So my best guy friend, who happens to be gay as well, and I have the weirdest most complicated relationship. It started out with me liking him and he was sort of weirded out by me because people who I thought were my friends were filling his head with untrue rumors and stuff. We also unkowingly happened to have a thing with the same guy somewhat simultaneously. So he definitely didn't like me then. Then we started hanging out, and we actually became really good friends. One day we completely opened up and told eachother everything, then finding out about the guy who had a thing with us both and how he sort of fucked us over. Anyways, time goes by and we get closer and closer.
By this point I'm convinced I don't have feelings for him anymore. Then he starts seeing this guy and I freak out and don't know what to do. So he notices and confronts me about it and I basically said I thought I didn't have feelings for him anymore but I guess I do and blah blah. So we worked that out and I learned to deal with this boyfriend. I mean, we're both young so it's not like he was going to marry this guy and it defnitely wasn't serious. He talked to me more and hung out with me more than this guy. So time goes by and I could care less about his bf. Meanwhile, he and I hung out on Halloween and things made a big turn. We got really horny watching porn (which is something we always do together)...and I was wearing sweats, so I thought, why not sort of show him my boner! So he saw it through my pants. I caught him looking at it a few times. I even showed him a pic I took of my cock on my phone. Then we were talking about how he wanted to have sex with someone how his boyfriend was lame and whatever. Then after that night, the next day I saw him again and he was sort of all touchy with me. It was weird. So basically I realize that I still have feelings for him, but this time they were different. I'm not talkin love here, I mean like before I was always stressed and worried about him but now I'm happy and am just going with the flow.
He started telling me things and saying things to me he would have NEVER said to me. So time goes by and we get closer and closer with our friendship. Everytime we hung out, we would always sit really close together, our legs and shoulders touching, etc. We tell eachother EVERYTHING. We talk on the phone for hours every night. He says he talks to me more than anyone. We both sort of said that we were best friends and its kinda funny how things ended up from the way they were before. So last week, he broke things off with his "bf"...
The weird thing is that he always is so flirty and talks to guys that are into him. Of course he gets into it and gets horny off it, but he says it's just words and he's not actually going to do it. I know it's true. But yeah it's just weird. He knows it upsets me, too. Why would a best friend be upset by that?? Weird!
So this week we were talking and we discovered we have even more things in common with eachother (we literally love the same things. Like it's bizarre). I wanted to hang out with him, so he said he had to work on a paper for school, but I could help him
So today we meet up and like in my bedroom on my bed we were working on the paper and everything but the whole time were like super close with eachother. A few times he pretended to kiss me. Our faces were so close. We always would look over at eachother and just stare. He kept like pinching my nose and pushing my chin and pulling my ears and grabbing my legs. And he was singing showtunes with me and he was like holding my hand and like leaning into me and stuff. Then we get up and pretend like we're fighting and I like just hug him and he was like omg you hate me and i was like no I dont...and he never gives me hugs like that. All during this he was talking to some guy who I had a thing with who is now going to school on the other side of the country who keeps trying to talk dirty with him...but I was getting upset and he was like why are you upset nothing is going to happen were not even going to do anything I'm just seeing what he's saying and stuff. And I sort of do the same things with guys too. We both sort of play aorund with guys saying we want to hoook up and stuff but it never happens of course cuz we actually dont want to do it.
Anyways, it's just weird because I'm so confused. I showed him the pic of my cock again on my phone to be funny and he was like omg why are you showing that to me! lol and like it was funny and he was like its like you seeing my dick all hard and i was like it wouldnt be a big deal to me and whatever....and he was talking about his and saying stuff about it and i was like i have that too and he was like show me show me...but sort of joking...I dunno. It's like there is always so much tension between us. Not even necessarily sexual tension. Just weird.
My other best friend says we talk like we're boyfriends to eachother and we have the weirdest relationship. Because I always get so jealous of him talking to other guys and he does too. Like I started liking a guy in one of my classes and he and I started hanging out like everyday and my guy was getting so jealous and mad and like this other guy and I were just friends and we became good friends....so like he is just as bad as me with the whole jealousy thing. Why would a best friend be jealous of that???
WEIRD!!!
So yeah, it's confusing. I'm sure he knows I still have feelings for him. I always buy him presents when I go out of town. He says I'm the only friend of his who gets him things. I got him a huge gift for Christmas. It's just basically like we're together except for the fucking....
My friend thinks he likes me but for some reason isn't admitting it or doesn't realize it or something. It's jus a reallly bizarre friendship. I love where I am in it though, because though I'd like for him to finally be with me, I still have a best friend who I know will be in my life forever.
