WATCHING BRAD
Part XXXXVII
"Daddy, it hurts," Lindsay cried.
"I know, Sweetheart," I soothed her. "I'm right here." I gathered her up in my arms. And headed for the bathroom. "Wait here," I told the twins as I passed them.
I knelt on one knee in front of the toilet. Lindsay sat on my other leg. With my right arm around her I leaned her over the toilet. "I'm sorry, Sweetheart," I told her. "I have to do this."
My finger found her lips and she opened her mouth to me. I pushed inside and touched the back of her throat. Her body heaved suddenly and I pulled my hand away as a volley of vomit shot out. Lindsay heaved and puked and cried and I held onto her for dear life.
When she finished, I did it again. Another volley erupted from her, but much less this time. A third attempt came up empty. I set her on the vanity, filled the sink with water, and quickly cleaned her up as best I could.
I cradled her in my arms. Brad was beside me now, on his knees, holding pants and underwear. I lifted my feet one at a time and he put the underwear over them and pulled them up under my bathrobe. He did the same for the pants.
"Watch the boys," I told him. Lindsay was still crying when I carried her to the livingroom sofa. I grabbed the blanket off the back and flipped it out with one hand before laying it on the cushions. I set Lindsay gently upon it and wrapped it around her. I sat beside her as Brad arrived with the twins. Outside somewhere, I could hear the siren approaching.
Brad left the boys at the end of the sofa and went to the hall closet. He came back with my winter coat and helped me pull it on. The siren screamed outside and then suddenly stopped and Brad ran to the door to let paramedics in.
"Food poisoning, I think," I told the parameds. "I forced her to vomit as much as she could. They started working on her immediately.
I went to the phone, found the number I needed, and dialed quickly.
Just then, the doorbell rang urgently three times in a row and the door opened. Bernice and John came running in. "Oh, God," Bernice said. Brad came up beside her and hugged her close.
The number I had dialed rang and rang. There was no answer. I hung up and dialed again. Still, it rang and no-one responded. "Damn!" I said, and went back to be with Lindsay as the parameds placed her on the gurney and strapped her in. I followed them to the door.
"We'll stay here, Ted," John said as we passed. I just nodded.
* * * * *
The other child's parents were in the emergency room when we got to the hospital. Now I knew why they hadn't answered their phone.
"We think it was the turkey," the young mother said to me. I didn't feel like talking to them.
I went to the desk and filled out the forms. I didn't have my wallet but Lindsay was on file.
I sat down beside the other parents and waited. Brad came in a few minutes later with another blanket, coat, and boots for Lindsay, and a shirt and socks for me. He set them on a chair as I stood to meet him. He pulled me into his arms.
"Mom and Dad are staying with the boys," he said as he hugged me. "How is she?"
"I don't know."
"Here," he said, holding out my wallet. "You forgot this."
I went back to the receptionist and showed her my OHIP card, then grabbed up my shirt and socks and went to the bathroom to change out of my bathrobe. I returned to sit with Brad. My eyes stared down the hall where they had wheeled my daughter. Brad held me.
I had known it was food poisoning as soon as I saw her. I'd had it myself a few years ago and I knew what it could do to the body. A cousin of mine had actually died from a severe case of it.
Time moves too slowly during moments like this. It gives a parent too much time to think. It gives too much time to imagine arranging a funeral and buying a tiny coffin and floral wreaths. It gives too much time to think about what you want engraved on a headstone. It gives too much time to see how close the numbers were between the ‘born' and ‘died' dates. It gives too much time to think about life without your child around you anymore. There was too much time to think, but not nearly enough time spent with my daughter. I wanted more. A whole lot more.
We waited in silence. I was barely aware of Brad's touch on me. I barely knew he was even there, holding me close. Until he kissed my cheek. I looked into his green eyes. There was as much pain and concern in them as I felt could be seen in mine. I kissed him back, but not on the cheek. And then I hugged him.
"Pray, Brad," I whispered softly. "Please pray."
Brad hugged me harder. "I haven't stopped, Ted," he whispered back.
* * * * *
The doctor approached us. He glanced at the other girl's parents, and then at me and Brad. "Which of you is the father?" he asked.
"I am," I said as I rose to my feet. Brad stood with me, as did the other couple.
"Your kids are fine," he said. Brad grasped my hand in his and squeezed it tightly. "We pumped their stomachs. They're going to be sick for awhile, but they'll be fine. They will probably be sick again until the poisoning leaves their system, and they'll probably develop diarrhea. I suggest you buy lots electrolytes, liquid or frozen. No dairy or acidic juices, and nothing with caffeine. Avoid solid foods for a few days, especially if they develop diarrhea."
"Okay," I said. "What about antibiotics?"
