WOW, GUYS -
I want to thank you ALL for making this into such a beautiful, and fascinating, thread! I am really loving hearing about all your formative erotic experiences. As far as I am concerned, coming to know that you find men beautiful - and really loving that experience - is a pretty amazing, life-altering, realization.
And ('cause I am sorta sappy!) I want to give ALL you guys a GREAT BIG HUG - and extend the wish and the hope that, now and ALWAYS, there is someone really nice, and sweet, and good, and BEAUTUIFUL - in YOUR life, to equal or even SURPASS those first beautiful dreams, you ever had!!!
I am sorry (and most apologetic) that this response won't do justice to all the sweet and gorgeous and GLORIOUS memories you guys have shared. I appreciate ALL of them. But I will try to respond (however inadequately) to a couple of things you've mentioned.
"HeresJohnny" - Cristiano isn't a gay pornstar, but I sure wish he WERE! He is my best friend's ULTIMATELY favorite guy - and he's just GORGEOUS: whatever he does!
"Pai Mei" - Wow, thank you for these AMAZING photos. I have seen a couple of shots of Simon Nessman before, and WOW, is he beautiful! But the BIG discovery, for me, was your sharing a photo of Guillaume Varki. I never saw him before, but he is WILDLY handsome! (Off the charts!)
"Brandhay" - Like you, I always thought Marcus Schenkenberg was incredibly hot. Back in the day, my Scandinavian model of choice was Beiron Andersson - I still have his calendar lurking about, somewhere, and I actually had his POSTER tacked up on my wall. (After this post, I'll try and share a few pics ;-)
"Ninja108" - I got totally drawn in by Lukas Ridgeston, in the first
Bel Ami tidal wave that hit North America, thanks to (the late and MUCH-lamented) "
Freshmen" magazine. Oh gosh, that perfect form - those LUPINE EYES - that GIANT uncut piece, he was packing. . . all just SHEER MAGIC, that got me going on
Bel Ami for the next DECADE. (I loved everything Johan was in - and ION was my absolute fave!)
"fbhwes" - I am not familiar with Todd Parker - maybe you can educate me? I'm eager to hear more about him!!!
"Yortoxx" - say no more about Marky Mark! Not only did I jerk off multiple times over his CK ads: I actually broke down and
bought his book - which led to more "effusions", and not of the literary kind, either!!! LOL!
"PhunkSpunk" - my buddy - I am totally with you in ALL you say. Except that I was not so much into Russian gymnasts, but Russian figure-skaters. (I had a huge thing for Alexei Urmanov - "sexy Alexei", as the girls from St-P's used to call him.) I have ALWAYS loved Russian guys, since so many of my neighbours on the farm were Russian-, Polish-, or Hungarian-Canadian guys: it was sort of like growing up in a
Bel Ami movie! LOL! And as for
Mikal JANOS - I actually took the trouble to
mail in a vote for him, as "
Freshmen of the Year" - and then he WON! One of the cutest guys ever, our Mikal - and, though he got kind of big and muscly, kept his beauty, perfectly ;-))) (I also got a copy of Bruce Weber's
Bear Pond - have you seen it? It is absolutely breathtaking.)
"Meluvjan" - thanks for your beautiful and profound recollection of what was a simpler time. I agree, Chris sort of perfectly represented that, and would that so many complications hadn't ensued, to sully the lovely dreams we were wrapped up in, then. Now, I guess we are all coping, and to all younger guys who are reading, and to EVERYONE, really, I'd just say: please take care of yourself, and be SAFE. Love is more complicated than it used to be, but it IS possible. (XOXOXOXO)
"Castoono" - that was a lovely, and sometimes heartbreaking memoir. It was just so touching, and beautifully written. I have two further questions, though - #1: Do you like Gael Garcia Bernal? Because I think he is just WILDLY beautiful. And, #2: who is that lovely footballer in your avatar? He's quite hot, also! (To my taste,
Fernando Torres is the f***ing
BOMB!!!
