WATCHING BRAD
Part 85
Barry looked up at me from his perch on my sofa. He eventually stopped rocking and his face relaxed. And then he smiled. One hand left his crotch and moved to the cheek I had slapped, massaging it gently. "You don't know how happy I am to hear you say that, Ted."
My whole body was still tense with fury, and I was terrified. My chest was heaving and my heart was pounding, but I refused to back down despite what he had just said to me. "I told you to get the hell out of my house and I mean it, Barry," I repeated. "Cop or no cop, I'll have your sorry ass in jail before you can blink! Now get the hell out of my house!"
"Not just yet, Ted," he said quietly.
My eyes spotted the telephone on the table. I grabbed for it quickly. Barry made no move to stop me. "I'm not afraid of you, Barry," I warned. "I'm one button away from nine-one-one, so I repeat: Get the hell out of my house!"
"I'll leave if you really want me to," he said, suddenly calm and soft-spoken. "But not until you hear why I just did what I did." Before I could respond, he said, "Nathan? Are you there? Come on in, Babe."
"What in hell is going. . . ?" A gentle knock sounded on the patio door. I spun around and saw Nathan standing there. I looked back at Barry. He was still smiling and rising to his feet.
"Let him in," he said.
I turned back to the patio doors and looked through them. Nathan appeared desperate to get inside, waving me forward. I went to the doors and opened it for him. Nathan pushed his way inside and past me, running to Barry where he was gathered into the big man's arms. Barry held him close and cuddled him. Nathan was crying.
"Do you believe me now, Nathan?" Barry asked softly, but I heard him say it.
I was still stunned and had no idea what was going on. I closed and locked the door again, then went back to stand across the coffee table from the two lovers.
Barry looked at me. "Can we sit down and talk, please?"
I hesitated a moment, then indicated the sofa with my hand and took a seat in the single chair diagonal to the sofa, the phone still in my hand and my thumb poised over the button which would automatically dial nine-one-one.
Barry did the speaking. Nathan was sitting beside him, still resting his cheek against Barry's chest, his arm around Barry's waist, holding him. "Ever since that night we. . . you know. . . Nathan has been worried about us. I mean, you and me, Ted. I couldn't make him believe nothing would happen between us. That's why we left Saturday night. We had to get away from here so we could talk about it."
As Barry continued speaking, he began unbuttoning his shirt. "I couldn't convince Nathan, no matter what I said. We had a big fight about it. The only thing I could think of to do to convince him was to show him." He pulled his shirt aside, revealing the small microphone taped to his chest between his rounded pectorals, the black wire running down under his shirt. "Nathan was outside all the time, listening and watching. I'm just glad the curtains were open."
"You set me up," I said incredulously. "This was all a set-up."
Barry nodded. "Yes. I needed Nathan to see that he didn't have to worry about us."
I sat back in the chair, deep in thought. I had been set up. It was all a ruse.
"I'm sorry, Ted," Barry continued. "I couldn't see any other way to prove it to him."
"Gee-sus, Murphy." After I got over the initial shock, I began to think. I looked at him and asked, "And what if I hadn't stopped you, Barry? What if I wanted it to happen? What if I had
allowed it to happen?"
"Then I would have stopped
you, Ted," he said, "and Nathan and I would have walked out of your life forever."
I glanced at Nathan. He wasn't crying anymore. He simply nodded at me.
"I'm sorry we tricked you, Ted," Nathan said finally. His first words since entering the house. "We're still prepared to leave now if you want us to. We don't want to, but we will. If you don't want us here anymore."
Could I really trust them? I wanted to, but I wasn't sure. They both seemed sincere, though. I looked at them both and shook my head ‘no'.
"It's all my fault," Nathan continued. "Please don't blame Barry for what he did. I wanted to trust you both, and Barry tried to convince me, but. . . I. . . I'm sorry, Ted. I had to know."
Barry laughed. "He's a stubborn old fart who needs a slap across the face sometimes before he sees the truth. Speaking of which," Barry said as he rubbed his cheek. "I hope that made you feel better. You pack quite the punch, pal. Not to mention your grip. I didn't think you could reach my nuts."
I smiled finally. "I'm sorry if I hurt you, but ‘yeah', it made me feel better. Now, if you will excuse me a minute, I need to check on my kids."
I looked in on Lindsay first. She was still sound asleep and facing away from me. I brushed her hair back and kissed her cheek, then went to see the boys. They were awake, sitting up in bed.
"Hey, what are you guys doing awake?" I asked as calmly as I could. I sat down on the side and they climbed into my arms.
"We heard noises, Daddy," Justin said. "We heard you yelling."
"Are you okay, Daddy?"
"I'm fine, Jeremy," I said as I hugged them both. "Your Uncle Barry and I had a little argument, that's all. Everything is okay. Now, come on. Time for you to go back to sleep. I'll stay here with you until you do."
