WATCHING BRAD
Part 93
Wednesday evening found Lindsay and I out shopping. Brad was home, giving the boys their baths. I pushed the cart and followed Lindsay around the store. In her hand was her shopping list for her party and she picked everything out herself. Terry had been an enormous help to her, giving Lindsay a list of games to play and things to do and snacks and things to buy. So, being the dutiful father that I was, I let her do everything and simply pulled out my wallet when we made it to the checkout counter.
She was so excited about Saturday night. Her friends would be showing up around seven o'clock and would change into their pyjamas. Of course, I also had to buy Lindsay a pair of pyjamas. After all, you can't have a ‘pyjama' party when you're wearing a nightgown. Lindsay hated pyjamas, but she would wear them for her party.
They had decided to sleep on air mattresses on the floor in the den instead of in the big bed in the guestroom. I already had two - a large one and a small one - and Mark promised to lend us two more large mattresses. He would bring them over on Thursday evening when he came to work. There was plenty of room for all the girls to sleep, if any of them did any of it.
After buying all the drinks and snacks, including two bags of large marshmallows and enough chocolate bars and Graham wafers to make lots and lots of S'mores, we set out in search of the things she needed for her games. Fortunately, I remembered to buy the half-dozen icing piping bags Bernice had asked me to buy for decorating the cupcakes. She already had some of her own, but not enough for all the colours she wanted to prepare.
By the time we got back home, it was after the twins' bedtime and I took them to bed as Lindsay showed Brad all the ‘neat stuff' she'd bought.
"Daddy? Can we have a pyjama party with you?" Justin asked as I tucked him under the blankets.
"Sure," I told him. "I don't have any pyjamas, though."
"You can wear pants," Jeremy suggested.
"Thank you," I smiled. "Now, come on. Time for you to go to sleep." I gave them one final kiss for the night and told them, as I always did, that I loved them very much. They curled up together, as
they always did, and I left them to sleep. It still looked strange, seeing them lying there without their Teddy bears, but I was getting used to it.
I rejoined Brad and Lindsay. She curled up into my lap and Brad moved over so he could cuddle his arm behind me.
"Daddy?" she said. "It's scary downstairs at night."
"Would you rather sleep upstairs in your bedroom? I think there will be enough room there if we move your bed out for the night."
She twisted around to look at me and a smile broke out on her worried face. "Would you do that?"
"Of course we would," I told her. "It would only take a few minutes."
"But we can still play downstairs first, right?"
Sure," I said, "but I want to promise me you won't let anyone roast marshmallows without Brad or me there, okay?"
"I promise, Daddy," she said. "If anyone tries, I'll call you."
I hugged her and kissed her. "I just want to see you safe, that's all."
"I know. But we can be alone sometimes, right?"
"You can't have a proper pyjama party with Daddy sitting around now, can you? I'll only be there when you need me."
"Thank you, Daddy."
"Would you rather have Grandma Hayes or Terry be here?"
She turned her face away from me and thought for a few moments. "No," she said finally. "I think you'll do."
"You hear that,
Mommy?" Brad smirked as he winked at me.
I remained silent, but my lips said, "Fuck you."
Brad's smiling lips replied, "Please do."
I did - after Lindsay went to bed.
* * * * *
Saturday couldn't get here fast enough for my daughter. Friday night was a terror. Even after she had gone to bed and Barry and Nathan and Brad and I were having a friendly game of poker, Lindsay came out of her room wanting to go through her list one more time to make sure she hadn't forgot to get anything. I assured her we had everything, but she would have none of it. So, for the umpteenth time that night, we unpacked all the bags and went through her list item by item.
After the bags were repacked and put securely back into the pantry, I picked up Lindsay and carried her (and her list) back to bed. "I want you to try to get some sleep, Sweetheart," I said softly as I tucked her in once more.
"Promise you won't eat any of our snacks?" she asked.
I crossed two fingers over my heart and held them in the air. "I promise my very best promise. We won't eat any of your snacks."
"What if J and J sneak out and eat some?"
"They won't do that, Sweetheart. They know how important this is to you."
"What if the girls don't have any fun?"
"Lindsay, Sweetheart," I said softly as I stroked her hair. "Don't worry. You have lots of games and lots of good snacks, and tomorrow, Grandma Hayes is going to help you make cupcakes and all the icing and decorations so you can decorate your own dessert any way you want. Your friends are going to have lots of fun."
"Promise?" She had such a sad, worried look on her face.
"I can't promise that, Sweetheart, but I promise to do everything I can to make sure they have the most fun we can give them, okay?"
"I'm scared, Daddy," she said.
"I know, but I want you to trust me, okay?"
"Okay."
"Come here," I said, holding out my arms and motioning her forward with my fingers. She sat up and fell against my chest. I hugged her, stroking her hair as I kissed the top of her head. "I want you to try to get some sleep now, okay? I'll stay right here with you if you want me to until you fall asleep."
I could feel her nodding her head ‘yes'. "Will you read my unicorn story?" she asked into my chest.
"With pleasure, Sweetheart." I laid her back into bed and tucked her in once more before getting her favourite story from the shelf. She was too old for this story now, but it was still her favourite and it soothed her.
I sat gently on the side of the bed, opened the book, and started reading. Three pages later, her eyes closed. By the time I finished the next page, my Sweetheart was asleep. I closed the book, gently stroked her hair once more, and kissed her forehead. "I love you, Sweetheart."
I replaced her book on the shelf, turned out the light, and pulled the door almost closed.
"Pretty excited, eh?" Nathan asked.
"Oh, yeah," I said as I sat back down at the table. "She's so worried her friends aren't going to have any fun."
"From all the stuff I saw, I don't think she has anything to worry about," Barry added.
"She'll be fine, Pops," Brad said. "Stop looking so worried."
"It's my job to worry," I said, "so Lindsay doesn't have to."
Nathan crinkled his eyebrows. "This ‘fatherhood' thing is a lot of work, isn't it?"
I nodded my head. "But the pay is great and the benefits are outstanding. At least one hug and one kiss a day from each of them? Who could ask for more?" I looked at the faces of my two friends, and then at Brad. His eyes were locked on me and he was shaking his head slowly back and forth.
"And you wonder why I love you so damned much," he said.
We finished our poker game and adjourned to the livingroom sofa, but not before I took a little trip to Lindsay's room. She was sound asleep, thank goodness, and I knew she would be there until morning.
* * * * *
"I bet the adoption being final is a big load off your mind, eh, Ted?" That was Nathan asking the question. We were sitting together on the sofa with my arms wrapped around Brad. Barry sat near Brad, holding Nathan in his own arms. Our beer bottles and munchies sat on the coffee table within easy reach.
"Oh, yeah."
"I know what you told us before about the twins," Barry said, "but from what that PI of yours said in court, and from what the twins said. . ."
"Please, Barry," I said softly. "They're
my sons now. That part of their lives is over. This is the only part I want to think about now. They still remember it. I want to make them forget."
"Sorry," Barry said just as softly. "I didn't mean anything. . ."
"I know. Let's not talk about it anymore."
"Okay," Barry said, "but I have one small question. Were abuse charges laid against the guy as well?"
"I don't think anyone even knew about it until the twins started talking about it in court. No charges were ever laid against him for it. The murder conviction is enough. He's going to be in prison for a very long time."
"How do you do it, Ted?" Nathan asked, probably to get the subject changed as quickly as possible. I was grateful for that.
"Do what?"
"Well," Nathan continued, "
everything. Your work, the house, the kids, Brad. How do you find time for everything and everyone?"
I smiled. I never saw myself as Super Dad, but everyone else seemed to see me that way. "Well, the work I
have to do. The kids? That's easy. They're my kids, and it's easy enough to find time for them. As for Brad, well, we make our time for each other with whatever is left over. And don't forget my Tiger, here," I said, giving Brad a hug and a kiss on his hair. "He does more than his share around here, and that makes more time for me. Then there's Terry, and Brad's parents. In a few weeks, my Mom and Dad will be here, too. They all make my job a bit easier."
Brad twisted around and looked at me. "And I thought I was here because of my pretty face and tight jeans."
"If I'm going to have a live-in babysitter, I might as well have one that I don't have to pay and looks good in denim."
"A live-in babysitter, eh? And what if I start wearing khakis?"
"Oooo," I said, raising my eyebrows. "Or maybe cargos. Or something in a nice, soft, narrow cord. Or maybe something in span. . ."
Brad's lips stopped me from continuing. Barry knew what I was going to say and started laughing. Nathan caught on a few moments later and joined his lover. Brad didn't laugh. He just kissed me.
