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Trials Of His Generous Love

Why is it when you get into a serious relationship other people seem to come out of no where and want you
??....I know I am not the only one in a serious relationship this is happening to.....am I?
 
Ambrocious,
It sounds like you have had a life-changing experience of conversion.

The Elder must be quite hypnotic.

I'm a life long Catholic. I am moderately active in my parish.

I am of an age and from an age that says I am meant to be a living, breathing, THINKING, individual, and not blindly follow any "dictates".

I truly believe that is what our Lord Father wants us to be. He Wants us to question, to challenge, then to come to him on our joint terms in the full embrace of His Love.

A Catholic priest, born and raised Jewish, wrote a book, How to disagree with the Church and still be a Faithful Catholic. Even without reading the book, it tells a voluminous story.

I also happen to love the Joshua series by Girzone, another Catholic priest who retired early due to health concerns. His books are admittedly a bit simplistic, but their child like faith in "What Would Jesus Do" is refreshing and enlightening in our complex world.

I have had this discussion on more than one occasion -- Is homosexual behaviour normal? YES! Is it "the Norm"? No.

I point you to our wonderful statistical bell curve, and the 80:20 rule that virtually everything in our wonderful world, aka Pareto's Theorem, seems to follow.

Put malesness - femaleness on an axis and plot people -- plot women on a separate chart from men. "The Norm" is the sexuality that is represented by people falling +/- 1 standard deviation from the middle. That would be most heterosexual people. Advance in either direction, and you get bi then homo sexuals and aseual and homophobes perhaps headed in the opposite direction. (This is grossly simplified, since there are many characteristics that would need to be charted) They all have place under the bell curve. The true "deviants" are the ones who are beyond +/- 3 "sigma" (standard deviations)

I hope you find the peace and love you are looking for, wherever it leads you.
(*8*)
 
Thanks Don. I know that eventually he will be gone and I will be sad. I joined not just blindly though. I have had faith in God for pretty much all my life and so I joined to gain more knowledge and perhaps to understand love more in aspects that I was unsure of. So far it has been worth it and my bouts of sadness are usually done away with sooner than I can hope for.

On one possitive note, I got to see a pic of him without his shirt on...and for some reason even though he knows I'm gay he still showed me. Sadly I couldn't keep it.

The next part of this story is hopefully coming soon if I can find some time to write it. Thanks for understanding. Most would read what I wrote about what I chose to do in life and shriek with anger/hatred towards religious stuff. I'm just happy your mind and heart appear to be open and understanding. If you were here I'd hug you.
 
Ambrocious said:
It's even worse when you can't actually do the actions like in this story due to certain life changing things. Despite the fact that I am a member of the LDS church now (dam those hot young elders!) I will still try and finish this story. I really do enjoy writing love stories...and the only love I have ever and probably will ever be able to relate with is gay love.

CALL IT POETRY:

Oh the pain in the suffering of a man when he loves a man; his heart has leapt from the dust and into a pit of sorrow. Even unto sadness his life has caused him regret yet his love for him is strong but unquenched it has been so far. In as much as life is uncertain, this is the ways of life. We live, we die, we see things in our lives and often if we are lucky we allow our selves to love. For if it were not for love, I would not desire to live. And if the man I seek is there, so be it that he loves me as well, I will do as must needs be and keep in heart that which must be done and love him as must take place. For this reason I am here to live and if love is meant to be denied, it would be as if I should have never lived at all.

In desperation and in an unkind world we should put our self through, it is a choice of my own to fight without anger and through down myself and try to be as that which would cause me to live. Even as the one whom I love, yes him who has drooped me into the watery pit and I came forth and saw him holding me, I have in me this understanding that it is love that keeps me in agony and in peace. This man which walks his life for God, this man I walk beside because of my love that is not to be so and he knows of it; in speaking to him and expressing it, even he knows that I do love him.

