WATCHING BRAD
Part 179
I can remember the first time I ever went to a movie theatre and the movie I watched there that day. I was four years old and Mom and Dad took me to see
Star Wars. I can remember having seen the promotional trailers on television and wanting so much to be like the golden android (I called him a robot) C3PO. I can remember walking stiff-legged around the house with my crooked arms stuck out at my sides and my head jerking stiffly and making funny creaking sounds with my voice, trying to be the best 3PO I could be. Sometimes I would pretend to be R2D2 and beep and squeak and squeal like him, but I preferred to be 3PO. I also remember begging and nagging my parents relentlessly until they finally caved and took me to see it. I loved the movie and it quickly became a favourite which I still enjoy watching today.
In one particularly humourous scene in that movie, 3PO and R2 were playing holographic chess aboard the
Millennium Falcon with Chewbacca. R2 made a move which angered the giant Wookie who roared his displeasure. C3PO couldn't understand Chewie's anger, but Han Solo, the renegade pilot of the
Falcon, reminded the golden-hued android that Wookies weren't averse to ripping arms and legs out of their sockets when they lose.
I was reminded of that scene as I approached Daniel's father, looking at the large, T-shirt covered chest with the large arms crossed over it, and wondered if he was also prone to ripping limbs out of sockets when he became angry. Truth be told, he certainly looked as though he could do it and I wondered for a brief moment what his punishment would be for drawing and quartering someone with his bare hands in this century.
Like Barry and Brad, the man was a mesomorph with all the upper-body bulk and mass which comes with it. His hair was cut short with a flat top and had the colour of wet beach sand. As I drew nearer, I could see was clean-shaven, but there was a definite stubble. Not surprising, really, since it was Sunday and it was, quite likely, his day off from shaving. His nose was slightly crooked, quite possibly from having been broken at some time in his past. I also noticed that he had a small dragon tattooed on his right biceps, it's tail wrapping around the inside of his arm.
A swift peek at the front window showed Daniel and his mother still standing there, watching the drama unfold in front of them.
Before I knew it, I standing in front of the man and I suddenly realized that I had no idea what I was going to say or do. All I knew was that seven sets of eyes were on me and they were all waiting for me to make the first move.
My face obeyed my brain and forced itself into as pleasant a smile as it could manage and my hand extended itself in greeting. "Good morning," I said cheerfully as I could. At least I
hoped it sounded cheerful. "I'm Ted de Villiers."
Daniel's father remained standing there with his arms crossed over his chest, the tattoo dragon's jaws agape and ready to eat me for lunch. The man's eyes dropped momentarily to my extended hand, then back up to my eyes, but he made no move to shake it.
I dropped my cheerful demeanor and my hand. "Look," I said, my voice hushing to a more private and personal level, "I'm not here to cause any trouble. I don't want a confrontation in front of the kids. All I want to do is to pick up Daniel so he can go swimming and have a barbeque with my daughter like they've planned."
"Ain't gonna happen, pal," the man said. "Might as well just get your faggot ass back in your van and drag it back home."
I hated that word, but I put it out of my mind for the moment. "Might I ask why?"
"Oh, you know why," he replied with one corner of his lips curling up slightly and his eyebrows curling down into an evil smirk. He dropped his arms to his sides as he turned toward his front door.
"Wait, please," I begged in a loud ‘stage whisper'. "Can't we talk about this?"
He turned back to me, his rugged face fierce and intimidating. "Nothing to talk about, fag. I don't trust you around my kid. You get what I'm puttin' down?"
"Yes, I do, but do you get that I'm expected to trust my daughter around
you?"
His face flushed a deep shade of red in his sudden anger and his chest swelled in preparation for the pummelling I expected to receive. I instinctively took a small step back from him. "How
dare you say such a thing about me," he growled ominously. "I wouldn't
touch your daughter.
"And I would never touch your son. That's precisely why we need to talk about this. Five minutes, please. It's all I ask."
