Mirage
The JUB Illusion
It has been a while ago since I wrote my last blog. A lot has happened in my life and I needed time to give it a place.
In my last blog I wrote about a difficult relationship. After a view dates with the guy in question, he didn't want to continue our relationship together. He saw to many problems on the way and doesn't want to blame himself for my ruined life in the future because of the age difference of 38 years. Something that I was aware of since we've met.
The way how he reacted the last time we saw each other before he told me this, I already could feel something was wrong. He became more distant in his actions, but in his eyes I could see he was still in love with me. When he told me that it was better for both of us not to continue our relationship, I started crying and tried everything to let him rethink his decision. He promised me he would think about it again with all the things I told him how we can get through these rough times together.
A view weeks later we planned an other date. We chat a bit and we fell into bed together again. It was like nothing happened and so I thought he was over his doubts and changed his decision. But this was too good to be true. He started talking again about his decision and that he still kept it that way. In his eyes it was the best thing to do for both of us and our lives in the future. We both cried for a long time and I left his house with a sore heart.
Because we have each other's phone numbers and emails, we still held contact. Somehow I hated and loved it at the same time. It's not that we split up because of a fight and I still loved him. And I still do at this time, but then in a way of caring instead of loving as a partner.
I couldn't get him out of my head and started dating again. What really surprised me was that I could fall in love that fast again. It was only 2 months later when I saw the new love of my life. Because of happening this fast, I got doubts if this was all true. But my feelings were real and I couldn't fight it.
A week later when I met my new love for the second time, we decided to start a relationship together. He's a lot younger than my former boyfriend, but still a lot older than me. So we really have think about everything before showing the whole world that we're becoming a great couple.
I'm looking forward to tell my parents, friends and other family about him within a view months. It will be a tough journey for him and me and I hope we'll get through this together.
In my last blog I wrote about a difficult relationship. After a view dates with the guy in question, he didn't want to continue our relationship together. He saw to many problems on the way and doesn't want to blame himself for my ruined life in the future because of the age difference of 38 years. Something that I was aware of since we've met.
The way how he reacted the last time we saw each other before he told me this, I already could feel something was wrong. He became more distant in his actions, but in his eyes I could see he was still in love with me. When he told me that it was better for both of us not to continue our relationship, I started crying and tried everything to let him rethink his decision. He promised me he would think about it again with all the things I told him how we can get through these rough times together.
A view weeks later we planned an other date. We chat a bit and we fell into bed together again. It was like nothing happened and so I thought he was over his doubts and changed his decision. But this was too good to be true. He started talking again about his decision and that he still kept it that way. In his eyes it was the best thing to do for both of us and our lives in the future. We both cried for a long time and I left his house with a sore heart.
Because we have each other's phone numbers and emails, we still held contact. Somehow I hated and loved it at the same time. It's not that we split up because of a fight and I still loved him. And I still do at this time, but then in a way of caring instead of loving as a partner.
I couldn't get him out of my head and started dating again. What really surprised me was that I could fall in love that fast again. It was only 2 months later when I saw the new love of my life. Because of happening this fast, I got doubts if this was all true. But my feelings were real and I couldn't fight it.
A week later when I met my new love for the second time, we decided to start a relationship together. He's a lot younger than my former boyfriend, but still a lot older than me. So we really have think about everything before showing the whole world that we're becoming a great couple.
I'm looking forward to tell my parents, friends and other family about him within a view months. It will be a tough journey for him and me and I hope we'll get through this together.