Should we decide who we should and should not love? Would it be correct to not love him who walks for another cause simply because it is considered wrong? If it were not for my love for him, the life I have now would not be and in fact, alive I would not be. By the twist in my heart I have found myself pouring out to him who has fed me with his love, as I have confessed unto him, he has held me as a brother yet MORE I seek from this man. I have made all my feelings known to him, yes even as my desires for he and I, and he has not yet departed from me as a friend. Is this worth it? Never able to have fully him which I have grown so close to? It is the way of my current times in which I love that which I could never have.

Only it is now that I seem to be led to suffer so that amplified all love will be when in the near sight of my life, reaching out far, maybe there is hope of love. Yet this man, the Elder which I love, he has trapped me in between his good, my love, and that which is forbidden. With sadness I know that he will move on and life as I have now may wither and droop. His face will remain in my heart as the man whom I loved without sex...for the love we all desire most is the love which we never can have. This is my life.


(Attachment is the Elder I speak of)
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Oh he's very nice looking...My problem is I have had a thing for white guys for a while and have been given a few opportunities to have a "little"fun with a hot one but of course it had to be offered when I had just proposed to my now fiance...All that time I was single I did not get offers like the one I received from this guy!!...lol...I wish I could shack this fantasy of what would it be like with this guy but it haunts me like a ghost on Halloween!!Oh well guess I'll just write a song about it!

Ambrocious keep up the good work you are an writer's inspiration!!
 
See what happens when you are supposed to be in a committed relationship but don't talk? Lucas should have been kicked the f*%ked out the night before. Now there are a whole bunch of problems. But, maybe the writer is going to write Lucas into the story and they will have an agreeable 3 some. Who know? Could be interesting.
 
Please keep writing!
I want things to get better between Mark and Shawn. I can't believe Mark even said that to Lucas!
In the last story you said they'd stay together, so I'm really looking forward to what is coming next with Shawn and Mark.
 
Every relationship has bumps. I also said that they broke up also...we will see if my depression will ever go away or if it will lead me to the kitchen and to a knife.
 
Ambrocious,
Life is too great a gift to throw away. Don't even remotely entertain the second option.

There's a trite cliche' that says what doesn't kill you makes you stronger -- there's a reason it's a cliche' - it has a LOT of truth to it.

Think of your depression as a part of your tool kit. You can't understand why, yet, but it is there to help you fight against something in yourself that you may not like very much, and to help you grow beyond where you are now, and how you are feeling.

I'm not saying that the reason for the depression won't always leave a bit of an ache inside, but it will allow you to heal over time and become stronger for it

For more on suicide, I recommend that you read GSDX's (aka Neil) Best Friends Play Hard -- THEN continue on and read the "REDUX" that fans about demanded Neil write. It is an interesting and extremely poignant tale of two possible endings.

The reader posts are a vital part of these threads.

Remember what I told you before.

It's a beautiful day out there. The road might be a little bumpy here or there but YOU ARE Strong Enough to navigate it.

Take Care,
:wave: (*8*)
 
Ambrocious
i was just wondering if you were gonna be writing more of this story anytime soon ?
 
Not sure...I currently am next to homeless...so just whenever I got the time and proper mind set I suppose...then I'll either write it or be in a mental institution!
 
To All who have read Ambrocious' stories and follow up notes by him -- I urge you to send him a PM expressing your support for him - he might get an e-mail notification at some point.

The last I heard from him, he was searching, and I'm not sure if what he was finding is what he really needs.

Let him know you care about him and value him.

Thanks,
DonQ
 
I think I'm regaining my footing on life and hopefully soon...this story along with my others will be getting attention as they deserve from my mind. Been dying to write again and I hope that I truly am making a full recovery from my mental break down of sorts. Wish me luck!
 
Yay i cant wait. I love this story. It is great that you are getting a hold onyour life and that mental break down.

Looking forward to seing this story progress.
 
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