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It is amazing how fast the weather can change. Just last week we were in shorts and it was hot and this week we are bundled up in long pants and sweaters. But it does feel good and refreshes the system to get cold after the heat of summer.

The leaves are turning colors finally and falling on the ground and blowing through the air as you drive along the little winding roads through our mountains. It is beautiful to see.

I love the sound of the crunching the leaves make when you step on them as you walk around.

Really busy day today and we sign some very important documents here at work today that will mean so much to our life and our vitality for generations to come. Quite an accomplishment for me and for our Board. I am very proud and feeling good as they say!!!!

I watched a movie last night called Denied. It was very good and was very painful to watch. Much of it reminded me of my youth and my thoughts about being gay and how hard that was to say. In fact so hard I never said it. The main character was a jock guy who was gay but of course could never admit that to anyone least of all himself. His whole life then was colored by this denial inside him. Wow.

This weekend is also a big weekend for us. Lots to do so I had better get at it.

peace to you all

 

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I was gone all day yesterday and didn't warn you guys. Sorry about that. I had a very early morning speech to give and then had to drive to Asheville for some unscheduled meetings which were good.

It was a gorgeous drive and I had WNCW pumping out the tunes and was singing and eating fresh apples that were so juicy and good.

I had a great lunch with a friend, meetings that were awesome and then a trip to Sam's Club and a stop for coffee at Starbucks. What more could a man ask for in a lovely day.

This weekend is going to be super busy so I had best get ready as it has already started and I have been up and setting up stuff since 6 AM. Now it is finally time for COFFEE!

Love you all and peace

 

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Its a beautiful Saturday and I have spent the entire morning proofing a new fantasy story which I just posted.

This one came out of my chance encounter with a young man this past summer in our hayfield and then again in my office. I just took it to the next level and share one of the many fantasies I had about Steve.

I hope you like it.

I am also almost ready to post another chapter in my continuing story MY Best Friend so I have been busy.

Nice and sunny today. Cool and crisp and very busy around here. The leaves are turning colors and falling all over the place. Last night the stars were out and it was a gorgeous night.

Have a good one and peace

 

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Wow what a beautiful day it is today and last night was stupendous! Nice cool crisp clear night with lots and lots of stars.

I went to a party out in the country last night. A dress up Halloween party. Mostly college age and seniors at high school and a few old farts like me were there. It was pretty cool actually to see all the great costumes people were wearing. I love costumes!

One guy was dressed like an American Indian and was wearing nothing but a loin cloth and he was so freaking HOT!!! Tall and thin and long blond hair. Long legs and shit I followed him around with my eyes all night long. It was so cold at the party and he never seemed to be cold. He had no shoes on just a loin cloth. I tired to scope out his crotch but never could tell much. His legs were incredible and he had these wonderful nipples. The girls were all over him all night long.

Bonfire going outside and hayrides all night long. It was great. Lots of beer and sodas and I could smell the scent of pot in the air. People were having fun dancing, talking and laughing.

I mostly watched others as I only knew a few of the people there. I am a people watcher. I came home early for them about 11 PM for me whcih is quite late. I had a great jerk off session imagining what it would have been like to pull that loin cloth off that young man and see what he had underneath. I shot a huge oad of great tasting cum.

Today was church and it was just OK. It is hard to describe what I feel in church to other people. I go for the meal. The Eucharist is what is so important for me. Sometimes the sermons are good and other times they aren't and today was a not so great day. But I feel refreshed and renewed and ready for a new day and a new week.

peace to you all today and always

 

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Bright sunshiny day on this the second day of sunshine in the AM because we are no longer on Day Light Savings Time. Not sure which I like better. Dark in the AM or dark at night.

But we had a really hard frost last night and this morning when I got up the ground was covered with frost and was white as far as the eye could see. It was beautiful.

I love the way then when the sun hits the frost its starts to melt it and you see the colors of whatever the frost is covering emerge.

Last night a friend stopped for a deer in the road and then another one just ran into his car. It was amazing. Lucky no damage really. Just a scrape. Deer and cars just don't mix very well.

Yesterday was so warm and beautiful here in our neck of the woods. Hopes your swas good as well.

peace to you all

 

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Sunny and cool but so nice and actually it looks to get pretty warm for this time of year later this afternoon.

Last night it was nice and cool and wonderful sleeping weather.

My old dog has not been feeling well lately and I think he maybe going downhill. He is 11 years old and apparently for a Golden that is pretty old. He has bad arthritis and has trouble getting up and down the stairs. What a great dog and a great friend he has been over the years. Hard to describe what it is like to always come home to someone who is glad to see you even if it because he is going to get a treat! His tail is wagging and he is smiling and wants a scratch and a pat. Wish we could all be more like our dogs!

peace to you all

 

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OK here it is Wednesday in another great week to be alive on this planet at least in this part of the world. The mountains have been gorgeous and the weather incredible.

I had my sliding glass doors open last night for sleeping and it was wonderful. Today more bight sunshine and warm outside.

