I would definitely describe myself as in the closet. No desire to come out for various reasons. A couple of years ago, I found a make spa in town. Visited it a couple of times and had a good time, but was always scared about being found out. Decided to try it again but found it had closed. Found another one that's about an hour away from home. I live in a big city so I'm feeling pretty safe about that. I'm a little less nervous than last time when I get there. But something was definitely different here. I get a room, towel, and shower. Then I walk. And walk. There were about 20 guys there. Mostly older guys and they didn't really turn me on. I was surprised that not much was really happening. Just a bunch of guys walking around in towels. I was prepped for oral mentally but it just didn't happen. Maybe I'll check it out again next week, just hate to waste the time.









