So two weeks ago I went to the pumpkin patch with a friend I've known for a couple years and she brought some people I knew of but didn't know that well. This one couple that came I didn't really know but they were really nice and funny and we all had a great time. The guy, Kyle, was just really friendly and funny and we hit it off great. Later that night we were hanging around the kitchen talking and drinking and there were a couple of other gay guys there and we were talking (don't really remember what it was about) but I made a few inputs. Kyle just said "not getting into this!" haha so hey obviously 100% straight.
of course, as those things go I felt immediately attracted to him. because he is really great, and cute. he's got the whole skater thing going on.
he added me on myspace and usually if I get an add from a guy it's some guy from the area that thinks we should hook up or something, so that's what I immediately thought when i saw his pic. I then realized it was him! And we've been commenting back and forth since then.
Well this weekend a few of us went to Kansas City for Worlds of Fun and I really knew I HAD to go. I just had this feeling that there was no way I could miss that. And I wasn't scared of awkward situations like I usually am. So there was just this sense that something great would happen. And it did!
Me and Kyle's friendship really began to bud the whole time. We just joked around and made fun of the girls and smoked together. At the hotel he started telling me about all the stuff that had happened to him when he was little, really fucked up stuff. But the thing was, it felt great to have him open up to me. He still didn't know I was gay so I was gonna tell him that night, but instead I just wanted to listen to him...and I did, so it never came up.
Saturday we drove back to our hometown and hung out again and watched horror movies and made caramal apples and stuff. and we were all eating them and me and him were just being weird and laughing at eachother and his girlfriend is like "you guys love eachother now or something?" and he says "yeah, I love this kid!" it was just great to hear. even if it's just a friend thing. I made eggs for everyone and brought him a plate and just kind of ignored the girls haha. He was eating them and again said "ohh Seth I love you!" haha they were making fun of me for that too. so I guess I was making myself pretty obvious eh?
later we were outside smoking and inebriated haha. and I was joking about how I got my cigs at the gay bar cos I was so excited that they had a cigarrete machine. and he stops me and asks, "Wait...why were you at the gay bar??" And with the alcohol in me I laugh and say "Well cos....cos...cos i'm GAY!" and he says "nuh-uh, no way!" then "THAT'S AWESOME!" which kinda struck me as odd. I told him that no one had ever really reacted like that. then he says:
"ya...cos I'm BI!"
i about fell over.
I know this post is getting really long so I'll try to keep it short. It was just awesome to open up to someone as well as have someone open up to me. And make a new friend. we both talked about how we were really lonely and how we were gonna hang out together more. and it was just great to make a new friend.
I doubt anything can ever happen. Even though the chances of him and his girlfriend breaking up do seem high right now, I can't imagine us being more than buddies. I like him sooooo much, but I really doubt he thinks of me that way. He's stuck on his girlfriend which I don't understand. It bums me out because she really doesn't seem to appreciate him. Everytime he's being goofy or dancing around, she just yells at him and tells him he's annoying and immature, and I just wanna tell her how lucky she is
and how I hate and don't understand how she can take his incredible personality for granted.
So I'll just try to keep my feelings intact and remember how lucky I am to have him as a new friend. But not much I can do right now eh?
of course, as those things go I felt immediately attracted to him. because he is really great, and cute. he's got the whole skater thing going on.
he added me on myspace and usually if I get an add from a guy it's some guy from the area that thinks we should hook up or something, so that's what I immediately thought when i saw his pic. I then realized it was him! And we've been commenting back and forth since then.
Well this weekend a few of us went to Kansas City for Worlds of Fun and I really knew I HAD to go. I just had this feeling that there was no way I could miss that. And I wasn't scared of awkward situations like I usually am. So there was just this sense that something great would happen. And it did!
Me and Kyle's friendship really began to bud the whole time. We just joked around and made fun of the girls and smoked together. At the hotel he started telling me about all the stuff that had happened to him when he was little, really fucked up stuff. But the thing was, it felt great to have him open up to me. He still didn't know I was gay so I was gonna tell him that night, but instead I just wanted to listen to him...and I did, so it never came up.
Saturday we drove back to our hometown and hung out again and watched horror movies and made caramal apples and stuff. and we were all eating them and me and him were just being weird and laughing at eachother and his girlfriend is like "you guys love eachother now or something?" and he says "yeah, I love this kid!" it was just great to hear. even if it's just a friend thing. I made eggs for everyone and brought him a plate and just kind of ignored the girls haha. He was eating them and again said "ohh Seth I love you!" haha they were making fun of me for that too. so I guess I was making myself pretty obvious eh?
later we were outside smoking and inebriated haha. and I was joking about how I got my cigs at the gay bar cos I was so excited that they had a cigarrete machine. and he stops me and asks, "Wait...why were you at the gay bar??" And with the alcohol in me I laugh and say "Well cos....cos...cos i'm GAY!" and he says "nuh-uh, no way!" then "THAT'S AWESOME!" which kinda struck me as odd. I told him that no one had ever really reacted like that. then he says:
"ya...cos I'm BI!"
i about fell over.
I know this post is getting really long so I'll try to keep it short. It was just awesome to open up to someone as well as have someone open up to me. And make a new friend. we both talked about how we were really lonely and how we were gonna hang out together more. and it was just great to make a new friend.
I doubt anything can ever happen. Even though the chances of him and his girlfriend breaking up do seem high right now, I can't imagine us being more than buddies. I like him sooooo much, but I really doubt he thinks of me that way. He's stuck on his girlfriend which I don't understand. It bums me out because she really doesn't seem to appreciate him. Everytime he's being goofy or dancing around, she just yells at him and tells him he's annoying and immature, and I just wanna tell her how lucky she is
and how I hate and don't understand how she can take his incredible personality for granted.So I'll just try to keep my feelings intact and remember how lucky I am to have him as a new friend. But not much I can do right now eh?