"Promise?" Justin asked.
"Yes, I promise."
They hugged me and kissed my cheeks before scrambling back under the blankets and settling in for sleep. I sat beside them, petting them gently, until they fell asleep again.
I sat on the sofa beside Nathan when I returned to the livingroom. I grabbed my coffee mug and took a drink. The microphone Barry had been wearing, along with the transmitter and Nathan's receiver and ear piece, were sitting on the coffee table.
"There's more coffee in the kitchen," I offered.
"We're fine," Barry replied. "Does this mean we're still friends?"
"For now." I set my mug on the table and turned to look at Barry. "But if you ever pull a stunt like that again around my kids, even in jest, I'll take you on, Barry."
Barry glanced at the twins' bedroom. "Yeah, I was a bit concerned about that, but I had to do it where Nathan could see."
"I understand that. I'm just telling you. When it comes to my kids, I'm not afraid of you. You scare the hell out of me, Barry, but I swear I'll rip you apart."
Barry nodded. "I was concerned about that, too. I'd never hurt your children, Ted. If you don't believe anything else, believe that."
* * * * *
I was still upset at Nathan for not trusting me and at Barry for trying to seduce me in the livingroom, but we parted as friends. I would tell Brad about it, of course, but not until later.
I went to bed soon after Nathan and Barry left, but I lay there for a long time - long after midnight - thinking about the relationship we all shared. It was such a different friendship than that shared by Warren and Bill. With Warren, there was innocent teasing. With Nathan and Barry, there was a definite sexual tension and attraction between us.
I knew I could trust myself. I'd never been unfaithful in any of my relationships, no matter the attraction to someone else, and this one with Brad was no different. As attractive as I found Barry, he would have to rape me to get me to do anything with him. There is the love I have for Brad and then there is the attraction I have for Barry. There's a big difference between the two.
I knew I could trust Brad, too. He had been in several situations with people much more attractive than myself and he'd shown no interest. In fact, I had taken the brunt of his anger toward them on at least one occasion. Yes, I could trust Brad.
That left two people - two good friends - Barry and Nathan. Could I really trust them? Time would tell.
The chips had fallen with a resounding crash. Now, we had to start picking them back up again.
* * * * *
Thursday morning, a dozen roses were delivered to the office for me by a polite young delivery man with a warm smile and a bounce in his step. There was no end to the ribbing I got the rest of the day from my staff. I thought the flowers might have been sent by Barry and Nathan as a display of friendship and apology, but, when I read the card, I knew they could be from only one person. The card said simply, "Tomorrow!"
Only Brad could have sent them to me.
Sally found a vase somewhere in the building and arranged the roses for me. "When do we get to meet him, Ted?" she asked. "We hear so much about him and all we've seen is pictures of him."
"I'll have him come in one day when he finishes classes," I assured her.
"JW keeps telling me he's just my type."
"Sorry, Sweetheart," I said in my best Bogey voice. "I'm
his type."
I don't know why Sally found that so funny. It wasn't meant to be.
* * * * *
Mark had finished his work and had gone home and the kids were all bathed and in bed when Brad phoned that night. His bouquet of roses sat on the coffee table in front of me. For two hours, we talked about him coming home and very little else. He had only one more day. Tomorrow night at this time, he would be on the bus and on his way home.
There were no tears that night. No sad voices. Only excitement that lifted both of us up and had us walking on air. I didn't mention the incident with Barry. I didn't want to worry him with it and spoil our moment. I would tell him later, after he had settled back into the home life again.
"You'll be there, Ted? At the bus station?" he said as our time finally drew to a close.
"We'll
all be there, Brad."
"Promise?"
"I promise. We'll be there at two o'clock."
"What if the bus is late getting there? It's not due until three-fifteen. It will be a long wait."
"What if it's early?" I countered. "I'll be there for you when you step off that bus, Tiger. Don't worry."
"I might embarrass myself when I see you."
"Do you care?"
"No, Pops," he said firmly. "I don't care one little bit. I love you, Ted. More than ever."
"I love you, too, Brad. More than ever."
There was a brief pause, then Brad said urgently, "Damn! One minute left! Tell me again, Ted. I need to hear it."
"I love you, Brad. I'll always love you, and don't ever forget it."
"I love you, too, Ted. I'll see you on Saturday."
"I'll be there."
"Bye, Ted."
"Goodbye, Brad."
I slept very well that night.
* * * * *
Everyone was excited that Friday morning as we ate our breakfast. ‘One more sleep' and Brad would be coming home. We didn't talk about very much other than that whilst eating. Brad would be getting off the bus during the twins' usual nap time, but I figured they would fall asleep in the van on the way to Toronto and I assured them that they would be awake for his arrival. They were satisfied with that.
I was a basket case at work that morning. I worked my ass off to get my work done in a hurry and I was back at home in time to pick up Lindsay from school and to have lunch with everyone. After lunch, I gave Terry the rest of the day off and walked with the boys as we took Lindsay back to school.
We stopped at the park for awhile on the way home and I let the boys run wild to play on the swings and slides and jungle gyms and such. They liked that park and we often spent time there now that the weather was getting better and warmer. When the boys moved in with me, it was already Autumn. Now, in Spring, I suspected we would be spending even more time there.
I promised them that, the next time we went, I would take their skates and pads and helmets and they could skate around on the paved paths to their hearts' content. That day, though, I simply let them play and sat on a nearby bench where I could keep an eye on them. As I sat there, a young woman approached and stopped a short distance from me. A little boy held her hand.
"Excuse me," she said, "are those boys your sons?"
"Yes," I replied as I stood up and approached her. "Well, not exactly. I'll be adopting them in a week or so." I held out my hand in greeting. "Ted de Villiers."
"Hi. I'm Lori Smith. This is my son, Andrew."
I shook her hand, then looked down at her son and smiled. "Hello, Andrew."
The boy moved closer to his mother, wrapping one arm around her leg. "He's a little shy," Lori said in explanation. "We moved here recently and I was hoping I could find some new friends for Andrew before he starts school this September."
"Well, I think I have two of them here for starters." I turned to the boys, who were climbing around in the jungle gym. "Justin! Jeremy! Come here, please!"
Jeremy climbed down the ladder and Justin came down the slide, then came running toward me, all smiles and happy faces. "Boys?" I said. "This is Andrew." As I introduced my sons, I touched each one on the head. "Andrew? This is Jeremy and this is Justin."
"Hi, Andrew," Justin said. "Want to play with us?"
Andrew shook his head and off they ran, back to the jungle gym.
"My goodness," Lori said. "They really are ‘twinny', aren't they?"
"Just a bit," I chuckled as I returned to the bench. Lori followed me and sat beside me.
"How do you tell them apart?"
"You just learn, I guess."
"Can you tell which is which from here?"
"That's Justin talking to Andrew. Jeremy's near the slide."
"How do you know?"
"Their hands. So, you said you just moved here. Where did you live before?"
"New York," she replied. "Not far from Albany. My husband found a job here in Toronto and. . . what's so funny?"
"Don't say ‘toe-RON-toe'," I explained. "People will think you're a tourist. Say ‘TRAH-no'."
Her smile was pleasant and inviting. "Thanks. Things up here are so different than back home. Milk in bags? And all this metric stuff. I don't understand it, but I like the idea of weighing only fifty-eight kilowatzits instead of one hundred and twenty-eight pounds. Mind you," she leaned in to whisper, "when I measured my waist in those centithingies, I almost fainted. Whoof!"
I tried to laugh quietly and failed. "Welcome to Canada, Lori."
Lori laughed along with me. "I suppose I'll get used to it eventually. Brad's learning faster than I am. He can't afford to keep getting speeding tickets."
"Brad?" I asked.
"Yes, my husband," she replied. "Which reminds me. I see you're wearing an engagement ring. Congratulations. When is the big day?"
"In July," I answered, still a bit shocked by her husband's name. "The fifteenth."
"Oh, how lovely. Do you have a picture of her I could see?"
"Well, actually, ‘she' is a ‘he'."
"Oh," she said softly. She was obviously taken aback. "You mean you can actually get married up here for real? In a church and everything?"
"Yes, we can."
"And you can adopt?"
"Yes."
She paused for a long moment as he looked at the three boys laughing and playing with each other. "Your boys. Are they. . . um. . .?"
"They're four years old," I told her. "They don't even know what ‘gay' means. Look, Lori, if you're uncomfortable with this, I can get my sons and go home."
"No," she responded quickly. "I mean, I'm not used to people being so open about it." She heaved a breath. "I mean, I have an uncle who lives with his friend in Albany. My mother's younger brother. They have such a difficult time sometimes and they've been attacked twice."
"We have our moments, but, for the most part, people leave us alone," I explained. "I guess we're more accepting up here."
"I'll have to invite Uncle Dave up here for a visit sometime. He's thinking of moving, too, if he can find a job."
"It's a nice place to live," I added.
"Okay," Lori said finally. "Do you have a picture of
him then? I'd still like to see it."
"Sure," I said, pulling my wallet out of my back pocket and flipping through the pictures. "This is my daughter, Lindsay."
"She's adopted, too?"
"No. She's my real daughter. I was divorced two years ago. Please, don't ask," I laughed lightly. "It's a long story." I flipped a few more pictures. "And this is Brad."
She looked up at me, surprised. "His name is Brad, too?"
I smiled. "Yup."
She turned her gaze back to the photo. "He's very handsome."
"Thank you."
"He looks very. . ."
"Daddy!" a voice called to me. I looked up to see Justin and Jeremy running toward me. Andrew followed close behind.
Justin reached me first and grabbed my shirt to pull me down so he could whisper in my ear. "We have to go pee." Of course, his whisper was loud enough for most of the neighbours to hear as well.
I sat up and smiled at Lori. "Would you mind if I find a bush? They always wait until they can't wait any longer."
"Andrew's the same way," she grinned. "Go ahead."
I stood up and the boys followed me a few steps away. I turned them away from the street and stood behind them, leaning over them to help undo their jeans and to pull their underwear down with my thumbs. They were peeing the moment they were exposed to the air.
I tucked them back in when they were finished, zipped them up, and went back to the bench. I thought the twins would go off to play again, but they climbed up into may lap and curled up against me.
"I think someone is getting sleepy," I said to Lori.
"I suppose I should get Andrew home as well," she said.
"Would you like to come back for a coffee? I'm just a few houses down the street."
"That's the way we live as well," Lori replied, "but I really should get Andrew home for his nap."
"He can sleep with the twins. Their bed's big enough for all three."
"Are you sure you wouldn't mind?"
"Not if you don't," I said. "They can play again at home when they wake up. At least until I have to go pick up Lindsay after school."
"I'd like that," she replied. "I don't know very many people here yet and most of them work during the day."
"Well, come on then," I said. "Coffee awaits."
By this time, the boys were gone. I knew there would be no walking home for them. They hooked their arms around my neck and their legs around my waist. I hooked my arms under their bums and stood up. Lori, too, had to pick up Andrew. He didn't want to walk, either.
* * * * *
The boys slept well together and woke up to play together in the twins' room. Lori and I had a wonderful chat and got to know each other quite well. I told her all about Terry and how she was welcome to bring Andrew over any time to play with the twins.
We exchanged phone numbers before she left. I bundled the boys into the van and drove to the school to pick up Lindsay. I took them out for an early dinner to a little restaurant that makes the best burgers in town. The kids don't like it there, though, because their burgers and fries don't come in a cardboard box and don't include a toy. They get over it quickly enough, though, especially when they get to the banana splits for dessert.
After dinner, we stopped at the mall and picked up the latest Disney release on DVD, went home and got the kids bathed and ready for bed, then settled down together on the sofa with pop and popcorn and watched it. The boys, somehow, managed to stay awake for the entire movie, even though it went past their usual bedtime.
It felt strange, not waiting for Brad's phone call.
Later, I lay in bed alone, staring up into the darkness and wondering if Brad was having as much trouble falling asleep as I was.
* * * * *
Brad was coming home. I suppose I woke up and showered and fed the kids and got them dressed. I suppose we got through Saturday morning without incident. I suppose I called John and Bernice and told them we were ready to go. I suppose I got everyone buckled into the van and I suppose I drove into Toronto with John sitting in the passenger seat beside me. I don't remember any of it. I can only remember standing at the Greyhound bus station with the twins holding my hands and Bernice and John holding hands with Lindsay.
Of course, we were an hour early, but I'd promised I'd be there and I was. The kids began to get excited then, too. Especially the twins when they finally realized that we were there to bring Brad home with us.
"Where is he, Daddy," Jeremy asked. He was more excited about Brad's return than anyone else except me.
"He'll be here soon, Jeremy," I explained as I squatted down. "We have to wait for his bus to come."
Jeremy looked over his shoulder in hopes of seeing the bus rounding the corner.
"Come on, my Sonskyn," I said softly. "Let's go have a milkshake while we wait." I grabbed Jeremy up in one arm and Justin in the other and went inside to the little canteen. I ordered the shakes for the kids and coffees for the adults. John helped me carry them to the tables. The boys sat at my table. Lindsay sat with John and Bernice.
By three o'clock, I had everyone back outside, sitting on a bench, waiting patiently. The boys sat in my lap and Lindsay sat beside me. John and Bernice sat beyond her. I thought the boys might fall asleep, but they stayed awake somehow. My foot impatiently tapped the concrete walk.
The bus was six minutes early, pulling into the parking lot at three-oh-nine. Over the speaker system, a female voice said, "Now arriving: Thunder Bay, Marathon, Wawa, Sault Ste Marie, Sudbury, Perry Sound, Orillia, Barrie."
"Brad's home," I said as I set the boys on the ground and stood up. They immediately grabbed my hands. I moved toward the space into which the bus was pulling. The sun was bright and the windows were darkly tinted. I couldn't spot Brad right away. And then I saw a waving hand. The bus stopped and the waving hand disappeared.
My heart was pounding in my chest and I clutched the boys' hands tightly. The bus door opened up and people began stepping out. One person. Then two. Three. And then Brad was there.
My Tiger was home.
To Be Continued