WATCHING BRAD
Part 181
I don't think anyone was more surprised by Tilly's boisterous proclamation than Barry himself.
"I've been sitting here," Tilly continued excitedly, "thinking I'd met you before and trying to figure out where. It finally came to me when Dan said you're a police officer."
"I'm sorry, Ma'am," Barry offered politely, "I meet so many people. . ."
"Oh, of course," Tilly said. "I wouldn't expect you to remember me. It was so long ago."
Barry gave her a pleasant smile and held up one hand in self-defense. "Look, if it had anything to do with a ticket, I'm afraid I can't. . ."
Tilly laughed out loud, a cheerful, uplifting laugh, and it only made me like her more. "Oh, you silly!" she said through her laugh. "No, it was last January during that ice and snow storm."
"Blue Toyota," Barry said, nodding. "Four-Oh-One overpass."
Tilly's eyes twinkled. "You
do remember."
"I do now," Barry smiled. "You had longer hair back then."
"Yes, I did."
"We saw that on the news," I said. "You were in that?"
"Right in the middle of it," Tilly said almost proudly.
"What happened?" my mother asked.
"A nasty bit of weather," Barry explained, "which happened just in time for the afternoon rush hour. A nice layer of freezing rain before the snow hit. Made a helluva mess of the roads. Tilly got caught in a chain reaction. Nothing really serious, and no-one was really hurt, but she got stuck with her front bumper kissing the backside of a UPS truck and was wedged between an SUV and the guardrail. Shoved her right into the rail and pinned her against the concrete. A taxi blocked her in from behind."
"Oh, dear," Mom said to Tilly as she shook her head and clicked her tongue. "Tsk Tsk Tsk. That must have been ever-so-frightening for you."
"I was absolutely
terrified," Tilly continued, "and yelling and screaming for help. I couldn't get out of my car. But then Barry came along and checked to see if I was okay and I said I was and he promised that he would be right back. He ran to a few other cars behind me to make sure everyone was okay and then came right back and stayed with me until they could get the SUV moved out of the way. It took Barry and two other guys to pry the door open. I didn't know how badly it was crumpled in until I got out and could see it. If I hadn't been so cold, I think I might have fainted."
"Are you the one who gave her your coat?" Dan asked our policeman friend.
"That was me," Barry replied.
"Coat?" a surprised Nathan asked. "You didn't tell me about giving someone your coat. No wonder it took me two hours to get you warmed up again that night."
"Whoa!" Dan exclaimed as he held up his hands. "TMI!"
"Well," Tilly interrupted, "I, for one, am extremely grateful for your sacrifice. I was so cold."
"It was my pleasure to help."
"Hey, don't get me wrong, man," Dan added. "I'm grateful, too, but what I don't understand is why you did it."
"I beg your pardon?" Barry said.
Dan leaned forward in his chair, clasping his hands together and leaning on his knees with his elbows. "I mean, I could understand if it was me or some other guy, but why would you give up your coat for my wife?"
"Maybe because she was cold?" Barry offered, his voice rising sarcastically. His sarcasm, however, was wasted on Dan Phillips.
"But she's a women."
"Obviously," Barry said with a quick glance toward Tilly. "And your point is. . . ?"
"Well, you're gay."
Barry sat back in his chair and stared at Dan Phillips for a few long moments before saying, "That has to be the stupidest thing I've ever heard anyone say."
Dan Phillips looked positively stunned. "Why?" He asked. "It makes perfect sense."
"How do you figure?" Barry asked.
Dan shrugged his shoulders in confusion. "Well, it stands to reason, doesn't it? I mean, you're gay, right? You like shaggin' guys, right? You don't like girls, right? So why would you go out of your way to help them?" He sat back and a rather boastful look crossed his ruggedly-handsome face. "Admit it, Barry. If it had been me in that car instead of my wife, not only would have given me your coat, you probably would have carried me off that bridge, too, right?"
Barry remained silent.
Dan grinned widely, almost in triumph, as his hands swept down his sides, indicating his body. "Just as I thought. Like you could pass
this up."
"Not only would I have passed it up, Dan," Barry replied finally, "I would have let you freeze your ass off."
Dan glanced quickly at Nathan, then back to Barry and leaned forward in a conspiratorial whisper, raising his flattened hand to his cheek to hide his lips from Nathan's eyes. "Right," he replied. "Gotcha. Our little secret." And then, with a wink, he sat back again.
Barry sighed heavily in exasperation and sat back in his chair. Everyone was deadly silent as the two squared off. The silence was broken only by the sounds of nature and of the children playing across the yard.
Finally, Barry spoke again. "Tell me, Dan. If you were walking down the street and you saw a man with his arm in a cast and trying to change a flat tire, would you help?"
