Lightsage
Wading in Light...
For almost two months now I've been telling myself that I'll stop coming here. That I'll delete my account and that will be the end of it. It's not true though. I've gotten too much out of being here for it to be that easy. Feeling the kind of regret that I would is not something I'd like to experience yet again.
Of course it's not as simple as that either. There are other reasons for me to stay and still others for me to go. I just don't know what I should do anymore. I can't even bring myself to go inactive because of this damn silly conflict I'm havin with myself. Though I should be used to being in conflict... It's the only thing that tells me I'm still alive when the end of the day comes.
The only thing I do know is that, after this, I won't be posting anything for a very long time. I doubt that I'll ever post again. It's not anyone's fault but my own and if some time down the road I finally decide I can say goodbye to all the great people here I will. Until then, I'll just say sorry and walk on down the road.
Of course it's not as simple as that either. There are other reasons for me to stay and still others for me to go. I just don't know what I should do anymore. I can't even bring myself to go inactive because of this damn silly conflict I'm havin with myself. Though I should be used to being in conflict... It's the only thing that tells me I'm still alive when the end of the day comes.
The only thing I do know is that, after this, I won't be posting anything for a very long time. I doubt that I'll ever post again. It's not anyone's fault but my own and if some time down the road I finally decide I can say goodbye to all the great people here I will. Until then, I'll just say sorry and walk on down the road.