"No," the doctor said. "They do more harm than good in these cases. The kids have to do this on their own."
"Okay," I repeated. "Thanks."
"You can come in and take them home now," the doctor said. "They're out of danger and there's nothing more we can do for them here." We started forward. "Sorry, Sir," he said to me. "Your friend will have to stay here."
"He's my partner," I told him sternly. "He's as much a part of my daughter's family as I am. He goes with me."
The doctor nodded and led the way to the room. Both girls were there. The other couple went to their daughter, who was asleep. Lindsay was awake and sat up, reaching for me, when I entered. She latched onto me, crying into my chest. I picked her up and held her close.
"It's okay, Sweetheart," I assured her. "You're going to be okay." I hugged her and kissed her hair. "Let's go home now."
I set her back on the bed and Brad handed me her coat and boots. I helped her put them on, wrapped her in the blanket, and picked her up again. We stopped at the bank of telephones on our way out.
"Better phone your mother," I told Brad.
He pulled a quarter out of his pocket and called home. A moment later, he said, "Wow, Dad, that was fast. Were you sitting right on the phone? . . . Yeah, she's okay. We're on our way home."
"We're stopping at Shoppers first," I said to him.
"Oh, right," he said. "We're going to the Drug Mart to get something for her first. We'll be home soon, okay? . . . Thanks, Dad. Love you, too." He hung up.
* * * * *
Brad carried the Pedialyte into the house. I'd bought plenty - three litres each of grape, bubble gum, and fruit flavours - plus several boxes of the freezer pops in grape, cherry, orange, and blue raspberry flavours. Dehydration was the biggest concern now. I carried Lindsay inside. Bernice met us at the door, holding it open for us. John was standing right behind her. "The boys are asleep," she said. "They tried to stay awake, though."
"Thanks, Bernice," I said as I entered. "Brad? Put as much of that in the fridge as you can put the pops in the freezer. Then could you bring us a glass of that Pedialyte?"
"Which flavour?"
"Grape, please," Lindsay said.
Brad went to the kitchen. John and Bernice followed me into the livingroom where I set Lindsay onto the sofa and began taking off her coat and boots.
"The ambulance woke us up," John said. "Scared the hell out of us when we saw it parked in front of your house."
"Thanks, both of you," I said. Then, to Lindsay, I said, "I'll go get you another nightgown, okay? You stay here with Grandma and Grandpa." I kissed her forehead and headed for her room.
I returned with a clean nightgown. Bernice pulled off Lindsay's soiled nightgown and took it to the sink to rinse out the vomit. I put her clean gown on her, wrapped her in the blanket again, then sat down and pulled her into my lap. The hospital had already cleaned her up. Brad sat beside me and handed Lindsay her drink. I felt her forehead. Already, her fever was down.
"Just take tiny sips, Sweetheart," I said. "Don't drink it too fast."
I leaned back into the sofa and took a deep breath. The clock on the VCR told me it was almost four-thirty in the morning.
Bernice returned. "I changed her bed and rinsed out her blankets and sheets. They're in the washing machine now."
"Thank you," I said.
"My pleasure," Bernice said. "I had to do some. . ."
"Daddy!" Lindsay shouted. "Bathroom!" The glass dropped to the carpet.
I made it just in time. Her stomach was empty. Now it was time to clean out the rest of her insides. This was nothing new to me. After ten years, I was well acquainted emergency bathroom runs. I knew I wouldn't be sleeping any more that night, and Lindsay wouldn't be sleeping much, either. I just hadn't thought it would start so soon.
"I'm sorry, Daddy," she said weakly.
"It's not your fault, Sweetheart," I told her. "I'll stay with you, okay? And I'll be here with you tomorrow, too. Are you finished yet?"
"I think so," she said.
"It will happen again, so you let me know as soon as you feel it."
"Okay, Daddy."
I helped her clean up, then carried her back to the livingroom. Someone had cleaned up the Pedialyte and scrubbed the area with foam carpet cleaner. Another glass sat on the table.
"I'll stay with you tonight, Ted," Bernice said.
"No, Bernice," I said. "We'll be fine. Go home."
She put her hand on my shoulder and nodded. "Okay," she said. "Call if you need us." Brad saw them to the door, then joined me.
"Go back to bed, Brad," I told him. "I'll stay with her."
"And I'm staying with you," he replied. "I wouldn't sleep anyway."
Another dash to the bathroom was necessary soon after that, and then another just before five o'clock. Lindsay fell asleep on my chest after that. Brad went downstairs to put the blankets and sheets into the dryer, then returned and sat beside me once more, his arm around my shoulder.
"Don't let me fall asleep," I told him.
He didn't.