"Sure," Dan replied, practically swelling his chest in pride. "Why wouldn't I?"
"Well, you're straight, right?" Barry continued. "You like shaggin' the ladies, right? Why would you even think of helping another guy?"
Dan Phillips opened his mouth to speak and suddenly closed it again and sat back in his chair. I swear, if it had been a cartoon afternoon, a light bulb would have appeared over Dan's head and the light bulb would have came on. He slumped back in his chair and practically shrank into it as if he were trying to disappear entirely.
"Do you have any gay friends, Dan?" I asked.
Dan shook his head ‘no'.
"Do you even know any gay people?"
"Except for you guys, no. But you guys are nothing like I figured you would be."
"And what did you figure we would be like?" I asked, curiosity getting the better of me.
"I thought you'd be like that fairy guy on
Will and Grace, but you're more like Will and I always thought he was so phoney. I mean, you see those fairy guys prancing all over the city and swishing around. That's what I expected you'd be like. I didn't think you'd be acting like me."
"We're not acting, Dan," I assured him. "This is the real us. Not all gay guys act like Jack McFarland. A lot of us are pretty-much just like everyone else. Even you."
"I'm beginning to see that, Ted," Dan admitted. He glanced over at Lindsay and Daniel who were still sitting on the swings and talking quietly together. They were holding fingers. Dan Phillips looked back at me. . . at us. "Look. I don't particularly like what you are, and I won't even pretend to understand it. I'm not sure if I ever will. I don't agree with your lifestyle, but it's your lifestyle, not mine." He glanced back at his son again. "All I want is for my boy to be happy."
"That's all
any parent wants for their child." That, surprisingly, was from Bernice Hayes, but she stole the words right out of my mouth and spoke them for me.
"Amen," said Tilly Phillips softly, repeated by Bernice and my mother.
Dan leaned forward, his fingers entwined and his elbows resting on his knees. I watched him as he watched his hands, his right thumb rubbing against the valley of skin on his left hand between his other thumb and index finger. That was the first time I noticed the little, blue, tattooed star there. When he looked up again, he looked at our parents. "When did you figure out your sons were gay?"
"When they told us," John Hayes replied.
"But you must have had
some idea," Dan insisted. "You
had to know they were gay, right?"
"One cannot suspect what one's child does not even know," Dad replied.
Dan Phillips appeared totally perplexed. "I'm not sure I follow you. Are you saying they didn't know they were gay?"
"Indeed," Dad said.
Dan nodded. I thought he was beginning to understand until he spoke. "They were in denial."
"No," Dad replied. "They were looking for love in the wrong people until they met each other."
Dan looked at me then. "You mean you didn't know you were gay until you met Brad?"
"No," I replied honestly. "I never even thought about being gay until I met Brad. Until that moment, I was very happy being straight." I jerked my head in Lindsay's direction. "In fact, being straight gave me the most precious gift life can give someone. But, when you fall in love, you fall in love with the person. I fell in love with Brad, and then I adapted to it because I had to if I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him."
Again, Tilly said softly, "Amen."
Dan Phillips shook his head back and forth. "One of these days, you're going to have to sit down and explain all of this to me."
"Any time," I told him.
Dan looked back at his son and my daughter for a few long, silent moment, before turning his attention back to me. "Promise me you won't let anyone hurt my kid," he said.
"Promise me the same," I told him.
"You first," Dan replied.
I nodded slightly and gave him a sincere smile. He needed to feel in control, and it was a feeling I knew well. "I'll take care of Daniel for you."
Dan Phillips nodded. "And I'll take care of Lindsay for
you."
He stood up then and stepped toward me, his hand held out before him. I took it and shook it. His powerful grip was an indication of what he could do to me if I broke my promise. The look in my eye told him what I would do to him if he broke
his promise.
"Truce?" he said.
"Truce," I replied.
* * * * *
The barbeque supper was over. Nathan had outdone himself with his hamburgers and they tasted better than they had ever tasted before. He'd somehow found yet another secret ingredient to add to them which made them even more special than ever.
The Phillips family had gone home, but John and Bernice remained behind and were sitting in the kitchen playing Euchre with Mom and Dad and drinking tea and coffee. The twins were in the bathtub and Nathan and Barry sat in the livingroom with Brad and I. Lindsay came in from the kitchen, bored from watching her grandparents playing cards, and climbed into my lap, straddling my legs and wrapping her arms around my neck and giving me a great big hug.
"Thank you, Daddy," she said.
"You're welcome, Sweetheart."
She leaned back, her hands still clasped behind my neck as she looked into my eyes and asked, "Do you think Daniel had fun?"
