Notseingme
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So I rent from a pastorlady and on Sundays after church she gives out food. And
Quick Divert – (For the past year I developed a bromance of sorts but he moved away and I recently went to visit him but when I came back I realized I needed someone else I can have that bromance with so when I got back to my trip I said I would be extra friendly towards guys )
Continued….
So one day I decide to talk to this guy (J) I see almost every week or every other week and he got his food and I started asking him certain small talk questions he tells me hes been staying at the shelters and friends places because the job he has doesn’t pay enough to save for a place. And I was kinda shocked because all this time I thought he was going back to his own place. And I said let me help carry some of your food to the bus stop. He tells me he was going to walk cause he doesn’t have enough for the bus. So I said hold up and I had some coins in my bag and I gave it to him for bus fare and he hugged me and said Oh my god thank you so much and From then on. So for the next couple of weeks I would hug him and give him what I had which would usually be about 3-5 bucks. And when I got paid I would give him 10 and so one day I was able to borrow the pastors van and take him home with his food and I told him I want to help you so I want to give you at least $10 dollars every week I see you. And he nodded like he didn’t believe me lol but I helped him with his food in his friend’s house and hugged me and we said goodbye. Then for three weeks I didn’t see him at church. And about a week ago there was this guy who got fatally beaten near the shelter and the description matched J’s and it had me worried and Sundays paper released the name and I was relieved and later that day J came to church I said Hi and I hugged him..and he told me that his bag was stolen and he had to go get all of his stuff again ID and social Security info And I hugged him again and told him I’m just glad hes ok. I asked him to come inside and sit until church starts so we can catch up a bit.(church is in a house) I sat next to him and he started telling me of his plans for moving and finding work and wanting to move to Washington when he gets some money for better work opportunities. I told him make sure he keeps in touch because Im gonna be worried about him if he doesn’t. I asked what his phone number and he pulled out a pen and wrote it on my arm. After he wrote his number he just started rubbing my hand and then he interlocked our fingers. This was completely innocent but I started getting hard and a few minutes later after holding hands. A lady that was also there got up for a smoke. And J started kissing me and I Started kissing him.. I was in shock but also felt like I need to be in the moment and while we were kissing he reached in my shorts and started jerking me off. Between the kissing and his hands I felt so stimulated lol He was jerking me hard & fast. And then he got on top of me and continued to kiss and jerk me off and after about two minutes we stopped and he said he’s going out for a smoke…and then he came back and sat next to me and we kissed again and then church services began to start…….after church we walked outside until the food was ready to be given out and We were walking arm in arm the whole time and we got back to the house he got his food and I hugged him again and he kissed me on the cheek and I gave him some money a few bucks like I always do and my mind is spinning on what happened.
I have so many questions
1) What happened why did he jump my bones? Lol
2) Did he really want to do it or does he think that’s what I wanted? (up until now he showed no signs of being gay or bi)
3) What should I do now?
Quick Divert – (For the past year I developed a bromance of sorts but he moved away and I recently went to visit him but when I came back I realized I needed someone else I can have that bromance with so when I got back to my trip I said I would be extra friendly towards guys )
Continued….
So one day I decide to talk to this guy (J) I see almost every week or every other week and he got his food and I started asking him certain small talk questions he tells me hes been staying at the shelters and friends places because the job he has doesn’t pay enough to save for a place. And I was kinda shocked because all this time I thought he was going back to his own place. And I said let me help carry some of your food to the bus stop. He tells me he was going to walk cause he doesn’t have enough for the bus. So I said hold up and I had some coins in my bag and I gave it to him for bus fare and he hugged me and said Oh my god thank you so much and From then on. So for the next couple of weeks I would hug him and give him what I had which would usually be about 3-5 bucks. And when I got paid I would give him 10 and so one day I was able to borrow the pastors van and take him home with his food and I told him I want to help you so I want to give you at least $10 dollars every week I see you. And he nodded like he didn’t believe me lol but I helped him with his food in his friend’s house and hugged me and we said goodbye. Then for three weeks I didn’t see him at church. And about a week ago there was this guy who got fatally beaten near the shelter and the description matched J’s and it had me worried and Sundays paper released the name and I was relieved and later that day J came to church I said Hi and I hugged him..and he told me that his bag was stolen and he had to go get all of his stuff again ID and social Security info And I hugged him again and told him I’m just glad hes ok. I asked him to come inside and sit until church starts so we can catch up a bit.(church is in a house) I sat next to him and he started telling me of his plans for moving and finding work and wanting to move to Washington when he gets some money for better work opportunities. I told him make sure he keeps in touch because Im gonna be worried about him if he doesn’t. I asked what his phone number and he pulled out a pen and wrote it on my arm. After he wrote his number he just started rubbing my hand and then he interlocked our fingers. This was completely innocent but I started getting hard and a few minutes later after holding hands. A lady that was also there got up for a smoke. And J started kissing me and I Started kissing him.. I was in shock but also felt like I need to be in the moment and while we were kissing he reached in my shorts and started jerking me off. Between the kissing and his hands I felt so stimulated lol He was jerking me hard & fast. And then he got on top of me and continued to kiss and jerk me off and after about two minutes we stopped and he said he’s going out for a smoke…and then he came back and sat next to me and we kissed again and then church services began to start…….after church we walked outside until the food was ready to be given out and We were walking arm in arm the whole time and we got back to the house he got his food and I hugged him again and he kissed me on the cheek and I gave him some money a few bucks like I always do and my mind is spinning on what happened.
I have so many questions
1) What happened why did he jump my bones? Lol
2) Did he really want to do it or does he think that’s what I wanted? (up until now he showed no signs of being gay or bi)
3) What should I do now?
If what you are saying is true,where do you want this "friendship" to go?