* * * * *
Two more trips to the bathroom were necessary before the sun came up. Brad refused to go to Toronto, no matter how much I encouraged him to go to class. He was adamant and refused to budge. Terry arrived before eight, as usual, quickly assessed the situation, and took over immediately. The twins had awakened and Brad had got their breakfast. Terry sent Brad in to stay with me. She would look after the boys and get breakfast for us.
Lindsay woke up, needing yet another trip to the bathroom. It was my guess that the worst was over. There was very little left inside her. Now, it was just a matter of allowing the poison to wash out of her system, and that would take time.
I detoured to the kitchen to grab another glass of Pedialyte. Bubble gum this time.
"Hi, Daddy," Justin said. "Is Lindsay okay?"
"She's sick, Justin," I said, "but she'll be fine."
"Can we help?" Jeremy asked.
"You can help a lot by trying to be as quiet as you can today," I told him.
"We'll be like teensy weensy mice," he said.
"Thank you, Jeremy." I took Lindsay back into the livingroom. Brad was lying back against the sofa, his hands clasped behind his head. His eyes were closed. He sat up again as I sat down. I gave him a kiss. "Why don't you go to bed?"
"Not until you do," He said.
Lindsay took a big drink. "Just little sips," I told her. "Remember, Sweetheart?"
"Sorry, Daddy," she said. "I'm thirsty."
"You'll be thirsty for awhile, but I still want you to take little sips. If you drink it too fast, you could get sick again."
"Okay. Can I have some cereal?"
"Sorry, Sweetheart," I said. "You can't eat anything for awhile, especially not cereal. Before you eat or drink anything for the next few days, I want you to ask me first."
"Okay," she said. I felt terrible that I had to let my child be hungry.
"If you're feeling better at noon, maybe you can have some soup. Now drink as much of this as you can, okay?"
Lindsay sipped at her drink. I turned on the television and found some cartoons for her to watch. Terry arrived to tell me breakfast was ready. I nodded toward Lindsay and shook my head ‘no'. Terry, fortunately, understood. If my daughter couldn't eat, I wouldn't eat either. "Just coffee," I said.
As Brad left to eat his breakfast, the twins climbed up on the sofa, one on either side of me, watching the cartoons. Terry brought me a coffee, half full in case I had to move quickly. Lindsay managed to drink the whole glass of Pedialyte before falling asleep on my chest.
I checked the clock and asked Jeremy to go get my cell phone out of my bedroom, then I called work and told them I wouldn't be in and phoned the school to tell them about Lindsay. I phoned Pete as well and asked him to stay away today. Mags showed up shortly thereafter with Tyler to pick Lindsay up and escort her to school, but Terry explained everything and sent her on alone.
The next thing I knew, I woke up with Lindsay still sleeping against me. A blanket was wrapped around us. My coffee, from which I hadn't taken a single sip, was nowhere in sight. The twins were playing over by the patio doors. A hand was shaking my shoulder. It was Brad.
"Mom's here to look after Lindsay," he said quietly. "We're going to bed."
"No," I said. "I'm alright. I can take care of her."
"No, Ted, you're not alright" he said. "You're exhausted. Mom and Terry can take care of her."
"I'll look after my own daughter, thank you," I said.
"And we can help you." His hand reached for the blanket.
I grabbed Brad's arm, hard. "Get the hell away from me and leave us alone!" I told him in a harsh whisper. My eyes shot daggers at him. "She's
my responsibility and no-one else's! You hear me!? I'll take care of her! Now, leave me alone!"
Brad stared at me. Confusion filled his eyes. He pulled his hand away and stepped back.
I stood up, still holding the blanket around Lindsay. I grabbed another glass of Pedialyte out of the refrigerator whilst ignoring all the eyes on me, and carried my daughter to her room. I laid her gently on the bed and lay down beside her. I didn't fall asleep this time.
* * * * *
Lindsay woke up once, needing a quick trip to the bathroom. I could hear the television running, and I could hear the twins laughing. I saw Terry walk by. But that was all. Before long, Lindsay was sitting in my lap again while I sat on her bed. She sipped her way through half a glass of her drink before she started falling asleep again.
Terry came into the room long enough to tell me she was staying the night. "Don't bother," I told her. "I can manage." She left without a word. I listened to the sounds of the house around me. I should have been concerned about the twins, but I wasn't. Brad and Bernice and Terry were with them. My only concern at that moment was Lindsay.
I had lots of time to think. I didn't like what I was thinking. Sure, I was tired and worried and frightened, but since I found Lindsay sick, I had been all but ignoring everyone else. Sure, Brad had gone to the hospital to be with me, and I needed him then, but when I got home, all my attention had turned to Lindsay. Daddy mode had kicked in big time and all I had done was to order everyone around, telling them what to do. Otherwise, I ignored them and pushed them away from me, and all they were trying to do was to help me.
