ariesstar89
Porn Star
Bout two years ago this time, the posts from me were surrounding a relationship that was ending and the pain of finally moving on. He was my first relationship, first sex, alot of firsts, etc etc..blah blah blah. Time has passed, and we've both moved on, we've both dated and have keep contact with each other as nothing more than mere acquaintance with one another. For the record, I knew going into the relationship of his past.
He had done some work with some porn companies prior to us even meeting. And he let me know of this right away. I was fine with it, it didn't bother me. The past is the past, and I can't hold certain things against people when I didn't even know them, or know of it (certain things that is). We dated for about 6 months or so, he never really did that kind of thing anymore. He simply needed money, but also liked the aspect of it or whatever. Didn't bother me so long as he wasn't doing it anymore, or that he'd let me know if something came up.
He had a few offers to come again and do a shoot or whatever, and I think he did a photoshoot once but he let me know so again no big deal. He tried to get me to watch a vid with him in it, but wasn't comfortable with it, so we just watched the other scenes.
I guess I should get on to what I'm making this post about. As most guys do, I got worked up and decided to browse the web for a quick vid to get off to. I checked my normal sites, with nothing catching my eye. When I decided to try a video site I don't normally use. And the first video caption I saw a guy looking similar to him, so I clicked it (against better instinct). Guy looked more like him, guy sounded like him. Then clothes came off, and I knew in an instant it was him (he's kinda rememorable after seeing parts of him). And as much as I wanted to click the back button, I watched some of it.
Seeing him do those things, and all that, I don't know why..but it tore at my stomach a bit. Needless to say, I lost my mojo immediately and came here to vent some rage a bit. I mean, I know he's expressed interest in modeling again, and I've told him to go for it if he wants to and what not, but I think he's wrapped up with work its hard for him to. It was probably just an old video, I guess it shouldn't matter, but it still tore at me a bit. I suppose thats what happens when ya see your first 'love' normally, but to see him get it on with another guy just makes it worse. Kinda brought it upon myself by clicking on it. But it is what it is..
Anyways, this post probably doesn't make sense to a particular extent. I just needed to vent. And now I have, my stomach is less tense. Hopefully just take a lesson learned, and teach you to watch out if you aren't too careful.
He had done some work with some porn companies prior to us even meeting. And he let me know of this right away. I was fine with it, it didn't bother me. The past is the past, and I can't hold certain things against people when I didn't even know them, or know of it (certain things that is). We dated for about 6 months or so, he never really did that kind of thing anymore. He simply needed money, but also liked the aspect of it or whatever. Didn't bother me so long as he wasn't doing it anymore, or that he'd let me know if something came up.
He had a few offers to come again and do a shoot or whatever, and I think he did a photoshoot once but he let me know so again no big deal. He tried to get me to watch a vid with him in it, but wasn't comfortable with it, so we just watched the other scenes.
I guess I should get on to what I'm making this post about. As most guys do, I got worked up and decided to browse the web for a quick vid to get off to. I checked my normal sites, with nothing catching my eye. When I decided to try a video site I don't normally use. And the first video caption I saw a guy looking similar to him, so I clicked it (against better instinct). Guy looked more like him, guy sounded like him. Then clothes came off, and I knew in an instant it was him (he's kinda rememorable after seeing parts of him). And as much as I wanted to click the back button, I watched some of it.
Seeing him do those things, and all that, I don't know why..but it tore at my stomach a bit. Needless to say, I lost my mojo immediately and came here to vent some rage a bit. I mean, I know he's expressed interest in modeling again, and I've told him to go for it if he wants to and what not, but I think he's wrapped up with work its hard for him to. It was probably just an old video, I guess it shouldn't matter, but it still tore at me a bit. I suppose thats what happens when ya see your first 'love' normally, but to see him get it on with another guy just makes it worse. Kinda brought it upon myself by clicking on it. But it is what it is..
Anyways, this post probably doesn't make sense to a particular extent. I just needed to vent. And now I have, my stomach is less tense. Hopefully just take a lesson learned, and teach you to watch out if you aren't too careful.
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