Who made you realize you were gay?

[star-warrior]

It was a jock with a crewcut, really handsome guy. His gf was not very nice to look at, looked she was eating sour lemons.

 

[justaguy]

For me it was complicated. As a pre-pube I always messed with girls, play doctor etc. At about 12 I had a dream, it was a girl coming into my room and stripping, before she got too far my mother woke me up.
Then at 13 I was in a an all boys school, sex was common, one day I found a strange attraction to my friends crotch, so I thought that what I did there was just from being around guys in an environment that made it easy and accessible.

To my dismay my fondness for males never left even after I was back home. At 16 I knew, but I was in deep denial. I tried my best to go straight for years, I know it's a weird story, but true.

I don't think it's so weird.

 

[Sinestro]

For me it's when I was around 11, I had found some porn (and this was back with vcr's) and found myself fast forwarding when it was focused on the girl or her breast and played it when the guy was attractive. I even remember after putting it back that as I went to my room I paused and had that conclusive moment and went "huh I'm gay" to myself.

 

[Cobyforrester]

If you are referring to my post, yes I did write erotica. I used to write Backstreet slash stories. If you are not referring to me, then accept my apology.

I am referring to you indeed. I meant to quote it! Thanks for the response and confirming my hunch.

 

[nycguydowntown]

I was in love with one of my big sisters first boy friends---when they were both maybe 16.

 

[oakpope]

My teacher.
I was in 5th grade, had only female teachers until then. The first time I saw him in the school yard, I was thunderstruck. He was godlike to me. I knew somewhat I was different, but my feelings for him cemented the realization that it was boys for me and not girls.

 

[USEDCAR]

During the summer of 6th grade. The teacher let us go outside for study hall and we played kick ball when we came back into the class this guy took his shirt off had a wife beater on and had a nice body. I was hooked the following school year was crazy and depressing learning about being gay.

 

[jayboy]

Don't think it was one guy in particular.
I just remember watching TV and found myself looking more at men rather than women. Also, I started looking more at the boys in my school year, especially when we did our sports lessons.
The most awkward was when we all done swimming lessons, especially when getting changed!
That was a major problem as I tried looking without them seeing!!

 

[SexyLion514]

The simple answer is that I started wanking to guys. Not like gay porn or crushes, they came later. It started with homo-eroticism, somewhat subtle stuff so it took a bit to make the connection. I had always been oddly interested in this stuff, but when I discovered masturbation I started wanking to it. And then I thought; "wait, I'm wanking to guys!" And that's all it took. It wasn't hard for me to accept. Despite the fact kids at my primary school used "gay" as an insult and bullied me with it. Lol, they never knew how right they were. Sometimes I think I should go to a reunion of my graduating class and bring my boyfriend, presuming I find one, and just be like; "hey, guess what?"

 

[SexyLion514]

I was in love with one of my big sisters first boy friends---when they were both maybe 16.

LOVE love? Or just a crush? I sure hope not love. All my crushed so far have been on straight guys, so I know how it feels to want the unobtainable. That would be torture if it was that strong.

 

[kingpin50]

My swim instructor when I was seven years old. Seeing him naked in the locker room every week, I fully realized I was attracted to men!

 

[guyfromNY]

Hmmmm... Several times really.. First, getting huge crushes on my 18 year old summer camp counselors. At that age though, I didn't quite realize what it meant. Then, watching Father of the Bride when I was 10 and being totally in love with the groom that the daughter was marrying. Then Mulder on The X Files.. Then George Clooney on Sisters...

 

[geloge]

I don't really remember. When I was a teenager I remember watching Blur's videoclip "Country House" with a hard on and willing to get with Damon Albarn in the tube but several years before I would jerk off to any half naked man in the tv or magazines. At that time I didn't know what gay or "maricón" (sissy, faggot) meant, I confused it with cross dressing.

 

[MJEH89]

...I paused and had that conclusive moment and went "huh I'm gay" to myself.

Oh sweetie, we knew loooooooong before that!!!!!!

Signed,

The Rest of the World

 

[Sinestro]

Oh sweetie, we knew loooooooong before that!!!!!!

Signed,

The Rest of the World

Considering I also pretended to the Pink and/or Yellow rangers before puberty, yeah I'm sure everyone did. But the thread did say "when you realized..." and that is when I did.

 

[ShadowCat]

I've always known for the most part I was attracted to guys I would watch Saved by the Bell and see Kelly and think she's hot, but Mario Lopez would come on and I just felt different during his scenes. It was also underwear ads in Sears and Jc Penny Catalogues, then once at Walgreens I discovered Mens Workout. It was unlike anything I had ever seen, hard shirtless sometimes hairless sometimes hairy bodies I just knew that was for me. I can't tell you how many Adam Male ads (bong thong, spank me brief, posing pouches, smooth operator silk thong) I ripped out of the magazines. At first I would just look at them then I discovered masturbation. It was around this time I swiped my first playgirl HOLY FUCKING SHIT! I still remember the first gay rag I bought the december 2006 issue of Men Magazine. from there graduated to dvds and the rest is history.

 

[ShadowCat]

Considering I also pretended to the Pink and/or Yellow rangers before puberty, yeah I'm sure everyone did. But the thread did say "when you realized..." and that is when I did.

Hey Kimberly had that kick ass bow and the only flying zord.

 

[ravenstar]

I never realised. I always knew I was attracted to men. When cousin's and family friends were talking about this model or that pair of boobs, I was checking out the bulges of the man in the photo with them.

 

[CharlieMars]

It was seeing the cute guys in the shower in middle school. There was a guy in my class called Ashley who was hot. I remember trying to look at him without anyone seeing. He had a gorgeous uncut cock that I would jerk off to when I got home. I also remember seeing my sister's 18-year-old ex-boyfriend naked in the shower at the local swimming baths when I was about 13. He looked like a cross between Zac Efron and a young Matt LeBlanc. I remember standing there watching the water run down his smooth chest and stomach and over his floppy uncut cock and low hangers. I hadn't started puberty at that point, so I was mesmerised by his thick, black pubic hair. I also found my dad's porn tape when I was about 12. It was American 1970s/1980s porn that featured lots of men with moustaches and hairy chests. I loved watching the cut dicks.

 

[roadtripboy]

Sorry I couldn't find a picture. But John Eric Hexum. He was a model turned actor. He had two short TV series. He died when he shot himself with a prop gun on the set of Cover Up (I think it was called)

I always wondered it he was gay. His family donated his organs after his death. And later the family of one of the recipients tried to sue John's family saying the recipient got HIV from the donation.