And that's exactly what they were doing now. Helping me. Not here, not in Lindsay's room, but out there, with the boys. I had abandoned them all. I had let my family down. Lindsay was my responsibility, but so were the twins. And so were Brad and Terry, and even John and Bernice for that matter. Would I be doing any less if it was any of them who was sick? Of course not. Every single person in this house was my responsibility, and I had let them all down.
I carefully got out of bed so as not to disturb Lindsay and went to the livingroom. Brad was asleep on the sofa. Terry was sitting on the floor with the twins, watching them play with their Leapster games. They stopped playing when they saw me. "Thank you, Terry," I said. "And I'm very sorry if I was snide with you. You don't have to stay tonight. We'll be fine."
"No probs, Mr. Dee," she said with a kind smile. "I'll go sit with Lindsay for awhile." That girl could read people better than they could read themselves.
"Thanks," I said. I knelt down and took the boys into my arms, hugging them and kissing their cheeks. I apologized to them as well and told them that I loved them very much.
"Are you mad at us?" Justin asked.
"No, I'm not mad at anyone. Do you remember when you ran away from me in the store?"
They nodded. "You were scared."
"Yes," I said, "and I was scared again today."
"It's okay to be scared sometimes," Jeremy said.
I hugged them again, very tightly. "I love you boys," I told them.
"We love you, too, Daddy," Justin said as they hugged me back.
"You go ahead and play now," I told them and I stood up and went to the sleeping Brad. I sat gently on the edge of the sofa and looked down at him for a long time. He looked so peaceful and calm, even after I had yelled at him. How could I have done that to him?
I bent down and kissed him. He came awake. My Sleeping Beauty.
"I'm sorry, Brad," I said as I rested my arm on his chest. "I'm so very sorry I yelled at you."
"That's okay," he said.
"No, it's not. You were only trying to help me and I shoved you away."
"Just forget it, okay?"
"I can't forget it, Brad. I take you for granted and I shouldn't. I had no right. . ."
Brad shut me up with a kiss. When it ended, he said, "You were scared, Ted," he said. "So was I. I don't think I've ever been that scared in my life. This is my family now, Ted. What happens to them happens to me." He kissed me and hugged me a again.
The boys came to us then. Justin climbed into my lap and Brad sat up so Jeremy could climb into his lap.
"Is our sister going to be okay?"
"Yes, she's going to be fine," I said, kissing his hair. "It will take a few days for her to get all better, though. Did you have lunch?"
He shook his head ‘yes'.
"How about a freezie for dessert, then? Cherry, orange, grape, or raspberry?"
Justin wanted cherry. Jeremy wanted orange. I got them out of the freezer, cut off the plastic tops, and took them in to the boys, along with a few paper towels for Brad. "I'll be right back, okay?" I went down to Lindsay's room. She was awake and talking to Terry. I sat on her bed and set my hand on her stomach. "How are you feeling, Sweetheart?"
"My tummy still hurts bad," she said, "but I don't feel sick anymore."
"That's good." I smiled at her. "Your tummy will still hurt for a few more days. Would you like to come out and join us in the livingroom and watch some TV?"
She nodded. I helped her into her robe as Terry stood up and left the room. We stopped at the bathroom once more, just in case. When she was done, I carried her to the settee, propped her pillow at one end, and laid her down, wrapping the blanket around her again.
"Feel like eating some soup now?"
She nodded. I kissed her forehead as I rubbed her hair. "I'll get it for you." I popped her favourite Disney movie into the DVD player and turned on the television. I got her a grape freezie before making her soup.
It wasn't so much soup as it was broth. I heated up a tin of chicken noodle soup, but I strained out all the chicken and noodles before I took it to her. It wouldn't be very filling, but at least it would be nutritious. I fed it to her, one spoonful at a time.
* * * * *
The freezer was delivered that afternoon. I'd forgot all about it. Brad handled the whole thing for me. I tell you, I'm glad I wasn't carrying it. It looked heavy. Now, I could start filling it.
Terry ended up going home that night. Brad cooked supper for us, then made another bowl of soup for Lindsay. Habitant peas soup with ham this time. Even with the peas and ham removed, it was a thick broth and much more filling.
Fortunately, Lindsay understood that she had to be careful what she ate and didn't try to tantrum us into giving her something real to eat. We kept her drinking her electrolytes as much as possible. As long as she felt thirsty, she would be drinking it. Diarrhea siphoned the water right out of the body, and we had to put it back.
There was only one more emergency run to the bathroom that day, but that was the last one. By nine o'clock that night, we were all in our beds, sound asleep.
It had been one helluva day.
To Be Continued