When Brad reluctantly and finally ended the kiss, I glanced over at Barry and Nathan. "Wait until Summer gets here and he starts wearing his cut-offs," I said. "Woof!"
"Ted!" Brad's look of surprise was precious.
"Better than the Speedo?" Nathan asked.
"Oh-h-h-h-h, yeah."
If nothing else, it got Brad kissing me again. I'd have to remember that little trick.
Barry and Nathan ended up staying the night. I wouldn't let them drive home in their condition. They were good friends and houseguests, actually. Nathan always insisted on doing the cooking and Barry was always playing with the kids. It wasn't like they just sat there drinking beer and sucking up the air. They became part of the family when they were here.
Brad and I spooned ourselves in bed that night. He pressed himself up against my back, wrapped his arm around me and we fell asleep that way. When Lindsay woke us up the next morning, I was spooned against Brad's back.
"Daddy," Lindsay called from the doorway.
I was awake immediately and rolled over to look at her, but not before I took a quick peek at the alarm clock. It was ten minutes past six.
"What is it, Sweetheart?" I asked.
"We have to get ready for my party," she said hopefully.
I felt like telling her to go back to bed for another hour or two so I could go back to sleep for another hour or two, but I don't work that way. I could sleep later. If my daughter's party was important at six-ten in the morning, it was important to me as well.
"I'll be right there, Sweetheart," I smiled. Lindsay's face lit up. She was happy. "Wait for me in the kitchen, okay?"
"Okay, Daddy," she said and disappeared from the doorway.
I rolled back toward Brad and hugged him and kissed his neck. "You go back to sleep, Tiger," I whispered. "I'll take care of this."
Brad moaned, but it wasn't a moan of pleasure. It was a moan of agreement.
"I need a kiss first," I said.
He turned his head around to give it to me. When he turned his head away from me again, I lay there for a few moments gently stroking his hair and cheek. This time, I got a moan of pleasure out of him. I kissed his neck lightly once more and got out of bed.
Lindsay was already eating her cereal when the twins came tearing out of their bedroom and into their chairs at the kitchen table. I poured their orange juice and served it.
"Thank you, Daddy," they said.
"Can we have Rice Krispies?" Jeremy asked. Jeremy rarely ever spoke first, especially when it came to choosing what to have for breakfast.
"With a banana?" Justin added.
"Coming right up," I said as I set about preparing their cereal. I poured out the cereal into their bowls, sliced a banana on top of each, and set the bowls in front of the twins. I grabbed the milk pitcher and poured. As soon as I was done, the boys leaned their ears close to the bowls and began giggling to each other. Snap, Crackle, and Pop never ceased to amuse them. Rice Krispies is one of the happiest cereals ever invented.
I poured myself a mug of coffee and sat down to watch my children eat. I loved watching my kids eating. There was only one thing as important to me than them, and that was to make sure they were never hungry when they shouldn't be.
Back to business at hand, though. "Can you think of anything else you want for tonight, Sweetheart?"
She shook her head ‘no'. "I think we have everything."
"Don't worry," I told her. "If you think of something later, or if you run out of something, we can go get it, okay?"
"Thank you, Daddy."
"While you're at your Grandma's making your cupcakes, we'll go out and get some real wood for your campfire and sticks to roast your marshmallows."
"Are we going, Daddy?" Justin asked with undisguised excitement.
"Unless you want to stay here alone."
Both boys shook their heads back and forth so vigorously that their hair stood out straight.
"Then you can go."
Their twinkling eyes met mine and the sweetest little smiles formed on their lips. Those were the faces that could turn the rainiest day into blue skies and sunshine.
After breakfast, I sent the kids off to brush their teeth and to get changed while I cleaned up the table and wiped up the toast crumbs from the counter before sitting down to another mug of coffee. Soon, I was being entertained by the sounds of Saturday morning cartoons.
The evening before, Nathan had asked me ‘how I did it'. To be frank, I didn't know. It comes with the territory. Somehow, somewhere, I find it inside me to do what was necessary. If you love your kids as much as I do, you find a way. You forget about the short nights of sleep and the early mornings and long days. You forget about all the tears and pain. You forget about all the time you spend providing for them. You forget about all the exhaustion and the sore muscles. You forget about everything when you see one of their smiles. That alone stamps the bill, "Paid In Full."
As I was drinking my second mug of coffee, Nathan wandered into the kitchen.
