a place and felt "this is where I belong". Have you? When I went there; and every time I go there; I finally felt at peace. I forgot all about my personal problems and felt so RELAXED. As if I was "back where I belong" even from my first visit there. I've had vacations before, but I always seemed to bring my problems and worries with me on them. I am now obsessed with Toronto and being able to go there as much as possible. About once a month I even go on to YouTube and watch peoples vacation videos from there. I see familiar buildings on them and feel homesick. Homesick for a place I did not grow up in, and have only visited about once a year.
I never have liked Ohio very much as an adult, though I grew up in Ohio and came back here for college and then settled down here. I would sell my soul to move there (Toronto) and even joined JUB hoping to make contacts up there other than my friend. That way I could keep a connection up there and visit more often. But in my two years here I have yet to even make any friends off this site, oh well, that's another thread.
Plus it takes money to move, of which I have very little. But I do have to ask myself if my problems (insecurities, social loner TRYING to not be, money problems, etc....) would really go away or just follow me. Here in Cleveland I have given up trying to meet guys. I have gotten to the point where I go to work, come home, and jump on-line, usually here to JUB. I tell myself that if I moved to Toronto all that would change. It's a big city with lots of bars, bathhouses, and even Church street, which is a large gay community. Cleveland is a dead city, and even Lakewood, a supposedly "gay city" is nothing compared to Toronto. When I was in Toronto guys would check me out on the street (never here), the city was open late (lakewood practically shuts down at sundown), people were MUCH friendlier in general, and I felt I really belonged.
Or-----am I just imagining this. Could Cleveland/lakewood be like that for me here if I got off my computer and gave it ANOTHER try? Maybe EVERY large city is like Toronto, and I just haven't been able to explore other options.
But all this may even be a moot point, because I've been exploring the issue of moving to Canada and realized that it is a very difficult and expensive process. One that I can't afford right now, nor have the ties to that area to help me get my foot in the door. If anyone reading this HAS moved fron the United States to Canada/Toronto, can you please let me know how easy/difficult it is. How did you do it?
Well that's it for now. Thanks for letting me vent and ramble on as I did. Please give me some feedback if you can....