Well this sucks..

[qget12]

So a while ago I made this thread:
http://www.justusboys.com/forum/showthread.php?t=257029
regarding someone in my lectures who I dug, big time. Needless to say, I didn't ever get talking to him because of various reasons. Flash forward to the summer and I was looking forward to forgetting about it, learning a few lessons and moving on. It got to the point where it basically didn't trouble me and I was eager to get back to college.

Now that I've been back for a month, let me say, I SEE THE GUY EVERYWHERE! He's no longer in my class but I see him even more now than when he was. Going to class, coming from it, calling round to the store, he's everywhere. I even think he lives near me (like the next street over). You could say it's fate, if you believe in that sort of thing. I, however, just see it as torture. And I feel like I'm back to square one. It's pretty much on my mind 24/7.

As I stated in the original thread, I'm 100% sure he likes me too. He often looks away really quickly when he sees me, or turns to his friends quickly. One time, he saw me coming and walked around to the other side of his friends so we wouldn't have to cross paths. The odd time, we'll both kind of just stare at each other and hold eye contact, but that rarely happens (sometimes he acts real nervous, or I do). All this leads me to believe he's extremely shy as I've read that this sort of behaviour is typical of a shy person when they like someone. I'm sorry if this is coming across as very juvenile but unfortunately I don't go to college in a very LGBT friendly place, so things like this are all I have to go on. I don't think he's out (nor am I), has any intention of being so (nor do I), and is probably as freaked out as I am that we're both attracted to each other.

Finally, to surmise, I am fucking terrified of even smiling at the guy. I feel very inadequate, self concious and I think if I were to talk to him, I would probably puke. It's pathetic

I know there are going to be comments saying how futile it is, but it's gotten to the point where I feel like I need to do something. What that is, I dunno. I feel like I know the pitfalls because I've read things like this before, where they turn into one of those long, sad threads that go on forever with no results, but for some reason the thought of taking any action just makes me shit myself. Bleh, I need to man up.

 

[josher]

Try saying "Hell-o!" Then say, "Weren't we in class together last year?" Then see where the conversation leads.

 

[spunk-junky]

For heaven's sake! Stop all the agonizing and over-analyzing and just say hello to the guy. Seriously, life is way too short to continue on like this.

 

[Seasoned]

A part of you is crying and begging to come out, to experience life the way you were meant to. All of this energy is represented he how you feel and act when you see this guy or think about him. It is natural for humans to want to be authentic, so I'd say all of this is more about you than him. A piece of you wants to connect with what a part of you perceives as a safe, like-minded person. Take the baby step and say hello next time. Give yourself permission to be who you are.

 

[journeyblogs]

Man that sucks! I totally know how you feel, I'm in the same position...

 

[KaraBulut]

Stop all of this complicating things. It's been weeks (or perhaps months).

Just go introduce yourself and talk to him already.

 

[G-Lexington]

In my time giving advice, I've come to the conclusion that some people simply need to hear the advice they already know from somebody else. Then they can say "Well, Dr Laura said I should do this" or "The cartoon gargoyle on the gay porn site said I should" as justification for what they already know they should do, anyway.

>>>Bleh, I need to man up.

Bleh, you need to man up.

You're welcome.

Lex