"‘Morning," he said cheerfully. "Have you eaten?"
"Nope," I replied. "Not yet."
Nathan moved to the refrigerator and began gathering things to cook up. "Barry will be right up," he said. "How do you feel about pancakes this morning?"
"Sounds yummy," I answered. "There's a mix in the pantry."
"Don't ever say that word around me again," Nathan warned.
I turned to look at him. "What word?"
"Mix."
"You make pancakes from scratch?" I asked. He smiled at me as if I should have been embarrassed for even asking. "Never mind. Stupid question. Jeremy!"
A few seconds later, the sounds of running footsteps came flying into the room and Jeremy slid to a stop beside me and parked his arms on my leg as he looked up at me.
"Go wake up Brad," I said. And off he went. Moments later, I heard the wild, hysterical giggling of a little boy drifting down the hall from my bedroom. Brad's laugh soon joined in.
"Pancakes for four," Nathan said, "and coffee for twelve."
I turned back to my coffee and listened to the sounds of my son's and my lover's happiness. Barry arrived soon after and took his place across the corner from me.
"Sleep well?" I asked as Nathan set a mug of coffee in front of his partner.
"Eventually," he said with a wink. "So, what's on your agenda for today?"
"Gathering wood for the fireplace tonight so the girls can make S'mores."
"Why don't you have a little campfire out back?" he asked.
I hastily shushed him and leaned toward Barry and whispered, "I didn't think we could do that in town."
"Sure, as long as it's a small fire and you don't leave it unattended," Barry said in a hushed voice. "Besides, you're sort of cooking food on it, so it counts as a barbeque."
My heart began to pound with excitement. "Do you know how to make one? A real one?"
"Campfire?"
I nodded.
"Yes."
"Could you do it without Lindsay knowing about it?"
"Ah," Barry said, nodding in understanding and tapping the side of his nose with his index finger. "A little surprise for her."
I nodded. "Yes. Can you do it?"
Barry smiled and winked again. "Leave it to me."
Impulsively, I leaned closer and kissed him on the lips.
"Hey! Hey! Hey!" Nathan said jokingly. "What's going on there?"
Barry and I separated and Barry put his finger to his lips and motioned Barry forward.
"Ted's asked me to stay and build a surprise campfire for Lindsay's party tonight so the girls can toast marshmallows and make S'mores."
Nathan's eyes lit. "Oh, what a wonderful surprise," he whispered softly. "Do you have any hotdogs, Ted?"
I shook my head. "Not many."
"Please, Ted. Let me plan it?" Nathan asked excitedly. "I'll buy the hotdogs and buns and we can give them a weenie and marshmallow roast. We can get Barry's guitar, too. He can't sing worth shit, but he can play."
I looked from Nathan's face to Barry's. They both looked so excited. "Thanks, guys," I said, and I gave them
both a kiss this time.
"Leave it to me, Ted. I'll make sure Lindsay has a surprise she'll never forget."
Jeremy came running into the kitchen then, skidding to a stop again as Nathan returned to his preparations. "Brad's awake, Daddy," he said, grinning.
"So I heard."
"Do I get a kiss?" he asked.
"You get more than that, my Sonskyn." I picked him up and hugged him tight before giving him a great big smack on the lips.
Jeremy wrapped his arms around my neck and hugged me back. Then he suddenly let go, said "I'm done", and climbed down off my lap to run and join his brother and sister in front of the television set.
Barry found that uproariously amusing.
* * * * *
By the time Lindsay went to join Bernice to bake her cupcakes for the party, we four adults had secretly planned the surprise. John Hayes had a small stack of old chimney bricks stored at the side of his shed. They would be perfect for making a surround for the campfire. Nathan and Barry would leave after breakfast to go buy the hotdogs and buns. Nathan would bring the barbeque skewers for cooking the hotdogs. Barry would bring his guitar. They would come back and we would wait until Mark was finished his work before going to gather the wood for the fire and sticks with which to roast the marshmallows.
Later, Nathan and I would help Lindsay get everything ready for the party and Brad and Barry would build the campfire surround and chop up the wood. To keep her off our trail, we would even set the fireplace so Lindsay wouldn't know anything until later that night when the fire was burning and all the food was prepared. We would than all go outside at the same time to unveil the surprise.
I was getting just as excited as Lindsay. Now, I had to think of a way to get them all outside.
To Be Continued