two questions about your gayness

[davy]

some of the lucky guys on the board knew they were gay before they could walk.

the rest of us unlucky bastards, had to figure it out later on in life. what was your moment of realization like and how did you take it?

i realized i was gay when i was 17 and i was so surprised, i actually blurted out: "wholly shit, i'm gay!" i was lucky my younger cousin didn't understand what that meant at the time.

for the next few days, i was elated to have figured that part of myself out.... totally on cloud nine.

anyone else care to satisfy my curiosity?

 

[Fucker29]

I realized I was "different" at a very young age. Of course I didn't know I was gay as I didn't even know what gay was. But I felt different. Probably around 13/14 I became more self-conscious about this and aware and I spent YEARS confused, sometimes thinking "I'm gay", sometimes thinking "I'm bi" and other times thinking "this is probably a phase". I tried to believe in the latter for years and years. Just recently, hence why I decided to become an active member of the forum here, I came to terms with what I was and started, gradually, accepting myself...this alone brought me an immense amount of peace, just knowing what I was.
I feel a certain attraction to women but I'm much MUCH more attracted to men, by far...I love boobs (tits usually turn me on quite a lot!) and the female body in general but the thought of actually fucking a pussy does nothing for me, doesn't disgust me but it simply does nothing for me. So, I'd say I'm gay...with a little hint of bi, if that makes sense.

It's good to know who you are but I'm also realizing that we shouldn't be stuck on rationalizing our sexuality through categories. Just LIVE your sexuality, whatever that is.

 

[sunoftheskye]

I knew I liked guys at about 5. I had a huge crush on my best friend in kindergarten. I do remember though, and this is one of my very earliest memories, being stunned when my mom was watching Young and the Restless and Joshua Morrow was on TV in a towel.

 

[davy]

I kinda find it weird and interesting how guys in their late teens just realize that they are gay as if the gay virus attacks them over night.

it sure is a lot like a virus, in my case. you hear about it first from others talking about it. then you start to wonder if you already have it. then it turns out you do have it. but you don't get to call in sick for it tomorrow.

I realized I was attracted to males and penises at about 13-14 when watching straight porn, but I was in denial. By 17 I accepted the fact something wasn't right for sure. lol

my parents were really old fashioned and successfully raised me to live in a world where sex didn't exist... at least until i was fifteen. i didn't know women even had vaginas until i was 16. so porn or dating would have been very difficult for me to get to.

 

[Unforgotten]

Honestly I think I was about 6-7 when I was realizing that I was looking at men in a way I "shouldn't" have.

Being raised in an all female family didn't help, and my mom's friend once left a playgirl lying around...that DEFINITELY didn't help!

 

[Spellbound]

Probably around 15 or 16.

 

[Fucker29]

Honestly I think I was about 6-7 when I was realizing that I was looking at men in a way I "shouldn't" have.

Being raised in an all female family didn't help, and my mom's friend once left a playgirl lying around...that DEFINITELY didn't help!

That reminds me of my brother's best friend. He used to really enjoy being naked and tease me by showing his ass, balls and sometimes his cock to me. He really liked to provoke me...that shit didn't help either but I didn't mind AT ALL. He was fucking hot! OMG what I would give to have him for one night only...he once grabbed my bulge too...I thought "is he bi? OMFG that would be fucktastic!"

 

[Fucker29]

I've known for awhile...but, i have no balls and ruined my highschool and university life being a closet case

Tell me about it. Talk about waste...

I still have 2 years ahead of me though...I intend to make the best of them.

 

[Soilwork]

Always knew I was gay.. knew I'd eventually come out.. hoped to settle down with someone eventually but wanted to be single and active for a while first.

Came out slowly starting with friends at 16 and then to everyone at 19.

 

[G-Lexington]

I was 19 or 20. Having gotten frustrated at not having been "knocked out" by a female yet, I thought, "Well, maybe I'm gay." I decided to find out. I went outside my dorm, sat on the bench, and waited for a hot guy to walk by for me to ogle.

I know. This sounds ludicrous. But truth be told, I'm simply not a visual person. I may as well be blind when it comes to "attractiveness". I have to literally consciously LOOK at something if I want to notice it.

So I sat and waited. I didn't have to wait long. A guy jogged by. Wearing only shortish black jogging shorts. Tanned, good build. nice. I cautiously watched as he jogged by, then checked out his ass a bit more blatantly after he passed me.