What is everyone's opinions. There are a lot more details but I'm too tired to type it all plus it's long enough already!!!
What should I do??? I'm not going to give up and I'm going to be patient, even if it never turns into anything. I just am going to stay positive and stay optimistic and hope for the best.
Thanks in advance for reading this long post!!!!
By this point I'm convinced I don't have feelings for him anymore. Then he starts seeing this guy and I freak out and don't know what to do. So he notices and confronts me about it and I basically said I thought I didn't have feelings for him anymore but I guess I do and blah blah. So we worked that out and I learned to deal with this boyfriend. I mean, we're both young so it's not like he was going to marry this guy and it defnitely wasn't serious. He talked to me more and hung out with me more than this guy. So time goes by and I could care less about his bf. Meanwhile, he and I hung out on Halloween and things made a big turn. We got really horny watching porn (which is something we always do together)...and I was wearing sweats, so I thought, why not sort of show him my boner! So he saw it through my pants. I caught him looking at it a few times. I even showed him a pic I took of my cock on my phone. Then we were talking about how he wanted to have sex with someone how his boyfriend was lame and whatever. Then after that night, the next day I saw him again and he was sort of all touchy with me. It was weird. So basically I realize that I still have feelings for him, but this time they were different. I'm not talkin love here, I mean like before I was always stressed and worried about him but now I'm happy and am just going with the flow.
He started telling me things and saying things to me he would have NEVER said to me. So time goes by and we get closer and closer with our friendship. Everytime we hung out, we would always sit really close together, our legs and shoulders touching, etc. We tell eachother EVERYTHING. We talk on the phone for hours every night. He says he talks to me more than anyone. We both sort of said that we were best friends and its kinda funny how things ended up from the way they were before. So last week, he broke things off with his "bf"...
The weird thing is that he always is so flirty and talks to guys that are into him. Of course he gets into it and gets horny off it, but he says it's just words and he's not actually going to do it. I know it's true. But yeah it's just weird. He knows it upsets me, too. Why would a best friend be upset by that?? Weird!
So this week we were talking and we discovered we have even more things in common with eachother (we literally love the same things. Like it's bizarre). I wanted to hang out with him, so he said he had to work on a paper for school, but I could help him
So today we meet up and like in my bedroom on my bed we were working on the paper and everything but the whole time were like super close with eachother. A few times he pretended to kiss me. Our faces were so close. We always would look over at eachother and just stare. He kept like pinching my nose and pushing my chin and pulling my ears and grabbing my legs. And he was singing showtunes with me and he was like holding my hand and like leaning into me and stuff. Then we get up and pretend like we're fighting and I like just hug him and he was like omg you hate me and i was like no I dont...and he never gives me hugs like that. All during this he was talking to some guy who I had a thing with who is now going to school on the other side of the country who keeps trying to talk dirty with him...but I was getting upset and he was like why are you upset nothing is going to happen were not even going to do anything I'm just seeing what he's saying and stuff. And I sort of do the same things with guys too. We both sort of play aorund with guys saying we want to hoook up and stuff but it never happens of course cuz we actually dont want to do it.
Anyways, it's just weird because I'm so confused. I showed him the pic of my cock again on my phone to be funny and he was like omg why are you showing that to me! lol and like it was funny and he was like its like you seeing my dick all hard and i was like it wouldnt be a big deal to me and whatever....and he was talking about his and saying stuff about it and i was like i have that too and he was like show me show me...but sort of joking...I dunno. It's like there is always so much tension between us. Not even necessarily sexual tension. Just weird.
My other best friend says we talk like we're boyfriends to eachother and we have the weirdest relationship. Because I always get so jealous of him talking to other guys and he does too. Like I started liking a guy in one of my classes and he and I started hanging out like everyday and my guy was getting so jealous and mad and like this other guy and I were just friends and we became good friends....so like he is just as bad as me with the whole jealousy thing. Why would a best friend be jealous of that???
WEIRD!!!
So yeah, it's confusing. I'm sure he knows I still have feelings for him. I always buy him presents when I go out of town. He says I'm the only friend of his who gets him things. I got him a huge gift for Christmas. It's just basically like we're together except for the fucking....
My friend thinks he likes me but for some reason isn't admitting it or doesn't realize it or something. It's jus a reallly bizarre friendship. I love where I am in it though, because though I'd like for him to finally be with me, I still have a best friend who I know will be in my life forever.
What is everyone's opinions. There are a lot more details but I'm too tired to type it all plus it's long enough already!!!
What should I do??? I'm not going to give up and I'm going to be patient, even if it never turns into anything. I just am going to stay positive and stay optimistic and hope for the best.
Thanks in advance for reading this long post!!!!