"OpenlyClosed" -
of course you can play, even if you are not gay. Perhaps you are straight, with the occasional attraction for a guy: or perhaps you are bi, and identify primarily as straight, with an emotional attachment to girls. Doesn't matter at all, OC. I can tell - just from the way you write! - that you are a super-nice and sensitive person, so please feel welcome, and feel welcome to share. I am sure we are ALL glad to know you, and be your friend. I ALSO got a copy of "Joe's Big Adventure", and wow, Joe was/IS one of the hottest guys on planet earth. I've read that he is happily partnered, and that's why he makes so few videos: but every one he HAS made, has been a keeper! Anyway, OC - you take care of yourself! I am sure that being in that "in-between" kind of space must be pretty difficult. But I am sure you'll find lots of nice friends here on JUB, who will help and encourage you - not to do anything you don't want to do, but just to be yourself and be OK. (XOXOXOXO)
"Ophelia Hardin" - WOW, did that still from Franco Zeffirelli's "R&J" ever bring back memories! I saw it when I was in high school, and our English teacher - who was a notorious (straight) pervert: rewound the film and played that naked scene OVER and OVER again! (Because he was in LURRVVE with Olivia Hussey!) I got full value out of it, though, 'cause I thought Leonard Whiting (Romeo!) was AMAZING: so I had no complaints ;-))))
"Luckyass 69" - Any fave pics of Antonio??? I have never actually seen him in much, though I've seen a couple of pics, and know he is pretty handsome!
"Careandrespect" - Thanks for the photo of Francois Papillon! He is pretty big and butch for my tastes, but undoubtedly handsome! Plus he has super facial architecture: and that weapon he's packing looks -
deadly!!!
"ShayPitt" - ALL the girls in my junior high class were SO into Shaun Cassidy - and pretty cute he WAS, too! (I was more into David, though, because I am "all brunets, all the time" - LOL. As you know, I am quite devoted to CF's own Mr.
TRAVIS) But Matt Dillon: you betcha! Wow, was he cute back in the day! (Loved his accent, too, which to a Canuck sounded wild, exotic, sexy, and ROUGH!) And it seems to me Matt has mostly KEPT his great looks, down through the years!!! (Yay, Matt!!!)
"Careandrespect" (encore! encore!) LOL! - I have always found Judge Reinhold really quite cute, as well! Just in a boy-next-door, sort of way. Now I have to go back and re-wind FTARH - to get a better LOOK at that! But I would sure jerk off with Judge, if I had the chance ;-)))
"GreenEyed Gemini" - for sure, Travis Fimmel - an absolute CLASSIC. Thanks for the lovely pics, BTW: I think you've totally made your own case for Travis F. as a guy who could EASILY turn someone - errr - to OUR side ;-)))
Guys, THANK YOU VERY MUCH for the sweet privilege of YOUR THOUGHTS and special experiences. I never thought that this thread would receive such a generous response, but I really appreciate it. Because I think, as gay men (or bisexual, or just "curious" men) it is wonderful to look back on those early experiences that somehow
chimed in our hearts and minds - and that, even to this day, mean something special to us.
Porn is porn, and men are men, but - one thing rises above all that. And that is, we ALL have hearts and minds and FEELINGS, that yearn to be fed. And these earliest impressions you have shared, are just the kind of impressions (I think) that show us all as the people we really are. Just (mostly, for the most part!) as a bunch of really NICE GUYS, who just want to experience passion and desire, and love, and GIVE it ALL BACK, to someone JUST AS NICE as we are.
I wish for ALL of you - who have written in, or simply read the thread - all the best in your life and romances. To those who celebrated Passover, I hope it was a blessed one: to those (like me) who will celebrate Easter, I wish you a blessed one, also. And to everyone, I hope you have a very happy weekend.
Take care,
"TF" XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO