Who was your first ever crush?

[cabinfever]

I forgot about my actual first crush until yesterday when I saw him in front of his shop which is very close to mine. He was born the same day and year and hour as me and we both had a crush on each other UNTIL the fateful day when he met his soon to be wife.

I was such an asshole and to this day I consider it the worst thing I have ever done but I was so pissed off when she started hanging around with us and going to the lake house our families had because she ruined everything and he asked me to his wedding and I completely ghosted him and didn't go to the wedding.

That was in 1979. We have lived and worked close to each other since then and I occasionally see him and pretend I didn't but my crush has long been over and I am glad he married her now.

I thought about apologizing a bunch of times but it would require me (in my mind) to be honest about all of it and I don't want to be that honest about it and would rather live with my shame

 

[Latimer]

^
This has the makings of a very interesting novel.

 

[_Smiley_Buddy_]

A married man, when his wife gave birth to his first baby he cut off all communication with me, it still hurts miss him though .

 

[LoveMyPeppermill]

Remember (or if you're younger, know about) Leonard Bernstein's Young People's Concerts on the TV?

Lenny never particularly turned my crank, but when I was in grade school I saw one on TV that had, in Lenny's place, the young, charming, and very fetching Michael Tilson Thomas.

Be still, my heart ...

I was both happy and relieved when I learned, years later, that he really was/is gay.

 

[gaysian85]

First ever was when I was four with this kid named Chris on the show You Can’t Do That on Television. First crush in person was when I was eight on a day camp counselor for the YMCA named Jason and I absolutely loved staring at him especially when he took his daily morning shower in the locker room. I can’t remember what his face looked like but I do remember he looked like your average 90s college kid with a slight muscular yet slim build. He also had a nice thick bush of brown pubes and a nice looking cock. I just loved watching him lather himself up and how the water and soap glistened as it ran down his body. Every time he was assigned to my group for the week, I got excited. I remember that I tried to stay as close as I could and would sit or stand there and keep staring at him. I think a few times I just randomly hugged him because I wanted to feel him which I don’t recall him getting upset over probably because I was a kid and some kids just like randomly hugging people. I never took it too far and grabbed his crotch. I was very curious as to why he had hair down there but too afraid to ask. I might have clung on to his leg at some point as I was really small for my age and weighed like 45 pounds when I was eight and remained small until I hit puberty. Anyway, a female counselor named Mindy also worked as a camp counselor and Jason began dating her and two years later they got married. Jason was no longer a counselor my final year of attending that summer camp and it greatly disappointed me. The way I found out he was getting married was I was at the mall one day when I was 12 and I ran into another counselor named Mike. He said to me, “You remember Jason and Mindy? They’re getting married next week. I was just here getting them a gift.” I actually felt a bit jealous because I wanted Jason all to myself but I now know that even if Jason was gay, it wouldn’t have worked out because of the huge age gap and also because I was still a child. I remember thinking a couple of the other male counselors weren’t bad looking and one of them I remember having really nice looking bond hair and blue eyes but none of them occupied a huge space in my head as Jason did. Even when I was at home during the week, I couldn’t wait to see Jason the very next day. The last I heard about Jason and Mindy was from a psych nurse for the psychiatrist I was seeing at the time who told me that they were still together and had some kids which disappointed me that Jason wasn’t gay and didn’t get a divorce after a self discovery journey and was suddenly single. I just wonder if he’s still as hot as I remember and I want to suck his cock now.

 

[EddMarkStarr]

Johnny Weissmuller as Tarzan.