Mirage
The JUB Illusion
A few weeks ago I've met a guy who's a lot older than me. He's old enough to be my father with ease. To be honest; he's only 4 years younger than my own father. Something my father is not going to accept easely. Because when I came out to my parents, he didn't liked the idea that I'm into guys too.
Since the day we've met I felted strong attachment towards him. He's understanding and funny, but wasn't searching for a relationship. His former relationship was a few years ago with a guy the same age as me. It didn't stand because of the big age gab. He told me that it's a factor that holds him a bit back to start a new relationship with a guy as young like me.
I've told to myself that I'm not going to date guy's who are older than 10 years above my own age. By doing this I'm certain that the age gab isn't too big to cause problems as fast than a difference that you could be family related. Like a father and son. Too bad for me love is blind and I'm now dating a guy who can be my father.
The time I've been with him was always pleasant thing. Even when things came up who were less happy. We now know that we can talk about everything without problems, because I'm standing more mature in life than others of the same age. Together with music, movies and traveling is this the only thing that we have as a connection. All other things we are different as far as we've talked about them. Until now we've not seen one thing that we've not liked about each other.
Since he's away for almost 3 weeks I feel depressed and have lost my appetite. I still eat, but it's not what it was before. My mind was blurred before he left and now I can think straight again. Still I don't know what to do with this whole situation. He comes back in a few days and we're going to talk about our future together and see what's the best for us both. Until that day comes, I'm still dealing with these strange feelings called love.
Since the day we've met I felted strong attachment towards him. He's understanding and funny, but wasn't searching for a relationship. His former relationship was a few years ago with a guy the same age as me. It didn't stand because of the big age gab. He told me that it's a factor that holds him a bit back to start a new relationship with a guy as young like me.
I've told to myself that I'm not going to date guy's who are older than 10 years above my own age. By doing this I'm certain that the age gab isn't too big to cause problems as fast than a difference that you could be family related. Like a father and son. Too bad for me love is blind and I'm now dating a guy who can be my father.
The time I've been with him was always pleasant thing. Even when things came up who were less happy. We now know that we can talk about everything without problems, because I'm standing more mature in life than others of the same age. Together with music, movies and traveling is this the only thing that we have as a connection. All other things we are different as far as we've talked about them. Until now we've not seen one thing that we've not liked about each other.
Since he's away for almost 3 weeks I feel depressed and have lost my appetite. I still eat, but it's not what it was before. My mind was blurred before he left and now I can think straight again. Still I don't know what to do with this whole situation. He comes back in a few days and we're going to talk about our future together and see what's the best for us both. Until that day comes, I'm still dealing with these strange feelings called love.