Shadowclad86
Slut
Ok, so it has been a long while since I've written anything-two years precisely-in this blog. Being shy is a factor as to why I haven't attributed anything to this blog-however-another factor is that my nature is to keep things hidden, never spoken, and never written about. I never owned a Diary, Journal, or simply a notebook where I kept the slightest of personal feeling and littlest of thoughts.
I am an enormously Private Person. My own sister who I absolutely know everything about, who constantly comes to me for advice, and persistently tells me she is there for me to talk to has recently confessed to me that I am so ‘closed off to the world, but I already know that‘s you so I‘m use to it’. Hearing her say this sort of allowed a light bulb-that was being threatened with violently harm not to ever go off by my shyness and fear to open up defied them and did so-telling me something was not right with how closed and distant I am.
So taking sometime to think and after severely debate with myself on what to do-gladly without any known casualties-have decided to begin blogging. I believe by blogging, every so often, mainly every Friday or Sunday night I can allow myself to open up, let people in, and begin to live. Although I know many people will not see nor read this blog, I feel it will still do me some good and allow myself to begin unlocking and removing some chains so I may finally begin opening up.
I am an enormously Private Person. My own sister who I absolutely know everything about, who constantly comes to me for advice, and persistently tells me she is there for me to talk to has recently confessed to me that I am so ‘closed off to the world, but I already know that‘s you so I‘m use to it’. Hearing her say this sort of allowed a light bulb-that was being threatened with violently harm not to ever go off by my shyness and fear to open up defied them and did so-telling me something was not right with how closed and distant I am.
So taking sometime to think and after severely debate with myself on what to do-gladly without any known casualties-have decided to begin blogging. I believe by blogging, every so often, mainly every Friday or Sunday night I can allow myself to open up, let people in, and begin to live. Although I know many people will not see nor read this blog, I feel it will still do me some good and allow myself to begin unlocking and removing some chains so I may finally begin opening up.