"Oh, I
know he did, Sweetheart."
"Really?" she asked. "I was hoping he did, but I couldn't tell."
"Probably because you were worrying too much that he
wasn't," I told her, and then I puckered up my lips for her to kiss. She didn't disappoint me.
She leaned back again. "Do you think he likes me?"
Nathan was eager to answer for me. "Oh, my Princess, he likes you alright. I saw how he carried your hamburger and your Sprite for you when you went back to the swings, and then he walked all the way over to the table to get you a piece of cake with
two scoops of ice cream for dessert, right?"
Lindsay nodded.
"Well," Nathan concluded, "boys only get two scoops of ice cream for girls they like. Girls that they
don't like only get
one scoop."
Lindsay appeared skeptical. "Really?"
It was Barry's turn to speak. "Your Uncle Nathan really likes you, doesn't he?"
Again, Lindsay nodded.
"How many scoops of ice cream does he always give to you and your brothers?"
"Two," she replied.
"And how many scoops do the rest of us get?"
She thought for a moment before answering. "Only one. Except for Brad. He gets as many as he wants."
"He's special," Barry smiled, trying to hide his blush, "but you're right."
"So, Uncle Nathan likes me and J and J and Brad more than he likes you and Daddy?"
Barry smiled his most charming smile and nodded. "Apparently," he replied. "And that's how we can tell that Daniel likes you very much. Boys don't do things like that for girls they don't like."
Lindsay turned her eyes back to mine and I watched as the light of happiness flood into her face, and I felt the warms of happiness flooding into my heart.
Beside me, Brad jabbed me playfully in the ribs. "Hear that, Pops? I'm special."
I gave him my best smile and said, "I know. Now you can cart that special butt of yours upstair and get the boys out of the tub."
"Your command is my wish," Brad grinned and leaned forward to kiss me.
As Brad rose to his feet, I said to Lindsay, "It's your turn next, Sweetheart. Do you want some help filling the tub?"
"Can I have a shower tonight?"
"Sure, if you want to," I told her. "Just make sure the shower curtain is inside the tub, okay? And make sure to stand on the rubber mat. I don't want you slipping and falling."
"I will." She grabbed me in her arms once more and hugged me close. "I love you, Daddy," she whispered into my ear.
"I love you, too, Sweetheart," I whispered back and sent her on her way.
When she was gone, I asked Barry and Nathan. "What do you think of Dan? Any hope for him?"
"Oh, I think so, Ted," Nathan said. "Sure, he came here in the first place just for his son, but I could see changes in him from the time he got here until he left. Like in the swimming pool. At first, it was like he was trying to stay as far away from you as possible, like we were contagious or something. But, when you were in there after we had that talk, I was watching him as I did the barbeque. He didn't seem to have a problem at all anymore."
"Yeah. And when Brad started roughhousing with me," Barry added, picking up the conversation, "and all the kids joined in, Dan got into it as well and even got into tackling and dunking us, and he let us tackle and dunk him, too. When we first met and he shook my hand, I felt like he was doing everything he could just to keep himself from blowing chunks all over me. By the end, though, we were almost like buddies or something."
"I noticed that, too," I said.
"I'm pretty sure he'll come around, Ted," Nathan concluded. "It might take some time for him to settle in completely, but as long as Daniel and Lindsay remain friends. And he seems genuinely eager to learn. I don't think he'll be a problem anymore."
* * * * *
The night was warm and humid again and the four of us went back outside for one more dip in the pool before Barry and Nathan went home. We laughed and played like a bunch of college freshmen. Later, we sat together on the side of the pool with our feet dangling in the water.
"You going to stay here until you get the new house built, Ted?" Barry asked.
"Gee-sus, Murphy, I hope not!" I told him emphatically. "I had enough of living with my parents when they moved here from Crystal Beach, and that was just for a few weeks. I couldn't handle it here for the months it would take to rebuild."
"Going to rent, then?"
"Probably. We can't stay here anyway when the kids start school in September. I don't want them getting bused to another school and then have to change again when the house is built and we move back."
"So, you'll be looking for a place in the same district," Nathan commented, nodding his head gently.
"Yup."
"Doesn't really give you much time, does it?"
"No, it doesn't," I sighed. "Worse comes to worst, though, we'll stay in motel suite. There's a few in our district."
"Expensive," Barry commented.
I shrugged my shoulders. "The fire insurance will pay most of it. I'll just have to pick up the slack."
"Well, anything we can do to help, just ask, okay?" That was from Nathan.
"If you don't, I'll handcuff you both to each other." I don't have to tell you who said
that.
"Ooo!" Brad exclaimed excitedly. "That could be fun!"
I had to agree.
To Be Continued