Tonight is a Requiem Mass at Church for the souls of the departed this past year and forever I guess. It will be gorgeous with incredible music and singing by the choir and orchestra.

So hope you day is a good one and peace

 

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Today is another in this string of gorgeous fall days. Cool at nights and sunny and cool in the days. Lots of leaves are falling and the colors have been magnificent even thought it was predicted to be a bad season for colors here in the mountains.

Absolutely amazing service for All Soul's last night. Orchestra and choir and prayers and Eucharist and the reading of many, many names of those loved ones who have died but are still loved and remembered by those of us left here. WOW it was moving and the sermon was incredible. Brought tears to my eyes as well as many others I am sure.

Tonight I am going with a friend to Charlotte to see the Cirque du Soleil. I have seen it once before although it wasn't this particular show. I am looking forward to it. Last time I went I was amazed at what these people could do with their bodies and the live music is wonderful. Such incredible talent and movement and wow are they ever in shape!!!!

Hope you all are doing well today and peace

 

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I traveled 2 1/2 hours out of my mountain hide-a-way to drive to Charlotte to see the latest Cirque du Soleil called Varekai.

How do they do it?

How do human being stretch their bodies like that? No circus in your ordinary sense or at least as we Americans are used to it. Just humans and live music and costumes and acrobatics and WOW!

The star was so beautiful and I was in love with him instantly. He had such an incredible smile and his body - well his body was in shape to say the least. Lord God Almighty! He was in shape and the things he could do with a net were just not to be believed.

The music and the costumes were incredible and the whole show is fantastic. If you get the chance go! GO!

There were these two guys who were nothing but muscles but their smiles were heart warming. At the end one of them was standing right in front of me half naked and I was about ready to actually cream in my pants looking at his perfectly formed body. No pit hair, no body hair and these perky little nipples and muscles on top of muscles. I wanted him to take me home but alas it was not to be.

I wonder what it would be like to have sex with a person in that great shape??? I would have loved to have been given the chance to worship at his altar of love that is for sure. My group had no idea of my inner most thoughts looking at that guy and the others in the troop.

The sets were amazing and the costumes were just out of this world they were so beautiful and incredible the way they form fitted over those perky little asses! Oh shit I was dying!

Love you all and have a great Friday today

 

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Wow looks like another beautiful fall day here in the mountains today!

Lots of great colors for all those leaf watchers who are making their way up the mountain to our area to come and spend money and clog our roads and stop in the middle of the road to take a picture and duh there are cars behind you but you don't give a flying hoot about them its all about you and your damn picture!

It is amazing to me what tourists will do when they are away from home. They would never do those things when they are at home or would they? Anyway they come and go and we stay here and get to live and work and play and pray in this beautiful area. I am and we are truly blessed.

I watched the film Coming Out last night. An East German film dealing with homosexuality. Made me cry to think of all the times I have cried over being gay and how society has made me feel about being gay. I wept along with the main character as he struggled with who he was and how society saw him.

Why do I let society dictate to me how I feel. I often ponder that question but there is no real answer. It just does and I let it because I am not out and in my mind way back there in the dark recesses I still guess I think it is somehow not the right way to be but i know that is bullshit. It is who I am and it defines me and my life.

That is why I love to write my fantasy stories becasue inside them I can do anyhting and be anything and society can be anything I want it to be because it is my story.

Oh well what a ramble this AM and it is a great day to just get outside and take a walk and pick up trash or look at leaves or be with your lover if you have one.

Love you all and thanks for reading peace

 

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I have a few minutes before breakfast and church so here goes.

Last night I had the most real dream and I was visited by this young man who was so beautiful. He was gorgeous and perfect in every way. No body hair and his skin was so smooth. He has the nicest pubes but that was it. I remember touching his skin right above his pubes and running my fingers briefly into that forest of hair and making a comment about his smooth skin. I don't remember his dick but he lay directly on top of me and I squeezed his soft firm buttocks in my hands and then he was gone with the promise to return.

What was that all about anyway?

Way do we dream the things we do?

One would think I would dream about naked men all the time but it very rarely happens to me. I mean very rarely. Maybe because I think about them in my waking hours my brain is tired of naked men. ROTFL!

Any ideas of thoughts on the subject of dreams?

peace my friends dreaming or awake

 

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Fog was swirling around the valley this morning creating patterns in the sky that were fascinating to watch as I stood by the sliding glass door on my deck looking out on to the brand new morning.

Looks like another sunny day. Yesterday was downright warm really it was for November.

Had dinner at a friends house last night and we always have a good time laughing and joking and cutting up. Our relationship is that we do talk to each other in a weird way which I think bothers some folks. I was told I was being mean but my friend defended me and said no it is just the way we talk. Made me think though. Is it mean? I need toe examine my behavior in the future because the last thing I would want to be called is mean.