"I wouldn't give you five seconds, you fruitcake," he replied in a harsh, husky whisper. "Now, get the hell off my property!"
Once again he turned away from me. Through the front window of his house, I could see the sad, moist, tear-stained face of his son. I knew instinctively that the same look was on the face of my daughter. My brain reacted automatically. "Did your son go right to sleep last night or was he too excited to sleep?" I said loudly, grasping at the only straw which came to my mind.
It was enough. The man stopped and turned around to face me again. "What business is it of yours?"
"Please," I begged, "just tell me."
"It took him a long time to go to sleep," he replied. "How did you know?"
I pounced while I had his attention. "My daughter was so excited last night she got me out of bed and I had to hold her until she finally fell asleep in my arms. And now she doesn't understand what's going on. I suspect your son doesn't understand, either. My daughter is worth every minute of the rest of my life to me. Surely your son is worth five minutes of your time."
He stood there, staring me down and holding my gaze, but he didn't dismiss me. At least he was thinking about it. I held my breath until he spoke again. "I'll give you two."
"Thank you," I breathed out finally. "First of all, may I ask your name?"
He hesitated a few moments, considering, then said, "Dan Phillips."
"Named after your son, I see," I said, trying to make a joke.
His response was more of a reminder than a joke: "Tick tick tick."
I heaved a deep breath and forged ahead. "Okay. I can see you have problem with me and my lifestyle, but it isn't the only time Daniel's going to encounter it, if he hasn't encountered it already. Wouldn't it be better for you to teach him how to take care of himself rather than to fear it?"
"I
am teaching him to take care of himself."
"No, Dan," I told him, "you're not. You're teaching him that it's better to hate it and avoid it rather than to understand it. Tell me. Does he know I'm gay?"
"He knows you married another man."
"And what does he think about it?"
"I don't know," Dan replied firmly. "I'm not even sure he knows what it means and I didn't ask."
"Well, maybe you should," I told him. "His answer might surprise you."
I could see Dan working his jaw and I could see his temples and cheekbones pulsating in concentration, but he held his tongue and crossed his arms over his chest again. His gaze dropped away from mine as he contemplated my words.
"Believe me, Dan," I continued, "I understand where you're coming from. I've been down this road before. But you have to trust me that all gay people aren't like you imagine us to be. Daniel will be perfectly safe around me, my family, and my friends. I'd never let anything happen to him."
Dan's eyes returned to mine and his look was fierce. His biceps tensed up to astonishing sizes. "I'd kill anyone who tried."
"So would I, Dan," I told him assuredly. "Just as I'd kill anyone who tried to take advantage of my daughter. That's what fathers do. But fathers also do what they can to make their children happy."
"My son is happy," he growled.
"Is he, Dan?" I nodded toward the front window. "Is he really? Look at him. Does he look like he's happy?"
Dan slowly turned his head to look at his son. Daniel was still standing there, as was his mother. Neither had moved, and tears were still clearly evident on the boy's cheeks.
"Look, Dan," I finished when he finally turned back toward me, "come with him if you like. Both you and your wife. Come for the afternoon and join us for the barbeque. Get to know us before you make a final decision, but at least let our children have this afternoon together. It's what they both want, and I think it's up to both of us to make it happen for them."
Dan's arms relaxed, as did his face. He looked away from me, but his eyebrows raised in deep thought. He was considering the option. I took advantage of his silence and pressed ahead. "My parents will be there. Brad's parents will be there, too, and a few of my friends. If you still feel the same way later on, we'll deal with it then, but we will have made both our children happy for one day."
His eyes lifted to mine once more and he drew in a deep breath, held it for a long moment, then let it out again. "These friends of yours," he said. "Are they gay or straight?"
"They're gay," I told him without hesitation. "Lindsay asked her Uncle Nathan to do the barbeque for her so Daniel wouldn't have to eat my hockey puck burgers."
Dan actually smiled at that. It wasn't a big one, but it was clearly a smile. "I know how to make those." The smile disappeared again as Dan looked over his shoulder at his son once more. I looked, too. Daniel was staring back at his father. He still looked sad, but there was something else in his face now. I believe it was ‘hope'. Father and son held gazes for quite some time before the father looked back at me one more time. Our eyes locked and I tried to read what was in his, but I couldn't be certain.
Finally, he dropped his arms to his side again and looked back over his shoulder once more and, with a small twitch of his head, he motioned his wife to come outside. She immediately patted their son lightly on his shoulders and a questioning look came over her face. It was clear that she was asking if Daniel should accompany her. Dan nodded. Daniel beat his mother to the door and was outside and standing beside his father in the blink of an eye. His wife joined us moments later and came to a stop behind her young son.
"You've already met my son," Dan said to me.
"Hello, Daniel," I smiled pleasantly.
"Hello, Mr. de Villiers," he replied with a polite but wary smile.
"And this is my wife, Tilly."
Her hand came out in greeting and I took it in mine. Her grip was firm, but friendly and sincere, as was her smile. Her dark hair was cut shoulder-length and it's auburn tinge, clearly evident in the early afternoon sun, explained Daniel's hint of strawberry blond locks. She was a slim, tiny woman, barely reaching her husband's shoulder, but her face was naturally pretty and pleasant and required very little make-up. She very much looked a sensible and down-to-earth woman, much like Connie had once been during our early years of marriage.
"I'm very pleased to meet you," Tilly said cheerfully and without reservation. Apparently she didn't share her husband's thoughts and beliefs.
"Ted de Villiers," I returned, "and it's very nice to meet you."
"de Villiers," she repeated with raised eyebrows. "South African?"
My own eyebrows went up in surprise. "How did you know?"
"I went to university with a girl from South Africa," she explained. "Somewhere just north of Cape Town, it think. Her last name was de Villiers, too. Such a sweet, quiet girl. She grew up in Canada but she still had the most delightful accent. Her family raised wolfhounds."
"My father is Afrikaaner," I told her. "He's been in Canada for over thirty years, but he still has his accent. My mother. . ."
Dan Phillips cleared his throat to gather our attention. We gave it to him. "We've got business to attend to, remember?" he asked with undisguised annoyance in his voice. He didn't wait for a response. Instead, he crouched down in front of his son and put his large hands on Daniel's thin arms. His wife placed her hands on Daniel's shoulders as she had been doing inside the house. "Danny? I have a very important question to ask you. Do you know what a fag is?"
Daniel nodded. "Yeah, but you shouldn't use that word, Dad."
"What word?"
"That ‘F' word you just said," young Daniel replied. "It's not a very nice word."
"What? Fag?"
Daniel nodded. "Yeah. That one. I don't like it. Only bullies and mean people say that word. There's another word for people who don't like other people who are different. It starts with a ‘pre-', but I don't remember what it is."
"Prejudiced?" Tilly Phillips suggested.
"Yeah, Mom," Daniel replied as he twisted his head around and up to look at his mother. "That's it."
Dan Phillip's brow furrowed in confusion. I doubt if he had expected to hear that from his own son. "Where did you hear that?"
"In school. We've been studying it in Current Events and we've talked about it in Sex Ed." Dan glanced briefly up at his wife, but Daniel continued, maintaining everyone's attention with his candor. "Did you know gay people can get married now, Dad? In a church and everything, just like you and Mom did. Mr. de Villiers and his friend got married last weekend."
"You knew they were fa. . . er. . . ‘gay'?"
Daniel nodded again. "Lindsay told me a long time ago."
Dan stood up, towering over his son and forcing him to look up. "Why didn't you tell me before?"
"I didn't think it was important, Dad."
"Not important?" Dan said, surprised. "The guy could have been a perv who preys on boys your age, or haven't they taught you that in school yet?"
"Our teachers have talked about people like that," Daniel explained, "but Lindsay's dad isn't like that."
"If he
was, Honey," his wife said, interrupting suddenly, "I don't think Mr. de Villiers would have been allowed to adopt his sons."
Dan Phillips harrumphed. "Oh, come off it, Tilly.
Anyone can adopt these days if they've got enough money to buy a kid through the black market."
"Not when you adopt through Children's Aid," I told him.
This, too, surprised the elder Phillips. "You adopted through Children's Aid?"
"Yes, I did," I told him. "Identical twins. I didn't expect it to happen so fast, but CAS had been waiting two years for someone like me to walk through their doors."
"What do you mean?" Tilly asked.
"The boys were abandoned by their mother when they were babies," I explained, "and they were left to be raised by their gay father. He was murdered by his abusive lover when the boys were only two years old. It was two days before someone found them, and their father was lying within arm's reach of their playpen."
Tilly's hands slid off her son's shoulders and down to his chest where they instinctively pulled the boy closer to her - not to protect him from me, but to protect him from what had happened to Justin and Jeremy. "Oh, dear God," she whispered into the afternoon sun. "Those poor dears. How are they doing now?"
"They're doing fine, thank you," I said to her. "Shall I. . ."
"What about Lindsay?" Dan interrupted. "Is she adopted, too?"
"No, she's my daughter," I said. "Her mother and I are divorced."
"Figures," Dan Phillips mumbled.
"That's not why I divorced her," I told him. "It's a long story, but you'll just have to believe me that being gay had nothing to do with it."
"Does your ex know you're gay?"
"Dan!"
"Yes, Dan," I said, trying to keep my temper and to maintain my composure. "She knew all about it. In fact, she tried to use it against me when I took her to court for custody of Lindsay. She lost."
"The judge knew you were gay," he said, "and he
still gave you custody over your ex?"
"That's what we've been trying to tell you, Honey," Tilly interjected. "Don't you see? It doesn't matter that he's gay. Not anymore. Mr. de Villiers and everyone like him have rights, too, and you're trying to take them away from him. You really should listen to your son, Dan. Things have changed a lot since you were his age, and they're changing more every day."
"And the judge was a ‘she', not a ‘he'," I added for extra impact.
Dan Phillips slowly shook his head back and forth as his gaze shifted to the ground in front of him. "This is all just too freakin' weird."
"Then accept my invitation, Dan. All three of you are welcome to come to my parents' place this afternoon and stay for the barbeque. The kids will have the afternoon that they want and you'll have a chance to get to know us better. We'll all be able to sit down and explain everything to you and answer all of your questions. I'd really rather we didn't get another Capulet/Montague thing going on with our families."
Dan looked at his wife, his brow raised in question. "Romeo and Juliet," she said softly.
"Oh," he said. "Right."
The sounds of the city were all around us, but we were suddenly surrounded by an eerie silence as we all waited for Dan Phillips to make his decision. Three sets of eyes were locked on him and he looked into mine first, his brown eyes boring into me in search of whatever he needed to see in them. I'm not sure what he was hoping to find, but he searched for a very long time and I made certain that I held his intimidating gaze as stoically as I could. I think he was impressed that I refused to back down and cower under his glare.
Then he looked into his wife's hopeful eyes, reading her thoughts and emotions for a time before turning lowering his gaze to his son's anxious face. Daniel's eyes were open wide and I could see him chewing nervously on his lower lip. He didn't blink once.
Time seemed to stand still as Daniel looked up into his father's face. And then Daniel's voice, barely a whisper in the air, said, "Please, Dad. I really want to go."
Suddenly, Dan Phillips' hard, rugged face softened. His boy had done something that neither I nor his wife had been able to do. Daniel Phillips Junior had been able to break him. It was like that scene in that cartoon classic
How the Grinch Stole Christmas when the Grinch finally understands the real meaning of Christmas and all the anger and disgust washes out of his face. Dan's face went through a very similar transformation.
"Okay," he said. "We'll go."
To Be Continued