Thanks everyone for yohr help. Eastofeden, Bankside, Peeonme and Jdcnow, your words to me are overwhelming. Yes, exactly right, i feel like i have been a victim most of my life, but didn't know any better. I've felt that my growth has been arrested. It's like my exposure to the outside world has been very limited for a reason, and just now am I able to put the pieces together. Everything is starting to fit. Thank you. 

