I think I know how you're feeling Arecibo, as I felt the same way recently, it did not turn out well for me.
My 'friends' rejected me when I came out, but I still missed them. I still loved them as friends even though they no longer reciprocated. I was feeling incredibly vulnerable and lonely one night, I thought about all of the fun times we had together over the past 7+ years, and decided to call one of them to see what they were doing that night. I just needed to show them that I was still the same person, I needed them to know that there was no reason to reject me, that we could still be friends ---- HORRIBLE idea. Absolutely fucking horrible, the conversation went something like this...
My friend: Hello?
Me: Hey man, it's Andy, what's up?
My friend: Umm, not a lot, I'm just with x, x and x
My friend in the background (speaking to my friend I was on the phone with): Who's that you're talking to?
My friend (speaking to my other friend): It's Andy
My friend in the background: Oh...Fuck that faggot.
*Cue laughter from 3 people*
***I hang up feeling like a worthless piece of shit***
People change, and it's not always for the better. Sometimes, despite how much it hurts, we just have to let people go, or let them let us go. Cherish the memories you have with him, but tread very, very carefully with this. Not a lot of time has passed and there could still be a lot of resentment on his behalf. Just be careful not to let memories of the past cloud your judgment.