...and I sprung major wood. I'm surprised my jeans didn't rip open. I don't think I actually yelled, 'Holy shit, I'm gay" but I felt like I did.

I wasn't scared by it. Just a bit annoyed. I didn't totally embrace it for another year, mainly because I couldn't believe I jad simply not noticed I was gay for the last six or seven years.

Lex

 

[davy]

...

I've known for awhile...but, i have no balls and ruined my highschool and university life being a closet case

better late than never.

 

[Persian89]

It kinda was over some time for me, I knew I was looking at the guys in the porn movies way before I realized I was gay. I guess it sort of made sense after the first time I went out with a girl. I realized I never was comfortable with girls, and that's my story.

Same here...and I got really drunk with an older guy...

 

[DiverDude]

In second grade, this one guy was the hottest guy on the planet to me. I still liked girls, but he was just too cute.

Eventually, around middle school, I realized my fondness for guys was much much stronger than for girls, so that ended any chances of me being hetero. Finally came out at 19.

Oh, and the guy from second grade - still a hottie. He's in a frat at LSU now and I see him ALL the time.

 

[theatreboi]

I remember the first time I actually said it out loud. It felt amazing. I had never admitted it, even though I watched gay porn a lot. There's a whole story to my realization vs. my coming out, but I haven't the patience to type it now.

 

[Lightsage]

I was thirteen and realized women bored me. I just shrugged it off and decided I'd tell everyone later because it was near three in the morning.

A week later my sister decided she was bi and my entire family went into a frenzy. Needless to say that it screwed the idea of my coming out to them any time soon.

If they haven't figured it out by now they need to be hit on the head with an "I'm GAY" stick...

 

[Lasosa]

Growing up, I noticed that I looked at boys in a very different way than I looked at girls. As far back as I can remember, I always knew that I was gay. Coming to terms with that, however, was a completely different story. I dated girls in my teens to cover it up and eventually went on to declare myself asexual. I came out to my best friend when I was 16 and it took another six years before I found the courage to tell anybody else. I'm completely out now, though, and couldn't be happier.

 

[versatastic]

I've always known I liked boys since as long as I can remember. I was 4 and a half years old. My sister was 11 and always had friends over, both guys and girls. I was always too excited when her guy friends came over and even sprouted wood several times whenever a particular one of them was there. One afternoon, he split one of those twin popsicles with me. OMG, I wanted to marry him right then and there. I was never allowed to hang out with them too much, but it was ok because I found out how to masturbate pretty early. It's a good thing I didn't have any actual cum for another 5 years. Hehe, I would hide in the closet or under the bed and dry hump a pillow or a big stuffed animal while thinking about him and how big his penis was. I have a couple more stories about him, but I'll leave those for another time.

 

[Dduder]

It depends on the degree of gayness. Guys who are a little gay might be able to fake it until their late adolescence or early adult age, but the extremely gay guy who, at the age of 5, already liked dressing in his mother's clothes and confessed crushes on other boys probably don't ever need to realize that they are gay on their own, because other people will tell them before they hit the age of 10.

There was in the building I grew up this boy who everyone knew would be gay from a very early age. When he was 5 he entered the living room where his parents were watching T.V, together with two guests who also lived in the building, dressed in his older sister's clothes and announced that he was a princess and that he would some day marry a prince. His dad almost chocked on his pretzels. His dad was pretty homophobic and he started to take pills and drink because he couldn't stand the mockery of his friends over his so effeminate son. He eventually died in a car crash a few years latter, although no one knows if he was drunk. The boy is now 18 and is openly and extremely gay. He works at a salon as a manicure specialist and he is doing pretty well financially.

 

[D-Base]

I kinda knew I was gay when I was 12-13. When I realized that I liked my training partner a lot (he was 17 at the time) and I wanted to spend all day with him... later I developed the urge to hug and kiss him... etc. I didn't feel anything like that for any girl. I think he was my first love.

In time I just accepted it as it is, I came out out when I was 19.

Btw, nothing happened between us, it was just a fantasy I had but of course I realized I can't do anything about it...at least at that age.

 

[operafan]

No, aha! moment for me. Although all of the signs are there, and if you could hear me talk, no wonder everyone thought I was gay - god, I sound like a fag - I never had sex with a man until I was going on 30.