I guess sometimes we can be perceived as mean when we aren't but it all a matter of degree. Anyway it gave me a moment of pause and something to think about.

peace

 

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Not sure where the day went but it did and I apologize for my tardiness at my blog writing.

I don't have much to say today except to maybe talk about birthday wishes when you blow out candles. How did that custom start? Did someone actually wish for something and get it and then people believed him or her and they started to do it as well?

Strange custom. I have for the past 46 years or so always wished for the same thing and that is for a man to come into my life of course I am wishing for the real thing but it never happens even for one day or one hour. I am not really bummed about it but that has been my wish. Year after year after year.

My parents would say Tommy blow out your candles and make a wish and after the age of about 10 or so I would wish for the same thing. They had no idea and they would have croaked if they knew what I was really wishing for. They thought I was wishing for a bike or a toy or a car or something when I as wishing for a guy like Timmy Hamilton to come into my life. Oh well.

So any thoughts on that????

peace to you all who might have birthdays today or yesterday or last week and tomorrow.

Love you all and I do hope your birthday wishes come true.

 

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Here it is mid-week for most people.

I am going out of town tomorrow for a few days. Big meeting to attend. Birthday wish will be the same this year as last year. Maybe this year it will come true as I blow out those candles. LOL!

Saw Jarheads last night and it really makes one think about the whole war thing. "They" say war is a necessary evil and I guess "they" are right but I hate what it does to people. It turns them into killers and machines who follow orders because someone higher up in the chain of command tells them to. Because old men in Washington tell them to.

They talk about being gay all the time and wrestle with each other and do all kind of gay shit but of course they are so macho they can't admit it. They want girls friends desperately but mostly they have broken relationships and their unit is their life and their family.

They think they are so macho but they jerk off a lot just like me so i geuss we aren't so different.

I admit I just don't understand it. I guess I should be thankful there are those who will do what they do. So thank you I guess.

peace is what I pray for and maybe they do as well

 

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Thanks to all who have sent me birthday greetings today for my 57th year on this earth.

Truly a blessing to be alive. Oh yes I could and will wish for the man of my dreams to come along when I blow out my candles but if he should not appear then I will be thankful for all that I do have and not what I don't have.

Now I must leave for 3 days for meetings so see you when I get back!

Love you all and thanks again for making this day so special in so many ways.

peace tom

 

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I am back in the office and hope you missed me.

I had a great Birthday and a great meeting. I had to give a speech to about 400 people and it really went over well and they all seemed to like it and I got lots of applause, laughter and praise afterwards.

That of course does wonders for ones self-esteem!

Great weather and the leaves and trees were gorgeous.

I made my usual birthday wish this year as in the past but he hasn't shown up at my door yet! ROTFL! Maybe someday it will happen.

Got to get to work and catch up on all my buisness.

Love you all and thanks so much for all my birthday wishes. They made my day!!!!

peace

 

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Finally we have gotten some much needed rain. All night long a gentle rain fell with some wind but it was nice. I opened the sliding glass door in my bedroom to get some air and it was nice to smell the rain and hear it and then listen to the gemtle sounds of the wind chimes.

The cows in the field next to my house discovered a hole in the fence as they always do and escaped into my front yard. They always love the grass on the other side as it is greener isn't it?

When I went to chase them out they were very nice about it and went peaceably jumping across the fence into the pasture. So we had to fix that hole yesterday.

Hope all is well with you and yours. peace

 

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It really got cold last night and that is somewhat of a shock as the weather has been so warm lately.

I like the cold weather but I know many do not.

I have a very busy weekend this weekend and I am trying to tie up all the loose ends before I go for my surgery next week. I will be out for 2-3 weeks so you may not hear from me during that time. i am just not sure how mobile I might be.

Please keep me and the doctor in your thoughts and prayers.

peace tom

 

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....And that is cold no matter where one is from. Wow it was great to wake up and see the frost all over the ground.

The moon last night was beautiful. A bit past full but still so bright and at one point when I got up in the middle of the night to walk through the darkened house to get a drink of juice and take a whizz it looked like it had snowed on the deck. I went to the sliding glass dooor and saw it was just the reflected moonlight but it was strange looking.

Busy day today and busy weekend. Lots of visitors and guests coming and going.

I don't know about you but I am sooooo frustrated that the spell check feature for JUB has not been fixed yet. Almost a week. Wonder what is up and why it can't be fixed.

peace to you all

 

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Its Sunday and I am up early so what else is new. Thinking about upcomming surgery. Not scared but thinking about what it will be like afterwards. I know I can't really know but I can still think. Right!

Big dinner party last night with some friends from out of town. Last big party before the knife. It was fun to laugh and drink some wine and eat some great food. Too much great food!

They say laughter is a great medicine and it is a good thing to be able to laugh with friends.

Yesterday was goregous. Very cold but sunny and by the afternooon it was actually quite balmy around here. I was very busy all day long and that is always good.

I will go to church today in just a little while.

Spell checker is back off again. Oh my!


See you later in the funny papers! peace tom