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so here we are, the last week of 2009. how was your year?
myself its been one of ups and downs. my work life has been very stressful and many times i nearly walked away out of misery and frustration. but the knowledge that i had bills to pay and a stomach to feed kept me at it. my personal life has been interesting. i put myself out there more than i have in the past and i've learned a lot from the good stuff and the bad. i'm looking forward to closing the door on 2009 and i am hopeful that 2010 will be better.


I'm writing this in the joy and personal satisfaction that you have me on ignore and can't read one word of what I'm writing without taking me off of "ignore."
I realized today that 2009 was probably the best year that I've had in recent memory!
I realized that my life was in such a constant state of misery over the past five years that those who've only gotten to know me during those past five years could not have found much to celebrate their knowing me.
I respect that.
And it's because of the friends that I have lost this year, or never had in the first place, that have helped put that into perspective for me.
2009 has been a good year!
I kayaked down a river in Arkansas that I never knew existed when I could have been eating Tex-Mex in San Antonio.
I spent 10 Days in New England dealing with "JUB Drama," when the best moments during that trip where spent driving up to a beach-house in Maine, and watching the sun-rise over the eastern most part of the U.S. at 4:30 in the morning....alone.
Spending 10 days with my first "boyfriend" in Dallas for the first time in nearly 20 years.
I realized today that the Universe (or God) responds more positively in our lives when we show appreciation for the little things that we have in our lives, more so than those things that we bitch, and complain, and feel that define us within our day to day lives; and that until I begin to recognize that reality, I'm not entitled to anything within this life other than to "live and to breath."
2009 has been a GOOD YEAR!
I've learned the meaning of "separating the wheat from the chaff."
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you know the irony here is that when i cut you out of my life, which btw was the smartest thing i've ever done, i walked away and never thought once about you.
oh sure you'd pop up mostly when someone said something about your issues and then it was gone again. each time i did find myself feeling sorry for you though.
but lately you seem to come back from time to time and post in my threads and try to get a rise out of me. one must wonder, why?
maybe its because deep down you know you messed up? you're the reason why some people don't want to deal with you? maybe others have issues with your issues?
anyhow, i wish you a happy new year and i'm happy that you had a good 2009.
take care of yourself 'cause no one else will do it for you.
